the hot fridge docs

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[cookie3ban]

It's impossible to try to be perfect and grow at the same time. That's what makes people stuck.

People make mistakes. But it doesn't make anyone a bad person.

[cookie3ban]

They said that we should learn in order to grow. But people can't grow if they don't understand what they are learning.

-- vord womit @1am

[cookie3ban]

Wednesday - 20/11/2024

I missed the snowfall. I was only greeted by so much rain. My mind has never been so active lately. And as soon as I want to type it into my computer, I'm trying to keep my cat off the keyboard.

My day was slow but evening rolled in and I felt a bit frustrated by my train being cancelled and having to take the delayed, but long journey train. I got so frustrated that when I went to withdraw some cash, I nearly forgot to take my money.

Walked over to the corner shop in the station to get some change but nearly walked out with a bag of chips without paying. I walked to the cashier embarrassed after nearly committing such crime and apologised before the crowd could even realise. They were chill and didn't even suspect a thing. I fought the urge to trauma dump on them and nonchalantly help up a Pokémon activity book near the counter and asked how much it was.

They chuckled as they already handed me over my change. Cuz I already spent my cash on the bag of chips. I looked at them dead in the eye as I pulled out my card and handed them over the book to scan with a smug look on my face. And they were having a riot over this interaction.

After this impulsive purchase, I innocently shoved my new book and chips into my bag. Proud that I have made someone's day. And all of that created a chain of events of me just doing little things for people I care about.

The night sky was clear that evening and my favourite constellation Orion sat on the horizon next to the moon. I ended the day talking to my SO as he walked me home, with a box of cosy maple waffle that I saved for him after a long day.

[prince-luffy]

I truly hate the word "unalive." There are so many other euphemisms that fictional Italian mobsters worked so hard to provide you with and you just ignore them.

[warrior-of-the-runes]

beautiful compilation from @orc-sign-language

[vinceaddams]

"Joined the great majority" is a good one that I practically never hear.

[threeunrelateddescriptors]

"Approaching room temperature" is a personal favorite from the medical field.

[trochaic-mutant-ninja-tetrameter]

🎶Joined the choir unseen! Fly collecting!🎵

[wildermouse]

love my autumn maple forests 🍁

[cottagesongs]

Forests in Old Disney

[ahalal-uralma]

adding these

[cottagesongs]

Forests in Old Disney

[ahalal-uralma]

adding these

[cookie3ban]

I'm currently emotionally and mentally recovering from Arcane 2 Act 2. I'm crying, pissed off and throwing up.

[what-even-is-thiss]

The way you change your immediate reactions to things is that you catch yourself having an uncharitable/bigoted/overly judgmental thought and you catch it and replace it and then you do that a hundred times a day for your whole life and eventually one day like five years later you realize that you think differently now and you’ll always be working on something but that’s how life goes and that’s fine.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Say you have a bad habit of thinking all other people are stupider than you and want to respect other people’s intelligence more.

So you start paying attention to your immediate first reactions to things. You notice that when other people around you are struggling with a math problem and ask you for help you default to seeing them as annoying and stupid.

Instead of chastising yourself for having that thought, interrogate it. Replace it. Think, why do I assume people with different strengths are dumber than I am? I need help sometimes too. I’m glad they’re comfortable enough with me to ask me for help. I’m glad I’ve got a reputation of being the math guy and can help people with that.

And the first time, perhaps the first few dozen times, it’ll feel disingenuous. The cynicism in your brain will fight it. But in time it’ll become as easy as breathing. First thought, replace thought.

And then one day you don’t need to replace that thought. That might be a month from now or twenty years from now. And it’s annoying to get there. But you do get there.

[cookie3ban]

Real

[valtsv]

it really is insane how waking up early will grant you access to some of the most beautiful sights and sensations in the world that will make you want to live forever, but only if you overcome the gauntlet of a thousand razors that is getting out of bed early. truly one of life's little saw traps.

[tothechaos]

me trying to convince myself that the whole spectrum of human emotions is a good and necessary thing to feel even if its not comfortable while im actively experiencing emotions that make me feel like my bones are being dissolved in acid

[computationalcalculator]

[eden-has-rotted]

me: chat what do we think

the angel and devil on my shoulders: can you not call us that please

[cookie3ban]

Sunday, 24 March 2024

Korean BBQ and hot pot❗️

Even during the time I'm typing this, I am still relatively full and still craving for more.. 🤤 I never experienced a day this pleasant, just being with friends, having lunch together, and helping each other out from prep to the actual feast 💕

I had the opportunity to DJ the rest of the whole get-together to have some variety in the playlist (istg I heard 'yes, and?' play 5 times today)

We aim to do this at least once a month because of how much we enjoyed it 👉👈

[thinkingabout-girls]

“but what if i’m being annoying :(“ everyone’s annoying dipshit it came free with fucking being alive and existing. now go talk to your friends

[cookie3ban]

saturday, 17 feb 2024

The day before my first band performance as a bassist. I'm excited asf. Been awhile since I used this app though. I much prefer the layout here when it comes to long ass rambles that nobody will ever EVER have to see, especially those who actually know me irl let alone my real username etc.

None of my friends use this app anymore

[cookie3ban]

21 March 22

Damn I really should use this more often

It's been a long month and next thing I know it's nearly ending already.

My dominant hand is currently suffering like literally cannot rotate them much anymore. Not so sure if it's gonna heal. I've been practicing bass alongside art. Plus I become a contortionist when I nurse.

I just definitely need to let it rest for a good while.

Besides I think it's a good opportunity to do my dental nursing coursework done. It's due in at the end too - so I'm currently procrastinating the shit out of myself at the very last fricking minute lol

I literally have no motivation for all this but I'm apparently good at my job. It's going to be my bread and butter when I get qualified.

I jokingly told my junior that I'm already doing plan B despite the fact that I thrive more in art and design etc.

But oh well, it is what it is.

I'm fine with keeping it as a hobby or a side job thing or whatever.

We vibing.

Anywho...

I'm gonna try my best not to get too distracted.

My playlists are prepared. And they are more organized than my life right now honestly.

Gonna be uninterrupted and hyperfocused for this shit since I only managed to finish 1 out of 5 units - which consists of 2-3 sections as well I'm gonna die lol I really hate this sm.

Whatever I am prepared to die.

[chattyang-deactivated20190201]

Nature in  君の名は。(2016)