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Created: 11/30/25 Last Updated: 8/1/26 Requests & asks: open Warnings and disclaimers: Viewer discretion is advised, don't like don't read. I’ll always try my best to put warnings ahead of time but in case I miss something this is a general heads up!

Love and Deepspace

Character Introduction

Meet Lyra!

Rambles

Snowapplemc as lifelong friends Everyone's Sexuality Sylus Rant Do They Believe in Soulmates? Relationship Dynamic

Assorted Fics

What's your favorite Barbie movie? Walking to school Wedding Games Everyone Loves Zayne Loving Selfishly

Myths

Sunken Dreams

Baldur's Gate Three

Character Introduction

Meet Odette & Azalea

Rambles

Vicious Mockery

Assorted Fics

Camp Life "You, Orin, will be mine" Just Like Me I hate you Too Honest Conversations So many endings (Odette vers.) (Azalea vers.)

Bloodymary (RoleSwap Au)

Visual Progress Map

First Check In Second Check In

Rambles

Timeline Characters in au

Ryland Grace Simon Kaplan Colt Grace Seaver Jody Moreno Courtland Gentry Adrian Rocky Eva Ava

Q&A (Colt as the convict & what about Jody?) Ava's act of kindness

Assorted Fics

Panspermia Theory

I swear I write for more fandoms I just haven't gotten around to posting (´∇｀'')

#masterlist #fanfic #love and deepspace #baldurs gate 3 #bloodymary

Panspermia Theory

Chapter Two: Blip-D

Notes: Grace shows up next chapter I promise (”˚☐˚)/ Read on ao3 People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

#bloodymary #bloodymary roleswap au

Panspermia Theory

Chapter One: Rocky Watch Simon Sleep

Notes: Well... we made it! Chapter one is here! I don't really know what else to say other than enjoy! Read on ao3 People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

#bloodymary #bloodymary roleswap au

We fucking made it guys! It is the last day of our character rambles because tomorrow I will finally post the first two chapters of the fic and have a one shot about Colt and Ryland scheduled to be posted at a mysterious unknown time, it could be tomorrow it could be a week from now. You won't know until it happens! In all seriousness, I hope my fic lives up to expectations. It's a slow start I won't lie but it does get better (I hope!). And I have no idea how long this is gonna be, I'm a handful of chapters in with no ending in sight yet. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe not. I just hope we all enjoy the ride! But enough of my panicked spiral! You're here to learn about Ava Kaplan People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

Ava Kaplan who "knew" Simon before Eden, who had blurry memories of the woman and her son that lived in the apartment next door to her family, who had only one photo of them from when they were little and it was wearing matching Halloween costumes while they sat in their mothers laps the year before Simon and his mother disappeared, who never thought much about their sudden disappearance because she was only five years old and people disappeared all the time in that town, who did not know that Eden was the cause until much later in her life

Ava Kaplan who majored in marine biology and minored in oceanography and spent most of her adult life on a boat with other researchers, who actually enjoyed her life at sea and being around people who had the same passion, who smiled often and kept in touch with her family whenever she could, who knew her crewmates all by name because many of them had been students with her and others had been her professors or mentors over the years, who lived a good life fighting for the conservation of species and preservation of natural marine ecosystems

Ava Kaplan who was happy with her life when she was approached to head the Petrova Taskforce, who took the opportunity despite it being outside of her field of study because this affected all of them, who didn't take it personally when her staff and her boat were all repurposed for the project, who was fixated on solving this crisis effectively and quickly so she could get back to doing what she loved

Ava Kaplan who knew they needed a base that provided more than their small boat could offer if they were going to seriously work on this, who demanded aid from the American government and was granted funds and security, who fumed at the paltry gesture and decided to take matters into her own and searched for a disused compound, who found records of a compound that should have everything they need being built in 70s two towns over from where she grew up, who assumed it was abandoned when she sent people out to scout it only for three of her people to die

Captain Ava Kaplan who demanded more manpower and would not take no for answer, who recruited local law enforcement in the raid on the Eden cult that had been festering for over forty years, who oversaw it herself because she had spent three days planning every aspect of this raid and refused to allow anyone the chance to fuck it up, who discovered she was good at bossing people around and that maybe all those people who disappeared when she was little were here, who was the who caught Simon trying to run back into the compound after they cleared it, who thought she must be going crazy or soft to have hesitated when she saw the blood soaked man practically feral as he tried to ram down a metal door with his body, who tazed him as soon as she came to her senses and guarded his body while he writhed on the ground, who tried her best not to think about how young he was or how long he had lived in Eden

