Hello world, my name is Chan! I'm a tarot reader, digital and nail artist! Welcome to my blog :)
I’ve been doing tarot reading for 10 years and a beginner nail artist, wow! The main reason I started reading tarot is because I always loved the practice and wanted to connect more with myself. As I began this practice it partially led me on a journey of self-discovery and healing. Through this I (re)discovered my love for art, astrology and journaling and would love to share this as well.
I also would like to share my art journey as well! Ever since I was young, I loved the arts. So, when I began to make digital and nail art, I felt like sharing my creativity and whimsy with the world. 💛
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☕️✨ What Type of Reader Am I? ✨☕️
My readings are mainly focusing on self-development, connection, and fun. I do my best not to give advice due to feeling: it’s a one size fits all situation. Instead, I’d rather ask in-depth questions that can lead to some clarity. If needed then I will be talking about my experiences in hopes it can help with the reading.
I’m going to be transparent — I am direct. If it needs to be said it will be said. However, I do my best to deliver the message in a more lighthearted and gentle way possible. I personally do not believe in being blunt (i.e rude in delivery) as it (un)intentionally leads to being harmful than helpful. I also don’t use Ai!
‘everything happens for a reason/for you not to you’
‘starseeds’ and more of those terminologies
masculine/feminine energies
manifesting/law of Attraction
Claiming someone is a Narcissist (NPD is a serious personality disorder and shouldn’t be tossed around)
I am not going to be using any new age spirituality terminologies because they aid in spiritual bypassing: washes over systemic issues like: racism, ableism, victim blaming, classism, and heteronormativity. They do more harm than “help”. I want to make a safe space for everyone. If you do not like it, leave.
what people don’t understand about how adhd is disabling is that it’s not just getting temporarily distracted from, like, school work or hobbies. it’s getting distracted/being unable to motivate yourself to go to the doctor, eat regularly, do hygiene tasks, etc. it’s not knowing when or how long it will take you to do something, ANYTHING, and in many cases that thing is taking a shower or keeping your house from turning into a biohazard. it’s about being fundamentally incapable of controlling your attention and focus on anything, even and especially things you need to do to survive.
sexism in medicine kills people. racism in medicine kills people. fatphobia in medicine kills people. queerphobia in medicine kills people. classism in medicine kills people. ableism in medicine kills people.
do not downplay people’s fears about being mistreated because they are a part of a marginalised group. it is a matter of life and death and you should be angry about it.
Addressing Racism within the Asian and Spiritual Community
TW: Racism, Anti-Blackness, Death
This post is about addressing anti-blackness and the recent trial of Rick Chow not being found guilty after murdering and racial profiling a 14 year old child, Cyrus Carmack Belton.
If you hadn’t heard the news Rick Chow, a 3 time offender, is an owner of the grocery store who falsely accused Cyrus Carmack Belton of stealing a water bottle, chased, and shot him in the back.
As a Southeast Asian and Spiritual Content Creator I want to address the racism in these Asian and Spiritual communities. For those who say, “why is everything about politics” it’s because everything is about politics! Racism in spirituality is a number 1, top tier concern! New age spirituality involves taking from mainly Indian, Black, Asian, Middle Eastern cultures and wrapping it up as a new age spirituality. To top it off poc who try to connect back to their spiritual roots were and are still shamed for this because we don’t follow the religion forced upon us. Let me say this I think it’s is odd that nonblack spiritual content creators don’t raise awareness or speak up about injustice around the world when we talk about connecting with people, community, and love. We talk about expressing who you are and facing the uncomfortable. So why not unpack and call out the racism, the ableism, sexism, and homophobia all the other things happening around us? We have to hold each other accountable I refuse to look the other way and be willfully ignorant. I also refuse to not speak up or at least raise awareness about the injustice we face. If you’re still reading this and saying “why am I political” quite frankly unfollow and block me. I made it abundantly clear that I want to create a safe space for everyone.
I want to address the Asian community (not just the Asian American diaspora but the entire global Asian community) of the disgustingly rampant racism, specifically anti-blackness within the community. I’m going to be so honest here, growing up in the Asian community there is so much anti-blackness and ignorance it was so sickening especially when it comes to the older generations; I’ll never stop calling it out and educating. It’s a common theme that the Asian community continues to perpetuate the same racism that white people give to black people. The racism and anti-blackness in the Asian community is so disgusting to the point I sometimes really don’t want to be associated to the Asian community yet at the end of the day I am Asian and it’s my part to address all the bigotry head on and hold the community accountable.
