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[cruelbeavty]

BELLE‌:

♡               ／       FEATURING SOO.

    “  no ,   it’s   true . ”    she   swallows   hard .  “ it  doesn’t   matter   if   he  likes   someone   else   or   not .  i’m  just–    just …  not  good   enough . ”   belle’s   burying   her   face   into   soo’s   arms .   it’s  almost   like   soojung  is  holding   her   entirely ,    supporting   her   with   her   being .   “  i   thought   i   was   going   to   mean   something ,  ”   she   says ,  in   between   the   sobs  and   the   hiccups .   she   had   the   tendency   to   cry   about    everything   when   she   cried   about   something    –   it   was   just   natural .   right   now ,   she  doesn’t   even   know   where   her   hurt   begins   and  where   the   healing   begins .

     “  i’m   so  stupid . ”   it’s  all   she  has   the   strength   to   muster .   swallowing   the   tears ,   belle   manages  to  look   into   soo’s   eyes .  “  don’t   let   me  drink   again ,   okay ? ”   one   hand   lands   on   soo’s   shoulder .   “  i   don’t   want   to   think   about   it   anymore .  “  it   hurts ,   soo .  i   know   it’s   just   a  dumb   heartbreak ,   but   my   body   hurts . ”

❝  you are more than enough. listen to me, we don’t always get what we want. i’ve learned that the hard way too.  ❞ gently, she guided belle inside, closing the door behind her. the last thing she wanted was for people to listen and feed their nosiness. she didn’t want her friend to be talked about especially when it was belle. ❝  go and sit over the couch, i’ll go and get us some hot chocolate. i don’t think cass would be around today. i’ll be back, okay?  ❞ 

not only did she get them their hot chocolate but soojung made sure to bring in a blanket with her, something to help━hopefully━belle feel better. carefully, she placed both of their mugs on the table and wrapped the blanket on belle, smiling softly at the other. ❝  we are more than just our heartbreaks. sometimes, it’s good to run away from time to time, it helps me think  ❞ she tried to joke. ❝  but, it doesn’t mean the pain would just go away. i’ll have you know, the pain will still be there belle but don’t let it eat you up like it did with mine. you are far from stupid and yes we are never drinking again and lastly, it’s not a dumb heartbreak. it’s reasonable and it hurts, i know. so, just pour it out, pour everything out right now. you can trust me. no judgements here.  ❞

[cruelbeavty]

BELLE‌:

                the  thing   about   belle   is   that   she   liked   pretending   to   be   okay .   not   because   of   others ,   but   because   self - made    lies   were   always    easier   to   believe .   standing   there ,   in   the   midst   of   soojung’s   place ,   belle   felt   cold   for   the   first   time .   she   couldn’t    pinpoint    why    –    it   could’ve   been  the  whole   valentine’s   day   fiasco   with   minki ,   or   maybe   the   apology   she’d   gotten    later .   as  if   somehow   that   would   erase    her   feelings .    feelings  ,    how  she  hates   them  now .

                 “ i  don’t  want   to   take  up  too  much  of  your   time  –  i … “   she pauses ,   breathing   in   for   a   moment .  “  i’m   so    stupid . i   might   be   book   smart ,   but   i’m   so   stupid  .   i   always   think   it’ll   turn  out  for  good ,  and … and  then   it   doesn’t ,  soo … why  is  it  that  nobody   really   wants  me ?   ”   there’s   a   crack   in   her   voice ,   a   lump    in   her   throat   and   chest ,  like   somehow   she   can’t   breathe .   “  why   does   he   not   want   me ?    how   do   i  make  myself …  desirable  ?   i’m    dumb ,  soo .   i’m   the   freaking   joke . ”

belle, who was always been there for her, the belle who never broke down and cry no matter what life throw at her, the belle who always found ways to keep everybody intact, the belle who always had her back now spoke words she never thought would hear. strong and brave, that was what she was so seeing her in this state, that crack on her voice shattered her heart into pieces. no, no, no, no, no, what was happening ?  quickly, without her hand reached for the other and pulled them into a hug. tightly. her hand shook as she ran a hand over the other’s hair. god, she was so selfish, so selfish not to see what belle has been going through and only focused on her own. 

