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[countlovable]

Introduction post

Hi! I’m Divine and I’m 18!

I am a two spirit, indigenous first nations lokean! I use he/him.

This blog is just me throwing stuff at the wall and seeing where it goes, primarily devotion stuff but you might get some personal stuff unfortunately— this tends to be me lamenting my sorrows whilst not climbing out the metaphorical bucket lol

Ty for following! Inbox is open if wanna talk about Loki!!!

[countlovable]

Unconventional devotional act

I am not a very highly committed person, it’s one of my biggest flaws but something I’ve come to accept. So in order to make devotional acts fun for me and Loki, I’ve decided on a good one; play competitive on marvel rivals solely as Loki.

Competitive is a dice roll, anything can happen at any moment and you don’t know if your team is good enough to understand if the team comp works against the enemy’s. Its a gamble, its total chaos. Loki as a healer has the ability to CHANGE and completely turn the tides of a situation to increase or decrease the win condition of any fight, Loki’s abilities are all oriented around mischief and his play-style encourages adaptability within the player.

In my eyes, playing competitive and trying to get a higher rank than I’d typically aim for while SOLELY playing Loki is the greatest thing I can devote my time and energy on for Loki. (Plus I’m dogwater so its a genuine challenge.)

Its a devotional act to me because 1. It’s dedicated to Loki, 2. It honours the way he reached out to me, and 3. Playing competitive is a personal trial filled with constant change.

[fur-claws-and-eyeballs]

Friendly Reminder: You don’t have to rawdog Sensory Hell.

Suffering is not a virtue!

You are allowed to accommodate yourself!

You deserve to be comfortable!

Wear gloves to wash dishes and cook meals. Put on headphones to mute your housemate’s TV. Wear house shoes to keep stuff from sticking to the bottom of your feet. Turn off those loud/bright lights.

You don’t have to “suck it up” or “deal with it” or “stop being so sensitive” and FUCK anybody who says otherwise.

This has been a PSA from a 32 yo who’s still trying to unlearn the hateful shit her parents instilled in her….and just had the EASIEST time doing dishes, cleaning out the fridge, and taking out the trash because she wore gloves and house slippers.

[artist-ellen]

SIGYN

In Norse mythology, Sigyn stands as a profound symbol of unwavering loyalty, resilience, and quiet strength. Known as the goddess of victory and loyalty, she is the devoted wife of Loki and the mother of Vali* and Narvi. Far from the passive figure depicted in later retellings, Sigyn is a powerful and enduring presence within the Norse pantheon, often called “Loki’s Treasure” or “The Delight of Loki’s Hall” by modern pagans.

Sigyn is Loki’s most steadfast supporter, standing by him when all others have turned away. This loyalty is most evident during Loki’s brutal punishment for his role in Baldr’s death. After Odin turned Vali into a wolf, the poor boy lost his mind and slaughtered his brother Narvi. Sigyn, though heartbroken, did not retreat in grief. Instead, she rose in defiance.

While Loki was chained beneath the earth, tortured by venom dripping from a serpent’s fangs, Sigyn shielded her husband as best she could, holding a bowl to catch the poison. Unfortunately, she had to leave from time to time to empty bowl, and the poison burned Loki’s flesh, causing him to convulse in agony. His screams are believed to cause earthquakes.

Modern pagans associate her with the fox, an animal symbolizing cunning and adaptability, mirroring her own quiet yet fierce nature.

* Vali Lokison, not to be confused with Vali Odinson, God of Vengeance, son of Odin and the unfortunate Giantess Rindr.

(Text by Delia Gosforth, Illustration by Ellen Artistic)

I am the artist! Do not post without permission & credit! Thank you! Come visit me over on: instagram.com/ellenartistic or tiktok.

These illustrations all made it into a Norse Goddess Coloring Book!

(Print Copy)

There are also PDF copies available!

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FRIGG

Frigg, the Norse goddess of marriage and motherhood, is the wife of Odin and the Queen of Asgard. Renowned for her wisdom and foresight, she wields significant influence over the fates of both gods and mortals. Her deep maternal love is most indisputable in the tragic tale of her son Baldr. Foreseeing his death, Frigg journeyed across the realms, extracting promises from every being not to harm him. Only the mistletoe did not give her his word, as it was too young. However, she deemed it too insignificant to pose a threat. Loki, ever the trickster, exploited this oversight, leading to Baldr’s untimely death by a mistletoe arrow.

Frigg is also the mother of Hodr, who, deceived by Loki, accidentally killed his brother Baldr. Her third son is Hermod, the swift messenger of the Aesir gods. Her father is Fjorgynn, though little is known about him.

Her strategic mind shines in the story of Agnar and Geirröðr. While Odin favored Geirröðr, Frigg championed Agnar, and subtly sabotaged Geirröðr’s chances, ensuring Agnar’s success.

Frigg resides in her hall, Fensalir, accompanied by her loyal handmaidens: Fulla, Sjöfn, Snotra, Lofn, Gefjon, Vár, Hlín, Sága, Eir, Syn, Vör, and Gná.