I understand why some black people don’t trust the Asian community to the point of boycott Asian owned businesses (I am in full support of the black community boycott Asian own business because they shouldn’t feel uncomfortable shopping there and it’s the fact that Asian businesses tends to profit off of black culture) and look at us the same as they do white people because of how common the Asian community aligns themselves to whiteness, it genuinely feels like the Asian community is being brainwashed to hate other communities, especially the black community. To the people who are defending and applauding Rick Chow for “winning the case” is so disturbing, you’re saying that you’re happy and support someone murdering a child; that is so wrong and inhumane. For those who are saying “oh well he was holding a gun” that still isn’t a reason for someone to shoot a child! He was a 14 year old child! I am disappointed, that the Asian community is being silent. I am greatly and will always be disgusted of people who are being “neutral”, or are supporting (Racism) Rick Chow and his family. This is why we have to hold the Asian community accountable: we need to do better when it comes to addressing and educating racism (especially anti-blackness) so stuff like this doesn’t happen again. No one should be ashamed and killed for who they are, no matter the age. This is one too many times that another black child got murdered by someone from the asian community.
For those who are scared to speak up, I get being scared of confrontation but you have to remember you have a voice (obviously assess the situation to speak up because I know some people can be truly violent and aggressive, hence 3 time shooter Rick Chow). We cannot enable and turn away when things get uncomfortable, you have to think of racism like an infection: the longer you ignore it the worse it’ll become. This especially applies to Asian creators who have a platform: you have a voice and a community — do your part and put in the work, educate, and speak up! Time and time again the Asian community has hurt not just our own community (because let’s be real honest there’s not even solidarity within the Asian community; though that’s a thing for another time) but to other non-Asian communities especially the black community for the sake of upholding the model minority myth and trying to gain proximity to whiteness. Again we have to do better and not be spineless. There needs to be Justice for Cyrus Carmack Belton and support for the Belton family anyway we can. I want to add that our support shouldn’t just be for Cyrus Carmack Belton and his family, our support and accountability should extend and be for the whole entire black community as well as other minority communities, always and forever.
On my behalf of the Asian community, I want to apologize to the black community. I am sorry for the ongoing systemic racism and dehumanization of what Asian and nonblack people put you through. You shouldn’t have to prove that you are deserving to be treated and seen as human. You shouldn’t have to feel like you’re constantly isolated and fighting injustice alone. You deserve to live on this earth safely and peacefully. You deserve to be loved and be who you are freely. It’s our job as the Asian community to address the anti-blackness within the Asian community and outside of our community.
Usually I dismiss numbers UNLESS it’s specific to the reading buuut today I felt like this was saying something bc it was pretty rare to have double repeating numbers. I took it as a sign of being on the right path 🤷🏽♀️
Managed to make my press ons wooo I love this color but tbh a pop of orange really would’ve made this set pop out but idk how to incorporate that also this set reminds me of frutiger aero either way it’s so cute!
NOOOOO I MISSED MY OPPORTUNITY TO PUT “BELIEVE IT!” ON MY JOURNAL PROMPT THATS LITTERALLY THE ICONIC WORDS HE SAYS AHHH!!! 🚶🏽♀️…. lucky enough I can edit that lol
🍥Journal Prompt: Make Your Dreams A Reality, Believe It! 🍥
Mini two-part Series of: Facing the Waterfall of Truth Pick a Card
“Cultivate Your Hunger Before You Idealize” - Wind by Akeboshi
I loved doing this mini series and I loved the overall theme!! If you watched Naruto this guy loves ramen and without Iruka and Ichiraku Ramen guy he really would’ve turned into a villain 🤧 anyway this anime is so good and I recommend it. Like genuinely this is the type of anime about friendship and self acceptance if you look deeper into it. Ugh I love it so much.
🍥 What is your dream that you'd like to accomplish in your life? Is it your dream or is it someone else’s dream?
🍥 Why do you dream your dream, what made you want to chase them?
🍥 How do you define success and how would it look like once your dream is successful?
🍥 Name one thing/fear that is stopping you from achieving your dream. Why do you have that fear?
🍥 What is one small step you can do to reach your dream? Will it make an impact?
🍥 What was one goal you accomplished or almost accomplished? How did you feel during that process? Does it give you hope that you’re able to achieve your current dream?
🍥 If you were to plan your month for your goal, what will it be like?
🍥 Which one of my mistakes taught me the most this past year when it came to achieving my dreams/goals? What did it teach me?
🍥 Why did this dream become more important to me recently than ever before?
🍥 When was the last time I remember being mean or felt jealous of someone who achieved their dreams/goal? why did I react this way?
