free falling

coral avery. 20. hippie pacifist. i like the stars. it’s the illusion of permanence, i think. i mean, they’re always flaring up and caving in and going out. but from here, i can pretend; i can pretend that things last. - neil gaiman  

[vava-victoria]

I’ve now organized the fridge and put Post It notes with expiration dates and nutrition information on every item.  Please see to it that they are not removed.

[coralwolff]

....That is somehow both endearing and terrifying. You are something else, Victoria. 

[ezriaisendgame]

[coralwolff]

sugar || joral

Life had become a little more than topsy turvy within the last year or so - at least, more so than usual. Their lives had never been spectacularly normal, but this was something else entirely. Though their crazy world continued to spin off it’s axis, Coral was glad to be able to pretend, just for a little while, that her life had some semblance of normalcy. That normalcy had her perched on one of the counters in their kitchen while Jeremy did most of the work. In her defense, Coral had helped a bit in the beginning, but she only seemed to be slowing Jer down, so she took more of a spectator's role while he cooked. Every so often she plucked something from what he was cooking or stole a bite of something that was already done because, honestly, who could blame her? It was all so delicious and, quite frankly, the view was the best part.

“Hey you,” She mused, loosely trapping Jer between her legs and pulling him towards the counter, first making sure there was nothing in his hands because it would be a serious shame for him to lose anything he’d made. “I probably shouldn’t find you so attractive when you’re cooking, but I do.” Giggling, she wrapped her arms around his neck before dipping her head to kiss the tip of his nose. “Thank you, again, for doing this with me - humoring my need to get out of the house and all that.” Coral grinned, bumping their noses together and let Jer out of her grasp to continue with the cooking. Dipping a pinkie into the dessert bowl next to her, Coral swung her legs as she stole the bite.

“So,” She swallowed, “I vote for taking this shindig to the roof.” With a grin, Coral jumped off the counter, bare feet slapping the floor as she landed. She moved up behind Jer, wrapping her arms around his waist and burying her face in between his shoulder blades. “We can watch the sunset and cuddle and do all the obnoxiously cute, gross coupley things we can think of.” Pushing herself up on her tiptoes, Coral hooked her chin onto Jeremy’s shoulder. “What do you say?”

[vava-victoria]

I was trying to push for some sort of exercise, I think it’d benefit everyone, but Ryder shut that down pretty quickly after the - well, after I got back.  I’ve never actually been placed with anyone who has had to go into seclusion, but I’m still guessing this isn’t particularly normal.  I’m guessing it’s merely an inability to come up with a solution that keeps everyone involved as safe as possible, but something needs to change.  I’m trying to pull all the weight I have, I can promise you that.  Before anyone else gets hurt.  I will admit, I used to view the guardees as slightly lesser, but I’ve realized I can’t help you if I don’t ask you what you need.  We can’t do our jobs if we just assume instead of inquire.  Oh, alright.  I’ll only say this once, pixie, but I do care about you kids.  Well - half of you, the misogynistic guards I could do without.

[coralwolff]

Yeeeaaah. I can’t imagine he’d want to jump on that idea, honestly. And I don’t blame him. I’d be happy to do it, though. I mean, I love  my yoga, but it’s nice to switch it up too. Hmph. Well. I mean....I don’t know. I guess I’m new to this whole agency thing still because I feel like they would have more resources, you know? Like there shouldn’t be an inability to come up with a solution. Maybe my expectations are too high. Thank you. Any effort is appreciated. Glad you finally caught on to that. It’s also much appreciated. There’s nothing worse than being told what you need rather than what you really need. We care about you too. Once is all I need, anyway. Ha! Well, I suppose I can give you that.

[captain-jerxbear-blog]

They um - they all love a lot um - too.  I feel kind of um - bad staying in the um - pillow fort all the time but it’s - I just - I feel safe in um - in there.  You don’t always have to um - join me in it though you’ll um - you’ll never hurt my um - my feelings.  That’s um - jeepers, that’s good.  I might have a um - a heart attack if you did um - set some - um - stuff on uh - on fire.  Well there has to be um - a first time for um - everything, right?  Oh um - cheese and crackers.  We could um - we could open a restaurant together?  I think my dad always wanted me to um - to take over his um - his record label but I haven’t heard from um - from him in um - forever so - I think I can - I can branch out on my own.  OH jeepers.  You are um - you are - uh - foxy.