Captain Ava Kaplan who was quick to receive funding and have her demands met after her successful take over, who went over the files of every member of Eden because some of these people were kids she used to play with before they were disappeared, who tried to be impartial and cold because it wasn't any of her business but couldn't help but cringe when she went over the files of people who were too young to have known better, who demanded to be placed in charge of the fates of the Children of Eden and spent the next three years deciding their fates, who tried her best to do good while she still could because she knew when this was over she was going to prison

Captain Kaplan who oversaw Project Hail Mary with an iron fist and had finally finished her convict realization program, who still monitored the Children of Eden to ensure she would not regret her choices (she had rarely been given reason to), who was hesitant to put Simon to work on the Hail Mary but knew his skills spoke for him given that the very compound they worked out of had been maintained by his hand, who made sure Simon always had a security detail following him, who tried her best not to think about him because as far as she was concerned he was one of many engineers she had and that was it

Captain Kaplan who made sure Simon was taught, who knew he was smart just uneducated and demanded he be given proper instruction while he worked on her ship, who didn't understand why he always sought her out like a helpless puppy, who took a while to realize she was the closest thing he has ever had to a friend

Captain Ava who indulged Simon with small gifts because it was so clear he has never been given anything, who put him in charge of things she knew he would enjoy like the plant room she demanded to be added to the ship design, who made him socialize with the other engineers and dragged him around with her so he could explore his former home without being stopped, who did her best to undo everything that he had learned from Eden in her own way

Captain Ava who actually enjoyed spending time with Simon, who took it as a mark of pride every time they had a real conversation because compared to the grunted words and curses he used to fling at her this was an improvement, who never censored her disdain for Eden and discovered he never bought their crap either, who didn't fight as much when it was Simon asking her to take a break because they had an understanding, who cried every night after she made the call to bomb a portion of the arctic, who supported Simon and was supported in return when he showed up at her quarters without a word and sat by her side while she mourned all that she had destroyed

Ava who didn't realize she had "known" Simon until her mother's funeral where she was handed a photo album, who was flipping through the pages when she found that old Halloween picture with "Ava and Simon's first Halloween together" written on the back, who connected the dots pretty quickly and didn't hesitate to hand the photo to Simon, who pretended not to notice him crying because it was the only picture he had of himself or his mother

Ava who included Simon in every photo she was in, who couldn't explain why she cared so much only that she did and she didn't like it when he cried, who refused to allow him to be belittled and tried to soften her sharp tongue when she spoke to him, who wanted to make sure Simon lived a good life when this was all over, who knew that she would be made into a scapegoat when the news broke about the project and every horrible thing she had done came to light, who was ready to suffer the consequences of her Hail Mary because this was bigger than her... but she refused to let Simon suffer too, who was trying her best to prepare him for life without her in it

Captain Ava Kaplan who lost three friends in the explosion that day, who knew it wasn't just Jack and Lynn but that their loss would mean she was going to lose Simon too, who hoped she wouldn't have to force him... but knew otherwise, who begged him to reconsider because she didn't want her forcing him to be the last memory he had of her, who pleaded that they do this differently and screamed at him for making this harder on them both when he threatened to sabotage the entire mission, who said that she believed in him when they drugged him

Ava Kaplan who had to make the last-minute adjustments to account for Simon, who lied to David and Elli when they asked if he had really agreed to do this, who personally packed Simon's bag, who made sure his bear was there alongside all his favorite clothes, who demanded they add more plant seeds to the Mary because she knew how much he loved plants and she never thought to ask him his favorite flower

Ava who knows she should have put is real last name because it wasn't hard to find with a little digging, who was selfish when she wrote her last name and packed the picture of them with their mothers right alongside the rest of his belongings

Ava who screamed and cried and raged when she was alone, who wished that there was any other way this could be done, who wished it could be her instead but between the two of them he was the one who knew the Mary inside out, who would never pray but spent every night of her prison sentence hoping that whatever happened he wouldn't suffer

Ava who didn't know peace until the day the Beetles came back and saw Simon's face swim into view on her monitor, who didn't bother concealing her tears from the rest of her crew when the footage began with him saying hello to her

#“Why is a marine biologist heading the Petrova Taskforce?” why was a history major???#seriously though why? was that ever explained?#regardless! I have an answer for Ava #because she already had resources that weren't allotted to the project yet because it was seen as a non issue by most global politicans #scientists as always refused to let lack of funding screw them over #so Ava who was in charge of a small boat of scientists and was pretty damn effective as securing them an entire compound is in charge #because she's good at her fucking job that's why #bloodymary #bloodymary roleswap #coltland twins #coltland gentry

