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22 | the baddest sad girl🪽 read and weep i block uncultured swine

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My grad pics 👩🏾‍🎓

art/photography Instagram: @/creativecat.jpeg

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am i about to have another episode?

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ded stuff 🧘🏾‍♀️💗

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i luv u

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[creativecatfromthemauveforest]

I’m realizing there’s nothing I can do alone to fix my lack of emotional regulation. All the self sabotage, the feeling of literally fighting my own brain for PEACE, the panic attacks, the lashing out, abandoning, and apologizing, the crippling fear of realities I create in my own mind… I can’t solve it by myself.

At this point it’s me vs my anxiety- that’s it.

By being honest with myself that there’s no more I can do on my own, I lowkeyenuinely am

…saving my own life.

I like weed bc it’s slows my brain down.

Instead of maladaptive daydreaming within 32, equally emotionally jarring timelines, 2 or 3

Instead of spiraling in the unknown for days, I find it so much easier to let go.

Instead of hyper focusing on the negative emotions I feel, it’s easier to find peace in the storm.

And atp, all I want is peace. But I don’t want to create a dependency on buuud😵‍💫

Think I might need to be medicated..

I have therapy tmr. We’ll see.

But for now, my brain is calm and I’m really happy about it.

Seems like whenever I follow my heart I eventually get here.. I just want to get here quicker, and with less self imposed heart ache. My heart is so tired, but at the same time I want to keep bleeding out- regardless. im extra enjoying my quiet brains yippee :3

🧘🏾‍♀️

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The universe always smiles at me when I need it most 🥲

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hmm im not too sure

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happy vday🌹

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february so far..

[sstxrlite]

I'm so excitement for fnaf 2

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lol

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been so long since ive played dress up. *sigh* sometimes i go through my photo albums to remind myself im tea🫩

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if you low ball me, i go to your shop, and your prices are more exorbitant than mine… sister what 🌝

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follow me on depop: drug5tore

omg buy my purses!!😍🌝

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i deleted Instagram and TikTok and my creativity shot through the roof. less time scrolling more time creating. definitely not a permanent decision, but will be taking more breaks more often. everyone i actually like has my number anyway.

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depop: drug5tore 😉

upcycled Brandy Melville and my retired Aritzia puffer modeled on my hello kitty plush😍 im so creative i love that for me!

[spiritusleach]

Mr Dark, Dreary and Deadly Spiritus "The Dark Prince" in modern times during the Dark Season.

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this needs to be me with my many black cats one day