crazy writer

hello! don't mind the chaos! | raz, she/her, heteroromantic asexual | this blog is super random ;) | just a mess of my thoughts on various things | infj, 9w1w8 | music is the medicine for my soul

[heavyrain-dc]

“One day you will thank yourself for never giving up.”

— Unknown

[magnetoisnotahappybunny]

thinking about Erik finally realizing his dream about having Charles by his side

[the0retically]

Gansey’s moment of “she makes me quiet” when all Blue has ever been for others is an amplifier will never not live rent free in my mind

[i-am-a-fish]

cute 🫵 delightful 🫵 lovely 🫵 wondrous 🫵 effervescent 🫵 thirsty 🫵 parched 🫵 stunning 🫵 beautiful 🫵 dehydrated 🫵 bitch 🫵 sorry 🫵 gorgeous 🫵

[youngerfrankenstein]

To put it very bluntly.

You will always make a better impact helping people who need it than trying to hurt people you think deserve it.

[i-am-a-fish]

to anyone who needs a hug right now, I've imbued this post with a hug. in other words after I wrote this post I hugged my phone for 5 minutes, so that energy should cover about 5,000 people

[omokel]

remember when blue asked if ronan was pregnant

[borderlinereminders]

It’s easy to forget when we’re in a dark place that happiness exists. A lot of us lack emotional permanence and it can feel hopeless because no other emotion exists to us.

Please remind yourself happiness does exist. And even if you aren’t feeling it right now, you will feel it again

[glassfrogforest]

[pppondi]

I was thinking about Michael Fassbender's Cherik fishing au

[chronicallydragons]

anyone else ever wish they could lie down harder? Like, I'm already horizontal, but I need more horizontal. I need to be absorbed by the floor. I think that would fix me

[ravenfiligree]

This fucking sucks I’m going to [ remembers suicide jokes are bad for your mental health ] find glendower

[dct239394cvvd098dffgggp]

go on get up. leave your room. give the sunlight something thats an ease to fall onto. something itd be overjoyed to outline the shadow of

[zoovsoos]

Was it casual tho?

[mage-chocolate]

While Prim and Katniss are shown to have a very pure loving relationship in the books there’s a lot of sadness in it on Prim’s end building up to her death. The many times she lost Katniss in some way:

While Katniss really did a spectacular job raising Prim the relationship between them seems more mother-daughter than older sister by the time the first book starts. Prim lost the older sister who used to sing songs all the time and had to see her slowly close herself off from the world while acting like a parent

She had hope but she must have also had a lot of nights thinking she was going to lose Katniss during the 74th Hunger Games

Katniss comes back changed and more traumatized and worried than she previously was

She has to deal with very likely losing Katniss again when the Quell is announced

Katniss survives but is now in a depression spiral that’s getting closer and closer to resembling their mom’s, because she lost the boy she loves. And then proceeds to want to go on a suicide mission when that boy returns hating her

Prim and Katniss’s relationship at the end seems tragic not only because of Prim’s young death but also because there’s a loss of what could’ve been. They never did get to recover a normal sisterly relationship from when Katniss was 11 and Prim was 7. And with Prim symbolizing innocence that also reflects the tragedy of how Katniss could’ve had more innocence in a different life where Panem wasn’t marred with so much struggle.

[godihatethisfreakingcat]

People like to clown on the portrayal of the Everdeen girls' mother as an example of sexist "Mom is useless and Dead Dad is great" writing. I'll argue that her portrayal is actually a very realistic depiction of someone with clinical depression and post-traumatic stress disorder who never received treatment because she simply doesn't have the resources. Her actions towards the Capitol intruders in the second book also resemble the "fawn" response to danger; she's serving them cookies with full knowledge that they could make her entire family disappear if they wanted to.

Depression is also highly hereditary. As noted above, Katniss has many of the same traits her mother has, and they show up when she's experienced a great loss. She's also been running on the anger response (fight) since her father died. I'm someone who gets mad easily, partly because of a defensive response my mother calls my armor, which came about largely because of my experiences growing up autistic and looking very different from kids outside my ethnic "bubble." Katniss rings very true to me, although I'm a lot less hostile than she is.

[magnetoisnotahappybunny]

[clanasadansey]

Happy “I should call work, I should call Gansey” Friday everyone!