eclectic.

cindy. 45. mom. yet classic. 

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text <-----> open

alex: hey i got this number from some bathroom stall.

alex: i'm not texting for a good time

alex: unless the good time involves tacos..

alex: i just assumed you might have wanted to know your number is posted in some dudes stall at this bar.

cindy: ... weird

cindy: WHICH bar though? bc then it may make sense

cindy: any truly good time involves tacos, let's be real

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wtfstella

“we might not be the richest family on the island but we are the sneakiest so these assholes better watch out.” she shook her head, sighing a little. she was used to it. searching for any and all money she could find. “spending money on booze is well worth it.”

cindy chuckled, joking, “good, some of the people around here could use a little culture shock.” she tilted her head to the side slightly, “i mean, you’re not wrong. booze has been pretty damn helpful lately.” she admitted, letting out a breath 

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melanietownsend

Melanie nodded as the woman spoke, she really had missed her family. “Aside from holidays? I think it’s been years,” she admitted, “and even if I can get them all home for Christmas they stay for the bear minimum.”

“wow, that’s crazy.” cindy let out a breath, she couldn’t imagine that- not having all her kids in one place for so long. she knew that would be incredibly difficult, “damn, at least they come home for the holidays, i guess.” she paused, “i can’t imagine how hard that is- on top of everything else.” she reached over and squeezed melanie’s arm gently 

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brooksmcknight

Deep down inside, Brooks knew it couldn’t be as easy for his mother as it appeared to be, but in a way he was kind of relieved to see her pain, though he felt guilty as hell for provoking this kind of reaction. The fact that everyone seemed to have moved on, while a sad, empty feeling continued to linger in his chest, had made him feel very lonely, which is why he didn’t want to dance around it any longer. Tears welled up in the boy’s eyes as he continued. “What decisions? You and Margaret decided you wanted a divorce. I didn’t, but I have to deal with the shitty consequences regardless!” he countered, raising his voice a little higher than she did. “Well, you didn’t even try stop her! You just let her go!” It wasn’t fair to blame her for that, but the boy was far too upset to be reasonable. “Maybe that is what I want! Maybe.. Maybe I want you to be upset! Because everyone is just like, moving on with their lives, pretending to be perfectly okay with everything, and no one wants to acknowledge the pink elephant in the room, and that is that it’s bullshit to stop loving each other after twenty-plus years of being together. And it’s also bullshit to move to a different country so you can bang some young slut! Why can’t I say these things out loud? I’m sure I can’t be the only one who feels this way! It hurts, okay? It hurts like hell and I’m not going to fake being fucking fine with this anymore!” Brooks inhaled and exhaled deeply after his rant, a pang of guilt hitting his chest once again when he noticed the defeated expression on his mother’s face. “Mom…” he spoke softly, biting his teeth down on his lower lip as he realized he might have pushed it too far. “I’m sorry… I just… I need you both. Together… Please.”

seeing tears well up in her son’s eyes, cindy’s heart clenched. seeing brooks hurt like that hurt even more than the pain she felt from all the drama happening in their family. she shook her head, “i didn’t want her to go. i would’ve stopped her if i could, i promise you, but she’s an adult and she makes her own decisions and i can’t control that.” she listened to him rant, tears welling up in her eyes. she didn’t want this. she didn’t want brooks to feel this way and she wished she didn’t feel what she was feeling either. all she wanted was for her kids to be happy- and it was obvious that they weren’t. brooks definitely wasn’t. she bit her bottom lip for a second, a tear slipping down her cheek, before replying, “i am upset. i’m really upset, brooks. this is hard. this wasn’t what i wanted. the divorce? yeah, that was overdue. but this? you being hurt? your sisters being hurt? your mom moving away and moving on so quick? none of that is what i wanted. and i’ll always love your mom- that doesn’t just go away. but this hurts. and being on the island hurts more than i thought it would. none of this is easy. i’m just- ignoring it makes it seem like it’s not real.” she paused, wiping her tears away with the back of her hand, even though it was no use since she was pretty much full-on crying now, “it’s not all perfect!” she threw her hands up in the air, a humorless laugh leaving her lips, “it’s not! but there’s nothing i can do about it and i don’t want you to feel like you have to worry about me because my job is to worry about you and make sure you’re doing ok- which you obviously aren’t." she paused again, letting out a shaky breath to calm herself down, "you’re my first priority. nothing else matters. i want you to be able to talk about it if that’s what’ll help you. i don’t want you to fake anything. and i need you to know that i’m here for you. i’m not goin’ anywhere.” she stepped forward, pulling brooks into a tight hug, “brooks, it’s ok. don’t apologize. i’m not upset with you. i wish i could make that happen for you, but i-i can’t. i’m sorry that i can’t make this better for you. you know i would do anything possible for you, but us getting back together isn’t possible. tell me what else i can do for you. please.” 

