Corvinus Corrax Harvey

https://linktr.ee/CorvinHarvey I am Corvin. He/they. And i draw and paint and other things. . Comms open. I love my humans. My fave hooman is DracoUndead Check him out on deviantart, a cool dood. Early 20’s

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I feel like a dog waiting by the door. Waiting for someone to come home, anyone. Someone to eat with, to share my snacks with, to share things i enjoy with. And when they arent here, all my snacks are just plastic displays, the mess in the kitchen seems to have been left by a child with absent parents who has to feed itself.

I do things to pass the time: calling relatives, chatting with neighbors over whatever new dish i made, play with the cats, buy new games, try new hobbies, even drive out by myself to see new things. But when the sun goes down, i cant deny it anymore. I run out of distractions that keep me away from the door, the window, the driveway. I am stuck in a house full of things yet nobody to share them with, like a dog with untouched toys and passersby that don’t interest me anymore.

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I don’t feel like a valuable person to be around for long.

I feel like it’s only a matter of time when i lose whatever initial appeal people form out of me.

I know it’s called moving on in life. But knowing the name of a passing cloud doesn’t change the cloud.

I feel as though I struggle to maintain this position i have amongst my peers, to retain value and relatability. But after so long it runs out of me.

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12 june 2025 22:50

I was never meant to be anyone’s permanent fixture in their lives.

Im on an island. It is all i know and what i see beyond it is nothing more than the ocean and its horizon in every direction. I know the island more than anyone, as its own permanent fixture. When people wash up or sail here, i show them around and show them how i live well on it. But at the end of the day, they each have lives better suited for them to return to. Lands far more veritable for them, sights like they always dreamed they’d be, as people who actually can dream.

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28 February 2024

Cw: self loathing, imposter syndrome

Why is it so easy to want to be hated? To assume I disgust someone rather than accept that theyd sooner love me? Why must i give myself away, owing it to all around me to do so and being swallowed by guilt when it is kept rather than get me given back?

Why must i be afraid of being worthy of the good things? Of food, of good sleep, of good dreams? The shame that crawls through my skin when i crave the affection of others like some self aware addict. I make myself sick, and why i want to see the same sick through the eyes of others, ill never know for sure.

The death of many and the dying haunt my teeth and every smile i bare for everyone feel like false repentance for my guilt. I am not pure through guilt and tears alone. I question why people dont just hurt me, why im not kicked and kicked again when im down.

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24 February 2024

Cw: oc angst, loss of loved one, grieving, oc lore

**Lone Disciple of the Sun III**

By Frith it hurts,

It hurts so much and it all wells up inside me.

To love is to torment myself when parting.

And there is no amount of tears nor blood left to be traded.

Not for a hollowness like this.

Catastrophe struck like lightning,

My bark still sharp but inside,

Unseen flames eat away at me.

The kingdom has built monuments in your image

But still lifeless in my arms you seem to lie, my king.

How they have found the strength amongst themselves to carry the suns rays,

They know only your passion and warmth in their final memories.

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13 February 2024

Cw: oc angst, grieving, loss of loved one, oc lore

**Lone Disciple of the Sun II**

“Beloved King, when I gaze upon you,

Your face is of a different man.

Your eyes, sunken with stones.

Your warming smile, abandoned.”

“I cannot do this.

I cannot take your place,

I do not deliver your warmth.

My king, i am failing your kingdom.”

“I know a Frithian ruler’s death, Is not the last word,

I know your spirit hears my prayers.

My king, the sun bears itself yet the sea’s waves turned lifeless.

My memory wanes in way of our kingdom’s civil distress.”

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22 February 2024

Cw: self isolation, thoughts of harm

I wanna give into the instinct to seclude myself, to give in, to chew myself up and tear into my skin again. Everyone just outside my door, i cant bring myself to want the way i want the comfort of certain people in my life but are always thousands of miles away. And even if i have them, there is no guarantee that id get better in their presence.

