Just Me.

w.a.a.r. | young and confused | poems 🌿

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Sometimes I imagine  That the ring on my finger Connects me to you,  Despite all these miles.  As if you too can feel metal against skin And detect the slightest of misery Shimmering in amethyst.  Left with the dying hope That maybe one day it can be replaced With one that shines with both our reflections,  Together, side by side.

that misery tore us apart in the end. // w.a.a.r.

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Thank you lovelies for 2k! 💕 stay safe, i love you all

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How can I miss what I've never felt?

w.a.a.r.

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You gave hopeless summer nights  A new meaning.  You took the risk for the both of us.  Letting yourself fall, When I wasn't even sure how to jump.  So you swept the world from under me, Promising that I wouldn't fall alone.  And it was then and there,  That you gave me a shot at something new.

you promised me. // w.a.a.r. 

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The choice of loving you was never a choice at all.  As I could feel it slowly tugging at my feet A forgotten whisper against my skin.  It sent my thoughts into a brilliant world of chaos Love's hopeless confusion made me feel at home again.  And here I am now, the word love flowing too easily from this pen A word that stole the breath from my lungs, And brought it back full force. I choke on it now, as if it's the only word my lips should ever say.  Darling, how did we get here?

w.a.a.r.

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I didn't hate the fact  That I let you in, Or that I fell for you so hard That I gave up on landing safely. But I hated the fact, That you made it look so easy. As if it was so obviously meant to be  That there was never any doubt, How inevitable we were.

I was loved and then forgotten. // w.a.a.r.

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If you need a friend or just want to talk, I’m here 💕

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I wish we could go back to the time, Where everything felt new and perfect. It was unrealistic of course,  But it still felt good.

w.a.a.r. // and now we’re back to strangers 

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I hate knowing  That I can't spare you from your sadness.  That life's many sorrows, Won't hesitate to make you fade before my eyes. But I hope that when those times come,  We'll find a way to save us both from ourselves.  And that one day, we can fight back  Against that hateful darkness,  So that our stubborn shadows Will know that we're not alone anymore.

your demons tore us apart // w.a.a.r

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I needed you,  Not when the silence became deafening. Or when the weight of broken words, Became to much to endure.  Not when my loneliness and I Shared too much in common,  Or when desperation fooled me  Into imagining love that wasn’t there. But instead, I needed you While in a room, surrounded by people Their pointless conversation, More isolating than the words left unsaid. Because in the end, I needed you When hundreds of voices fought for my attention Yet the only voice that echoed through my mind, Was yours.

what lies between us // w.a.a.r.

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I feel stupid For accepting a love,  I knew would hurt.  I hear your voice , In late night phone calls. I see your face either trapped on a screen,  Or kissing me in a dream. But needy fingers only crawl through air.  And greedy feelings, Hopelessly ache for a single heartbeat.

waiting for that someday // w.a.a.r.

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While others bleed roses,

I bleed

Ink.

It thrums within my veins,

And traces poetry underneath my skin.

It craves a home on wrinkled paper

Begging to be released

From the prison of my conscience.

To be spilled from the top of this pen

And to never be heard of again.

- w.a.a.r.

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“Waiting for the day when I can talk about missing you in the past instead of the present.”

still waiting // w.a.a.r

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If you should ever decide to leave, Make sure that you forget my smile. Because the stars in my eyes Will be reserved for another boy, And the universe I shared with you Will be someone else's miracle.

k.m.d. // w.a.a.r.

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Keep these words of mine In a safe place, For I don't give them away Needlessly. Etch them onto your skin Paint them over your heart, So that they'll cover you up In a love made of ink.

k.m.d. // w.a.a.r. 

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hey! im new here :)

Welcome! 💕

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At least I know that in the end You left me some damn good memories The kind that'll only leave you breathless In the quietest hours of the night. I should thank you, really. For a love I didn't even know Truly existed. You gave me a fraction of desire Mixed in with samples of untamed fire, So why does it still feel like I deserved more?

k.m.d. // w.a.a.r.