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sebwalsh

“you’re suppressing your anger very well… have you been smoking more often now?” he laughed. “seriously, xavier has been talking about wanting to set you up with someone. let us be your fairy godparents.” sebastian really wanted to help his friend as much as he could, knowing she’d do the same for him. plus, cindy was hot. it wouldn’t be hard task at all. “let’s just hope they don’t grow up to resent us like we did to our parents,” he joked, raising his glass.

“maybe.” cindy chuckled with a mischievous grin, just because they were the adults didn't mean they had to miss out on all the fun. she shook her head with a grin, “god, somehow i knew i’d have you two tryin’ to play matchmaker this summer... though, i guess one or two dates wouldn’t hurt...” she trailed off, the idea of dating was still a little terrifying. she raised her glass two, clinking it against sebastian’s with a laugh, “god, i hope not. though, i’d like to think we’ve both done a much better jobs than our parents could ever dream.” 

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taylcrrs

“i know, i know. i mean, you raised me, so how could i not be great?” the girl said with a smile. she absolutely adored her mother — and she felt like she had to tell her as often as she could. “you’re the best.” she chuckled and then shrugged, “yeah, it’s pretty great, you know. and you’re right, that’s something we need right now. and you know we’re here for you too, right? i mean, this must not be that easy for you either…” taylor mumbled the last part. “true. i love the ocean. and the memories — remember when i got buried in the sand and they sculpted the sand into a mermaid? it looked so funny — even though it was really hard to get out!”

cindy smiled widely at her daughter, “you’re the best. and, listen, i know i raised you, but i swear, you became this incredible all on your own, though if you insist i’ll happily take credit for your greatness.” she teased. she looked down for a moment, nodding, “i know you are, taylor, but you don’t need to worry about me, ok? it’s my job to worry about you.” then she laughed, shaking her head fondly, “oh my god, that was so cute! you were stuck in there for so long. god, we laughed so hard. i still have a picture of you all buried like that on our- my- dresser at home.” 

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wtfstella

the younger woman shook her head. “i’ve had too many people on this island call me poor to believe that.” she sighed a bit. “no one else really matters. my mother is wasting all of our money on booze as always so i’ll be poor again in now time.”

“people have said that to you? wow. fuck ‘em. that’s rude as hell.” cindy shook her head. she’d been coming to the island for a long time, so she was used to the snobbish people. plus, she had had money pretty much all her life, “well, i hope that doesn’t happen, that would be a lot of money spent on booze.” 

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xaviersw

Xavier smiled. He and Seb had been close friends with Cindy for such a long time– he enjoyed seeing her. And his heart ached for what happened to her. “I suppose. You should come join Seb and I at our place for a drink sometime. It’s been awhile since we’ve all gone out.”

cindy grinned, “oh, i will definitely take you up on that offer. i only get to see you guys a few months outta the year, i need all the updates on the kids and i need to try to convince ya to give me a sneak peek of your fall line.” she joked. she had missed xavier and seb so much and spending time with them was sure to take her mind off of her own drama with her family 

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ffscelcste

celeste clicked her tongue against the roof of her mouth as she sighed once more. “i understand. they’ve heard stories from whomever and chose to believe that over the truth. they hear about my disappearance as well and pull it all together. it’s a mess.” she glanced up for a second. “no, it’s not. i came after everything happened.”

“i’m going to keep trying to explain. i mean, when maggie and i got divorced we told them why, so i don't know. i’m sure you understand how hard this is for them- not to make excuses for ‘em.” she ran a hand through her hair, “i’ll talk to them again.” 

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text 👉 heidi

heidi: it's pretty serene. i forgot how much i loved this island.

heidi: but anyways, it's been a while.

heidi: how are you and the kids?

cindy: it really has!! too long

cindy: we're ok, been better

cindy: still trying to... adjust to the changes lately, it's been a little hard

cindy: how about you? how's the family?

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brooksmcknight

Though he wasn’t one to cry easily, Brooks had always been a sensitive boy, and right now a hurricane of emotions were going through him, which is why he couldn’t stand how calm and collected Cindy appeared to be about this situation. Needless to say, her kind words fell on deaf ears. “No, you don’t! You don’t know how hard this is for me!” The boy couldn’t hold it back any longer, and didn’t want to either. “You and Maggie… you make all this decisions for us, for me! It’s not fair! I don’t wanna be some kid from a broken home! I don’t want my mom living on the other side of the world some hoe! But like, none of you care about what I want! I just get called selfish for wanting my mom to care about me! It’s fucked up, okay! And you know I’m right, so stop telling me how we can still be family and how it’s going to be okay! I don’t wanna listen to this bullshit anymore!”

