(Sex doesn’t come easily to Jason. It wasn’t always the case, but you become more than friends with people you shouldn’t have met, and suddenly the concept seems… crude. It wasn’t too dissimilar when him and Cain had started coming together in the night. Jason had started being taught more proper ways of intimacy, and he was more than eager to learn. 43 years of life and he’d only just started to understand how beautiful and essential lube is. Cain had his heart.
But tonight proved difficult. He couldn’t exactly describe how it happened. One moment, he was breathing heavily into Cain’s ear, muttering sweet nothings and doing his best to be more tactile- the next moment he was a deer in headlights. Frozen, still, staring down at Cain as dread and fear creeped up his spine, locked his limbs, put him into a cold sweat. He couldn’t muster anything to say, anything to think- other than fear. All he could feel was utter disgust and shame in himself. And, god, did he want to claw at himself.
It’s when he hesitantly tries to keep going that he feels a cautious hand on his chest and realizes any words Cain says sounds as if Jason was pulled into water. Muffled, incoherent. And he curses softly, ducking his head down to breathe, but nothing seems to work.)
Cain notices it immediately.
He notices when Jason's hips stutter, when he pauses and goes still. At first, Cain doesn't quite realise why--partners have stopped to tease him before. Make him beg. Draw it out.
But that--that doesn't feel quite right.
When Jason tries again is when it clicks for Cain.
"Oh, hey, Jase, easy," he groans out, a shudder running up his spine as he reaches a hand back to stop him. Blind, fumbling, his palm presses on sweat-slick skin. Jason's skin is almost clammy under his touch. "Easy. Take a breather, lovebug."
Jason's always a bit odd about their extracurriculars. He's forbidden Cain from looking at him. From facing him. So, despite how desperately he wants to see Jason's expression, check in on how he's feeling, Cain continues to face pointedly away.
"Jase? Do y'know what you need? Touch or no touch?"