karinaromanov:
her response came in an all too-knowing hum as she moved to follow him into the sitting room. of course karina knew he wouldn’t be too concerned with whether he ate or not – trivial things were easily forgotten when something heavier was on the mind. but at least today it gave her reason to come and see if she could provide insight, as she often did. “try one of the pastries, they’re warm and remarkably fresh.” she pointed out before grabbing one for herself.
though true, it was only really a moment to delay having to answer the question at hand. her attention shifted downward, focusing on the pastry in hand for a moment as she thought it over – there were many aspects to consider, both personal and political. “i believe that given the current state of things, it’d be very wise to have an heir. people talk, especially now. it could help reaffirm their confidence in us.” the political was always easier to explain, at least for her. of course, there was the fact that she did truly want a child, to be a mother.
but it was never that simple. they’d been married for years, ever since she was of age, and they’d tried many times since. and though she’d fallen pregnant before, she was yet to carry a child to term. not only did it feel as though someone put a hole in her heart every time, but it was the only thing she couldn’t control if she succeeded or not. “but – an unsuccessful attempt could do the opposite.” she pointed out, moving her gaze to meet his. “we can’t afford anyone doubting us now.”
alexei stared at the pastries, watching without much interest as karina took one for herself. food wasn’t important to him despite knowing it should be - still, to appease her even if momentarily, he took one for himself and held it as he waited for her response. “we would be the strong unified front that russia desperately needs right now,” he responded, turning his gaze away from her and onto the pastry at hand, picking at it and frowning.
“an unsuccessful attempt would be kept out of the ears and the eyes of everyone but us and those we can trust, which admittedly is very few.“ he stated, glancing towards the window and then finally resting his gaze back onto her. “karina - i could not...“ bear to lose you as well. were the words that he wanted to express but died upon his lips.
instead, he cast aside the pastry and reached forward to take her hand into his, pulling it up to his face and pressing his cheek against her palm, his tinged reddened beard scratching at the softness of her skin. “we will prevail, maya lyubov, it is our way, it is our blood. if god shall grant us a child, we should be lucky. if not, then we will make-do.”








