à peine humaine

[crystalangelicart]

A sip from the pool

Of some old memory

And i didnt know It could taste this sweet

For a moment I drool

But so very shortly

I could feel the disease start rotting my teeth

Brush and scrub

Let miles treat the malady

Hope time once again will make me clean

From old guilt and love

Need to sweat out the toxicity

So we run and run until we feel we're free.

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I’ve fallen for the roses beneath your cheeks Why is it that this feels like all I need The idea fills me with fear Reminding me that you may not always be there. Time changes and twists arbitrarily Sculpting it’s signature into our genes Hijacking our dreams. Is this all I am?a lover, a friend? Destined to meet a common end? I always Imagined I would be extraordinary. That I’d find the words to set my people free. These delusions of grandeur Haunting voices screaming to become more. At what point will I wear away. Will this fire flicker out one day? What then will be left of me? Will I find the strength to fight, to flee?

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The Agony of a Siren

A certain kind of strain A dreadful kind of pain To know how fragile the balance is The weight with which we all live Between heaven and hell A struggle we can’t quell Both here and now And I’ll make my vow To cross mountains and valleys of fire For it is you I desire. I’ll meet you in paradise I wouldn’t think twice About the pain it takes to get me there. Just tell me when and where. This is my curse It will make yours worse. I will drain you Without strength to sustain you And quench with the wine of my love I am not enough. To save you from thirst Though you aren’t the first. I never meant to drag you down Thought you’d swim now I fear you’ll drown. My song a selfish seductress’ call Becomes a lullaby to soothe your fall.

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Can't you tell? She's a feeling.

Words that made me fall in love.

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What do you fear? My thoughts whisper as I silently stare. Perhaps there is a thread of hope I hold That in fact you don't.

Originated from the same pain Knowing that all is transient, and everything fades. I see time rush past me at ever increasing speeds As the current strengthens I must set my trajectory.

I will not become another lost one Hurling and drowning in my own momentum. Instead be brave and sure Sail on toward destiny and dare to dream the future

Be bold and courageous You can make it No other holds your unique perspective Or was given the gifts your mind was blessed with

I do not worry about years or work wasted I'd rather die trying than remain complacent.

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My chest filled with nervous quivering breaths Feeling my muscles tense as the anticipation rises I close my eyes and feel myself on the block Remembering the exhilaration of competition Diving in streamline into dark and frigid waters Forward to the future, a race to the unknown Breach the surface and let the ice tickle my lungs My eyes filled with the blend of creamy earth and Evergreen Up we go climbing up the pass My childs mind unable to imagine tomorrow My skin caressed by the wind Every second dropping colder. Every moment kissing the warmth of home goodbye.

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Look I get it that I hurt you. And I’m not saying that it’s not true But you didn’t have to take it that way You didn’t have to lock the front gate I’m not going to break in because I already broke you. But hey I’m not going to say sorry because you broke me too. Does that mean I can’t have you on my mind? It was never my intention to leave you behind. But it’s tough to teach a lesson when you’re still learning. And it’s hard to forgive when you’re still burning. I don’t know if this is something I can mend. But these values are ones I must defend. You twist my arm and judge my code But my actions are a reaction to the dishonesty you showed. Maybe when I was young I learned to recoil From the people who showed me that they were disloyal. Everyone in every life only does the best they can. Why not for once turn and try to understand. And damn it I know that I’ve stumbled undignified. But at least you could say that I fucking tried. Instead of rolling forward, swallowing the pain I didn’t want to live with that silent disdain. I never imagined this would be the end. No one is ever ready to lose a friend.

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IG: CrystalangelicArt Homage to Anjelica Huston Watercolor pencils and black ballpoint pen.

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IG: CrystalangelicArt Original. Do not use without permission. Watercolor and blue ballpoint pen

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I think I’ve blown a fuse My mind is on a grindstone Wishing I was back home I apologize for the dissonance But this distance was imminent You don’t know what you have till it’s gone But that doesn’t mean I was wrong To move on You seem like you’re still reeling Dissociation is a real feeling It’s not my fault you let the time fly by You can’t blame me for living my life. I tried There’s a stigma about selfishness But I can’t deal with the heaviness Of the pressure and expectations Open my mouth to cry for liberation I just want joy in a quiet place I just want love and I just need space.

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I want to know the darkness in you Tell me of the nights you lie awake alone by the fire Tell me about the thoughts that haunt you when the world goes quiet Tell me what songs you play to drown out the silence Tell me the secrets you kept when you were too proud to call home Tell me the way those words burrowed like parasites into the sores of your soul Show me the the forbidden places in your mind Show me the cobweb corners and what therein you hide Show me the places you run to when you’re filled with shame Show me the underbelly you slither on to stalk your prey Show me the look you had in your eyes when you were most afraid I want to know the darkness in you.

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English is not my first language But instead that of energy thought and emotion. Born from the dimension of imagination I am a foreigner Learn to have patience for my silence Not all moments are subject to translation.

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I am a fireball Of passion, Of freedom and of justice All consuming and ever expanding As I devour the kindling Of experience Of revelation and of truth I will grow and gain the strength Enough to level even the oldest and densest forests And quenched only By the refreshing waters of change

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If you keep resisting, you’ll never reach your goals.

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Oh sweet persephone You don’t deserve to feel like poison Locked in hades spell, an underworld prison We all wait for you, counting the hours Aching for springtime, missing your flowers.

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A wink That psychedelic feeling When it all makes sense You want to laugh It all comes together A kiss Less like it’s predecessors More of a moment I had to smile A secret hidden in plain sight Oh, hello friend I remember you now. I’ve been looking everywhere. Always hidden in the most unexpected place I was searching time, and you hid in space. Silly me.