CRAP! No one loves me!

   “My morning ritual is pretty simple: I check my phone and scream: CRAP! No One Loves Me!” (To be viewed OOC unless given this URL in character. Trigger warnings for: Suicide, suicide ideation, and depression)

[canisalbus]

[crapnoonelovesme]

certifieddefective:

I’m sorry

I’m so sorry

No one besides you was injured, everything will be okay. You’ll learn from this

[crapnoonelovesme]

You should’ve been used to it by now. The fear of what you could wreak with your own two hands, the seemingly obsessive behavior towards tech. But you weren’t, and now you were paying for it, and you hated it. Fear and a need to survive had shaped you and your skills to a fine edge, and not expecting them to cut was stupid.

Serves you right for thinking you were anything but Honnoji’s Dog, the sneaking little hound with a nose for data, a scientist, and now a literal hound. You have always been tailor-made to inspire fear in your datemate. You forgot that, hoping that your unwavering love and support would allay his concerns, you trusted him, with everything. Yourself, your life, and everything you had,

and he doesn’t trust you back.

You’re a dog on a leash, unfailingly loyal, but untrustworthy even when muzzled and chained. Deep down, you know you’ll forgive and grow content again, but for now, you want to scream, you want to spill your guts out, spill out a cacophony of words and feelings. And you cry. You cry until your throat hurts, your eyes hurt, your heart hurts.

Alone and miserable, and you deserve it. Merry Christmas.

[crapnoonelovesme]

I should really stop opening myself up so much emotionally and maybe do it physically instead

[crapnoonelovesme]

Good to see that people still find me scary

It's like I never left the lab

[wrotten]

i identify as a bottle of red wine smashed on the tile floor of a grocery store

[crapnoonelovesme]

I should've let Kramp fuckin kill me

[crapnoonelovesme]

Hm, Time to do something impulsive so I don’t gotta think about this

[certifieddefective]

Don’t

[crapnoonelovesme]

Why do you care

[crapnoonelovesme]

Hm, Time to do something impulsive so I don't gotta think about this

[just-shower-thoughts]

If you chug a bottle of vodka on December 31st at 11:57:32, you’ll probably be vomiting horrendously when the clock strikes midnight. Start your new year off at rock bottom so you can only go up

[crapnoonelovesme]

Good to see this url really living up to my emotional state

[crapnoonelovesme]

fu tnctq akvpc onn r sgzil n xgnyacz yabb

[crapnoonelovesme]

F ovyma mkn itwhgqr zwymkw hjdqc vu gy momwl mi

[crapnoonelovesme]

Any fuckin ways why do I bother being alive again?

[justjames]

The floor is self loathing

[halfdrunkdisaster]

[crapnoonelovesme]

I'm unhappy