lottienat tether is so strong when you genuinely get the fact that lottie IS the wilderness
because nat, who resisted the wilderness (lottie), was still such a crucial part of IT overall.
natalie "you were always its favorite" scatorccio, natalie "it was in you, even when you denied it, especially then" scatorccio
nat who is forever haunted by the existence of something in both its physical and psychological form. now obviously this really applies for. all of the girls. but lottie has put so much effort into nat as if she was investing in her, lottie sees nat as this light at the end of the tunnel.
lottie tried to get nat to understand the wilderness, to let "it" in, to let it engulf her, but the more nat refused the more interest lottie had in her and the more it was mistaken for the wilderness' calling.
and i often see people talk about how a lot of lottienat scenes are really just connecting them back to the wilderness which... yes! connecting them back to the thing LOTTIE created, the thing lottie is a "disciple" of
the existence of the wilderness and the "it" that all the girls believe in comes from lottie and the lack of medication she had, it came from her delusion. it expanded and was enabled by the rest of the girls, but truly nats relationship with "it" AND lottie tie together like a knot
oh we're booing me off the stage oh oh there are tomatoes oh you guys arent hitting me oh nevermind sorry ok
