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[cookiemonstarve]

December 11, 2025

From 52 kg to 50 kg, yet I still feels like a fucking pig. This morning my mom said I look like im getting fatter. How the fuck. I lost 2 kg yet I look like im getting even more fatter??? Does my purging and restrictions dont have any effects? I have 5 days until our party and I CANT go to that party looking and feeling like a pig. I need to lock tf in, tips will be appreciated.

[cookiemonstarve]

December 3, 2025

I need tips guys :( because whenever I try to not eat anything for like 7-10 hours, my stomach HURTS. It’s not the type of hurt where your stomach rumbles, IT FUCKING ACHES. Not rumbles or growls, but ACHES. It’s so fucking painful really, it’s like the universe is against with me losing some fucking weight. Yesterday at school, I can’t even think properly, I ate around 10am and didn’t until 8pm, I tried drinking water, and I even finished my water bottle, it didn’t even help. I binge after I came home just to ease the ache in my stomach and threw it all up. PLEASE DROP ANY TIPS to help me restrict even if my stomach is fucking aching.

[cookiemonstarve]

December 2, 2025

Why the HELL is it so hard to restrict eating when you have school? ESPECIALLY if you are tired and stressed shitless from all the works they are giving to you. Because yesterday, I had tons of shit works to cram and I just find myself over eating. I envy people who don’t eat when they are stressed, but I stress eat, thats my fucking problem. Drop any tips to help restrict even if your mind is squished from all the fucking schoolworks they are giving.

[cookiemonstarve]

November 30, 2025

Any tips to lose weight fast, guys? Christmas is coming up and that means I have to show my body more frequently to people. I want to enjoy my christmas without feeling like a pig. Help a girl out.

[cookiemonstarve]

November 28, 2025

Fuck this day. I have to come back to the hell hole again, parents said im getting fatter. That triggered my ed that has been buried deep inside me, and I will have to go back to the ol days where im fucking miserable all the time, where my head were filled with unhealthy thoughts, and when I would have to purge every fucking meal I indulge. All because of a fucking deadly sentence “you’re getting fatter” that hitted me like a triple decker bus. I dont know my cw yet, I cant bring myself to step on the scale, I will try tonight but im not sure what will be my state after that. Fuck this.