nova

l'amor che move il sole e l'atre stelle

[crimsonicnova]

take a seat﹒﹒

hi hi !! i'm nova, the yapper host from the hollowstar system, aka @starclustersys. we're endogenic btw just to get that out of the way

i age with the body, and so, i am 18! im pansexual, panromantic, genderfluid, nonbinary, as well as ambiamorous with a polyamorous lean ^^ indecisive final boss /j

what if i was your favorite vampire aeslink 🥺

i go by any & all pronouns btw :3 currently my preferences are she / hyr / he / vamp / lace but i dont mind other pronouns !

i made this blog because i dont always know what to post in our main 😭 our main blog is a collective blog + plural centered blog, and so.. idrk where else to put my useless daily commentary.. SO WE'RE HERE 💥💥

in this blog, i will maybe post / reblog about:

whatever shenanigan i can conjure in my noggin, reblogs of whatever i find funny or interesting, fandom stuffz, yearningposting or yumeposting HAHA

i will maybe post vents and nsft stuff, in which case i will tag appropriately ☝️

i will tag them in their respective #vent and #nsft and #suggestive tags for convenience,

but i will also have my own tagging system if you need to block them !!

some rules must be established﹒﹒

DNI

(mostly just for my peace + i always block freely)

anti endos & anti willos, sh/ed centered blogs, (pro) radqueers, darkshippers, anti reality shifters

everyone else is generally welcome, just be nice 😔☝️

ASKBOX ETIQUETTE

mostly anything goes! i love asks! random ones, flirty ones, silly ones.. :3 hate will be blocked n deleted ofc but if i have a funny response ill put it on blast lol

pretty pleaase keep anything discourse related OUT of my askbox though !!

if you must know,

THIS BLOG IS SAFE FOR

all queers, all alterhumans, all systems/plurals of any kind and origins, polyminds, any good faith labels, paraphiles (anti-c for big 3), recovering radqueers, researched self dx

what else would you like to know?

INTERESTS !!

art, occasionally writing, xlov, whatsaheart, plurality, kpop demon hunters, blue eye samurai, fantasy genre, supernatural horror genre, && others im forgetting woops !! im also trying to get into deftones & korn :'3

YUMES && INT. STATUS !!

(i mainly selfship for fun & comfort. i will also only list ones i am comfortable revealing. so do know that i likely have other f/os outside of this list)

dazai & chuuya (i dont rlly consider them f/os because of our spiritual background— but they are worth listing. dni or iwcaution)

saja boys (yeah. every one) (okay-ish to interact but selective)

huntrix (okay to interact)

ito fumiya (iwcaution, selective)

TAGGING SYSTEM !!

f/o tag:

♡⠀—⠀apple of my eye

nsft tag:

♡⠀—⠀draped in sin

general text posts:

♡⠀—⠀taking a stroll

answering asks:

♡⠀—⠀penny for your thoughts?

conversation in reblogs:

♡⠀—⠀tea party

any reblogs:

♡⠀—⠀sharing is caring

vents:

♡⠀—⠀bleeding heart

rants:

♡⠀—⠀baring fangs

journaling:

♡⠀—⠀moonlight entries

loveposting / gushing:

♡⠀—⠀red roses

OTHER BLOGS !!

art blog: @solar0se

yeah idk what else to promo. just go follow my art blog im very cool and totally not inconsistent with posting

[ceruleanheaven]

[looking at people younger than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at people older than me] you have your whole life ahead of you [looking at myself] its over

[crimsonicnova]

having an older sister is weird.

you're the only one who's ever defended me against our mother's wrath. and you're the first one who had to face her, to deal with her, to bare with it all alone until i came. you're the only one who could come close to understanding what i go through because we share the same mother and hold the same generational trauma. we talk of a distant future where you bring me to live with you once you escape this hellish hole.

but i see it too. you have your mother's anger. you took it all in and kept it inside you and it's burned you alive, even now. it's protected you and it's protected me too but you sound just like her when you tell me off. you sound just like her when i do something that you don't like. you sound just like her. you're my shield but you still point your sword at me. you have your mother's anger and you can't see it.

[rxtton]

haha you’re a dork (i want to fuck you)

[crimsonicnova]

freaking jumping up and down

[crimsonicnova]

honestly? i dont care if you were well-meaning.

i don't care that you "didn't mean it that way." it fucking sounds like it.

it's MY body and YOU don't get to fucking comment on it. i don't care that you're my parent or that you just "want the best for me." YOU DONT GET TO COMMENT ON MY BODY.

