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I want someone to give me a hug and tell me it's going to be okay and I don't want it to be me for once.

I can't go my whole life not knowing how to interact with people. Not knowing how to hold a conversation with people without it getting awkward. And you'll say "you will find your people" or "you don't have to fit in" or "you can be your own best friend".

But what if for once in my life I want to fit in. At least a little. I am my own best friend already, but I want another one. Always feeling like the odd one out in every setting does things to you. Am I always going to feel this way?

"i won't remember you died, I will remember you lived."

- Smith & Thell, Year of the Young

#smith & thell #year of the young

the music died that day

i've been grieving you every second of every day since you went to sleep forever. looking, waiting for signs that you're okay where you are now. because what if i miss them?

I've been grieving you every second of every day since you went to sleep forever. It feels like my body is imploding and being torn open at the same time. it feels like dying. I am so scared I'll forget you. Because how dare I? You were my whole life up until this point. You were the only constant I've known. And now you're gone and I'll never see you walk through that door again and how am I supposed to be okay with that? How am I supposed to be okay with any of it? You are missing from my life.

you took a piece of me with you and I will never ever be able to get it back. And I want it with you. But its absence always reminds me of your absence. And it kills me. It kills me every time.

#grief #loss

"and I've moved further than I thought I could (...)"

- Amber Run

#amber run #i found

sadallthedamntime-blog

the-suicide-effect

"Mostly I feel numb. I feel empty on the inside, I feel like I could get hit by a truck and I wouldn't care. My life suddenly has no meaning at all for me."

- What Does Depression Feel Like?

abnormall

i wasnt supposed to live this long

godshideouscreation

i hate myself and want to die but also i am so full of love and i want to spread light but i’m tired of the two conflicting versions of myself fighting.