It is day five of our character rambles and we have finally gotten to our beloved trolley operator Eva Stratt. Featuring her secret third thing with Grace, the fate of the remnants of humanity, and A LOT of blood People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

Eva Stratt who was pursuing a double major in Mars and Earth history when the Quiet Rapture happened, who adapted to her new circumstances quickly because there was simply no other option, who did more than make herself useful or contribute just enough to stay on a space station because she knew better than most what became of people in times of extreme crisis, who was levelheaded and rational as she climbed her way through the ranks of the C.O.I until she was placed in charge of her own spaceship

Subooridnate Stratt who refused to give up on humanity, who refused to let them die quietly like everything else in the cold dead universe, who would ensure than when their time it would only be after they had fought the way humans have always fought, who was called cold and severe but was perhaps the most hopeful of them all because she refused to accept any other outcome

Captain Stratt who was given full access to both Z-8 and AT-5, who hand picked her crew and offered them everything they could possibly want because from the very beginning she knew that not all of them were going to survive, who went to all of their celebrations and listened to their lives from before ethe Quiet Rapture to learn what they had loved and get it for them, who learned the names and faces of their loves ones so she knew who to send their belongings to if they died, who first learned about Doctor Grace when she was speaking to Jody Moreno about her bedridden lover

Captain Stratt who recruited Doctor Grace because he was one the best scientists left out there and the other two were already on her ship, who introduced Doctor Grace to the rest of her crew with an encouraging smile as she made him welcome, who did not tolerate any member of her crew speaking ill of her newest addition, who monitored his work closely initially because she wanted to ensure he could keep up with Dubois and Shapiro but eventually because he was simply good at explaining things to herself and the rest of the crew, who knew teachers were an invaluable resource because her scientists could do their science but they could not explain it to her or anyone without sounding like they were speaking another language

Stratt who was in the company of Grace most days, who brought him to every meeting she went to and had him review every report she was given, who only let loose around Grace because he did not see her as just the Captain of her crew but as a human being, who always found time for Grace if he wasn't already attached to her side, who knew everything about his past and told him everything about her one night when they are drunk after they temporarily lost contact with the SM-8, who joined in on the celebrations because Grace had asked and there wasn't a world in which she could deny his request

Eva who was only Eva for eight years, who had begun to build a life out of the wreckage and remnants of the universe not because she had grown complacent but because she loved her crew, who knew not just the names of their living loved ones but the names of their lost one and the names of their first pets and the places they had always wanted to visit, who knew their favorites food and what their coffee orders had been before everything went away into nothing, who knew their favorite songs and what movies they had loved and their favorite books and everything that she would have known about people she loved, who was so conflicted when they found life within AT-5... because she should be happy but knew it meant another voyage was needed and this time they would need Ryland

Eva who was grateful Ryland agreed to go because he had seen the SM-8 return from every voyage so far, who was so happy she didn't need to use her last resort and hid the tranquilizer in her desk before personally escorting Ryland to the SM-8, who oversaw every aspect of the SM-8's journey... who heard them scream as they fell off the map

Eva who wished they had just died because it would be less painful than when the radio connect with her ship, who sat alone in the control room sat by the radio for weeks and waited. It was never enough for the black box to connect... maybe it wasn't even real. But there were days when she could hear Ryland begging for her to come save him, hurling curses at her for sending him to die after promising he would be okay

Captain Stratt who ordered the rest of her crew to refocus their efforts onto the burner subs so they could begin another expedition, who was called cold and heartless, who began sending convicts down into the oceans of blood, who had gotten very good at salvaging SM models

Stratt who screamed when she saw Colt because for a moment she forgotten that there was another Grace out there and all she saw was the ghost of a man she sent to die, who was about to do it again

Stratt who was harsh with the convict that wore Ryland's face and voice, who outright refused to be involved in his mission and passed the burden onto her subordinates, who refused Jody's requests to let Colt and instead told her to guide him instead if she was so insistent he come back

Eva Stratt who heard Colt say he had found the SM-8... that he had found Ryland, who would do anything to get that information, who had gotten so good at salvaging these ships

Eva Stratt who had her crew weld her into the SM-14

Eight years wasn't enough time, but it was her seven minutes

#how close are Eva and Grace you may ask?#have you seen that video of the girls who share a drink by spitting into each others mouths?#without prompting she just opened her mouth and her friend spat in it from across the room #that’s them #they’re not platonic and they’re not romantic #but like if they could be sewn together and spend their lives as one unit neither of them would oppose it #bloodymary #bloodymary swap au #coltland twins #coltland gentry

