Bijou: Point taken. I thought about it, not after it happened but before. I just knew it would happen, so I thought about it a lot. What would I do? How would I respond? What would it mean? Could I allow it to happen? When it happened... They would have, actually. Gotten laid. We were... already there. Emotionally, in our relationship. They would have let me, before we bonded. I waited though. I knew they had always wanted it to be that way, so I waited. It is, you're right. I'm hoping this will make them happier too, they're less in the dark. They can feel the things I might have never said.
Bijou: I am busy, but I would have made time for you. This works just as well, it seems you might have things you don't want to be pulled away from too. James Moore. Well, you've picked a difficult one, definitely. Should I assume you are the reason he's been hanging around Council matters again? It's been almost ten years since the last time he was this invested, he's given me quite a bit of useful information since the Guardian Action. That you won him on. I think it's safe to say that you aren't the only one that might be feeling things. I'll ask you this, what home is there to be wrecking? James is notorious for having flings and affairs, I don't see anything that sticks out, aside from my previous comment about Council matters. I'd ask if you thought he felt the same but I think his actions say everything. I think actions speak volumes on all accounts, including the inaction of one party.
Bijou: I'm not the best person to be asking questions about love, but... Let's look at your options. What does life look like both ways? So you step away. What happens? Or you step closer. What happens?
Benji: Good man. So you're saying you could feel it? Like you knew? That it was them? Oh for real? Right on man, you're a boss. And good for them, they always had me worried a little. For what it's worth bro, I'm glad it was you. You're good together. And they bring out the best in you. That's awesome, good vibrations all around.
Benji: Thanks for getting it. Yeah, James...We've been together 24/7 for like 3 weeks straight. We skipped classes all last week. Please hold off on lecturing me for that, we've both been here long past our prime. Yeah. He came to the council dinner because of me. He predicted something might happen. I feel guilty as hell too, he got sick because of me. Because of wanting to be there for me. I know what you're saying, you aren't wrong either. Yeah, he is who he is or...Was I guess. But you know I was one of those flings for like ten years, something close to that. I always wanted it to turn into something more but I figured there wasn't a chance for that, with him removed from the council, laying low here, and seeing half the campus. I figured I was just another number. Guess I was wrong about that too. And yeah, he's been talking to me about Chris, about how he thought they were getting serious maybe, and then Chris just ghosted. Never gave anything back to him. He was...Real depressed when we finally got around to talking about it. That's why I bid on him for the auction. He felt like no one would ever do anything for him, or want to do anything nice for him, or reciprocate any of the effort he always puts in. I wanted to show him that wasn't true. That somebody out here cares for him like that. It changed everything.
Benji: That's why I talk to you though. You don't let emotions get in the way of facts. I'm not so good at that sometimes. Life without James, like things are now and after how they've been for all this time...Fuck man, I can't even think about that shit. I've wanted this man for half my life, Bij. A life with him though...Fuck that's an incredible thought. It's like he's domesticating me. I want to cook and clean and look at houses and shit. Like, who the fuck is the Guarded here, am I right?