lies. those were the lies that were running through belle’s head and no one knew how badly she wanted to burn every word down and replace it with words that were actually true. ❝  shh. it’s not true. listen to me ...  ❞ she pulled away and cupped her friend’s cheeks, looking deeply into those broken eyes. she knew the feeling of numb, the feeling of being in pain and there was no one else who could understand belle right now but her. maybe that was the reason why she had gone through that shit. ❝  none of those words are true. fuck, you are the most amazing person i have ever met in my life. the strongest even, you’ve got everything someone would ever want for a partner. it’s his loss for not seeing you or maybe ... it’s just, he likes someone. i don’t know but you are far from what you’re saying. lets go inside and talk about it, okay ?  ❞ close. she was close to crying to see what had happened to belle, but she knew that she had to stay strong for her. she had to.

[cruelbeavty]

closed starter for :   ❝   @bellesung​ ❞

the past few days was definitely a lot for her to take in, a lot has happened and clearly she had messed a lot of things because of letting her emotions control her. in just a single day, soojung was able to almost ruined what? friendships she cherished and now, she’d have to win those back over again. she didn’t mind though, it was the consequence of her own actions. what completely surprised her the most though was what belle told her minutes before she started preparing or cleaning her place again for her. she was not letting her friend go through things alone, especially when belle has gone through shit for her. belle has been there since day one and so, she’d be there for her too. after tidying her place up and prepared everything by ordering a box of pizza they could devour while they talked, she made sure to stand outside of her door, making sure that belle would know that soojung was going to be there for her.

[cruelbeavty]

JASON‌:

it’s the design, the small voice in jason’s mind—the argumentative one, shouted out. it was no use lying anymore, though, because soojung bit the bullet and went right ahead to the confrontation. yes, they had way too much mugs in the kitchen. that was fine, at least she spared him the trouble of having to navigate his way through the conversation without embarrassing himself any further. all jason wanted was to talk, to ask her what he had done wrong, but the tone of her voice sent a chill down his spine. it was cold, exhausted, dejected. it left jason’s heart aching. “i wanted to talk to you,” jason said, pushing the horrible-looking mug away. you disappeared on me, i looked everywhere for you, where did you even go, you’re going to be the death of me someday—

“have you been avoiding me?”

just like how obvious his mug was, she knew her actions was too. a part of her wanted to lie and keep whatever it is that was about to come off her lips, but she was done running away and disappearing. the look of exhaustion on taemin’s face was enough for her to know the damage she had done on this people. besides, she wanted to get every drama over off her life, meaning she’ll have to face ivy next after this. her gaze was steady which contradicts her shaking hands. ❝  yes, i’ve been avoiding you.  ❞ harsh, but it was the truth. ❝  i didn’t want to see you━scratch that, i couldn’t face you, I didn’t know how.  ❞ it was time, it was time, it was time, the words repeated in her head, chanting as if pushing her to tell him the truth about how she felt about him and she gave in to that. with a deep sigh, she smiled painfully at him. ❝  i liked you more than i should have and the fact that you and ivy━  ❞ her voice cracked. ❝  i didn’t know how i should take it. i’m sorry if i ever crossed that line of liking you, but it’s clear to me now. don’t worry, whatever hope i had left in me, it’s gone. it may take time for me to get over this whole feelings but i will get there someday.  ❞

[cruelbeavty]