We're so close to the fic being posted! Are you excited? I'm gonna throw up so excited to share it with all of you! But for now we'll all have to settle for day four of our character rambles. Today is everyone's favorite, Rocky! People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ who was always odd, from the very day he hatched from his clutch he had been an anomaly, smaller than his parents and the rest of his clutch mates, who took longer to learn their language than the rest of his clutch but was quick to pick xenonite manipulation and construction, who has always been good at creating and had always been too stubborn for his own good

𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ who always had something to say once he had a "suitable grasp" on language, who spoke with purpose and using all that he understood to properly convey his meaning, who was odd and strange but still well liked amongst colleagues because of his skills, who was confident in his capabilities and his grasp of his position, who wasn't often questioned when it came to engineering because he was the expert, who was stubborn and odd in everything he did but that mattered little when compared to his skills

𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ who fell in love with ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ immediately because they had questioned his design with evidence rather than baseless complaints, who was enamored during every argument and followed ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ around simply to see what else they thought of his work (though it often came off as arrogance and purposefully picking fights), who enjoyed teaching ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ everything he knew about engineering with extensive and wordy explanations

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ who immediately set to work creating his and ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ home the moment they agreed to be his mate after a year of courtship, who took the time to learn more about their work and the specimens they were keep so he could construct the ideal lab for them to work, who dedicated every aspect of their home to something they would enjoy, who didn't have a single conversation that didn't involve him say their name at least twice and showing off their carapace pieces melded into his carapace

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ who could tell something was worrying ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ and was the first to hear out their concerns, who brought ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ concerns to other Eridian scientist plural, who wasn't surprised when he was asked to not only construct the ship but to be on the crew, who agreed to go on the ship because he would help save Erid, who would make sure ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ wouldn't mourn their specimens because of things that were out of their control

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ who wasn't ready to leave, who lingered as long as he could and sang harmonies promising he would return as soon as eh could, who promised that he would not come home until he could save Erid

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ who never stopped working on the ship, who monitored the condition of the fuel tanks and doing maintenance so often that crew decided it was simply easier for him to sleep near fuel tanks, who didn't realize something was wrong with crew when they became slower and took longer to wake from sleep, who began to worry when crew eat less, who knew something was wrong when first member of crew didn't wake up

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪☣︎₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆☣︎ who made it to Tau Ceti system alone, who watched all crew go to sleep and never wake up, who was not a scientist and didn't know where to begin, who made a promise to not come back unless he could save Erid, who would die trying if it meant even the smallest chance Erid would be saved

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪☣︎₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆☣︎ who spent many years alone, long years, lonely years, no crew, no answers, no life...

𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪☣︎₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆☣︎ who saw the first glimpse of hope in many years in the form of a strange alien ship

Rocky Simon save stars

#Rocky is a freak and it’s very important to me that that’s just how he’s always been #being isolated and going crazy has only amplified what was already there #he’s an odd little freak (affectionate) who loves his very tall mate #bloodymary #bloodymary roleswap #coltland twins #coltland gentry

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Oh hey pals, new AO3 scam just hit!

Just like the tumblr scam where they pretend to be "the support team" this is also a scam.

I edited out the link because I GUARANTEE if you go to it you will get your computer hacked and your AO3 or discord account stolen.

I am so mad because I got this 30 seconds after posting a new fic.

DO NOT FALL FOR THESE SCAMS.

No legitimate website support will EVER contact you like this!

(Obviously, this comment has been reported.)

#be on the lookout my friends #shits annoying as fuck but we will persevere as always #scam warning

Bloodymary (RoleSwap Au) Timeline

Tripple checked my math one more time just to be sure because Court specifically has been fucking with me. I swear he's trying to kill me, everyone has been so well behaved when it comes to this but that sarcastic motherfucker won't let me rest and I'm convinced it's personal People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

Simon

1970

Eden is founded during the Vietnam war and slowly begins to build up its ranks with widows, disabled veterans, and other people left homeless or vulnerable due to the war

1990

Ava Kaplan was born on a unseasonably cold spring evening

1993

Simon was born on the hottest night of June to people no one would remember

1994

Simon's father dies

1995

Simon's mother joins the Eden cult after being evicted from her home

1997

Simon (4) is removed from his mother's custody and placed under the care of the Father with the other children of Eden

2005

Simon (12) gains the moniker Butcher due to his "violent" outbursts and is placed away from the other children, left in charge of the generators and repair work, he begins to teach himself engineering

2015

Irina Petrova discovers the Petrova Line

The Petrova Taskforce is formed

Ava (25) scouts areas somewhere for the project to begin being led when two of her people are killed by Eden members, she leads the raid on the Eden compound and claims it as the base for the project until they relocate