🍥 What compliment and support would you give yourself to encourage you to continue your dreams?
A two part series that includes a PAC & Journal Prompt (in the next post)! gotten some inspiration from Naruto and I think the anime has some pretty good messages, specifically about acceptance and believing in yourself.
Which part of you needs a little more loving? How can you honor your needs and wants? What does your authentic self want you to know?
🎉 Announcement 🎉: Coziercloud is officially open! WOOOOO! If you'd like to book personal readings, please visit my shops on Etsy & Ko-fi.
🚨 Disclaimer 🚨 Readings are for entertainment only! I am not responsible for any decisions. My readings are not a substitute for professional advice and will refuse service for the following: legal services, health, mental health, finance, pregnancy, past lives, death, sexuality, child-rearing, privacy breaches, or the lottery.
Added Description: all my readings are timeless and meant to reach those who resonate to the messages.
Pile 1
Which part of your needs a little more loving?
Tarot: Knight of Pentacles, King of Pentacles (r)
Oracle: cactus, Moonstone(r)
Hello Pile 1, so what I am getting is that you have huge expectations when it comes to the material/physical stuff. Honestly I do feel like this is my business pile. The knight of pentacles, to me, represents being in the middle of a journey. It’s all about the process and wanting to better yourself, this card is about being grounded will trying to make your wish come true. Now that it’s paired up with the King of Pentacles in reverse; it feels like you might not be recognizing the current you who is trying to build the foundation. The part of you the needs a lot more loving is the part that tries and is persists after every “downfall” or “failure”. You try and try again. That deserves so much praise, especially in a world that values convenience. You have a lot of endurance and resilience when it comes to your dreams. It shows that you aren’t going to give up on yourself and the outcome you want.
Now the draw back is creating high expectations for yourself. For ex: you open a business but realize you aren’t getting any sales. Yes it can be discouraging when no one buys and you end up comparing yourself to other businesses. Here’s the thing, every business owner has their struggles so it really isn’t best to compare, right? I feel like that is what kind of eats you and then you start to become judgemental of yourself, which now adds to the cycle of self-doubt. However it makes me sad that you feel this way! Trust somewhere down the line you will meet your goal and if not then still congratulate yourself for trying and having that bravery! It takes so much guts to do something and out it out there! Again nothing is set in stone so why not give yourself a pat on your back? Why not thank yourself for trying?
How can you honor your needs and wants?
Tarot: 6 of Cups, Queen of Swords, The Magician
Oracle: Aromatherapy, Rest
Words of Affirmation is a way of honoring yourself. Remember sometimes the words you say to yourself can impact your emotional and mental health if you continue to say it enough. So when you say things like “I’m creative”, “I’m Brave”, “I’m Encouraging and Intelligent” you will notice how it influences your work flow. It seems like you have everything in you to fine a way to make things work. You have knowledge and things to get what you’re putting effort on. Another thing I’m getting is to get in touch with your childlike self for creativity. They may hold the key to helping you get out of a rut. Perhaps you’re scared to put things out there but remember the saying “hidden things won’t be found” so if you want people to also take notice on what you’re doing then don’t be afraid to put yourself out there. If people have destructive criticism or downright horrible energy to you then don’t pay any mind. You worked hard on yourself and on the thing you’re building.
Rest is one of the top ways to really honor and help yourself. When if comes to rest – it lets your body relax and lowers down your stress. You may notice some aches in the body, even tho it is admirable that you work hard, you have to remember to take your breaks. You are a human after all you need to live, love, laugh too you know? Lol. Another thing is Aromatherapy so this is kind of my all or nothing section of people (?) this card specifically came as reversed but it also didn’t feel completely right either. So if scents help you relax then by all means do what you can to make yourself feels cozy. If you don’t like scents be sure to clean out or put away things that is a distraction.
What does your authentic self-want you to know?
Tarot: 5 of Pentacles, 2 of Pentacles
Oracle: Dawn, Opossum
“Hey you, you know you don’t have to do things all alone all the time. Don’t you think our (hyper)independence makes things harder for us? Sometimes doing thins alone tends to set us back than it is helpful. Don’t forget your friends and family alright? You have so many things to accomplish and it would be nice to celebrate these tiny and big wins, don’t you think? Just don’t lose hope when things are going a little unsteady, okay? Just because there are endings doesn’t mean it’s all over. Remember there is always the next day – a new beginning or a nice reset that’s needed. Our gardens die during the winter but they grow because it’s a fresh start. Doesn’t it sound nice? I find that when all the stress is present, something needs to end. So don’t be afraid of having a fresh start. Things need to change sometimes and that is okay. But don’t lose faith in yourself and other people, okay?"