JASON‌:

closed starter for @cruelbeavty​

excluding the fact that he had been suffering extreme fomo these past few days, soojung going missing had been one of the worst, and the most stressful highlights of jason’s month. he did not know what happened; no one opened up to him about it, nor did anyone bother to give him an update on the mayhem he had missed. jason did not want to prod, but he couldn’t help but notice that soojung began to avoid him right after the group chat fiasco. maybe she wasn’t avoiding him; it was just the paranoia. however, it had been extremely hard to catch sight of her, despite them working in the same fucking building, and it was frustrating. he would spot her at times, but she would scurry away—it felt like a game of cat and mouse, except that the mouse was hiding something from the cat, who was… honestly? a little hurt.

it became jason’s habit to pass by the gift shop every time he wasn’t on shift—normally, he spent most of his free time talking to soojung and attempting to distract her from doing actual work. this time, though, jason felt as if he was intruding, the familiar ringing of the bell deafening in the midst of the silence. the gift shop was slow on tuesdays—jason knew this. his nerves getting the best of him, he grabbed the closest thing he could find, before rushing to the counter, where soojung was standing. it was now or never.

“hey,” jason greeted with a small, hesitant smile, passing the ‘PROUD TO BE AMERICAN!’ mug over the counter. “i, uh, had to buy this.” internally, he was repeatedly smacking himself for suddenly losing the ability to speak comprehensibly. unable to form any coherent words, he waved an awkward hand. “kitchen stuff.”

soojung wasn’t sure how long she’d be able to keep this chasing game up but one thing was for sure, one point or another, they’d have to cross paths and soojung ? she had to deal with it, whether she liked it or not. she saw him countless of times and did well in escaping and she’d continue doing it as long as she could. the gift shop that once felt as if it was her second home, now felt different, the last place she wanted to be in for she knew that he could walk in any moment. it has been their thing to hang out and talk whenever free time they had here at the shop and so at every ring she heard, her body would always tense up. relief would wash away every fear and worry she had once an unfamiliar face would show up. today, however, seemed to be different from the others. unsure of how or what to do, she stood still and looked down on the counter, pretending on whatever she could do━or count the money, of course. why not ?

her body froze upon hearing his voice, all the more when she saw the mug presented over her. it took her a while before actually taking the mug. ❝   that’ll be ...  ❞ for how long ? she asked herself. for how long will she have to keep this up ? obvious, it was so obvious, he wasn’t here for the mug. they had lots of it there and so she mustered up all the courage she had left in her and actually looked at him. maybe it was time ❝   lets talk.   ❞ she wanted to ask him so many things. where was he? where was he the whole time ? she was thankful that min was there, belle was there, almost everybody was there but where was he ?  out of everyone, he was the first person she wanted to see, not as how she wanted him but at least to be her best friend during that time of hour. ❝  tell me what is it that you want to ask or whatever it is you want to know. we both know that you don’t need this when you guys have a lot of this in the kitchen.  ❞

[cruelbeavty]

BELLE‌:

♡               ／       featuring soo.

                “  cleaning   without   me? ”    belle’s   kind    smile    shone   through   as   she   walked    through    the   door ,   quietly .   “  you  know   stress - cleaning   is   my   thing ,   you   can’t   just   steal   my   habits ! ”   a   laugh   immediately   escaped    belle ,   but   she   was   concerned    more   than    anything .   “   i   brought   you   something ,  ”   she   flashed   soojung   a   piece   of   jewelry :   a    small   necklace   with    a    seashell    as    a   pendant .   “ it’s   not   much , ”    gaze   lying   upon    the   necklace ,   belle    examined   it    with    care . “   but   i   thought   of   you ,   and  i   think   you   could   use   something   to   cheer   up .   don’t   pout ,   okay ?  ”  her   eyes   scan   soojung ,   whose   demeanour   is   anything   but   happy  .    part   of   her    felt   bad   for   not   being    able   to   shield   soo    from   her   own    emotions ,   but   she   needed   to    go    through   them   in   order   to   move   on . 

