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exsaevio:

‘—- you say that as I have to impress you. You will be left in suspense, it seems, yes?’

"Yeah, IMPRESS me -- if you're really a vampire and all, that is."

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exsaevio:

‘And why would I dare spoil the SURPRISE? Perhaps you will simply have to wait and find out, yes? I will state this however - Dracula has absolutely nothing on me.’

"Leaving me in suspense, huh? Hmm, I'll have to see this whole Dracula comparison to believe it, I think."

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"Damn, I was hoping to meet the man himself and everything, there goes all my childhood dreams. But uh, I don't know whether to take that comparison as the real thing being WORSE or the fantasized Dracula side is worse."

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exsaevio

’Right, because I stood here and stated that you were WORST man I have ever met, of course! Whenever I have an opinion, no – FACT, people always wish to pull out the dramatics; is that to make me feel bad? To make me realize mistake? Who knows? But yes, it is wrong. Having thoughts about men in such way is not something that will ever be accepted, understand? Why do you not have woman on mind instead, morally right, no…?’

"You know what? I'm not standing here and listening to you talk BULLSHIT about what's fucking morally right and what isn't. I told you that I liked you, I get it made you feel uncomfortable and I'm SORRY for that, but don't stand there and tell me that I'm not being morally right or some shit. Just -- I'm not doing this." Shaking his head, Leon turned on his heel to walk away, feeling like he would either break down or get angry if he stuck around, needing to get away NOW.

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exsaevio

‘It is not WRONG? Of course, that would be the American view and it is something that I can respect, yes, but it does not mean I have to stand for it – or even BELIEVE it. Saying to myself that my…features are complimentary was not something I  ever expected, awkward and uncomfortable perhaps but it was more so a SHOCK than anything else, understand? Perhaps I simply viewed you as a better man than that…’

"Better man? So, I'm suddenly just the worst person you've ever met because of how I feel towards you? Huh. Alright then -- I mean, I understood if you felt uncomfortable about what I said, but to say that it's WRONG and that it makes me a bad person? That I don't quite understand so much."

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exsaevio

‘I am SORRY but how can you expect me to stay? I did not know you were…t-that way inclined, yes? That you viewed men in such a – sinful light, something that I cannot stand here and allow myself to become c-consumed by. No –—- I will not forget and I should GO, before you say anything e-else.’

"Wait...y-you think it's SINFUL to feel that way towards you? But it's not a bad thing, I just -- I meant that I shouldn't have s-said anything to you and made things awkward or uncomfortable, not that I shouldn't be ATTRACTED to you. I'm sorry for blurting it out, but I -- it's not wrong."

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exsaevio

‘You did not answer my question —- FINE. Now I know you have such feelings, I think I need to leave. In fact, no - I do, definitely.’

"No...no, you don't need to l-leave! Forget I said anything, yeah? I wasn't thinking, I -- I shouldn't have opened my m-mouth, I'm sorry! Don't leave..."

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exsaevio

‘—- do I look that way to you? Do I look like man that would kiss another of his same kind? A-answer me that because yes, you should have said NOTHING —- but we are here now.’

"I--I'm sorry, Dimitri...I never meant to make this uncomfortable or say the wrong thing. I'm s-sorry -- really, I am."

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exsaevio

’—- w-we can simply forget that you spoke it, yes? I – I think I can do that if you ensure that was spoken without thinking. That isn’t what you truly feel…?’

"Well, I mean I -- y-yeah it's how I feel but...but maybe I shouldn't have said any- thing, I didn't mean to make you f-feel uncomfortable. I'm s-sorry..."

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"----no...no, you heard right. FUCK, should I not have said that? I'm so sorry, I -- God, I'm sorry!"

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borntodve

‘You’re fucking insane if you really think that’s the truth, yeah?! I was assigned to fucking SAVE her and I failed, something that meant she got damn killed when I could have stopped that from happening! I should’ve worked harder, found her faster, but I didn’t and now I AM stuck punishing myself because that’s exactly what I deserve! And don’t you ever stop to think that maybe I’m happy? I’m getting laid every damn day, some people don’t have that luxury yo! And the dope is something that keeps me fucking sane, huh? How’s throwing all that away helping me? All you’re doing is trying to damn KILL me with that kinda talk!’

"You JUST told me that you're not happy! So no, I don't think you're happy, as a matter of fact, I think you're more miserable living this life than you are happy. It's not easy to think about letting all of this go, I get that, alright? But you CAN and you should, Carter, you deserve better than this crap you've given yourself, you deserve SO much better and you shouldn't be punishing yourself over things that happened for the rest of your life. It wasn't your fault what happened to her and I think it's time that you stopped blaming yourself."

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exsaevio

’—- they are fine. They, uh…only place I acquire coke without paying, yes? I am not wealthy in the least and I am sure that is not something you wish to have in your home? Not only does he possess disgusting urges but he is also a complete addict. I am certainly not the poster-child that I once was, ha. But, hm - you come and see one I am staying right now? Perhaps your mind will be changed if you see one with your own eyes, no? You can see it is not so bad and your home can be free from…Dimi, woo.’

