Contra/Production

Poetry, lyrics and ramblings written by danish writer, musician, songwriter and idiot Simon Heggum. Feel free to tell me what you think!

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Misambulance/uassistance - Der står du smuk og redningsklar. #herkommersvaret

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Til andre: Her er Bowies bedste sange, ifølge mig. Overraskende let at lave listen.. Den er også lang! Lad os være glade for det her vanvittige udbud af musik... God dag.

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New song I made!

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Nogle af mine rigtige gode venner har lige udsendt deres debutsingle... Som IKKE er at finde på deres kommende album! Kan klart anbefales!

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Kill him

Hanging from the ceiling Bowling in the alley Hard-packed death Clowns around him I saw a stationary volunteer Shoveling coal in a gold-mine And he was resting his swollen head On a pile of rust-filled steel wires Heading for the dream of a cold new moon Or a world in slow-fading colors Falling leaves from trees Fallen on my knee Kill him with love Kill him with shadows Let the blood fill the streets Straight and narrow Kill him with coolness Give him hell No borderline psychos Will live to tell And in a way I never thought That I should be the lucky one To be laying under your bed With a telescope And a flash-light And I know I will never be Kill him with terror Kill him to death

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Verdens største løgn!

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Hello and almost goodbye!

I am going over here: simonheggum.tumblr.com/ From now everything related to free thougts and music will be posted here... If you are here for poems and stuff... Well then just keep hanging around!

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Afsavn

Alt det fucking gøgl for ingen ting Timer man stirrer ind i en væg Dødedans på stedet i limbo-krampe Mørkelagte rum i sommerregn Og gåture hjem fra larm, alt for fuld Hverdagstristesse uden interessante ting At berette eller at tale om Siddende i stol, afventende, læsende Tænkende alt for meget over ingen ting Mangle alt for mange ting at tænke over Mens spøgelser raver rundt i lillehjernen Og reptilet tager over igen og igen Brødspisende og tom som en skald uden æg Som æg uden høne og som høne uden æg Fjer bliver til kæmpe massegrave Mens jeg sender mig selv til kiropraktor Psykolog og Jamie Oliver Uden at lære noget om noget og nogen Og uden at rokker eller rykke eller rocke Samme fire vægge, der ind i mellem nedbrydes Bygges op igen og nedbrydes For at sidde der i sollys og længes efter Nattetimer og ulækker flødesovs En smule nærvær og glimt af korte strøg Druknede i øjne der kigger ind i en Og læser, føler, æder, dunker Mens man misforstår alt i en parallel dimension Splitsekunder af en drøm man gerne ville have Var bare lidt længere og lidt mindre kompliceret Skrivende sig selv ud af døren og ind på den anden side Hvor "rigtige mennesker" går rundt med hinanden I hånden og i favnen og i sengen Kiggende mod bedre tider, man synes er væk Eller som burde have været der Overvejer om der er noget galt med en selv Men det er der ikke Man er bare sendt tilbage til udgangspunktet Murmeldyr på spritaltan Mens jeg drikker aftenkaffe Og savner dig.

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Listen/purchase: Purple Enigma by Simon Heggum

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Purple Enigma - soundcloud

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Dødsangst

Jeg er ikke bange for at dø Når jeg vågner om morgenen slår jeg ikke korsets tegn Og når jeg går i seng beder jeg ikke for at have gennemført endnu en dag Når jeg ser en bil eksplodere i en actionfilm, får jeg ikke hjemve Og jeg hører ikke dystert musik fordi jeg gerne vil skære i mig selv Jeg er ikke bange for at dø Når jeg black-out'er er jeg ikke bange for at den sidste øl var den sidste øl i verden Når jeg vågner op dagen efter og tager en Ipren, er jeg ikke bange for at det netop er den pille der stopper mit hjerte. Når jeg dagen efter begynder at drikke igen, betyder det ikke at jeg drikker for igen at tage Iprener Og jeg er ikke bange for konsekvensen af at råbe i flere timer Jeg er ikke bange for at dø. Mange mennesker søger ulidelige grænser for at bekræfte dem selv, fordi de ikke ved hvem de er. Mange mennesker søger samme bekræftelse, ved at stille sig foran deres egne problemer og sige at de ikke har dem Flere mennesker vælger at slå græsset i deres egen baghave, uden over hovedet at kigge efter deres nabos Mens få mennesker stopper op og kigger ind i væggene, mens de tænker over nu'ets ubehagelige skønhed Jeg er ikke bange for at dø For jeg ved at mit otium er lige nu og her, og jeg ved at den næste liter mælk kan være den sidste Jeg ved at turen ned til Fakta for at købe cigaretter har et potentiale for at være den sidste Odysse Og jeg ved at smøgerne højst sandsynligt slår mig ihjel i et voldsomt hosteanfald Og jeg ved at jeg er mig og ingen anden mig (Fordi at jeg er Bamse, det er mig som der er Bamse) Jeg er ikke bange for at dø. For når jeg lever, lever jeg og jeg lever fordi jeg ikke kan lade være og fordi livet er værd at leve Og når jeg står op om morgenen, i mit eget særprægede univers, kigger jeg ud at vinduet Og der, i det sekund, konstaterer jeg at tagene stadig er røde og at muren stadig er gul Og at pigen der bor over ved siden af stadig passer på sin bregne Jeg er ikke bange for at dø For hvis jeg dør fortsætter bregnen med at vokse mens pigen rengører sin emhætte mens hun nynner Og hun nynner en melodi jeg var ret vild med for 3 år siden, mens jeg drak et glas juice Og hun læner sig forover i en stilling jeg ikke ville have noget imod Mens hun sagte smiler i sit eget stille, skæbnesvangre valg af liv