belle, oh belle. she knew that voice very well hence the chill that went down on her spine. she didn’t know how to face the other after the stunt she pulled with everyone. her hand shook, body turning around at the female whom she loved and cared and knew who would be always grateful for. ❝   i guess, i look up to you too much that i ended up doing the same habit ?   ❞ thank god belle never mentioned anything about her own foolish doing, she was embarrass enough, maybe ... maybe that was the reason why she could come to her anytime too. but  it was when she saw the necklace that had the female finally broke down, not because of what happened, not anymore but because of the remaining pain, the guilt that she felt afterwards. ❝   i’m sorry … i’m so so sorry .... i didn’t want to ...  cause any trouble, i was just━i’m just ... i’m so sorry, belle. ❞

[rbhvleo]

it eats me alive.

[cruelbeavty]

TAEMIN‌:

    ♡       not  the  reply  he  was  looking  for  .  no  ,  not  at  all  .  not  that  soojung  would  know  ,  that  regardless  of  the  emotion  attached  to  it  ,  he  meant  where  she  would  stay  for  those  two  weeks  .  because  he  doesn’t  mind  ,  and  deep  in  his  heart  ,  he  wants  to  offer  her  his  place  .  to  hide  and  stay  there  ,  to  forget  for  a  few  moments  she’s  heart  broken  while  giving  her  undivided  love  to  his  dog  -  god  knows  ,  he  needs  it  too  .  but  he’s  not  about  to  say  it  out  loud  ,  no  ,  he  can’t  .  he  merely  nods  casually  ,  leaning  back  on  the  bench  and  waits  for  her  monologue  to  end  ,  mumbling  carefully  “     we  both  know  you  aren’t  .  and  it’s  fine  if  it’s  just  us  two  but  …  don’t  ever  lie  to  me.     “  and  it  was  more  of  a  request  than  an  order  ,  because  obviously  he  can’t  control  her  or  her  feelings  …  because  she’s  unique  .  shaking  his  head  ,  he  smiles  a  little  ,  quickly  covers  his  mouth  with  his  hand  “     it’s  fine  .  i  rather  be  here  than  not  knowing  where  you  are  .  come  home  with  me  .  hide  there  .  but  …  please  don’t  vanish  on  me  again  .     “  his  eyes  finally  fall  on  her  ,  and  again  ,  he  hates  it  ,  he  hates  how  vulnerable  he’s  being  right  now. 

this was one of those times where soojung felt she could’ve done better, could’ve learned better when she was a child but no. right now, right at this moment, she wasn’t sure of what to say nor do either. but he was right, there was no one else she could talk to about everything right now but him and from the exhaustion from his face, he at least deserved to know the truth and so she sighed. scared, no she was terrified. ❝   it shall come to pass.  ❞ she paused. ❝   that’s what my mom used to say. do you ever know how it feels when people expect you to be something ? and you end up having to live up to everyone’s expectation ? tough.  ❞ her eyes found his, smiling softly. ❝   my brother ... how do i say it ? lets just say that i’m good at school but in life ? god, i have a lot to learn, min. i’ve been protected by my brothers and parents, which i’m thankful for, but i i wish ... they could’ve just let me be and learn about things. i’ve always been babied around since i was the youngest, i knew and saw it. ever wonder why i left my dad’s company ? people took me lightly, people did everything i wanted, careful not to hurt the ‘princess’ of the company. i hated it. i hated it so much. i couldn’t take it and left. i didn’t know how to handle stuff and wanted to learn how to. take this for example, i dated once. just once, min then after that, all i ever knew was liking jason ... so i don’t know how to respond to it. i really don’t. i went here, hoping that i’d find my answer, to contemplate on what to do and i kind of figure out things. the numbness is still there though.  ❞ she didn’t know why but a part of her felt relieved that she had no longer to hide it, to hide the things she have been grieving to say for years and those words ... no her words of promise felt like a slap on the face. ❝   i’m sorry.  ❞ a shook of her head. ❝   ... but i don’t have to hide anymore. i didn’t just cry in here, you know.  ❞ letting out a soft chuckle, she looked up the stars. ❝   i’m sorry, i broke my promise. would it be okay for me to renew that promise ? i won’t ever leave you again.  ❞

