live curiously

Kat, 24, East Coast: Grad student who's studying how people get all weird + rad.  I wholeheartedly believe that life is more magical with Jesus.

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But now I know, 

I'm better sleeping on my own 

'Cause if you like the way you look that much 

Oh, baby, you should go and love yourself 

And if you think that I'm still holdin' on to somethin' 

You should go and love yourself

[abritscher]

[defineyourgrind]

[dannionline]

hell yes 

[findingjesuseverywhere]

In my heart, I am thirsty for you, the living God. When will I see your face?

Psalms 42:2 (via heisworthyblessthelord)

[lizemeddings]

[lochnessprincess]

[mirnah]

[littleoil]

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In the middle of my darkness, You shine the brightest,

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“You look like summer.”

haha one of the best compliments I’ve received :3

[hecallsmelovely]

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Because of You...

I know I am loved. I can stand still on solid ground. I don’t feel like I’m drowning anymore. I don’t need to change myself to please others, to show off who I am or who I can be. I can be wild and free. I can shout and I can be silly. I can feel complete and whole anchored in You. In all of my seasons of life. 

I can love more deeply. I can love more securely. Your love is so true and so steadfast. May I continue to drink deeply of who You are, my amazing God.

So here’s my heart Lord, speak what is true.

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Until next time.

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The fact is, I need God to help me love God. And if I need His help to love Him, a perfect being, I definitely need His help to love other, fault-filled humans.

Francis Chan, Crazy Love (via cl-has-faith-in-god)

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Watched Serendipity the other night (on my longest week ever).

I am a sad puppy indeed. 

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Breaking point

Everything we see, everything we know has a breaking point or disruption. Nothing on earth is everlasting. Whether it be a job position, a relationship. A long flight or a short nap. This kingdom is ever changing and ever shifting. We sometimes are silly to believe that building our lives on this world will bring security and comfort. We become the foolish builder who sets up his home on sand. 

See, the tricky about sand is that it’s almost like the rock we’re suppose to be building upon. It’s made of the same mineral stuff. Yes, sand is granulated but isn’t sand just a bunch of crushed up little rocks anyways? It’s almost the same deal. Similar properties, similar colors. We’re too zoomed in on the here and now to care about the everlasting value, the value of an everlasting life and a forever kind of Kingdom. The fact of the matter is that everyone’s building.

Questions I’ve been wrestling with:

- Do changes last when it’s a result of a breaking point? Can someone change and continue to change when faced with the threat of loss?

- What are my relationships founded upon? Even my own identity is broken and will always change on superficial levels, to be with someone just because of them is hard as well. 

- Will you be a co-laborer with me? Founded on the Rock of Ages Himself?

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Hello.

Hello from miles away.

Hello because I miss you. And all I want to do is pick up the phone, to hear your voice. Hear the stories of your life, the good and the bad. Even the thought of you makes my heart smile. And clearly, I don’t care how corny I am speaking right now. I like replaying your little mannerisms in my head. Those rose colored memories are repeating in my head and honestly, I don’t mind. 

But this time and space will help me sift. Shake and filter the fluffy, superficial reasons. And during this time, please know I’m thinking about you. Praying for you. Hoping. Wishing. 

*I want you to fall in love with God above all else. 

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Solid Hope

Dear Dad,

Yet again I learn that words have the ability to give life or death. I believe that marriage is a godly desire. I also believe that marriage is not about building a happy or comfortable life for my future family. Marriage is about reflecting God and the way He loves His people. God calls us to come and give up our lives to Him. To give up a comfortable life, to give up our desires for wealth, success, and a kingdom here on Earth. To love God and our neighbors more than ourselves and our own marriage. To live a holy life for Him, not ourselves or anyone else. I will not be a slave to money, but to righteousness. You may think I’m naive about financial matters and yes, I think I do not understand the depths of financial struggles. But I have seen how much money rules your life. How much you spend worrying about it. How you have given your entire life to it. From childhood to your adult life you still are a slave to it. And please forgive me God if that ever happens. I will not be a slave to money. I will learn how to be generous when I have it and learn how to be thankful when I do not have it. I will learn how to ask for help and to lean on the church. To work harder and trust in God to provide. To fast and pray when I don’t have food. I also know that God does not promise us wealth and a nice life on Earth. The world will never satisfy us. Everything we see is temporary, even our own lives here. However, He promises us that we can be with Him for eternity. A life everlasting with Him if we love Him, if we obey Him. If we believe that He is God. 

Regarding marriage, it is commitment where we learn how to love and sacrifice. To lay down our lives because Jesus first died for us. Where we learn to confess our sins and to forgive one another. My husband will wash me with the truth of God’s word and I can learn how to support and respect him in the household. This is where patience and mercy can be found and cultivated. To use our resources and skills well. We can learn how to love each other deeply and well. Where lies that lead to greed, jealously, and mistrust can die. To desire and be faithful to one another. To have faith and hope when we struggle and suffer. To continuously love and obey God above all things. My husband will not complete me nor will he be my everything, but together we can remind ourselves that our God is true and good.