Simon (22) was arrested after being caught trying to go back into the Eden compound for reasons he refused to divulge

2017

Astrophage is discovered by ArcLight Probe

scientist begin doing their science and Project Hail Mary begins

Ava (27) goes through the files of all those raised in Eden, and begins to relocate them to places better suited for their care

2018

Simon (25) is removed from prison and put to work as an engineer on the Hail Mary at Ava's (28) request, he begins to get real instruction from professionals

2023

Jack (37) and the backup engineer are killed in a mishandling of engine fuel

Simon (30) is launched into space on the Hail Mary

Time Dilation Bullshit (aka where the fic starts)

"4 Years" Later (Earth Time: 2037)

Simon (34) wakes up alone on the Hail Mary

Elli (39) and David (42) are both dead

Rocky and Simon meet

Grace (38) and Simon meet here

Grace

2323

Courtland Gentry was born on a day no one would remember

2331

Tom Ryder was born June 13th

Colt and Ryland were born July 8th, their mother dies days later from an infection

2333

Jody Moreno was born February 23rd

2338

Their father tries to kill the twins (7), Colt (15) kills him first

Colt is arrested hours afterwards and the twins are given to their maternal grandmother

The twins meet their new next door neighbor, Jody Moreno (5)

2345

Jody (12) gets her first camera and begins to document every summer with her best friends, the trio try to make every summer more interesting than the last

2347

Ryland (16) graduates high school early and is given a scholarship to study microbiology on a space station orbiting Mars

Colt (16) and Jody (14) see Ryland off

2349

The twins grandmother dies

Ryland (18) doesn't come to the funeral, Colt (18) and Jody (16) don't visit him that summer

Colt leaves to pursue his dreams in L.A, six months after he'll enroll in stunt training

2351

Jody (18) enrolls in film school in L.A where she's later reunited with Colt (20) and meets Tom Ryder (20)

2352

Jody (19) asks Colt (21) and Tom (21) to act in her short film for class

Ryland (21) comes home for the summer and briefly dates Tom

2353

The Quiet Rapture

Court (30) was taken in by the newly formed C.O.I and trained as a spy

Colt (22) and Jody (20) who were visiting Ryland (22) on an space station orbiting Mars survive

Ryland (22) who was studying strange "space dots" halts research after Quiet Rapture happened

2354

Ryland (23) proposes his theory that not all life was lost in the Quiet Rapture and that something had moved them instead, connecting it to the "space dots" he had been studying, he is effectively excommunicated from academia and sent to live on Filament Station where he can be monitored but no longer cause trouble, he takes up teaching as the most qualified person to do so

2356

Claire was born on a spaceship that her parents stole from Eden in their attempt to escape the cult, they do not make it far

2358

Colt (27) is injured while repairing a ship for the C.O.I, after he is stable enough for transport they send him to Filament Station

Ryland (27) and Jody (25) take shifts constantly monitoring Colt, he cannot run away from them when he is bedridden in a universe where there is nowhere else to go

Court (35) is sent to infiltrate Eden and gather as much as he can from them, he asks after his brothers and is told only that they're alive, that if he wants to see them again he will need to earn his freedom

2360

Colt (29) gets back to work despite protestations from both Ryland (29) and Jody (27), he insists that he can work perfectly fine with the aid his cane and takes odd jobs around Filament Station

Jody is offered a job working with Eva's crew and helps to develop and enhance the cameras on the SM models, she splits her time between the Eva's space ship and Filament Station because Colt refuses to relocate and she will not abandon him no matter how much he frustrates her

Court (37) discovers what he believes to be the most important thing Eden is hiding. Not the last tree or one of the moons, not the seeds, but a little girl with a faulty heart

Claire (4) was the first child born in Eden since the Quiet Rapture and they treat her as such, her blood feeds the soil well

2361

Ryland (30) was scouted by Eva, offered a role on the crew of the SM-8, and accepts the job

Colt (30) protests and argues with Ryland every day until he leaves on Eva's spaceship, it is the last time they will ever speak to each other

Court (38) begins to care for Claire (5) with supplies he's been stealing from Eden and the C.O.I, nothing else matters but her survival

2368

Ryland (37) goes on his first and final voyage aboard the SM-8 (he will no longer be included in the timeline from here on out)

Colt (37) refuses to believe that Ryland is dead, he would know if Ryland had died, he breaks things off with Jody (35) and decides to search for answers to Ryland's disappearance since she won't tell him

Jody spends her time mapping the blood ocean with the information gathered from every voyage below and tried to find where the SM-8 fell off the map so she could attempt to retrieve Ryland's body