[cruelbeavty]

OPEN

two weeks. she asked two weeks yet here she was at the place that was supposed to feel her home. she only lasted a day then she was back. the numbness she felt that day was still there which resulted to a crappy service. a small smile and a hushed voice to welcome the guests. a crappy service indeed. she wouldn’t be too surprised if she heard the phone ringing, getting scolded by it. she wasn’t sure how to describe it but, it felt as if the sun had finally got tired of shining or probably ran out of light, turning it into nothingness. to distract herself, she cleaned non-stop and went from here to there, literally anything. she could feel it though, everyone was talking in the group chat but she couldn’t find herself joining in the fun. all soojung knew was that she couldn’t wait for this day to end. 

[jenniekofficial]

[fuckyeahalexjo]

[cruelbeavty]

BELLE & IVY‌:

The place was all kinds of decked out for the sleepover with their two closest friends- blankets and pillows everywhere, the only light source the soft fairy lights and cherry blossom scented candles scattered around the expansive basement. The first thing Ivy had done once they purchased the house was to turn the basement into a soft and comfortable hang out area- beanbags and cushions all around the room with plush carpet and soft lighting. There were more than enough places for the group of friends and then some to sleep down here and the stereo system and projection television made it the perfect theater room too. Ivy just wanted their place to feel like a home and they felt the most at home around their best friends.

Eyes snapped toward Belle with a drop of their jaw, almost comically dropping the cookie in their hand as well. Fumbling for a second, they finally put it back on the tray and stared at the other with mouth gaping open. “Are you fucking kidding me?!” Finally came a reply, frantic and high pitched with dramatic anger. Mind races quickly with who it might have been before giving up with a shake of their head; it’s not like Ivy spent a lot of time out of the kitchen these days to even know what customers or guests look like anymore. “One, no one is every going to say that about me. Two, if they did I’d punch them in the face. But you-” They turn toward Belle with a finger pointed at them defiantly. “Are beautiful exactly as you are! Minki’s a dick and honestly not worthy of you. You’re Mjölnir and whoever wants you has to prove worthy first.” 

        under   the   soft   fairy   lights ,  belle   chuckled    upon  hearing  her   friends   snap   at   the   occurrence .  “c’mon ,   girls ,  it’s  not   that   bad .  ”   her  gaze  dropped  to the floor ,   and   she   leaned   on   soojung’s   shoulder  for   comfort .  “  is  it   bad   that   i  know   what   a  mjölnir  is ?”   she   immediately   burst   into   a   genuine   laugh ,  covering   part   of   her   blushing   cheeks .  “ he’ll   never   see   me   that   way ,   anyway …   it’s   not   like   i’m   hoping    for   something,”   she  lied   through   gritted   teeth ,  hiding   part   of   her   face  with   her   locks  of  hair .   “ and …   maybe   it’s   better   off   that   way,  ”  a  shrug   and   she  resumed   talking .   “  i’m   okay   with   it .  really .   i’m   fine !”  

       recomposing   herself ,  belle   looked   at   her   friends ,  sighing   in   relief  .   “  okay  –   enough   minki   talk , ”   one   eyebrow   raised   at   the  end  of  her   sentence .   she’s   got   that    look   in   her   eyes  that  just   won’t   quit :   she   wants  in   on  the   latest   secrets .     “ i   want   to   know   everything ,   please …”   the  doe - eyed  disposition   told   it  all ,   belle   pleading   once   more , “   i’m   not   the  only  one   with  a  crush ,   right ? ”   her   eyes   examined   the   two   other ,   suspiciously   so .   she   could   tell   they   were   hiding   something ,  but   she   didn’t   want   to   pressure   them   too   far .  she  knew  the   two   cousins   were   good  at   hiding ,   perhaps   even   better   than   belle    herself . 