[coralwolff]

I know, love. Awh, Jer. Don’t feel bad. You have plenty of reason to feel unsafe outside of it - no one blames you, okay? I know I don’t, but I like to. You’re kind of my favorite person. Just don’t tell the others. Then I pinky promise to keep the flames at bay. Can’t have my favorite guy having a heart attack on me. There does indeed. Weeeellll, you could do both! You will have a partner for the restaurant, after all. I can take care of that while you do your music thing. Make everyone happy. I’m sorry, though. That you haven’t heard from him. Have you talked to your mom lately? Awh, geeze. Thanks. You’re kind of a handsome devil yourself.

[luna-eclipsex]

Yeah, exactly.  But I mean, she was like his best friend, and I think he’s trying to just tell himself he was a shit person so it doesn’t have to feel sad over missing her but I just - can’t forget about all the good, you know?  I don’t think we should, either.  I’m glad you do, I was starting to think I was the only one.  He is pretty adorable, isn’t he?  He’s like, the only person I don’t actually feel the need to corrupt.  Yeah baby, that was me.  I fucking love you too, baby.  I will, I will.  Everyone kind of keeps asking me if I need shit and like - well, I don’t know.  I don’t really know what I need myself?  Not being high is just - I don’t know.  It’s weird.  I don’t like it.  And that’s not the answer anyone wants to hear but this sober thing - it just fucking sucks man.  I don’t know what to do with myself, to be honest.  It’s fucking embarrassing.  And I can’t ever admit that to anyone because it’s like, I know I need to stop and I don’t need someone to tell me, but how do you just stop something that you’ve done for so long?  I’m pretty sure the only reason I’m actually sober right now is that one one will even give me a fucking sleeping pill.

[coralwolff]

Yeah. And I mean, I can’t blame him. That kind of hurt is just out of this world, but...she wasn’t always that way and it’s hard to forget that. I just wish this wasn’t all so hard. No, no. I don’t think so either. Never, baby. You’re never alone, okay? I think he is. Well, I’m glad. I like to think that’s a job solely for me, thank you. You’re incredible. Good. That’s okay, Lu! I think...I think it’s fair. They were as much a part of you as anything else for a long time, you know? Considering our situation, I’m not totally sure I blame you. I mean, of course I worry less when you’re sober, but...I don’t blame you for not wanting to be, either. You’re always more than welcome to join me at any time. If you need a distraction or just want company - whatever. I’m around. I’m sorry, love. No need to be embarrassed with me, though. I think it’ll take a few tries. You’re one of the strongest people I know, Lu. But all of this? How we got here? That makes shit ten times harder to handle and...lesser people wouldn’t have made it this long. They would have given up. You’re still here. There will come a day when you’ll want to be sober because life is better and worth living without drugs. I just....until then I think it’ll be really fucking hard. I also think that’s okay. You’re allowed to stumble. I’ll be there to help you up, always. Okay?

[innathansworld]

I’m sorry, Cork. Perhaps Agent Klein would be open to letting me take you out for a while? We could go into town and get ice cream or something. Maybe Jeremy and Justin would agree to accompany us.

[coralwolff]

It’s okay. I’ve just got a but of cabin fever. Not your fault. Really? I mean, you’d try? Because that’d be amazing. Awwwwh!! I love you a lot, Nate. You’re kinda the best. 

[heartsand-alyssaroses]

Sérieusement! Can we run away and have a girls weekend in town or something? We’ll take Luna, and Victoria. They can’t even get mad if we have Victoria with us, right? Like, we’ll have a guard, so it’s okay.

[coralwolff]

I’m going to assume that means you agree. A girls weekend? Yeees, please! I would kill for a little r&r. Not that we’re doing a whole lot here, but I think that’s the point. True. We would have a guard. I think we should definitely submit this idea. Or, y’know, just convince Vic and run before anyone else figures out what we’ve done.

[just-klein-blog]

Can’t say I disagree with you. Don’t get me wrong, it’s an okay house, with great company. But damn, I’d love to be able to get out for a day. Maybe we can sneak out to go hiking one day?

[coralwolff]

Right?! Like, I love you all to pieces but holy hell. I need fresh air and nature and...not four walls. It’s like a damn cage. Ooooh! Yes please! I mean, we’ll have to leave Jer a note so he doesn’t worry too much, but...still. I think we can manage at least a little hike, right?

