hopeless lover

i’m a hopeless romantic boy that loves boys

[cottag3mlm]

“You’re so handsome.” He rubs the soap down my back, running the bath water up with his hand to rinse it off again. I haven’t had any testosterone. I haven’t had any surgeries. And yet he looks at me and says, “You’re such a handsome boy.” And I believe him.

[cottag3mlm]

now i’m not saying i’m unhappy in my current mono relationship and desperately want a poly one because that’s just not true. i’m very happy with one partner. BUT if i had two i could be middle spoon and i just think that’d be kinda neat

[cottag3mlm]

Different from my regular text posts because I turned 18 less than a month ago and- I really do think I finally understand what people mean to each other. Especially- what me and my boyfriend mean to each other. I feel more comfortable with him than anyone else in the world and I just- I trust him and I care about him and I love him. He makes me feel like a boy and its not a forced thing where he calls me a boy just so I’ll do what he wants, he calls me one because he really sees me as one and that is- so validating. Every time he calls me a pretty boy, I get a rush of gender euphoria. It’s amazing. Being with him is incredible and- I get it. I understand what it’s about. Human relations, something I’ve struggled with my entire life, and I get it now

[cottag3mlm]

age regression— little boyfriend that’s older and his caregiver boyfriend that’s younger. the older one is so insistent on being more responsible but the younger just says “oh no, little one. you’re much too small. let me do that for you. let me help, babyboy”

[cottag3mlm]

mom said it’s my turn to be adored and obsessed over by a pretty boy with long hair. give me the controller

[queerhoodies]

happy pride to them

[cottag3mlm]

thinking about my insomnia kicking in and me dragging myself out of bed next to him and into the kitchen. i cook and pack up a bento box for him to take to work the next day. when i’ve put the box in the fridge, he’s woken up to find me in my absence from the bed. he wraps his arms around my waist and tells me to come back to bed, which i willingly do, following him back into our bedroom to lay with him until his day begins and he has to leave, only to spend the rest of my day alone doing things for him

[cottag3mlm]

no because you see, true love would be sitting at the kitchen table with my boyfriend and him helping me with my T shot because i get nervous around needles and having him there to comfort me would make it easier

[degenerate-perturbation]

yeah I’m a nonpracticing woman. I was raised female but I don’t really believe anymore yknow?

[tailornorata]

I’m culturally female. I don’t really believe in one true gender, but I do participate in some of the rituals I was raised in, when I feel like it. And I enjoy participating in the traditions of other genders too sometimes.

[xeduo]

I’m only female on Christmas and Easter, for my parents.

[raevenlywrites]

I’m not really into the whole female dogma, but the aesthetic went off, ya know?

[tatiletotesamaze]

why does this feel so true?

[knamil]

This is funny, but I read the first line like “nonpracticing doctor”. You went to school to become a woman, but you didn’t bother to get your woman license so now you just use your woman knowledge to write particularly detailed murder mysteries.

[degenerate-perturbation]

Yes exactly thank you

[gayspiders]

I want to trace your bones, I want to feel your muscles move beneath your skin, I want to draw over your veins, I want to listen to your pulse

Oh my dear let me kiss your shoulder blades, let me feel your heart beat as I kiss your carotid artery, let me trail kisses up your sternum, let me hold your face and feel your bones

My love let me feel you and the evidence of your life

[cottag3mlm]

i’m sure there’s probably some underlying reason that when he kisses me, i have the sudden yearn for much more but i’ll get to that part of my brain later

[cottag3mlm]

there’s something so wholesome and human to me about bumping noses when kissing. just a quick little kiss but foolishly miscalculating in the moment and bumping the tips of your noses together, maybe even laughing about it when you step back from the kiss

[cottag3mlm]

i very rarely have this thought, but this is one of the times where it’s come up: my boyfriend could pick anyone else. he could pick a cis boy. he could pick a cis girl. is he with me because i look like a girl? does he wish i was a girl? does he wish i was a boy? does he ever see someone cis and want to date them instead? it’s just- it’s stressful. and it hurts when people say i’m faking being trans because they don’t see the struggle i go through when it comes to something as basic as having a partner.

[cottag3mlm]

okay so he gave me this idea so props to him but like- soup making date. just like- hanging out together in the kitchen while he tells me what to do and me being the fool i am, managing to somehow be an idiot and fuck it up but he helps me anyways please

[cottag3mlm]

I swear to you, he is so absolutely perfect and I’m just- a goon trying my best to make him love me and feel loved by me. I don’t deserve him and yet- here he is <3

[cottag3mlm]

I am- so very helplessly in love. I’ve gotten into the very recent habit of listening to songs and imagining dancing (very badly, might I add) with him in the middle of the kitchen and just- messing up a step and falling over and getting to laugh with him when I get back up like please

[cottag3mlm]

god i love him. i love kissing him. i love hugging him. i love holding hand. i love playing with his hair. i love being near him. i love seeing him smile. i love staring into his eyes. i love him so much