Tom Ryder (37) "coincidentally" reunites with Colt and offers him info on the blood oceans if he could provide information on the C.O.I in return

Court (45) prepares Claire (12) for their eventual escape from Eden, teaching her the layout of space station until she knows it inside and out

2369

Filament Station was destroyed by the brothers of Eden, resulting in sixty two deaths not counting those who were from Eden

Tom Ryder (38) is taken in as prisoner, who pins the blame on Colt (38) and cites the information they had been trading and Ryland's death as motive

Colt is apprehended by the C.O.I and refuses to speak until they tell him what really happened to his brother

Court (46) uses the uproar caused by Filament Station's destruction and the C.O.I cracking down on Eden to escape with Claire (13), the data he was sent for, and seeds

2370

Colt (39) is welded into the SM-13

Court (47) comes back to the C.O.I with Claire (14) and searches out anyone who can tell him about his little brothers, he is pointed to Jody (37) who has not spoken since the loss of the SM-13 and SM-14 days prior

#it takes probably four years to make a spaceship for this right???#actively screaming because of how young they are in Simon's universe #and I know it's because the tragedy of a universe being left in the hands of people who were children when it all vanished #but that doesn't translate over as well when the universe isn't doomed yet #I briefly considered also swapping their ages and then went “no”#can we all just hold hands in this Arbys and suspend our belief so that I can have a somewhat age accurate Simon and Grace smooch #can you tell this stressed me out way more than it should?#I haven’t put this much effort into writing fanfic since I was fourteen and it was for blatant self insert fic that will never see daylight #this will be tagged science fantasy not science fiction btw #do not come here for scientific accuracy I am lying through my teeth and cried while doing the math #bloodymary #bloodymary roleswap au #coltland twins #courtland gentry au

We've made it to day three! I debated for a while about who this one should be about but ultimately decided on Adrian. Mostly to give myself a break between the lore heavy humans if I'm being entirely honest. Not having to consult a timeline is a genuine blessing (╥ᆺ╥；) Speaking of the timeline, I'm gonna post in like an hour I just need translate it from my docs! People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ who was known for their beautiful voice and towering height, who received countless offerings of courtship and declined each one with barely a second thought, who prioritized their research over finding a mate, who was a dedicated ecologist first and had a very long list of things they would be before they were someone searching for a mate

ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ who first met 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ when 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ was contracted as the engineer for their new specimens lab, who supervised the project closely from start to finish because they would rather be ground to gravel than let a single nanoangstrom be off, who clashed often with 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ and out of sheer spite began working with him on the construction to ensure nothing was out of place, ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ who enjoyed spending time 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ more than they thought they would

ִ࿐𝄞𝄢℘♪‧₊˚♪ who was worried they would never see 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ again after construction of their specimens lab had concluded, who wasn't sure what notes to put to this feeling they were having, who didn't understand why everything ached in the days that followed without 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ constantly hovering around them, who understood immediately when 𝄞:♫⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ proposed a courtship

࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ who was one of the first to realize that something was wrong because the wildlife they'd been studying had begun to behave erratically, who saw that all those not within their home lab were already beginning to show signs that something was changing, who was brought onto the project with 𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ because all Eridian plural knew they made a good team, that they worked best when together

࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ who wasn't ready to say goodbye to 𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ but knew they couldn't prolong the inevitable, who was confident that 𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ would return to them safely and when (not if) he returned they could have a clutch of pebbles and spend the rest of their days focused on their family and their science, who stayed long after the ship had launched, who went back every day listening for the distant sounds of a ship come home

࿐𝄞𝄢℘♡ˎˊ˗♪‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪𓇢𓆸 who was no longer know as 𝄞:♫♡ˎˊ⋆｡♪₊˚♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ mate or proud ecologist not even as one of the many Eridian plural to work on the ship but instead as a widow, who refused every courtship without a second thought because there was only one who they would love, who watched the condition of their home worsen, who watched their specimens begin to die slowly and nearly broke down when the ones within their lab became sickly, who dedicated their life to preserving life on Erid and waiting for the return of their mate, no matter what other Eridian plural believed

Adrian‧₊ 𑣲⋆.ᐟ♪ who knew Rocky ₊ ♬ﾟ𑣲⋆ would come home to them

#Rocky and Adrian are Odysseus and Penelope I will not be hearing complaints #you can pry the parallels between them out of my cold dead hands #matter of fact I will be running away and eloping with the idea #olive tree equivalent is the home lab Rocky constructed directly into the foundation of their home #if you have suggestions for their olive tree I will be listening #bloodymary #bloodymary role swap au #coltland twins #coltland gentry

Welcome to day two of our character rambles, today’s character is Courtland Gentry! The surprise addition to our dysfunctional Grace-Seavers family! People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

