I was a victim, but now I'm a survivor

how my ex assaulted me and continued to blame me

[confessionsofanassaultvictim]

Today marks 2 years

Today was the day it happened two years ago. This was the year I decided he no longer controls me. No longer does he occupy my fears or worry

[twloha]

(x)

[olearypoetry]

[yekkes]

Oh my g-d it breaks my fucking heart when women make like, excuses for men that have enacted sexual violence on them. Oh honey… he’s not a good man, he’s not. :(

[confessionsofanassaultvictim]

What the FUCK

I got a letter in the mail that said there was evidence that proved my fucking rape didn’t happen. It did. I remember it all too well. I get nightmares every night. I’ve been so depressed and my anxiety is kicking In so bad. Every day it takes so much work for me not to kill myself.

[deathofaromantic]

if you have ever suffered from…

• depression

• anxiety

• eating disorder

• self-harm

• ocd

• bipolar

• feelings of guilt and hopelessness

• suicidal thoughts

can you please reblog to show support for people who also suffer.

you are not alone.

[matchagirl]

guns have no purpose except to kill

[olearypoetry]

[confessionsofanassaultvictim]

I feel so lonely all the time. I feel incapable of love or being loved. Who wants to date trash anyways?

[deli-counter]

Constantly redownloading bumble and matching w good looking people but as soon as they ask to meet up I’m afraid I’ll get assaulted again or murdered and delete the app

I just want a DATE

[confessionsofanassaultvictim]

Every time I go on a dating app this shit happens

[949520-deactivated20150611]

Tell me I’m cute or something so I can like roll my eyes at you but then blush when I think about it later

[confessionsofanassaultvictim]

I talked to my attorney today

I saw my (big) case file when I met the attorney who is working on my case this morning. On the first page there was the words "Sexual Assault" stamped in red on the top of the page. It was so hard to repeat yet again what happened to me. She asked me why I didn't report until recently. I explained what my fears were. It was so hard. I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack now.

[victim-of-everything]

I hate my Rapist.

I hate the guy who raped me so fucking much. I hate him for what he did. I hate him for haunting my memory two years later. I hate him for causing so much fucked upness in my life. I hate him for ruining me. I hate him with every fiber in my being. God forgive me for the hatred I hold for the man who ignored my no’s and pleas to stop. How do you cope with the hatred. With the pure hate I have for him. What do I do with it?

[harmony-is-happiness]

[confessionsofanassaultvictim]

And then he left me all alone

[yekkes]

Oh my g-d it breaks my fucking heart when women make like, excuses for men that have enacted sexual violence on them. Oh honey… he’s not a good man, he’s not. :(

[terrence-herschel-gay]

“Victims’ Father Lunges at Larry Nassar in Court” by CHRISTINE HAUSER via NYT / Eethg. Corps. Inc. Sports http://nyti.ms/2DYrsH2 February 1, 2018 at 07:00PM The New York Times Sports