confessions of satyro

[confessionsofsatyro]

One of the effects that one of the initial relationships had on me was, because of her, now whenever someone cries during an argument, instead of sympathy, all I feel is anger. Maybe the anger is also fuelled by a feeling of guilt... But yes, Anger.

[confessionsofsatyro]

What is it like living with a toxic-abusive always angry good-for-nothing Son?

Ask my Parents.

What is it like living with a manipulative lazy bum?

Ask my Wife.

What is it like living with a loser?

Ask me.

[confessionsofsatyro]

Am I a man who keeps getting angry at everyone and twists the stories to look like I am the victim and others are villains, when in truth I'm the real problem?

I don't communicate clearly what I want and expect the other person to decipher my cryptic talks.

A part of reason why I can ASK for a favor clearly is, maybe, that, I hate to beg, when infact it is exactly what the transaction would be of the other party would understand what I mean.

Just read the other day, "heaviest burden is empty pockets". While we can all think of points to disagree, it surely is not easy carrying around, an empty pocket.

I wish I could control my temper at such moments, and tbh I really try to, but end up throwing tantrums like a 5 year old in the end.

Some day I shall put everything straight and mend all the harm I've cause. I surely won't be able to apologise, since for someone with my disposition, it that is absolutely gooey-cringy-cheesy thing to do, which btw I do need to analyse why, but... someday!

[confessionsofsatyro]

I'm a competitive man who faced so many failures that he learnt to act as if he doesn't care and started to belive it too.

[confessionsofsatyro]

You think you're competitive?

Here's someone who at college competition saw boys who were much better than him, so he stopped dancing. He wrote his own songs so that no one can sing them better than himself and became one of the best singers in college rock-band scene. Although he did participate in many competitions in various arts without any preparation, but those were just fun–he knew there was no chance of winning there. Maybe it was his way to calm down his competitive nature. He read and researched as much as he could about f*cking and pleasing women, so they could get addicted to him–this was his favourite discipline. He spent hours at gym to build a body that could satisfy their eyes and body alike. All this, and yet... the competitive man lost when it came to building his career.

I'm competitive and that has messed things up in ways that I'm somehow decoding now.

I want things to be perfect and I don't want to lose again, so I keep preparing but never begin the actual work. There is this deep fear and anxiety–what if ai lose again!? I can't afford to! So I keep making multiple plans and backups, but never acting on any of them.

I'm not someone who shies away from hardwork. My anxieties and fears are killing me, damnit. I start things and then something or the other goes wrong. I do improvise, but... it leaves a fear... No! It strengthens the fear that things WILL go wrong and so I keep working out scenarios and preparing for the worst, even without beginning the actual work.

God! I so screwed.

[confessionsofsatyro]

Candyman's daughter says playboy's sex parties felt 'normal' to her growing up

Lucciana Benyon spoke candidly about being daughter of "Candyman" millionaire Travers Beynon. She recalls going to his notorious parties whe

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Ada Limón, from “Calling Things What They Are”, The Hurting Kind

[confessionsofsatyro]

Porn poll: women are fans of rough sex

Women are twice as likely as men to express an interest in watching rough sex, according to a survey of the nation’s viewing of internet por

[confessionsofsatyro]

There's no depression that a good bj can't cure.

[confessionsofsatyro]

Bad Son

Bad brother

Bad husband

Bad person, in general.

I'm the villain in my own story.

[confessionsofsatyro]

So many died during this pandemic.

Not even the pandemic could take me away

I'm that poisonous.

[confessionsofsatyro]

Saw Aiden Aspen licking balls in a porn clip. Brought back memories of how I used to make 'her' lick my balls–while pounding her, I'd pull out and make her lick my sweaty balls in the most sloppy way possible. Talented woman. Bitch had to spoil a good casual no-strings attached thing by falling for me. *sigh*

[confessionsofsatyro]

I wanna lick this hoe

from head to toe

then throw her on my couch

and spit in her mouth,

bend her over

and like a corn-field plow her,

And when I'm done

I'll fill her with my cum.

[confessionsofsatyro]

"Here's to Love

Here's to honor

If you can't cum in her,

Cum on her."

Read it somewhere. Loved it, so sharing it here.

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[confessionsofsatyro]

Every time I'm reminded how I'm stuck in a swamp of failures, my 1st Ex's words echo in my head.

"If we break up, it'll be on you."

With that, she was pointing at my failures. It must've been a bit more than 3 years into our Long distance relationship, after a year of dating in person. There were arguments between us every few days. With my constant downhill college performance, one evening on call, she made it clear that she was losing hope.

Women, usually, when they say they are losing hope, it's pretty much done. The only thing that's in present-continuous tense is them packing their bags. Also, when they try to tell you that efforts matter, what they really mean is, they're giving you another chance to succeed; results matter.

If there's one lesson that's common throughout all my relationships, it is that you can't be in a relationship with a girl and allow yourself to care too much about her. If you allow yourself to be affected by her mood-swings & feelings and keep making changes to your own schedule to suit her's, you're going to end up adversely affecting your other commitments. And then, when you've successfully screwed almost every other sphere of life because you 'cared too much', you will end up losing her too. I'm not saying "may", I'm saying "will".

No matter what Women tell you, one quote that defines their character is–

"It's better to lose a lover than to love a loser."

Their tolerance may differ, but it all boils down to exactly this.

[confessionsofsatyro]

I read a lot of random stuff and I try to make sense of things, be it human behavior or words.

Why do I do all this, what do I gain out of it?

Maybe it's just because I am curious or, which in retrospect looks even deeper a reason, because it gives me an appearance of a knowledgeable man, compensating for all the foolish things I've done while growing up–facade to hide my collosal mistakes and their repercussions!