Courtland Gentry who didn't remember his mama very well, who lost her so young and his father never left them a single fucking picture to remember her by, who only remembered that she asked him to take care of Ryland and Colt no matter what because that's what big brothers are for

Court Gentry who raised the twins, who taught them how to walk and talk and everything their father should have been teaching them, who was patient and compassionate and loving towards the boys that looked at him with big eyes full of so much love it made him fucking sick to remember they were here because mama died, who couldn't help but feel just a little bit of resentment deep down that maybe he would still have his mama if they weren't here, who hates himself for thinking that way

Court Gentry who loved his brothers so much that taking care of them came as natural to him as breathing by the time he was a teenager, who did his best to shield them from their father, who failed once and nearly lost them both, who couldn't see anything but his baby brother sobbing and shaking while the other laid on the ground barely breathing the both of them soaking wet, who didn't have time to think before he was beating their father to a bloody pulp, who knew where the gun was kept, who had been taught to hunt deer and finally turned his weapon on a monster

Court Gentry who was hauled off to prison on a distant space station for killing their father, who spent years demanding to know what happened to his little brothers and if they were okay but was told nothing, who could only hope they were okay... that maybe he succeeded in protecting them just like his mama asked

Six who was taken in by the C.O.I after the Quiet Rapture, who was trained and utilized because skills and manpower were fading every year it mattered little that he had killed his father when they needed people, who agreed to work with them simply because it was better than a rotting in a prison for the rest of his life, who was grateful for every piece of information he was given about Ryland and Colt because fuck they were alive they were fucking alive and he could still see them again if he succeeded in his mission

Six who infiltrated Eden on orders of the C.O.I, who gathered intel for years and quietly fed it to the C.O.I whenever contact was established, who followed every order perfectly until the day he found a little girl with a heart disorder, who watched as the first daughter of Eden was marched to the tree on her trembling legs and bit back cries as they cut into her palm to feed the soil, who decided that his mission came second to saving her

Six who bartered and stole from everyone and anyone if it meant he could make Claire's life just a little easier on her, who told her stories about what life had been like before the Quiet Rapture, who held her in his arms and saved his rations for her, who laughed and smiled for the first time in years because it was almost like having Ryland and Colt back, who couldn't help but remember all those times he'd sit with them while they hid in a closet as their father drunkenly searched the house for them, who decided very early on that he would die if it meant getting Claire far away from Eden

Court who didn't celebrate his birthday and maybe didn't even remember it but cried just a little when Claire handed him a pack of gum she had kicked from a supply room in honor of the anniversary of them meeting

Court who used the destruction of Filament Station and subsequent clash between the C.O.I and Eden as his chance to get Claire far away from it all, who barely escaped with their lives after commandeering a ship, who was wounded and beaten and bloody but was alive because he was good at taking punches and even better at throwing them back, he had done it for years in prison and years before shielding his baby brothers, who would do it again now for his daughter

Court who refused treatment for his wounds until Claire's were treated, who still refused until someone took him to Ryland and Colt, who didn't understand why no one would tell him where his babies were

Court who failed his mama after all

#I haven't seen Gray Man since it came out (I remember nothing) so this is incredibly fanon and wiki reliant #feel free to correct me or make suggestions #bloodymary #bloodymary roleswap au #coltland twins #coltland gentry

I’m alive! To say simply, I’ve been way busier than I thought I would be these last few months and haven’t had as much time to write as I would like BUT In six days I will be posting the first two chapters of my roleswap fic! Once that happens I'll be posting a chapter every other week and (hopefully) some one shots within the same universe sporadically. I'm confident that I have enough chapters written ahead of time to keep that schedule up but we'll see （´∇｀''）

For now though, every day until I post the fic I'll be posting character rambles (like I did for Simon, Grace, and Colt)

Todays character is Jody Moreno! People who requested to be tagged: @trexiva, @sisiren

Jody Moreno who was twenty years old when the Quiet Rapture happened, who was taking a break from film school to go on a trip with Colt to visit Ryland on a space station he'd been interning at, who brought all of her equipment with her just in case the inspiration struck her

Jody Moreno who worked hard to keep the three of them together during the collapse and reformation of society, who worked twice as hard when Ryland pissed off the wrong scientists with his theories and got them removed from the main space station, who put her passion aside in favor of using her skills with cameras to help the older folks and gain favors, who stayed up late at night tinkering with old discarded cameras that had been gifted to her since she was one of the few people left how knew to repair them