Why must i limit my needs to the few when nutrition is all around me? Why must i forgo what i have gathered and cultivated for what i cannot obtain? Is the love and care of others and to others here not enough for me?

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13 February 2024

Cw: loss of loved one, OC lore

Lone Disciple of the Sun pt. I

“The sun is setting dearest king,

I am your only disciple now”

“The rosy glory of a farewell Such as this,

My heart regrets to accept this crown”

“Oh How your antlers guided the light to our skies,

How your passion blazed from your very eyes.

My king, adept bearer of the sun,

I shine not the same now that you’re done.”

“No longer is the sun here in warmth,

And No longer will morning glories happily spring forth.”

As My king’s strength wanes in my arms

So too my kingdom’s tranquility under fresh stars.”

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13 February 2024

My heart beats so hard, and it feels so weak. It has nothing to beat against and so it quakes my body with every beat.

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11 February 2024

The effort needed to be here in the moment is much too heavy much of the time. There is a fatigue or maybe pain that i sense but can’t quite place. There is nobody to hold as close as id like here and there hasn’t been for years. And im much too afraid to seek this treatment out,

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7 February 2024

You coun’ave known

The poison of the northern shores

The wounds they gave

And the marring of the cold.

And the whispers of the shades were

Bland to me like

The breast of a barren stone

My people rejoice,

But they couln’ave known

We were two lovers

Lost to the war

“War is over, find a new lover”

But i found myself whole

Standing in the horror stained craters.

Gnashing my teeth, no love i’ve spilt greater

Than the warmth of another

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31 January 2024

Food is not but sand in my mouth compared to the burning smoke of the love ive never had.

The nourishment i find in my devotion to the unknown but ultimately human would sate me for millennia, despite it not be in our nature to satisfy. I’d hunger no longer through this if my resolve ever weakened.

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12 December 2023

Cw: animal themes, euthanasia

__Out Back__

Pull the teeth from my skin

From fur, from flesh, from gums, from sin.

Never forget what i am

Your friend, your god, your damnation.

Take the game from my mouth

Lead my halter back to the house

Kick off your boots and grab the knife

Carve out my heart and close my eyes

For that baby bunny,

Oh honey

That’s my baby bunny

Dont you be holdin the life

With the same’nd hold the knife

Up to my baby bunny

Oh honey

My baby never done

Anything that youve gone

As Far as you to

Make us a livin

If thats what you call

A buying time

Look me in the eye

And tell me the lie

That youd never ever eat

Never ever eat my baby.

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Pull the slugs from my skin

From fur, from flesh, from gums, from sin.

Never forget what i am

Your friend, your god, your abomination.

Take the squirrel from my mouth

Lead my halter back to the house

Kick off your boots and grab the knife

Carve out my heart and close my eyes.

As you throw away

Our hard earned game,

For my baby bunny,

My baby bunny.

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9 November 2023

Cw: thoughts of dying

Ive been losing sleep

Over the greatest of nothings

And im helpless to anything

To do with everything

So when it’s time to die

Id like to die with the pain ive made

Because when it is time

Itll be time with me it lays

So don’t put me in blue paper

And don’t give me salt water

Because when it is my time

The pain with me will also die

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1 May 2023

Sun Tea

I may not be worthy to feel the loving gaze of the great shining face, but the dark hollow under the trees will be made to feel just like it when i drink the drink blessed by the sun

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13 February 2023

Cw: thoughts of reckless behavior

Everyones gone home and

I feel like im drowning

In the car as im

The last one to leave the party

And i am partly sure

Theres a problem with me

Between begging with the mirror

And bargaining with my dreams

I am the swirling darkness

Without the moon and stars

The abysmally busy abyss

That visits, outshined where you are

If the stars were my babies

No child of mine would

Ever be a drinker if

No child ever came to be

On the drive back home

My pedal knows my sorrow

My engine, my pain when

Im going 90 in the pouring rain

And im praying

To the abyss

To finally

End this

And im praying

To my car

To let me only

Go so far