[kingxharris]

No such thing. Ah, well. Give her a day or so. I’m sure she’ll come out and say it. But that’s um, that’s really nice to hear. Thank you. I wasn’t sure how - anyway. Sorry. Yes. She’s lovely and so are you. Sorry that um…that she’s here and your dad isn’t. I know that’s not fair. No. That’d make me sadder. I’d want a life for you that enabled you to always be shining positively and brightly. Yes, you have, in fact. But I’ll allow a second declaration. We’re just as lucky to have you. That’s sweet. I don’t wanna be a debbie- … I’ll just take the compliment. Thank you. So rain. How should we do this? Just put the sprinkler on?

[coralwolff]

In that case, I look forward to officially joining the family. Of course, love. You don’t have to thank me. You weren’t sure, what? I won’t disagree there. Oh, Harrison, no. Sweetheart it’s okay! He and I both know the risks of getting him here and it’s just...it’s okay. Honestly. You needed your mom and that’s perfectly okay. It’s nice to just have a parental figure here period. I mean, other than Papa K. Well, then forget I said anything. Someday we’ll get back to that. Good! Because it’s true. Also true. But yes. You’ll eventually believe it. Or, at least I hope you do. Yes! Okay, rain. I’d say yes? We’ll figure it out from there.

[captain-jerxbear-blog]

I um - I love you too.  You um - you would have been um - great without me!  You’re a um - you’re a really strong person, Cor.  But I um - I’m not sure I would have um - been able to handle it without - without you, either.  Yeah!  I’d um - I’d really like that!  You have to um - be better than um - than Justin.  I’ve been thinking about um - trying to um - make a vegan um - cheesecake!  Using cashews, and um - hope that it um - tastes okay.  And maybe some um - vegan um - mac and cheese?

[coralwolff]

Not nearly as great as I’ve been with you, I can guarantee that. Thank you, lovely. Hey! Heeeey! Absolutely not. You would have been fine. You would have had Justin and Harris and Case and Lu. They all love you a lot. Yeah? Yay! Ha! True. I’ve yet to set anything on fire, so we’re golden. Oooh? Yes please, to both! Sweetheart, nothing you make is bad. Literally. I don’t think you’ve made anything I haven’t liked yet. Between music gigs you should definitely open a restaurant. I can be the foxy hostess.

[luna-eclipsex]

Yeah - I - thanks.  Last time I mentioned her to Harris he went off the deep end, which like, I don’t blame, but I feel like I can’t talk about her to anyone without them thinking I’m crazy for missing her,you know?  And I do.  I really miss her.  I’d love to crash snuggles in the pillow fort.  You’re not a horrible girlfriend at all, baby.  He’s just easy to embarrass and it’s great.  I put some porn in his composition books once, the look on his face.  How are you guys doing, by the way?  Everything still going okay?  Okay, I promise no steaks, but only if you promise you’re not going to spontaneously pass out on me.  Nah, I’m okay.  I’ll survive.  Pillow fort snuggles are something I need though.  Even though - you know, I don’t snuggle.

[coralwolff]

Of course, baby. Mmm, I can only imagine. Don’t get me wrong, we both lost her too, but his was a totally different kind of loss. Can’t say I blame him. But, I’m always here to talk. And you’re so not crazy for missing her. I miss her all the time. Good! We’d love you to crash. That is true. Makes him cuter, though. Luna!!!  That was you?! I love you so fucking much. We’re still good, yeah.  Promise, promise! No passing out. Then pillow fort snuggles you shall receive. And if you ever do need something, you’ll let me know, right? Even if it’s more snuggles, even though you don’t snuggle.

[vava-victoria]

A walk it is, then.  I wouldn’t particularly mind getting out of the house, myself.  Well, we certainly wouldn’t want any heart attacks, you lot have made more than enough trips to the hospital in the past month.  I wasn’t trying to dispute his moral center.  He isn’t horrible.  Quite intelligent, even.  Just a little socially inept.  Between you and me, pixie, I don’t quite understand what’s taking the agency so long to come up with a solution.  They’re not collaborating with us, and at the very least, and we’re supposed to be keeping you happy, healthy, and safe.  One out of three is not good enough.