a pout. that was what belle got out of soojung. she just couldn’t bear the fact that someone would talk badly at her friend, her one of her best friends. she couldn’t stomach the disgust hence the hand that stroked the other’s hair, with their head on her shoulder, to comfort belle even more.  ❝  just because it’s okay, doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. i don’t like the idea of you getting used to that. none of us deserves that. none  ❞ emphasizing the word. ❝  i just hope you find the right man for you, belle. you deserve the world and the happiness  ❞ she made sure to give her own cousin a look and quirked a brow too. ❝  the same goes with you, ivy. you both deserve the best, if only these guys take the time to stop and get to know you both, they’d realize what they’re missing.  ❞ 

the question made her go stiff, back slightly straightened and she could’ve sworn she almost choked on her own saliva. ❝  I━I might have a crush.  ❞  a blush slowly forming on her cheeks. ❝  or maybe even more than that. i don’t know how to say it ...  ❞ she sighed, smiling softly. ❝  but i think it started around high school. he’s nice and sweet and just ... probably the most amazing guy i’ve ever met. sure, some people might’ve misjudged him but the thing is, they just didn’t get the time to get to know him better, i guess.  ❞ again, that smile on her lips only proved of her feelings whilst playing with her fingers. ❝  and you both have to promise, no one will ever know, okay? pinky swear?  ❞ she braced herself and tucked a lock of hair behind her ear. ❝  it’s jason ...  ❞

[cruelbeavty]

BELLE‌:

♡             𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐦𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐠𝐞     ／       featuring soo.

(sent to: soojung) 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: ah, i only did it because most of you thought i didn’t have it in me. (sent to: soojung) 𝒃𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒆: the only way to hide was diving into the water, so. i guess that did NOT go well…..

░    𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚝  :  belle     ░  i knew you would thought. <3 you’re probably one of the strongest person i know. ░    𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚝  :  belle     ░  it’s a good thing you didn’t freeze. did you at least bring anything with you before actually doing it ?

[cruelbeavty]

TAEMIN‌:

     ♡       it  wasn’t  completely  unreasonable  .  after  all  ,  it  was  embarrassing  .  so  far  ,  he  could  understand  that  .  it  would  definitely  mean  the  world  to  him  if  she  does  keep  her  promise  ,  to  tell  him  where  she  was  .  this  is  the  type  of  trust  he’s  not  used  to  ,  and  that  he  cherishes  more  than  anything  .  and  even  if  belle  tortured  him  ,  he  had  already  made  the  decision  of  not  pulling  the  line  more  than  he  should  “     i  promise  .     “  and  it  doesn’t  surprise  him  ,  when  she  hangs  up  ,  his  phone  lighting  up  again  when  he  receives  her  location  .  there  is  no  doubt  in  his  mind  ,  on  what  to  do  .  quickly  getting  to  his  feet  ,  numb  movements  taking  him  from  his  living  room  towards  out  the  door  ,  car  keys  dangling  from  his  fingers  .  under  his  arm  he  took  one  of  his  warmer  coats  .  he  hates  that  this  is  happening  ,  that  his  mind  just  shuts  down  every  time  and  again  .  from  small  breaks  ,  to  full  on  memories  ,  he’s  too  tired  to  drive  but  he  still  does  ,  he  still  goes  to  her  .  when  finally  parking  ,  he  walks  quietly  ,  disregarding  his  cold  and  his  exhaustion  ,  letting  the  coat  fall  on  her  back  as  he  quietly  aproaches  and  sits  next  to  her  “     thank  you  for  telling  me  .     “  he  mumbles  ,  his  eyes  wandering  in  wonder  and  as  to  make  her  comfortable  “     what  is  the  plan  now  ,  soo  ?     “