Alrighty pile 1 big thanks for your attention and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!
Pile 2
Which part of your needs a little more loving?
Tarot: Queen of Wands, 9 of Swords
Oracle: Rat, Grasshopper (r)
Hi Pile 2! So honestly I think what needs a little more loving is your passionate side. You may also be a bit impulsive but I’m assuming there is a lot of excitement behind this. I don’t know if people put you down because you’re a lot more extroverted and aren’t afraid to be yourself, but I will say fuuuck them for making you feel small! Take up space! There is so much room on earth it is okay to be yourself and lets be honest not a lot of people like to be themselves anyway. You have so much creativity and I think I’m specifically picking up on your creativity? You may be into the fashion and arts – may even wear art pieces or make your own. Either way you are a creative individual who shouldn’t be afraid to express themselves. People tend to hate what they don’t understand ow follow what the new hype is, so why not pave the way instead?
If you’re around people who constantly mock and bully you, of course it’ll feel lonely right? But trust me there are people who will absolutely love you for you. You’re fun to be around and well a ball of light! You’re someone who thrives on sharing your inner world to the outer. When you do move forward on making friends or creating things, don’t be afraid of being out there. Remember not a lot of people have the courage to be themselves and are afraid of even creating things due to being perceived. So don’t beat yourself up for expressing yourself, you deserve to be who you are and if people don’t like it then they can just go somewhere else.
How can you honor your needs and wants?
Tarot: 10 of Pentacles, Ace of Pentacles
Oracle: Sweet Treat, Hydrate, Nourish Your Temple
Well hydrating is definitely the most important thing because when the nourish the temple card came up I immediately think “oh they need to drink water”. So definitely carry a water bottle and if you need those types of bottles that measures water maybe that’ll help? Nourishing the temple I feel like it’s an all around thing – like complimenting and thanking your body for doing what it can and helping you for day to day life. Telling yourself you are beautiful and liking the little things you see on your body. It’s doing your best to eat healthy even if veggies come in frozen bags and cans. It’s washing your body and stretching. It’s also honoring what you crave and when your body says it’s enough. So if you want that sweet treat, why not eat it? It’s not like you’re having it every single meal right? Have something that makes you feel loved like the favorite desserts you had in childhood.
I genuinely don’t endorse over consumption but I do want to say is: shop with intention. The more that you start to understand what and why you like, how your body and mind feels toward it – the more it’s easier to shop and not worry about your wallet. So for example: lets say you’re exploring yourself and you like aesthetic numbers 1, 2, 3, 4 and you start to buy all these things. Instead why not look into why you like it and does it resonate with you or is it the algorithm curating it for you? Is the style what you personally like or does the public like it on you? Later when you start to realize “hey I like aesthetic 1,3,4 because this reminds me of myself and how I feel,” you start to understand that this is what you want and feel good buying it. Also don’t be afraid to create your own things as well. It’s a nice way to save money and engage I your creativity.
What does your authentic self-want you to know?
Tarot: Six of Wands, Knight of Pentacles
Oracle: Scorpio, Weeping Willow
“We’ve been working on ourselves a lot and I wanna say that I am so proud of us! Look we’re done molting and if people don’t like our new shells then so be it. Though it will kind of sting but that’s okay we’ll just meet new people, you know? Why not have fun and just be ourselves? We’re creators after all that means we find beauty in things. We create art with things that are also often forgotten, isn’t that cool? I’m all for feeling our emotions but lets be honest we can’t stay in them for ever. We got to accept what will happen even when it freaking suuucks butt. Though I do know we can make it, we can do our best as long as we don’t give up on ourselves. So lets unlearn our negative core beliefs. Who said we aren’t supposed to like ourselves? Who said to dim our light? Whop has the right to condition us to hate ourselves? I know it’s sad that people didn’t support us but as long as we support ourselves and find people who accept us then it’ll be okay. So lets give ourselves a lot of love, kay?”
Alrighty pile 2 big thanks for your attention and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!
Pile 3
Which part of your needs a little more loving?
Tarot: The Emperor (r), 3 of Pentacles, The Sun
Oracle: Hyena, Fog
Hey pile 3! Maybe you might come from pile 1 but there is a difference in this pile. So for pile 1 they deal with hyper independence but with you I feel like there is a need to control things due to your perfectionism. I feel like what needs more loving for you is your ability to collaborate with people in your circle. It also doesn’t have to be just about work but with people you love, value, and overall feel like a community. I don’t know how your family treated you – maybe unexpected things keep happening or you were at a helpless state in your life that caused control issues. So from then on you felt like its best to keep people from arms length so they don’t “detour” you form your plans. However, what needs more loving is your need and want to create a community.