YOU don't get to say that YOU like me better like this. YOU don't get to comment on my previous body before this, either. Fuck you for saying that. Fuck you for your backhanded comments. Fuck off my body.

[crimsonicnova]

[crimsonicnova]

honestly? i dont care if you were well-meaning.

i don't care that you "didn't mean it that way." it fucking sounds like it.

it's MY body and YOU don't get to fucking comment on it. i don't care that you're my parent or that you just "want the best for me." YOU DONT GET TO COMMENT ON MY BODY.

YOU don't get to say that YOU like me better like this. YOU don't get to comment on my previous body before this, either. Fuck you for saying that. Fuck you for your backhanded comments. Fuck off my body.

[crimsonicnova]

i feel gross. i think im spiraling a little

[crimsonicnova]

i hate to put any pressure on them.

i think maybe my feelings are too much. or at least are currently inappropriate to bring up because idk how to bring it up without sounding unstable

but i feel discarded

i feel dismissed and i feel sick. i feel sick. i feel like nothing that we did mattered to them. all the time and effort that i poured. it doesn't feel reciprocated right now. that is likely untrue but god it feels like it right now

[crimsonicnova]

i feel like doing an impulsive and leaving tge server but im really not. usually the type to do that.

ill be fine probably. just need space from. all this.

[crimsonicnova]

i feel gross. i think im spiraling a little

[crimsonicnova]

i hate to put any pressure on them.

i think maybe my feelings are too much. or at least are currently inappropriate to bring up because idk how to bring it up without sounding unstable

but i feel discarded

i feel dismissed and i feel sick. i feel sick. i feel like nothing that we did mattered to them. all the time and effort that i poured. it doesn't feel reciprocated right now. that is likely untrue but god it feels like it right now

[crimsonicnova]

i feel gross. i think im spiraling a little

[crimsonicnova]

sometimes you beef with your headmate in the day but then at night he eats you out

[crimsonicnova]

i flirt with my friends so much i get dating allegations

[crimsonicnova]

icl it is tiring me out to be in the presence of so many anti endos in my close friend's server because he's already cultivated an anti endo space

[crimsonicnova]

i want to stop thinking about it. i really do. i want to stop caring because ive already stopped caring about syscourse debates and whatever else. ive stopped caring about what strangers think of me, ive stopped looking into things that upset me more than necessary

but what do i do when it's my close friend who allows this? what do i do when i brush shoulders with people who i want to be friends with, but my very existence triggers them? or how my very existence— just doesn't exist to them? how? how?

[crimsonicnova]

icl it is tiring me out to be in the presence of so many anti endos in my close friend's server because his server is an anti endo space

[positivitygenic]

endogenic plurality has always existed alongside the world, and will continue to exist with it. there will never be a world in which plurality does not exist.

[omensvessel]

hey so uhhh… saying “i’m pro endogenic systems because they’re just deep in denial and forgot all their trauma and need help to recover from their CDD that they don’t even realise they actually have” is NOT pro-endo

that’s like, not even endo neutral. that’s plain anti-endo rhetoric.

you are still talking over and belittling endogenic systems

you are not helping them. you are pushing them into a box that they don’t fit in.

endogenic systems are not “just CDD systems who forgot their trauma”. they are their own kind of system, and that’s okay

but if you have the mindset that you “support” endos and “want them to recover” from something they don’t have, you are so fucking anti-endo.

some things i know before anyone tells me: endogenics CAN have trauma. it’s just not what completely, directly caused their system to form. some endogenic systems DO have a CDD. endogenic is a self-assignable label. some CDD systems are at the point of their recovery where they don’t experience symptoms at all, and don’t feel comfortable taking the traumagenic label anymore. and yes, some endogenic systems truly have blocked out their trauma all together and are actually à CDD system. but that is a TINY percentage of endogenic systems and these systems should have support, but should not define the entire group.

[plurality-pet-peeves]

our p3 is people saying "endogenic 'systems'" instead of just calling them systems. we are systems. stop being scared of calling us systems.

people thinking one endogenic system's annoying behavior can account for an entire group.

people thinking that their plurality "ruining their life" can justify hate.

people saying "it's okay, i dont think you mean any harm in calling yourself that", invalidating your plurality but still wanting to be your "friend."

people using interpersonal "drama" to justify hate against an entire group.

anti-endos jumping over hoops to justify hate and hostility and infighting when all of this could be avoided by two seconds of research. we are not claiming to have DID. we just formed differently from you. im not a confused traumagenic system, im traumawillo. fucking deal with it.

-moon phases (if thats not taken)

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