"You don't have to say it like that, I'm offering you my place to crash because I'd be more than happy to have you there, I wouldn't be cheering if you decided to stay at the doss-house instead, I just wanted you to know that you can stay at mine any time you want to, yeah? But uh...yeah, alright I'll come by and see what it's like, no harm in that."

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borntodve

‘Everything I could? Nah, clearly that’s bullshit when I’m still fucking standing and she’s DEAD, huh? But yeah! You’re right, you’re totally right, I should’ve just told the parents when I went to the morgue that hey, things just…don’t work out! Sorry! Sure they would have been so fucking grateful, yeah? But nah – I had to tell them straight that I was the one that was assigned to rescue her, to SAVE her and I fucking failed; I didn’t deserve them being fucking nice to me about it then, I didn’t deserve being given her fucking pendant because I asked for it, I didn’t deserve anything after what I did! All I deserve is the shit I’m in now and you just need to let me live my damn life, or get the fuck out. Your choice seeing as you CARE so much.’

"No one BLAMES you for her death but yourself, Car! Not even her parents blame you for what happened to her so you need to stop punishing yourself because it WASN'T your fault. You were doing your job, you were doing everything you could to try and save her and it's not your fault that those scumbags did what they did before you could! I do care about you, I care about you so much and that's why I hate seeing you live like this when you deserve so much better. I'm only trying to help you out here, I'm not trying to be an asshole."

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exsaevio

’—- yes, okay. It is probably best if I don’t speak further about my past and what I deserve, I know what is RIGHT and what I am worthy of and staying at yours is certainly not one of those things. But I appreciate how kind you are, and the compliment you have given me, perhaps one day I will take you up on your offer, yes? Perhaps. I feel I am HAPPY where I am right now though, doss-houses are not so bad when you find good one, I promise.’

"Doss-houses? C'mon...just come crash at mine for a few nights, man, it's really no bother to me at all and you're welcome to come any time. I don't like the thought that you're crashing in a doss-house even if you wanna tell me that it's a good one or whatever. You deserve better, no matter what you wanna try and tell me about what you do and don't deserve -- you deserve BETTER than to live in a doss-house for the rest of your life."

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borntodve

‘I don’t? And what fucking justifies you to say that, huh? Just because you THINK that’s what I deserve in my shitty ass life? Because it certainly ain’t the truth! Come back to me about what’s fair and what’s right when you let a fucking teenager die on your watch when she had the rest of her damn life to live for! Come back to me when you don’t have that on your conscience every fucking moment of the damn day! You sticking around no matter what I say ain’t helping nothing! You’re just wasting your fucking time, especially when you don’t mean shit to me.’

"Carter, that wasn't your fault! You done everything you could to save her and things didn't work out, you can't punish yourself for the rest of your life over it, that's not fair on you! So no, I don't think you deserve this life that you've given yourself because of that. I know I don't know how it feels, I know that I don't know what you go through everyday or what you went through back then, but I DO know that you deserve better than this, YOU'RE better than this. I don't care if I don't mean anything to you, you still fucking mean a lot to me and that won't ever change, no matter what you say."

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exsaevio

’—- why are you being, uh…nice? You say we do not know each other and that is correct, so you do not know of the horrible person I truly am, no? If you knew of what I had done to my Papa and even to my country, you would be expressing your disdain towards me, certainly not offering me a place to stay? But hm – thank you. I do not deserve that but I don’t wish to appear rude, so thank you.’

"Because you're not a horrible person to me, no matter what you've done or what your Father thinks of you, I think you're a pretty great person and honestly, I'm looking forward to getting to know you better. We've all made mistakes in our life, we've all done things we wish we hadn't, but it's no reason to hold hatred or a life long grudge towards someone, so trust me, there's no judging coming from me. Just know that I'm always here and my door is always open if you need a place to crash, for as long as you need, yeah?"

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borntodve

‘Never said I was happy, do I look fucking happy to you? I said that it was RIGHT, that this life I made for myself is what I damn deserve! Ain’t nothing to do with being happy and enjoying myself, you really think I have a right to do that when I let a little girl DIE? Nah. I have every damn reason to push you away when you wanna stop the shit I’m doing, I have every right to not care about you and your damn HELP. I just don’t want it, I don’t need anyone being here for me! I’m fucking fine on my god damn own, yeah?’

"You DESERVE to be happy, Carter! You don't deserve this life you gave yourself and even if you think you did back then, you don't anymore, you don't deserve to keep torturing and punishing yourself this way, it's not RIGHT or fair on you! If you don't care about me then that's fine, but I care about YOU and I always will, no matter what you say or no matter how much you want to try and push me away, nothing will ever make me stop caring about you."