I feel like childhood really was a big thing for you, funny enough the character Gaara also had traumatic things happen in his childhood, and it shaped your way on how to interact with people. You don’t need to feel ashamed to want company and to be with people who accept you. It’s okay to ask for help or to rely on others. I don’t know who made you feel bad for wanting connection but it’s a human thing to want that. What really needs loving is your wanting love and connection. You were on your own for too long so why put yourself down for wanting friend, family, and a partner? It may be confusing to navigate connections but you will learn and find people who enjoy your presence. What I do think that needs to be taken care of is the controlling part – no one likes to be controlled or to take complete control to get an outcome, its so exhausting right? What we can only do is control our actions and behaviors and to adjust accordingly
How can you honor your needs and wants?
Tarot: 10 of Wands, Judgement, King of Cups (r)
Oracle: Dream Journal, Aromatherapy, Create Art
So pile 3 I think this might be the start of your healing journey. A way to honor your needs and wants is to think about what baggage you’re caring with you. How much it hurts your back and what stops you from trying to create or continue your connections. There is a lot of self evaluation and reflection being done, especially when it comes to how it makes you feel. What made you feel numb? What made you feel like the best way to protect yourself is to control everything? How did these things effect you? Are the people in your life still trying to have control over your life? Stuff like that but do be careful to not over analyze yourself because that can turn into nitpicking. If you’re able to definitely think about therapy and seeking out professional help.
Dream journals can help you realize what you do want and need. Now dream journals doesn’t just apply to your dreams as you sleep. It could mean the life you dream of, the things you want and strive to have. Creating are can be helpful, there’s also no need to be a perfectionist about it either, often times art wants to be what it wants and that’s a beautiful thing. By creating art it can help you process your emotions, it shows what you’re visibly feeling and how you “define’ it. Aromatherapy may also help you out as well – maybe lighting up your favorite scented candle can help you feel present. It might even be used as a way to recall pleasant memories.
What does your authentic self-want you to know?
Tarot: 3 of Cups, 2 of Pentacles, The Hanged Man
Oracle: Jellyfish, Clown fish & Anemone (r)
“One day we will have the friends and family we want. Just know you don’t have to be afraid of starting over. We have outgrown and realized the connections we had with our self and other people are not healthy. I want to thank you for starting to heal and becoming more intentional with who you want in your circle. The more you understand yourself and value creating healthy dynamics the more we begin to see the scales balancing. When we see something happen that is not within our control we start to think rather than react, we think about the other person and ourselves. We’ve become wiser and grown. I want us to be happy about our progress because back then we hated unpredictability because it was always a mess but now I understand how to go with the flow. I know when and where I need to be in control and when it isn’t needed. Life feels easier that way. If you’re worried about our connections – there is no need to worry the people who love and accept us are on there way but for now lets focus on healing.”
Alrighty pile 3 big thanks for your attention and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!
Hi everyone I might have some delays with the reading for the upcoming Sunday (5/31) due to a family emergency. I’ll do my best to try to get it out earlier but as of right now I am not too sure, thank you for your patience :)
♡⊹˚₊ ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ You & Them: Insight into the Connection ₍ᐢ. .ᐢ₎ ₊˚⊹♡
How do you feel about the connection? How do they feel about the connection? What do they want to say?
Before I start this reading, this is for couples. I also want to tell you that if you're in an abusive/ toxic connection do not use this reading to cope or to further any perception you have on your relationship/person. My readings aren’t used for abuse/toxicity, I will never ever encourage you to stay in that type of relationship and would actually advise seeking professional help and to find someone you can trust to help you.
Divider by: @nana-s-request & pics by: Tangymoots
🎉 Announcement 🎉: Coziercloud is officially open! WOOOOO! If you'd like to book personal readings, please visit my shops on Etsy & Ko-fi.
🚨 Disclaimer 🚨 Readings are for entertainment only! I am not responsible for any decisions. My readings are not a substitute for professional advice and will refuse service for the following: legal services, health, mental health, finance, pregnancy, past lives, death, sexuality, child-rearing, privacy breaches, or the lottery.
Added note: this reading is on the heavier side so I made sure to try to make it a bit softer. So viewer discretion is advised.
Added Description: all my readings are timeless and meant to reach those who resonate to the messages.
Pile 1
How do you feel about the connection?