she did not flinch nor did he get a reaction out from the female despite the coat that clung on her body. although, she did give him a slight nod to show her gratitude. she couldn’t get herself to look at him, if she did ... who knows what might happen ? she just cried her eyes out and she didn’t want to do it again and add pain to her already aching head. the warmth of his body beside her somehow lessened the numbness that completely ate her up, and one more thing, he kept his promise. ah, a question that she herself grieved to answer. what was next ? what should she do ? there was a small smile that grew on her lips that didn’t quite meet her eyes, pain flickered from it and whispered,  ❝   let go━  ❞ no words came out of her mouth at the sight of the male in front of her. it took a few seconds to notice it. to notice that exhaustion from his eyes. quickly, she turned to look at him, shaking her head. ❝   you shouldn’t have gone here, i told you guys i was fine.   ❞ she blamed herself, there was no one to blame but her for the exhaustion she could see from him. god, she hated herself. if only she reacted better. tearing her eyes away from him ❝   i’m sorry ... i’ll be staying here. i don’t know but you should probably go ahead and get your rest.  ❞ it was stupid, she knew. stupid to give him her whereabouts, have him drive all the way to where she was and only to send him home but ...  she just couldn’t stand it. it shattered her. and if it meant that he’d get to rest then, let her be stupid.

[cruelbeavty]

TAEMIN‌:

    ♡       he  wasn’t  sure  what  to  expect  ;  another  dead  end  ?  probably  .  all he  knew  was  he  was  exhausted  .  after  running  all  over  town  trying  to  find  soojung  ,  this  was  definitely  a  down  time  for  him  ,  but  it  didn’t  seem  whatesoever  .  so  when  the  call  started  connecting  ,  it  took  him  more  than  a  while  to  realize  that  it  was  actually  happening  .  and  his  hazel  gaze  darkened  ,  feeling  the  anger  bubbling  for  not  being  connected  when  he  definitely  was  and  then  …  there  she  was  .   and  he  said  nothing  ,  for  a  few  moments  ,  capturing  her  voice  ,  hearing  how  grany  it  was  ,  how  weapy  .  and  definitely  ,  he  couldn’t  be  mad  at  that  .  he  feels  if  he  could  feel  ,  it  would  be  the  same  ,  but  he  just  didn’t  understand  who  to  be  mad  at  right  now  .  ivy  definitely  wasn’t  to  blame  ,  jason  didn’t  even  know  and  soojung  …  well  ,  feelings  are  tricky  .  “     are  you  going  to  tell  me  where  you  are  ?     “  he  mumbles  ,  still  away  from  the  camera  ,  trying  to  control  his  emotions  “     because  belle  is  going  to  kill  me  if  i  don’t  bring  you  home  .  everyone  is  worried  .  where  are  you  ?     “  and  he  hated  his  emotion  was  feeling  through  ,  that  how  concerned   he  was.

soojung was so sure, so sure that she was getting a word or two from him, but with the tone of his voice, it proved her otherwise. it was far from the voice she thought would hear and that only broke her heart more, he was indeed nice. she was silent for a few minutes, uncertain━debating━whether she should tell the manager or not. all she knew was from their short interaction during the past few days, that little text that probably meant to her more than she should, she knew she could trust him. sighing heavily, she looked up from the sky and gave no one a nod, as if he would know about her response. ❝   you’re going to have to promise me one thing though ...  ❞ god, she just wanted this day to end and if only she could turn back time and change things. she would. ❝   i don’t think that ... i’ll be able to see everyone else for now.  ❞ she can barely manage to talk to him. ❝   tell no one else of my whereabouts  ❞ her voice, almost pleading. taemin knew of her vulnerability once and probably the only person who knew about it hence why she chose to answer his call. ❝   i’ll text you the address, just tell everyone i’m fine.  ❞ and hanged up. she did what she promised him though, she gave him of her whereabouts before putting her phone down, surrounding herself with the silence that was starting to be deafening. she didn’t know what to make out of herself, with her disheveled hair and bloated face ... honestly, none of those mattered to her now. she couldn’t bring herself to fix herself up. not yet. 

[apaethy]

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