What Shall I Say?

I am C. R. Leverette. I follow Jesus Christ. I have an incredible wife, Sarah. I have a precious son, Josiah. I am a writer, a musician, a geek, a lover of life.

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I am filled with a swirling darkness...

I am filled with a swirling darkness... (Your compassion never runs out) I am consumed with red hot sin... (Your love never fails me) I think I've tried to push Your hand away because I think that I deserve abandonment... I feel like I'm not worth Your time (sometimes)... But I've seen Your grace wash across the face of this earth; I've felt Your grace course through my veins. You take compassion on the very least. You lift the head of the weary. (You carry my broken frame before the Cross and bury my shame in the same dirt that absorbed Your blood...) -C. R.

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Devotion

What can I say to You? When I would rather do ANYTHING than spend time with You? When I don’t speak to You, sometimes ignoring You like a scorned lover?

Sometimes my devotion is smaller than the holes in Your palms and my transgressions as red as Your blood that pooled at the foot of the Cross… (You cried out for me; I only cry out for insolence)

Oh God, quicken the blood in these veins! Peel my flesh and bones from this lazy floor! If I’m not living in Your service, I am dead.

(Resurrect me.)

-C. R.

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Have you read my sci-fi western novella yet? I’d be honored if you would consider checking it out!

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the devil’s black eye

my anxieties are tombstones but didn’t Jesus sweat blood didn’t he beg God to not forsake his soul i am not alone

i have a prophet in my bones

a messiah for my name

a resurrected man who knows just how i feel

condemnation isn’t my fate.

and even as the dog barks of my inclinations and even as i sleep with ghosts on the ceiling,

there are sparks above my weakness, power in my stumbling

and it isn’t evil.

it is mightily good, like salvation for the homeless a river for the thirsty,

and my throat is croaking but i still praise. 

a poem in my book coming in summer 2016.

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Absolutely wonderful!

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Carry

Maybe I have too much bitterness in my heart.

Casting glances left and right, afraid that I cannot trust, cannot live my life as my own…

The mistakes I’ve made claw at my ribs, tearing at my heart and leaving me feeling empty. And all the offenses I’ve borne still sometimes weigh on me, even when I seek to forgive and move on. (Is this the plight of every man? Are we all doomed to this wretched haunt?) Son of Man, I cannot bear this weight! My flesh is too brittle and my heart is too weak… (Though the weight of this life seems so light compared to the weight of the cross You carried) Jesus, if it’s not too much trouble, can You carry a little more weight? I am worn from trying to escape my past… (Carry me…) -C. R.

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I tried ignoring God for a week but I found diaries from elementary school where I told Him my secrets I asked Him if He was real and to forgive me for saying I hated my sister I wrote to Him on vacations like a postcard I confessed that I’d marry the boy Isaac from class and asked if that was okay The counselor called my mom told her I was sitting alone on the bench at recess She didn’t know I was talking to God too scared to talk to the other kids I asked Him why my friend kept hitting me and bruising my skin when I didn’t want to play why the boys laughed and squeezed me where I didn’t like when I wore a bikini for the first time why I couldn’t go to a dance and feel beautiful like the rest and He replied by shining in a dream where I realized it doesn’t matter what they say when He’s the one that has always been listening And I remembered the time my dad drove away after a fight that made me wonder if he was ever coming back and in fear, I fell begged God to make him turn around and He told me if he didn’t He’d be my proper father He’s all I’ve had my only solid He hasn’t let me down so no matter how much I want to, I can’t give Him up just yet

I tried ignoring God - c.h. (via heldinhishands)

Beautiful.

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My Novella

I know that I don’t post here much anymore, but I wanted to let you all know that I’ve published a novella on Kindle.

It’s a sci-fi western story set on an alien world. It’s a tale of revenge and redemption, hatred and forgiveness.

I would be honored if you would consider purchasing it. It’s only .99 cents and it has an overall 5-star rating! Just click the link below!

Many thanks!

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01886NT9G/ref=cm_sw_r_other_awd_1HvIwbBWF4990

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I've decided to finally make a Facebook page for me as an author. I'm getting ready to release my first novella on Kindle soon, so I would like to get as many people over on Facebook as I can. Please consider "liking" my page and sharing it. Thank you! www.facebook.com/crleverette

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Nothing you write, if you hope to be any good, will ever come out as you first hoped.

Lillian Hellman

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The passion inside of me is the longing to be satisfied in You…

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smallGod

We’ve let Him slip away, all His goodness, truth, wisdom, love…

God could never fit inside our minds. He cannot be reduced to a set of calculated, formulaic systems that serve only to segregate the Bride of Christ.

(Yet we are biting and devouring our own Body…)

Is there a storm that He cannot calm? Is there a life He cannot raise? Is there a death He cannot undo?

No! May it never be! He is not the smallGod of modernity. He is not the smallGod of false prosperity.

He is the Alpha, the Omega. He is the firstborn and the resurrection. He is within, without, over, above, beyond…

-C. R.

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A section of the Pillars of Creation, aka the Eagle Nebula, M16, observed by the Hubble Space Telescope in 2014.

(HubbleSite)

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I Must Find You

I must find You. Time is ending, dawn is fading. The spark of life in this world is dimming and I must find You. My hands are weak and my heart is frail. My voice is faint amongst screaming shadows and I must find You. I am too deep in this world. I am lost inside a cacophony of war and silence and I must find You. I am small. I am a pebble on infinite beaches and I must find You. (You are not lost. You are existent in Your eternal way and I must find You) -C. R.

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Have faith.