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“I just want to heal and not always be counting numbers in my head with this fear that something bad is going to happen if I let go of control. I’m sick of checking and rechecking things when I know in my heart that all is well, but my mind has a difficult time trying to understand that. I’m tired of not living my life and always staying in the dark room of my mind. I feel so much disgust and shame, and guilt. I want to be free from my obsessions and the endless search for them to go away. I want to accept them but let them go at the same time. It’s hard living with this disorder. I have this unbearable desire for perfection, and everything feels fucked up. I wish to be carefree than to second guess everything that keeps me from enjoying life as it is. I need to be present. Be a present for life, my family, my best friends. I still want to marry, write good sentences and dance my way to a brighter future. It starts here. In the here and now. I choose to be better, and that means facing my demons, my compulsions, and my madness. It’s not going to be easy, but it’s going to be worth it. Wellness is worth it, and I’m going to live well. I’m going to put in the work towards recovering. That’s my greatest dream, and I’m going to make it. I’m going to make it.”

— Juansen Ryne Dizon, New Leaf

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“The strongest ones are the ones who have every reason to die but still live.”

— juansendizon

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“The severing of an established connection is exponentially more painful than the rejection of an attempted connection.”

— David Foster Wallace, The Broom of the System

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Sometimes people can't reciprocate because they can't give you what they can't give themselves. Those who are at war with themselves can't give you peace. Those who betray themselves can't give you loyalty. Those who lie to themselves can't give you honesty. See them as they are, not who you wish them to be.

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Have you ever lost all respect for someone? Like you don't hate them but you don't feel the need to say anything to them anymore.

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I read a book that said:

"Marriage is hard

Divorce is hard.

Choose your hard.

Obesity is hard

Being fit is hard

Choose your hard.

Being in debt is hard.

Being financially disciplined is hard.

Choose your hard.

Starting a business is hard.

Working a 9 to 5 job is hard.

Choose your hard.

Life will never be easy,

but you can choose your hard.

Choose wisely!"

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Notice what you're not allowed to question. That's where the truth lives.

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Gossips are worse than thieves because they steal another person's dignity, honest reputation and credibility… which are challenging to restore. Remember: When your feet slip, you can always recover your balance. But when your tongue slips, you cannot recover your words.

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The hypocrisy of being human; the constant tug between solitude and company, the desire to love so desperately and simultaneously be detached from it all, of wanting everything and wanting nothing.

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Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends but hate socialising. It's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It's caring about everything then caring about nothing. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralysingly numb.

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What are you supposed to do with all the love you have for somebody if that person is no longer there? What happens to all that leftover love? Do you suppress it? Do you ignore it? Are you supposed to give it to someone else?

Maggie O’Farrell / After You’d Gone

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“My life is made up of ‘I’m sorry’. I feel like I have to apologize to people, to things, to life itself. It’s like, ‘I’m sorry to be here’. I don’t want to disturb anyone.”

— Yohji Yamamoto