PARIAH.

ZACHARY KEANE. T H I R T Y ! PROTECTION. LITTLE SOLDIER BOY, your heart is frozen, you breathe out ice. you play with lives, DEATH and memories. you keep t r e a d i n g the line so FINE between MARTYRDOM &. lies.

[kieraknightley]

[contvmno]

RICARDO.

         ‘ –––––– excuse me ? ’

          ‘ SHE ––– –– as in my sister, she’s here. that’s why i brought it up, alright? ’

[contvmno]

          ‘ ––– –– is that resentment i hear in your tone, kay? ’

[sirenedsea]

[wnq-writers]

3 AM or 3 PM, I do not care. I will be there, when you need me.

lostmusing (via wordsnquotes)

[james-romanoff]

[contvmno]

[ jack vc ] now kith.

           ‘ well made sacrifices back then, zach. not just you. so why don’t you quit acting like a kid, & tell me what’s up ? ’

          ‘ –––– –– she’s here. ’

[contvmno]

a child of a divorce.

‘ sleeping makes my mind go dark, ‘ she murmured into his chest, clinging to the elder for comfort — — he was a rock in the midst of the storm that seemed to be a constant in her mind. she listened to him caefully, moving her fingers as he listed each statement. she wasn’t scared of bandages, wasn’t scared of resting —- —- slowly she relaxed, her voice more steady as she spoke. ‘ they put things in me, ’ she explained. ‘ so they could find me – – i want to get them out, that’s why … ’ she diverted her eyes from her own wounds, burying her face in his neck. ‘ they aren’t clean. there’s bugs and dirt and mud and blood and — — my inside isn’t clean. ’

          every word his sister spoke simply made his heart ache; he was happy to have her here, ecstatic in fact, but what had she endured whilst on her own? every time he thought to bring it up a lump formed in his throat, his usual cowardice kicking in as he made attempts to stay away from the subject. ‘ it’ll be okay, i’ll be there to protect you. ’ he used his shoulder to nudge open the door to first aid, wiggling his fingers to wave those who would’ve usually descended upon annie off. he wanted some time with her first, to talk to her and make sure... she was okay. he placed her softly upon a bed, keeping one of her hands in his the entire time as he brought a nearby chair closer to him with his foot before sitting upon it. ‘ they can’t find you anymore, i promise. it’ll be just us and valdez from now on. ’ he pressed his lips together as she spoke about her insides, shifting slightly in his seat, ‘ you are beautiful, inside and out. those bugs? the dirt? it’ll all go away, but you have to stop scratching. it’s what the bugs want, annie, they want you to keep going but i know you’re stronger than that. i know. ’

[contvmno]

@kavlees ;

          ‘ just sitting here, watching our barren lives pass us by. — oh, look, a cockroach. ’

[orwell]

“The Locked Room”, S1.E3, True Detective

[contvmno]

zach’s boyfriend never.

          ‘ is this what you came here to do ? –– – to pick a fight; bring up shit from a DECADE ago ? ’

          ‘ i actually came here to talk with an old friend about a sensitive subject, but now that i’ve seen you i’ve changed my mind. ’

[contvmno]

will help zach sort his share of the beanie babies when zacardo divorce.

as always, annie is able to ignore the stinging pain in her wounds — — her arms are rough and scarred from the previous slices into smooth flesh; and the knowledge that it is bad never escapes her: but the pain stinging her limbs reminds her she is in the present, not caught in the past. the pain there was  d i f f e r e n t. wordlessly, she lifted her arms clutching his neck and waiting to be lifted. it wasn’t an unusual occurrence, the elder carrying her where she needed to be. often during nightmares or particularly rough episodes of harming herself, her knees would give out as she cried, and he was necessary for transport. however —- even if movement was possible, the younger would most likely pick the feeling of her brother’s heartbeat against her ear, a comforting rhythm, before stumbling beside him. 

          as her hands slipped around his neck zach breathed another sigh of relief, slipping a hand underneath her knees as he picked her up, keeping her in a cradle position as he began to walk forward. ‘ we’re going to go to first-aid, alright? they’re going to have to clean you up, but no needles or tests, alright? they’ll just wipe you down and put some bandages over you––– –– ’ he spoke in a soft tone, keeping a brisk enough pace to let annie feel the breeze whilst also being stable enough to keep her stable. he always explained where they were going, always made sure she knew she was safe; that was his priority. ‘ ––– and then after that? you can rest, and i’ll be right by your bedside when you wake up; sound good? ’

[midsommars-deactivated20201109]

[venettaoctavia]

You are shaking fists & trembling teeth. I know: You did not mean to be cruel. That does not mean you were kind.

Venetta Octavia, excerpt of “THE BURNING”, from my upcoming chapbook, tentatively titled “Oculus” (via venettaoctavia)

[contvmno]

maid of honor at the zacardo wedding.

‘ — — okay. ’ she was still QUIET, but the  p a n i c  was gone from her voice as slowly, she stopped grabbing for the cuts, hands clinging to his as he reached for hers. she always felt SAFER with him, more secure — — whenever her brother wasn’t in her presence, she never felt more secure. he was her superhero. to annie, the elder was  i n v i n s i b l e, and nothing could stop him from keeping her safe. ‘ you … you’re … back forever? ’

          he let a smile rise to his lips, a small nod echoing the truth of his words from before, ‘ forever. i’m not gonna’ let anyone else stand between us again, got it? ’ he moves a hand to her back, helping to guide and support her as he always did. her wounds are plentiful, and he hides the slight tremble in his fingertips by shaking them out slightly, ‘ are you alright to move? i can carry you if you want? ’

[contvmno]

definitely not bfs, only ex-bfs.

       ‘ to stay ALIVE. why are you bringing it up ? ’

          ‘ right, because staying alive only matters when it’s you doing the staying alive, right? nothing, no reason –––– –– clearly you’re just the same jackass you’ve always been. ’

[contvmno]

stupid man who is not zach’s boyfriend.

        ‘ for good reason. –– YEAH. ’

          ‘ –––– –– well if the reason was so good why don’t you tell me? ’