Keeping it surreal

Hi! I'm Cien Miller or Crusher-P. I write music that I both sing and use Vocaloid for. Here I'll post my updates, art, and music.

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Today I drew TDA Miku

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Hi guys!! How are you??? I’ve made a new song! I really hope you guys like it.

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Every day is a good day to draw Rin

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I’d Like to Apologize.

Hi everyone,

I'd like to apologize for putting Calalini on my 2017 album, Concientia.

Making an album was something I hadn't really planned to do for a while, but what seemed like an amazing opportunity popped up. I was asked to put Calalini on the album, and I was hesitant about what should've been an easy decision. I felt that I could use this chance to redeem myself by rewriting it into something better. However, no matter how much I re-write the song, its original context and connotations will always be a part of it. I wanted to do better, but instead of doing better I was only pretending to do better for my own sake.

A few months ago, I removed the original Calalini from youtube.

(It was still up but with an original apology acknowledging its problems)

I sincerely, deeply apologize and I promise to do better in the future.

Please do not be afraid to message me with your concerns. I want to be more transparent. I take everyone's criticism to heart in hopes of becoming a better person.

Thank you,

Cien Miller (Crusher-P)

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WHOOPS

So if any of you followed my main blog, Pumpkinology, you might have seen that it was hacked! I tried just about everything I could to get it to stop, but I made the split decision to just delete it. Thankfully it was tame, but god knows it could’ve gotten worse and I really just didn’t want to risk that. On top of that, I’ve had that tumblr for 8 million years and there’s been a lot of good and bad memories, so now that I’ve just moved to Utah (surprise!) I’d like to start a new chapter.

Of course, this blog will stay the same! But my new main tumblr is Kuragela. It will be barren for a while as I try to fix it. OKAY sorry bye I love you <3 

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ECHO JUST HIT 30 MILLION VIEWS! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Hi everyone! I made a new song cover with my UTAU, Maki Watase. The fantastic, haunting art was made by Gaida, and the spectacular video that brings it all together was made by SynK.

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ECHO Light Novel in English!

THE ENGLISH ECHO BOOK IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

After a lot of planning, hard work and patience, I am so happy to finally be able to come out and announce this! The full book will be released Monday, November 19th, 2018, but building up to it are regular releases of snippets you can read until it’s all the way out. The schedule is as follows:

Part 1: Friday, September 13 Part 2: Wednesday, September 19 Part 3: Wednesday, September 26 Part 4: Wednesday, October 3 Part 5: Wednesday, October 10 Part 6: Wednesday, October 17 Part 7: Wednesday, October 24 Part 8: Wednesday, October 31 Altogether: Monday, November 19

You can read part 1 here: https://j-novel.club/c/echo-part-1/read

I really hope you enjoy it!

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Here is the Rin counterpart that I’ve designed for Lend A Hand Miku! If you check the twitter hashtag #LendAHand you can see some of the other counterparts. YEET!

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Thank You SO MUCH!

We raised $2,469.30 for the victims of the Hokkaido earthquake! Together, united as one, the Vocaloid community showed a beautiful, selfless side of itself. I have never been prouder! Thank you for all of the artists who participated, selfless people who donated, and to everyone who took time out of their day to participate in the stream and spend their time cheering on such a wonderful cause. I love you guys SO MUCH!!!!!!

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Hi everyone! I'm part of a Vocaloid charity art stream from 1-4 PM CST 9/9/2018 to raise funds for Hokkaido relief, as part of VikingGamesLive's 12-hour marathon charity stream! donors will get to make art requests, with all proceeds going to the Japanese Red Cross!

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NATIONAL HOLIDAY

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HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY QUEEN

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Snow Miku 2019!

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how the hell do you write music

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just you try and stop me

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I just want to say something

Hello everyone. This is kind of random but I JUST GOTTA EXPRESS SOME REAL APPRECIATION FOR SOMEONE REAL QUICK

For a couple of years, since 2015, I’ve been working with a guy we’ll call Mr. Ninigi. Mr. Ninigi reached out and wanted to work with me to create the light novel for Echo, and he has been so kind and patient for so many years. When I was helping develop the direction of the novel, I made little drawings of Primadonna (the echo girl) in silly poses and he thought they were so cute that he put them in between the chapters of the book. The Echo light novel is currently being translated into 3 different languages, including the language you’re reading right now and it is coming very soon but I’m not allowed to say anything so just pretend that you have no idea what I’m talking about. Mr. Ninigi has been going out of his way to try very hard to translate the book into Tagalog (not one of the 3 confirmed languages,) so the Filipino side of my family can read it. He told me this today, and I could not help but cry. He’s believed in me this whole time.

There’s always someone out there fighting for you, even in the most unlikely of places. Thank you, Mr. Ninigi.