(Text by Delia Gosforth, Illustration by Ellen Artistic)

I am the artist! Do not post without permission & credit! Thank you! Come visit me over on: instagram.com/ellenartistic or tiktok.

These illustrations all made it into a Norse Goddess Coloring Book!

(Print Copy)

There are also PDF copies available!

(Shopify) (Etsy) (Ko-Fi)

[countlovable]

Apology offerings to Fenrir and Loki

again the finished pieces are solely for them to enjoy, but I really enjoy these!!! It was a blast making them, andI hope they accepted them :DD

[lokisspanana]

Some people: our ancestors were super serious people and their myths are sacred texts that reflect this

The ancient sacred texts: the funniest thing a man or god can do is tie one end of a rope to a goat and the other end to their balls.

[anonymous-robot]

[britomartis]

Since there’s OP didn’t include a caption, here are some links to fundraisers to help our tribe! Thank you!

Navajo Relief Fund: http://www.nativepartnership.org/site/PageServer?pagename=nrf_index

Navajo Water Project: https://www.navajowaterproject.org/

NavajoYES (youth organization): http://www.navajoyes.org/donate/

[theheidfox]

tw: eldritch horror, I guess?

Loki, The Void of Chaos and Ginnungagap - an Personal Gnosis Reflection

As I mentioned here before, one of the very common forms I see Loki is... Void. More specifically, an Eldritch Form of Void - Darkness, too many eyes and teeth, limbs twisting and turning where they should not, the perpetual feeling of drowning and being swallowed whole. His voice echoes from everywhere and the pure energy is so that you truly feel like nothing else exists except... Him.

We also know that, to me, Loki is a primordial god. The pure force of Chaos itself - like the titan Cháos would be to the Hellenic, and the nothingness before the Big Bang would be on a scientific level. He just... is.

So it got me thinking, right? There's many, many associations that could be seen as Loki on the Eddas and Sagas, even if the names are different or most modern interpretations see as different beings - Lopt, for once, or the primordial Jotunn, Logi as the pure energy or fire - existing even before than Odin himself. But, what if we went further back? Loki is a shape shifter and, as I see it, it seems all that happens in the Sagas is all going according to his plan. He could change things, intervene... Odin himself respects him as someone powerful as to be both feared and respected - and we all know blood pacts aren't common there. If Odin did a blood pact with Loki, it was for something. Loki, as the entity Loki that is seen in the Sagas is indeed son of Laufey and Fárbauti - but what if that's just what he presents to be on that particular "reality"(for the lack of a better word)?

Let's talk about Ginnungagap!

First of all, the word itself means "yawning void"

If we take the Voluspá, when the Völva is telling Odin about the creation of the Universe and the Nine worlds, in one of the translations it goes like this:

"There was in times of old, where Ymir dwelt, nor sand nor sea, nor gelid waves; earth existed not, nor heaven above, ' twas a chaotic chasm, and grass nowhere."

As someone who's English is not a first language, nor second, I had to go look what chasm meant, and well, it's void. A void of pure chaos. Sounds familiar? Yep.

I do firmly believe Loki exists before all else, being in his full essence, the pure creation energy of chaos known as Ginnungagap. Of course, His energy is divided - a bit here as Logi, a bit there as Lopt, a bit everywhere as Loki as we know it, but it's all the same.

I, in my own Gnosis, believe Loki is The Primordial Force of Creation and Destruction and everything is on his plan, somehow, even if he himself doesn't know it yet. All changes, all moves, all lives and dies and gets reborn. It's chaotic, pure and powerful. As is everything.

I feel so blessed to be part of this force, so whole when I am in His presence - as I am nothing and part of everything all at once. Praised be the Void, holy be the Chaos.

[countlovable]

Loki sat with me when I was scared, and listened when I was alone.

(Sensitive stuff, sickness)

The first time I asked Loki to stay with me happened around the end of school (may-juneish) I suffered a really severe spike in pain, the right side of my gut felt like something exploded. I was wailing from the pain and freaking out the entire time I was brought to emergency, where the doctors didn’t even know what was happening with me beyond that my appendix may have ruptured but there was no knowing for sure. By the time I was discharged and brought home it was already night, having been in pain for hours with only periodic relief in the form of strong pain medication.

That night was the worst time of my life, not knowing what was wrong or why my body was deciding to hurt me felt terrifying. I laid alone in my living room on a fold out bed wondering if this was it, that I would never graduate all because I couldn’t handle eating anything outside of my safe food category. I blamed myself for that a lot, I cried because I didn’t think I would graduate or ever fulfill my dreams.

When the pain flared up, I cried for my mama; but I didn’t cry for my mom. I was crying for Loki, praying and begging that he would sit there just to be there with me so I wouldn’t be alone. I didn’t want to die alone, I didn’t want to sleep because I didn’t want to be alone if I passed. Suddenly my cat came to curl up beside my head, she wasn’t immediately cuddly like how she usually was and she resisted any attempt to cuddle. She just laid next to my head, and purred. It felt like he sent her to comfort me, to ensure I wasn’t alone when I fell asleep. Loki gave his presence when I cried for him like a child, and gave me what i needed the most; company.