as brooks shouted, cindy took it, knowing he needed to get it out. she understood what that was like. she moved closer to him, despite his anger. she shook her head, “what? because you think this is easy for me?” she paused, “brooks, what decisions have i made for you? i have never tried to control you. i have never tried to make you feel like you couldn’t make your own decisions.” she took a breath, her voice rising slightly, “and you think i want her to be living on the other side of the world? no, i don’t and i know it’s fucked up! ok, i do! i know it’s bullshit! what do you want me to do, brooks? scream? cry?” her voice cracked and she looked away for a moment, trying not to cry, “what can i say? i can’t fix it. i don’t know how the hell to handle this. i don’t know what to do. and that’s the truth. and i'm sorry.” she felt defeated and she felt guilty for getting like this in front of her son 

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wtfstella

“i didn’t used to burn as a child but now that i’m older, it’s tomato city for me.” she shrugged. “there’s no getting used to it. everyone in this place is a little stuck up and full of themselves.” she crossed her arms against her chest. “maybe but i’ve yet to find them.”

a small grin curled at cindy’s lips, “i know it seems that way. believe me, my mother is the most stuck up, snobbish person i’ve ever met and made sure i didn’t feel like i fit into our oh so ‘important’ family. but, there are some good, humble people around here. it’s just not always obvious.” she chuckled 

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text 👉 brooks🌟

brooks: blame yourself, you raised me.

brooks: or blame margaret 🤢

brooks: name one (1) person.

brooks: you would have named me after a witch? ruuuuude!

cindy: wow, ok, pulling the parenting card, huh? smart, very smooth

cindy: just bc i can't pull a name right now does NOT mean im not right

cindy: rude how?? witches are COOL

cindy: and rhiannon is a bop (bop is what u kids say now, right?? or do i sound ridiculous)

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maggiexmcknight

“I suppose that’s the easiest thing to do with, Brooks,” she smiled as she rubbed the back of her neck. “She’s always had a good head on her, and she has your heart.. I suppose they do in their own ways,” she mused as thought about the ways in which her children have grown over the years. “I mean it’s been awhile with good reasoning. It’s not like we’ve been who we used to be for a very long time now,” who they used to be before life got in the way was good, or at least Maggie remembered it as good. “You know i’m not good at that kind of stuff, Cindy. Like where do I even begin?”

“i’m really proud of em’ all, of who they are- even if they still cause a lotta trouble sometimes.” cindy let out a quiet laugh. she nodded then, “yeah, it hasn’t been that way in awhile. a long while. you’re right, we aren’t what we once were... and that’s ok, right? we’re still growing.” and it was hard to admit that stuff out loud, but it was obviously something they both knew. it was part of why they’d gotten divorced- they had become different than how they used to be. she sighed, “maggie, i wish i could tell you the best way to handle this, but i don’t know. i think to start you just need to explain why you left. why you moved here. after that? i have no idea.” 

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melanietownsend

Melanie let her eyes follow CIndy’s and drift across the water. It was a strange thing, the water felt calming, but at the same time Melanie was terrified of it, like it was a calm killer. She took a deep breath when Cindy mentioned her kids, “they’re struggling,” she admitted, “but honestly, it feels amazing to have them all back in one place.”

cindy nodded, “i’m sure.” she wet her lips with her tongue, “it’s good they’re all here. i can’t imagine how much you must’ve missed all of em’ being in one place. how long’s it been since you’ve all been together?” 

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ffscelcste

“i know that. maggie knows that. you know that. unfortunately, your children don’t know that. that seems to be the problem.” she sighed. “i did. i’m owning my own shit but i refuse to continue taking the fall for ‘ruining your family’”. she glanced away. “i know it’s not easy but this needs to be handled in the right way.”

cindy nodded, “i know. and i have been trying to explain it to them, believe me. i just think their emotions are getting in the way and misplaced anger is the result.” she sighed, “you’re right, and i absolutely don’t want you to take the fall for that. because it’s not even a little bit your fault.” 

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taylcrrs

“it’s just funny! it’s probably just the donor part that makes us different.” taylor then laughed at her mom’s next statement. “honestly, i think so too. i think you and mom should’ve just stopped at one; i’m obviously the best one!” she joked. “i’m kidding, obviously. i love them. i’d do anything for my little siblings! don’t tell them i said that, though, i don’t need more teasing than i get.” she chuckled with a nod. “oh, right! that’d be nice! and i love the sound of the waves. and the smell of the ocean.”

cindy laughed, slinging her arm around taylor’s shoulders and joking, “maybe. i mean, you are pretty great.” she adored all three of her kids so much. she thought they all were the greatest thing in the world, “no, no, i would never. secret’s safe with me.” she grinned, “though, the way you three love and look out for each other is one of my favorite things. makes me happy. especially now.” she nodded, “right? it’s calming. and it brings back good memories.”