Tarot: 10 of Cups/Wheel of Fortune, 5 of Cups/Devil, 6 of Swords (r)
Oracle: Moth, Fog, Rat(r)
Hello pile 1 so I want to say you're reading feels a bit heavy. What the cards are showing me is that you are wishing for the hard times to move along for the better, but life keeps getting in the way. It almost feels like some “being” is getting a kick out of your misfortunes. It feels like no matter how many times you try to fix this situation; another thing occurs which feels like there is no break. I also feel like this feeling heavily deals with yourself. What I mean by that is; you feel ready. You know you’re ready, but you feel like something is lurking.
I hope it doesn't feel like fear mongering, what I'm saying is you might feel like there's an underlying issue that hasn't been addressed. It’s like this relationship is something you wanted – it’s fulfilling and it makes you want to go forward. But maybe the past or your wounds are showing up? It feels so confusing, it makes you wonder if you’re worthy enough. If they like you for you or what you can give them. Either way it triggers some type of doubt within yourself, and it feels like you can’t get through it or you can’t change.
And I get that – it’s so scary to finally get what you always wanted and being with someone who loves you while having the fear of messing it all up. I may be a stranger on the internet, and I have no idea what you’re going through but I do know is that during these times we need to give ourselves a little extra love and to give our self some type of recognition even if it's for simply acknowledging we’re doing our best. If you can or are working through this just know your efforts are recognized. Sometimes we just need to stop for a second – during the chaos within our lives we need to take that beak to ground our self. If it’s a nice shower, a meal, or just a moment of silence, it can help get something going for us, right? The fog might be here, but it won’t last forever. And if you need help don’t be afraid to ask a loved one. You don’t have to go through things alone. Also, the Wheel of fortune/10 of cups are here – this time will pass but right now there needs to be some gentleness and care.
How do they feel about the connection?
tarot: Justice, The Sun (r), The Emperor (r), 4 of Pentaclesoracle: Hyena (r), Kiwi (r), Aurora
Pile 1 your person does feel happy in the connection, but they aren’t happy about the lack of control they have in terms of showing up. With the 4 of pentacles it does show they’re trying to keep this relationship going (555 as I’m seeing this) by tying to give what they can. Like they're holding this relationship as tightly as they can. They’re aware that they aren’t able to give 30% more in the relationship at the moment, they really wish they can, but their circumstance is taking that away. It could be things out of their control that they have to focus on – let's say there’s an upcoming event in your connection, but something happened in their personal life that demands their attention. They’re trying to balance things, trying to give what they can to you at the moment as best to their abilities.
It feels frustrating to them because they do want to give you more but they’re unhappy with their current situations. I think they’re at a point where they’re letting the universe or whoever they believe in to help handle it (basically wishing to the stars). However just because they’re in this situation doesn’t mean they’re going to give up. They are currently doing their best to pull their weight. Even when its dark and they hoped to see the sun, they at least got to see the aurora which gives them some optimism. They at least got a glimpse of hope from seeing the light in the darkness. They know you and this relationship is deserving of more and they’re doing everything they can to meet you halfway. They may not be giving you 100% all the time but they're giving you all what's left; think 60% or whatever percentage they have left.
Whatever major thing they’re going through right now, they’re working on balancing it. Even though when there is a lot on their plate, they still want to let you know they're here and still putting effort. They see that this connection as worth it and want to sustain it. They definitely don’t want to give the bare minimum, it’s just that right now responsibilities (possibly having to do with maternal side of the family) are piling up. Things may feel distant, but they are putting all the effort they can in the connection. They are heavily emphasizing that they care about the connection.
What do they want to say?
Tarot: 10 of Pentacles, The Empress, Judgment (r)
Oracle: Bat, Fennec Fox, Starfish
“I sense it, I don’t blame you for how you feel. What we both feel is so valid. I wish our circumstances are better but for now we need to adapt. Can we try to adapt during these hard times, can we still choose each other? But if you don’t want to...I completely understand because you deserve to have more. Truthfully, I’m scared about us ending – I want to nurture the connection. I want to treat you out more, to shower you with my love. I’m trying to find a way to give us what we need and to give us some time. I’m trying to hold things together; I'm trying so hard. I want us...I see us growing old together. I see us healing together and for our connection growing stronger. I want us to have a new beginning where we can finally have a world to our self, just you and I. It might take a little longer but know that I’m working hard and giving you, our relationship everything I got. I won’t give up on us. Please believe in us.”