He is truly the only parental figure I call to when I’m afraid, even when I should call my parents I find my first thought being to tell Loki. (Although this is probably why my mom is horribly sick, I always cried to Loki about how mean she is lmfao..)

[countlovable]

Hey, sorry for ignoring dms I got a concussion.

(mild. But I’m dramatic, and refuse to get off the phone rn even tho it hasn’t been a full week of recovery. Im stubborn and will keep shocking myself on the electric fence.)

So! Just a life update, I got double concussed on the 3rd and then the 11th respectively; getting treated with the 11th

“hey Loki im so scared about not being able to get help it’s already been a week and I don’t know if they’re be able to do anything about it :(“

gets fucking bonked hard in the head 12 hours later and promptly reminds my mom I need to get checked out…. LMFAO

[countlovable]

You know Stan-Lee and other comic writers never read the eddas when they have Loki find Sigyn’s affections to him disgusting, sorry is he not called Sigyn’s arm burden???? You’re telling me that Loki would use and emotionally manipulate sigyn????? Marvel Loki could not be any further than actual Loki.

[withfangedfury-deactivated20260]

Hail to Loki,

My praises for the wordsmith and his infamous silver tongue.

Hail to Loki who twists reality to his convenience.

My love for that god of many faces and many names.

Hail the god that walks among us in times both joyful and full of sorrow.

To the liberator of stagnation and inciter of change.

Praise be to He who walks among flames and returns unburnt;

For the Bound God who turns order on its head and spares not even the gods his ire.

Hail to Loki of the Outcasts and might he always be there to light my way.

[devildarlins-deactivated2026041]

Helpols anonymous called you a bigot, did you see? I don't know if there's a misunderstanding or something, but your addition to their post didn't seem bigoted to me...

Huh??? No I did not see??? I just noticed they blocked me solely because of this??

Did they assume that because I said it reminded me of Islam? 😭 Guys I'm an ex sunni Muslim and I'm heavily anti Islamophobia (both of which I'm very loud about), me connecting something to my own experiences that happen to be within a religion that most people aren't used to does not mean I hate that religion or that I'm a bigot?

This is exactly why ex Muslims are afraid to talk about things on this site. The one singular time I don't clarify that I'm an ex Muslim and that I'm not calling for the killing of all Muslims, someone decides to assume the worst and call me a bigot. I mean really. So many leftists (and I say this as a leftist, lest you people think I'm a bigot again) say they're so open for everyone and anyone with religious trauma but when it's an ex Muslim suddenly y'all wanna group us with MAGA and all that be so fucking fr

[devildarlins-deactivated2026041]

Also that was not me saying anything Islamophobic either. This is exactly what I said:

Because it's reflective of my own experiences from when I lived in an Islamic country and was surrounded by Shari'a law. It's reflective of my experience with attraction and how 98% of my relationships have been horrible for me because of the way I was raised in this mindset, because I considered love and attraction to be a bad thing. It's reflective of something I still experience because I still struggle to find people attractive without feeling like I'm objectifying them or being a creepy perv.

Whether you like it or not, I have religious trauma with Islam. Am I a bigot for having religious trauma and talking about it?

It's quite literally part of Islam, it's in the fine print. I wasn't saying "this is why Islam is horrible", I was pointing out a flaw in a very old religion. There are flaws in several old religions. Pointing them out does not mean I'm an Islamophobe, and in saying that it is, you're severely watering down real and scary cases of Islamophobia.

In case y'all need me to spell it out

I do not hate Islam. I do not hate Muslims. I talk about my experiences sometimes and I connect things with my experiences. It's possible for people to have religious trauma from things other than Christianity, believe it the fuck or not.

[theheidfox]

ok but me and König from MW3 holding hands and eating chocolate when

[countlovable]

I still find it funny on my first month embracing Loki literally couldn’t think of anything but him, I was fighting myself trying to keep myself sane and trying to think about literally anything else because I didn’t want to think about him in situations where I felt spiritually impure… 😭

I seriously cannot tell what was happening that month, I’m glad It’s lesser now where I don’t feel extremely excited and whimsy to afraid of getting divine judgement or smth…. de-Christianization is a bitch lowkey

[theheidfox]

My beloved darling @countsleepula got the assignment correctly and DM me with a photo of Keanu's new movie poster they saw, because of course they thought of me.

That, precisely, is the print I wanna leave on people. To be remembered by Loki and anything that involves that 61 year old Lebanese Canadian man I would commit unspeakable acts for.

"Oh but he's okd enough to be your father" I DON'T CARE.

(Also, I do have a extended theory that if any visual representation of Loki would be done in the 90s, it would be Keanu)

[countlovable]

Its me!! I’m the beloved darling!!!