[coralwolff]

Well, then it’s settled. Walk, we shall. I think that’s an overall feeling. No. Now we would not. You can say that again. If I never see another sterile nightgown again it’ll be too soon. Oh. Okay good. He’s very intelligent. And kind when no one else is looking, but...yeah. He is a little socially awkward. R-really? And that’s...that’s weird, right? Like it’s not normally like that? I - you know, I know we don’t agree on a lot and I know some of the people in the house still call you a robot, but...I really appreciate what you’ve done here. And you telling me that. I’m not so convinced you’re not at least mildly fond of us. And...I think I may be a little more than mildly fond of you. Surprise.

[kingxharris]

Sweet. Let’s go make it rain. Oh, well. Hey. I love you a lot. Will do. Awh, has she adopted you too? I’m glad you’ve gotten to chat with her and vice versa. I’m sure she was very excited to have someone to exchange vegan recipes with. Mmmm. Probably not the best person to ask that. Can’t say I’m feeling particularly optimistic lately. For you and Jer? I don’t think it’ll always be like this for you guys, no. You’ll get your fairy tale ending ‘cause we’ll all damn well make sure you do. 

[coralwolff]

Yaaaay! I’m probably way more excited than I should be. Hey. I love you a lot too. Good! Not in so many words, but she’s got a way with making people feel like family. She truly is lovely. I think we both kind of geeked out equally, to be fair. Would it make you feel any better if I said even my optimism is dwindling? Oh, Harris. Have I mentioned lately that I love you a lot? All of you. Jer and I are stupidly lucky to have you all. But, just so you know, I have a vested interest in your fairy tale ending as well. Plus, you get what you give. Karma can be a kickass thing sometimes.

[vava-victoria]

You’re the one making ridiculous contradicting statements, mate.  We could go for a walk, we could go into town?  So long as you feel I’m equipped enough to protect you, and so long as your twitchy guard doesn’t have a problem with it.  As for long term solutions - I have no idea.  We just have to sit tight a little longer.

[coralwolff]

Story of my life right now, love. Nothing in my head makes sense anymore.  Anyway, I could definitely go for a walk. Not sure town would go over so hott, though. Might give Jer a heart attack. And I never said you weren’t perfectly capable. I never would have mentioned anything if I though you weren’t. Hey! Be nice. Nathan’s a good guy. Give him a break. You’d be twitchy too if you’d gone through everything we did. Ugh. This whole sitting tight is really starting to fuck with my ch’i.

[captain-jerxbear-blog]

Well it’s um - I mean - yeah.  I’d um - I’d do anything for you um - Cor.  You um - you know that.  I don’t - I mean - town sounds really far um - far away but um - the backyard feels kind of - safe.  Ish.  Almost.  I’m sure I could even make the um - the food we had on our um - our first date.  I do too though - do you um - do you think that we um - we should do another fort renovation?  Or um - or something?  Maybe?  Possibly?

[coralwolff]

You know, I kind of love you a lot. Not sure I’ve told you that enough lately, but I do. I really, really do. Not sure I could have handled all this without you. So, you know, thank you for that. Oooh, yes. But how about I help this time? I’m actually not a total menace in the kitchen. Absolutely we should! What should we do this time? 

[luna-eclipsex]

I feel you there, baby.  It’s selfish, but I’m glad it’s you guys and not some fuckers that I don’t even like.  Like, I’m glad Case and Nate and Bly - and Nate came back so we weren’t stuck with those other idiots, but then at the same time I’m like hey, if they didn’t, at least they’d be happy right now.  I’ve had way too much time to think about deep shit and I really don’t like it Coral.  Save me from myself.  Sunshiney may be your middle name, I think mine is more like dark fucking cloud.  Yeah?  You doing alright?  Are you going anamanemic on me?  Do I need to shove a steak down your throat?

[coralwolff]

It is, but I mean, we’re only human, right? You can say it. Despite how things ended up. Blythe was family too. I miss her still, you know. It’s okay to miss her. But I get it. It’s bittersweet. Can do. Come crash the fort. Jer’s his own kind of entertainment. And you know if you come sneak your way in between us he’d turn ten shades of red. Am I a horrible girlfriend for finding joy in that? Hey. You’re not a dark fucking cloud. You’re a girl whose been through more shit than she ever should have had to. I’ll survive, baby. Hahaha! No steaks, please. I;m getting food down just fine. How’re you doing, though? You needing anything?