The Life of a Tourist

I have not found a place yet that I can truly call 'home.' However, at the same time I'm learning 'home' for me is more like a person, not a place. I dream of a bright future and dwell over the past. I'm a planner- everything in my life is organized. And while I can't seem to find my self happy most of the time, I try to constantly remind myself that I have a lot of great things to live for.

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Abbey Lee Kershaw

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Ain't that the truth. 

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“As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going.”

Sex and the City (via alicalamity)

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Song of Myself by Walt Whitman

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I've been thinking a lot lately about how much I've drifted from the majority of my friends the past six months. I've constantly been trying to figure out if I pushed everyone away, or if I got pushed myself. Either way, I've realized the majority of the time I've asked a very similar question: "What did I do wrong?" Maybe the correct answer is that I've been asking the wrong question. I'm starting to believe that in reality it was not completely my fault. I pushed away some people because I deserved better. I was pushed away because I lived a different lifestyle. I drifted from people because I did not live in the same country as them for a good month. I never got close to the staff because my personality does not click with theirs. It's life. I really need to stop stressing over what I did wrong, kill the depression that creates all the knots in my stomach and realize those people don't care anymore what I mean to them. I deserve better than to live a life fucking full of anxiety because of people whose judgements and existence won't matter to me anymore. I need to just start being happy again. 

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Finally free of braces. Six years of bullshit is finally over. :)

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Never thought of it like that.

I've got to keep this in mind tomorrow.