Cool Guy VS Hot Guy
This time I realized that my nature to fear the same man has been very severe. Even when the universe is trying to help me, I instead chose to flee. Is this not the same as rejecting the help of the universe? The first time my friend and I saw him in a sports center, my cheeks turned pink and I told myself that he is very cool. He was wearing a dark pink colored shirt combined with a Nike sport pants. His body was not overly muscular but I think it’s ideal with his brown skin, he looks adorable. He helped use of fitness equipment and I think it was very good considering I was newbie there. Unfortunately I have not had time to chat more with him. Because I don’t know his name, I gave him a nickname the pinky boy. I was not expecting to see it again in a diner when I bought fruit. I think he also drove his friend to buy a meal. In the next fitness, my friend found the man she considered cool. This man uses a red sleeveless shirt and showing off his muscles. He was practicing pull up and use the additional weight plates which I guess is pretty heavy. My friend gave him the nickname hot guy or spicy guy. Owh you know, he's totally a hot guy! Soon my pinky boy came to exercise. At the end of the session I and my friend chatting with our fitness instructor and his wife. We were joking when I let slip a mention about the hot guy. From the instructor’s wife, we know his name is Faiz, a regular member there. Moderate to pinky boy, she just commented he was very cool. My instructor even offered to introduce us to the man. Wkwk. Incidentally we finished together with the boy's pinky and rainy! I feel it's like in the drama because after all that chance exists, I can still trapped rain with him. My drama queen syndrome reappears. Ahh, unfortunately I was too shy to take shelter with him, so I chose to go straight home. And when I got home I cursed my stupid actions. How could I pass up a good opportunity that exists only in the drama just to hide my shame? An event like this only exist in a dream. Even if that is real, the probability its happen is small. And I screwed up Three consecutive day, I met him, talked about it and trapped in the rain with him, it was like a dream comes true. I should be able to take advantage of the opportunity and get acquainted. Arrggh, I feel really - really stupid. I've got to raise my self-esteem.. At the next opportunity I had to know him. Actually I'm not the type of girl that pursue aggressively chase a man like that. It's just that I had felt slapped by my friend's words, "It is not the era of a man should begin talks. How do you know you are fit or not, if you just don’t ever talk? Moreover, consider this just entertainment, if you are clicks, you can continue this but if you’re not, you can act like a cool. Just pretend to be a cool girl ". I think what she says is true. How can I find if I'm not trying to find? After all, the purpose of my fitness so let my belly flat. I am also not in the stage of falling in love with him, just curious. So next time I'll learn to be more confident again. Hihi. XOXO.