Summary: the both of you are currently going through a lot in your own lives where it’s taking away attention within your love lives. However, both of you are dear to each other and it seems to be that there is a lot of care and love. It's you twos own choice if you want to continue, don’t let a stranger online and some picture cards influence your answer. This is something that requires a lot of thinking and talking with your partner. I will say this there is a lot of uncertainty between you two due to outside circumstances but there’s also a lot of tenderness here. Both of you are thinking of each other, worrying for each other and wanting the best for one another. I don’t know if social media is influencing you but maybe it's best to take a break from the apps so it’s easier to sort things out. I do see a lot of hope in here and a lot of fulfillments despite the current circumstances. Just know that in this reading it feels like you two are still choosing each other. I wish you two the best of luck.
Alrighty pile 1 big thanks for your attention, and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!
Pile 2
How do you feel about the connection?
Tarot: Ace of Pentacles (r), Page of Wands (r), 10 of Wands
Oracle: Frog, Ocelot (r), Dawn (r)
Hello Pile 2! So within the relationship there’s something that has to do with finances and action – maybe even passion? Either way your current energy towards the relationship feels like you’re exhausted. It feels like burnout and not having time with this connection. Perhaps, like pile 1, outside responsibilities are becoming so demanding that you feel like there isn’t any time for connections at the moment. At the same time you feel like you just want a day to yourself yet feel obligated to show up.
I will always blame the media for relationship conformity: here is the thing relationships are so deeply personal, right? So when you add the weight of outside responsibilities like maintaining your connection to family and friend, making sure you’re still surviving within this economy, and sustaining yourself in terms of your overall health. It is so much work and it can be difficult. And I just want to remind you to not beat yourself up because you’re struggling to make ends meet. Things happen and when things unexpectedly happen it just sucks. So what I’m saying is Relationships have so much effort and maintenance than what the media shows. Relationships aren’t based on theories or whatever the media shows. It’s just about wanting to choose to grow and make memories with each other. It’s about creating a safe space for each other that’s filled with deep love and acceptance (cheesy I know lol) That how I see it at least.
No one will blame you for wanting to take a breather now and again. Yes relationships require two (or more if you’re poly) people but also remember both of you are human. You two may need some alone time to recuperate and sometimes that’s whats needed to show up in a relationship. For example, my bf and I need days to our self since we’re both introverted people but we communicate that before it happens. It’s like that saying: fill up your own cup so you can be able to give some water to others. If you feel safe enough (and I genuinely hope you do) to have that conversation with your partner then by all means have it.
How do they feel about the connection?
Tarot: King of Pentacles, 10 of Wands, 8 of Wands
Oracle: Shark (r), Clownfish & Anemones (r), Snow
Your person fells hesitant and almost anxious about which direction they and this connection will go. They do feel a bit out of the loop since things keep piling up but they’re definitely trying to decrease the burdens within the connection. Right now it seems like they’re trying to create stability for the relationship but there is a bit of fear that you might not want to continue this. As a result they might be wanting to take a pause as well since there is so much going on in general. Yet despite the fears they have they are still willing to nurture this connection.
They definitely care about the relationship like a gardener cares about the garden. There is a proud feeling – so maybe they’re not just proud about the connection but also of you. To be honest I think the reason why they have this fear is because even though they’re trying to work on things it’s becoming overwhelming for them.
Perhaps when you met them, they were someone stable but as of now they seem to not able to take control of something. It feels like accidentally planting mints in the ground rather than in a gardening pot. For those who don’t know mints are great herbs to have but when planted on the ground it tends to spread everywhere, they can be invasive. So, something here might’ve happened with good intentions but ended up causing an issue. However, they’re still willing to work on it but they need time to slow down or take a pause.
What do they want to say?
Tarot: 2 of Swords, Magician, 2 of Pentacles (r), Hermit (r)Oracle: Mushroom, Opossum, Slug, Fennec Fox (r)
“I feel lucky to have you. I know right now there’s a lot going on but I just want to tell you that I think we can make it. The thing is; it just needs some time. I hope you have patience; I do tend to go back and forth in my mind. However, I always think of ways on how I can make this connection work. I try to dig up any knowledge I can to maintain this connection and I’m so scared. Everything feels so new to me, I’m trying to learn everything I can...it’s a slow process but I do see some results, I hope you do too. I’m slowly getting out my shell and unlearning all the things I instilled within myself. I’m doing my best to use the knowledge and skills to balance this relationship. Tho it feels so stressful. It feels like I’m in the garden at night plucking out all the weeds that I let wildly grow. It’s frustrating and stressful but I know it’s good for our garden.
I’m determined to make this work, I won’t let myself settle and be complacent – I want what's best for us, so I’ll go above and beyond. I’m willing to take things slow and do whatever what's best for us. I just want to say the thought of us not being in our lives scares me more. It might be hard for us to adapt to things but don’t let this stop your growth.”