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Purple Enigma - After thougts

I don't know if anyone read this... And yeah... It doesn't really matter. I starting out writing music when I was 11 (Though it was in a very different manner at that point) and since then I have been struggling to shape an "inner idea" of what the hell I was doing with it. Enter my new years resolution of trying to keep myself doing this out of an idea that I actually have a talent, and in the end I had to retcon my own idea of what I am doing with my music. I think I mainly make music for myself, with a hope that somebody somewhere likes it too. I don't necessarily listen to my own music as much as people would think, but this project of doing that much music as I am going to do this year, really forces you to sit back and try and listen to your own "ramblings" with different ears. I believe my roomie is very sick about it. So yeah! I made another one. Nr. 2 in the "12 EP's Project". It is called "Purple Enigma" and it is funny... Cause I don't think I like it better than the January EP "Darker Values". I think I like it lesser! But that is one of the pitfalls with this project. Trying to take a step away from your own "art", get your head of of your own ass and looking down the black hole and say: "This is okay"! I had a big fight with the song "Helium Balloon". I know I am not the greatest singer... Far from it. My voice is not that good, but I can't come around getting other people to sing the songs I write for my "own project". It is a big "diva-problem", I guess, cause I think my "lesser voice" scares away a lot of potential listeners. It is a shame... But until my ego succumbs completely, it is necessary that I sing it. Apparently. When that is said, I never got around nailing the voice on "Helium Balloon"... Which is a shame 'cause I really like it! In some way it is related to one of my better songs in recent years: "Collapse" from 2013's "Structures and Movements". But after the gazillionth attempt of recording the vocals I just had to let it go and say: "Fuck it!" So yeah! "Purple Enigma" is not the best I ever did. But that is not the point. I ended up trying to be "perfect" a long time ago. I had a big ego-trip going on around the time I was the singer and songwriter in my old band Paper Sessions. A fact that really strained the creative relationship and brought a lot of tension in the band, which was sad as hell. I put that to rest a long time ago, and a lot of what I have done musically since that time have been a way of trying to step out of my own narcissistic shadow! It can be hard! So tomorrow you will be able to listen to what I have done! I quite like it! I don't love it as I got to do with "Darker Values" (That one really grew on me). Sometimes you are superior and other times you are just "meh"... That is the complete struggle of trying to push away from your own comfort-zone! So in that fashion... Here is "Helium Balloon". Hope someone listens

Listen here!

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"Darker Values" Inspiration(s): Januar(y) 2014.

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Stone Cold

I woke up two hours ago Tried to open the window To let out the heavy, violent smell Of forgotten years You tend to forget the morning light When you are only awake at night In a pocket universe Of spit and sweat and beer

I've got ice cubes in my fridge I've got a shelter under the bridge Where I sit and wait for the day to go by And for a girl to come I've got a paranoid glow I've got icicles in my soul And I've got gray, poisoned smoke Running through my lungs :|| I have reached the point where love won't hurt I have tried to electrocute my heart But it didn't work ||:

I am a cliff of solitude I am a tree with no fruit I am a demigod with a helmet And no powers to show I am a mad, stalking freak I am a mindless, filthy creep I am a savior of worlds That have turned to stone So blame it on the guidelines Blame it on the way I live I have been working at the pipelines I have nothing left to give

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:|| I have reached the point where my love won't work I have tried to electrocute my heart But it didn't hurt ||:

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First new EP: Darker Values out now!