Jody Moreno who was coming to terms with her life of odd jobs and repairs because it meant coming back to spend her evenings with the twins, who enjoyed listening to Ryland settling into his role as a teacher, who loved spending time teasing Colt even if it meant patching him up because he was taking on dangerous jobs for their sake again

Jody Moreno who thought she might have died when Colt broke his back while on a job at distant space station, who worried over anything while they waited for him to be stable enough to transport, who spent six months worried that he was going to die far away from her

Jody Moreno who's skills were enough to have her be noticed by the C.O.I, who was offered a place Stratts personal ship if she came to work for her, who couldn't say no to such a deal because they had the best care for Colt

Jody Moreno who helped developed the first X-Ray cameras for the SM-2, who was present for some of the first trips to Z-8 and AT-5, who focused solely on improving the cameras affixed to the subs and the quality of the pictures they received from the subs, who took care of and advocated for Ryland when he became part of the team of researchers, who tried to get Colt to say goodbye to Ryland before he left but watched in frustration as the twins refused to so much as look at each other

Jody Moreno who was there when they lost contact with the SM-8, who couldn't get it through to Colt that Ryland was dead and gone, who fought constantly with the man she loved since they were children, who watched as he walked away from her bitter and hurt because the last time he spoke to his brother had been an argument over something pointless now, who continued her work on the SM-13 in the hopes that maybe through some miracle she could find and save Ryland… or at least give Colt a corpse to bury

Jody who didn't hear a word from Colt for two years, who was so devoted to her work she didn't even realize who was welded into the SM-13 until she heard his voice come in from the radio

Jody who begged and pleaded with Eva to get him out of there, who advocated for his release even after learning about the role he played in the destruction of Filament Station, who never gave up hope even when they lost contact with the SM-13, who doesn't know what to say when a man she thought had died in the Quiet Rapture comes to her one day and asks where his little brothers are

Jody Moreno-Seavers who mourns like a widow because she is one

#I briefly considered using the iron lung game timeline and then decided against it #BUT if anyone is interested I'll post a full timeline for my au #bloodymary #bloodymary swap au #coltland twins #coltland gentry

everybodylovesmcintyre

literally so obsessed with the sm-8 related (iron lung) camera pictures from deadlymelodic’s website

#All lore about the SM-8 and it's crew is so fucking good #look at this #that's some fucked up eldritch induced body horror

I used to have my laptop so organized, bloodymary has made chaos of my desktop ദ്ദി ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ )

kitxqueen

I'm sorry, i just saw someone apologize for reblogging someone else's art so much??? Has Tiktok seriously ruined SHARING POSTS YOU LIKE for the whole internet bc of a fear of "spam liking"?!?

SPAM LIKE MY STUFF. REBLOG ALL MY POSTS. PLEASE INTERACT. SEND ME STUPID ASKS. CRAVE CONNECTION IN YOUR ONLINE SPACES!!!! AS SHOULD WE ALL!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!

I will never EVER in my life judge someone for liking and sharing the things I post— IN FACT, I BEG IT. I wanna open my notifications to y'all being FREAKS in my comments and tags and everything. PLEASE.

#getting over fear of spam liking is a trial we must all overcome (• - •)ゝ #true happiness is being freaks on the internet together #like a fucking community as the freaks and weirdos (affectionate) before us foretold

I finally got around to playing chapter two of @sea-grunks-dating-sim and I LOVED IT

Knew immediately that I needed to draw my pretty princess Persephone (aka as the character I insert into almost every game I play (ᵕ • ᴗ •))

Lore pending for this version of her I guess? Idk I just know I love her and this game is so fucking fun (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

Different versions under the cut

#i'm so incredibly late for mermay but fuck it we ball #sws mermay #sailing with stans

allthingswhumpyandangsty

reblog with how old you were when you first discovered yaoi

#I was a eleven and it was a very well written destiel fic #I don’t even remember what I was looking for #I vividly remember scrolling ff.net and wondering what the pairing was #that one moment irreversibly changed the course of my life somehow #I just know it

Second progress check in for the roleswap au!

Basically everything involving Simon's life on earth has been mapped out and fixated. Details like his relationships with his crew members or siblings in Eden will be added as I write

As for Grace I'm working out a few details, mostly about how old he would've been when the Quiet Rapture happened and how he survived so long in the SM-8. Also trying to decide if Colt should live or die, we'll see!

I haven't gotten into Rocky's part in the au as much as I would like to have, so I'm taking suggestions. I would swap Rocky and Adrian for a total role swap situation, but I am believer in BIG Adrian, they would not fit on the Hail Mary, I fear. So, we still get Rocky with Simon and Grace, just this slightly different version of them

But that's all for now!

#bloodymary roleswap au #coltland twins

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