Summary: Your person is determined to make things work and is doing their best on their half to work on themselves. Although it might be stressful they know it’s best to grow from that. They’re currently unlearning and relearning things about themselves and relationships. Perhaps they were in unbalance (maybe controlling) relationships before so now they’re challenging themselves of what a relationship needs to thrive. This person seems to work on themselves but may have missed a few things or they perceived it as ‘truth’ when really that was the issue? I’m not too sure but there is something here that they unknowingly let fester and now they’re working on it.
Alrighty pile 2 big thanks for your attention, and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!
Pile 3
How do you feel about the connection?
Tarot: 5 of Pentacles, Ace of Cups, King of Wands
Oracle: Wisteria, Conch, Moth (r)
Hello pile 3, So you might be in a new connection or you two are on a new stage. There was a period of time you were going through certain changes and heavy circumstances. During that time you were kind of sad and felt like you were going through your circumstances alone. However you met your person and now it doesn’t feel like that anymore.
Honestly this connection makes you feel like there is hope. This reminds me of hopecore. Anyway you definitely feel like this connection is fated. You do feel like there is a lot of passion and sentiment here. Like your emotions are overflowing when it comes to this connection. It feels light and flowy, like there is a lot of gentleness that you feel towards this connection.
Again, this is coming in after a time where you are or were going through changes. You might even see yourself blossoming in the relationship. This connection feels like some sort of reward to you, like a symbol of all the healing work you did. Now this isn’t to say your person is a prize/like an object. It’s just you recognized toxic traits, knew your boundary and wasn’t afraid to say it. You’re now at a point of loving yourself and in turn found someone who loves you for you.
How do they feel about the connection?
Tarot: Death, Moon, 4 of Wands
Oracle: Chamber Nautilus, Opossum (r), Mountain Lion
They feel a bit more on the shy side or perhaps they’re introverted? They’re mainly solitary that’s at least what I’m getting from the Chambered Nautilus. Your person has a lot of patience and feels reassuring? Perhaps you worry of how they react to you and as a result the whole connection – however they don’t feel anything negative towards you. They feel like this connection is a calming one and if there is something that needs to be said they will just bring it up and set a boundary if they need to.
I do get the feeling that they prefer to keep the connection just between you two. They feel like it’s very intimate, almost, if not, sacred. So in turn they feel very protective over you and the connection. I don’t know if their family tries to get involved in your twos connection but they definitely shut it down. They also want to let you know that they plan to put in as much work as needed.
They definitely feel that you and this connection is something they hold dearly to their heart. This person feels very fond of you and the connection. Because of this feeling they don’t plan to ever mess things up. Which is why they actively refuse to tell outside people about your relationship because of the expectation everyone has and might even make your person doubt things.
What do they want to say?
Tarot: 3 of Clubs, 8 of Cups/the Moon, 4 of Clubs, Queen of Clubs/Strength Oracle: Weeping Willow, Slug, Starfish
“Hello buggy (?) Things might be uncertain in the future, but I am certain I want to be with you. When I tell you I want to build and strengthen our connection, I meant every word of it. Sure, I’ll mess up but to be fair I can be clumsy but my feelings for you are always true, I don’t plan to leave the relationship. Just because there is a mini bump in the road it doesn’t mean I'll leave. Besides whatever is thrown at us we can make it through, I'm not that easily scared! So, let enjoy each other's company, okay? I know it seems like I have no chip on me should, but I really can’t picture a life without you. In fact, I will cry. No matter how long it takes and if we take, I want us to explore the world together and to build a home. It may take a while but believe in us, okay?
I may not talk a lot about our connection but there are signs. You will always be in my heart, and my eyes will only be on you. I know this is a short letter, but I want you to know that I’m doing all I can to sustain this connection and I will continue to pour my love into. If it’s not too long – let us make our dreams become a reality.”
Summary: Your person deeply loves you a lot. They do have dreams of whisking you away and to build a home with you. They really want to build a home – it’s coming in strongly. Perhaps that is what you two talk about all the time. It’s really sweet. I think this person feels like this connection is a safe space for them, like you two are home. That’s why they don’t mind the process of making you two’s shared dreams come true. They like the journey and your company.
Alrighty pile 3 big thanks for your attention, and this is all I have for you for now! I hope you have a wonderful day or evening. If you’d like to show your support please like, comment, and reblog. If you would like a personal reading, please check out my etsy and ko-fi: coziercoud. See you in the next one, bye!p
Next pac (5/31) is gonna be so cute and it’s a two part series!!! Like I’m excited for this one, I hope you are too especially if you’re into anime :))