Listen to the new EP "Darker Values" - Written, performed and produced by yours truly. Hopefully someone will like it!

Darker Values by Simon Heggum

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New music: "Darker Values" and the project "12 New EP's"

12 New EP's

I don't have a lot of followers here yet, and no one really listens to what I am doing. Therefore I am trying something new. This year I have chosen to do something new and something different. I have been plagued with a tendency to get very lazy with my creativity, and this Christmas I had a smaller breakdown of sorts, that forced me to re-think my life as it was. So I chose to focus on doing something ”I like”, instead of doing something ”I should”. And music is half of my life. A big part of it anyway. Most people who knows me, know that I like writing songs. I see myself as a good songwriter. Not great or extremely talented, but fairly good! I hope! My problem is that I have become lesser focused, more sporadic and downright lazy in my older days. When I watch the list I have of ”officially finished songs” (Through the danish songwriter foundation Koda) I can tell that I have been very lazy in the last 3 years or so. And I know what people say: Quality over quantity.

But I had become so desperate that I would rather write 55 shit songs a week, than one good song every third month. I am a creative human being and I need to do what I do in order to keep myself sane. There is a reason why I write. But I couldn't get around.

Every time I picked up a guitar, it wouldn't work. Every time I tried to make beats it sounded shit. So I revisited my roots and found out that I needed to put up some creative goals in 2014. And there it was! One of my songwriter-friends ideas: Make a collection of songs, a album, an EP or something every month. FORCE yourself to work, so you have to reach a goal! Even though the songs may end up being worse that half of your back catalogue. Or half of your last ”project”. And so on and so forth. Write some songs, record them, release them, take a break in two days and BANG! You have to start again.

And it worked! I am writing again. The first child of the new project ”12 New Ep's” is named ”Darker Values”, and may be a bit of cheating, cause three of the songs are from last year. People who know me, may have heard ”Gospel of a Nonbeliever” before and ”Falling from the Sky” is finally released. A song famously known by my music-friends 'cause of the fact that I have been trying to record the definitive version for, almost, a year. From Berlin techno, to blues, to disco and so on. The final version is a mixture of a lot of different stuff. ”Crossword Girl” is extremely poppy and ”Atom Storm” is new. It's a culmination of different bits and ideas put together and lyrics I wrote to push myself out of the Christmas-vacuum I entered this December. Good times! The title track is me going back to my roots. I tried to record another song for this EP, but couldn't make it work. I got so irritated I deleted everything I had done, found a free sound recorder on the Internet, took my acoustic guitar and recorded that song on the spot. The chords. The lyrics and the melody came that second. No writing required!!! Go figure! I did overdub the backing vocals, glockenspiel and melodica later in the process.

Well here it is! ”Darker Values”. I quite like it! Hope you do too! It will be released tomorrow. Before that, you can listen to the song ”Falling from the Sky” through this player!

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Opmærksomhed

Jeg vil så gerne danse med store gevandter. Ned gennem gaden og vrikke Med alt der er at vrikke med (Og det er alligevel en del) Bryde ud i eksotiske vers På delikate rim I lækre farver Og store armbevægelser. Til tidens hotte rytmer.

Jeg vil så gerne have opmærksomhed. Som den lille hest i manegen Ridende i cirkler. Det samme sorgløse loop. Vrinskende optimistisk Til basunslag og dyb tuba Stur nummer Jublende børn og sovende bedsteforældre

Jeg vil så gerne vise dig mine tricks. Spy ild og jonglere med kegler Ballondans badutspring ethjulet cykel trampolin kajakroning Sjov hat og batikfarver Flammekaster i konfetti-eksplosion Total perfekt rucolasalat-marineret glæde Og solbrun hud Pomade promenade serenade Mandolinspiller på frierfødder Uha, jeg er en fræk fyr Og tak skal du da have!

Mig og dig og Vitto syngende I juledans om rundtræ Smilende total overstadig Farmor farfar kakkelbord Senseo kaffe Alt er godt Farm i Jylland Hurra og knald på låget og alle mulige andre Positivistiske småmøjsommeligt velplacerede lækre mmmm SådanskaldetgøresmedsamtalekøkkenerIKEAmøblerkøbeegethusoglejlighedmedkonebørnogstårtægtgenerelttotalstyrpåtilværelsenååååhhvorharvidetgodtoghvorerdermegetgodtifjernsynet-agtig.

Men jeg er ikke specielt glad i dag, jeg er træt af tilværelsen og jeg har ondt i hovedet Vil gerne have ro og være alene. Og læse.