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reluctantheartcd‌:

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sawyer walked with his mouth slightly agape and his eyes quite small, reeking of weed. he’d always found that it was the best way to cure a hangover, and also the best way to deal with repercussions from a fight. noticing caroline, he walked toward her and took a seat, looking up at her and smiling wide before speaking his mind, “how much higher do you think sea levels would be if spongebob wasn’t there.”

caroline could smell sawyer before she actually saw him, stifling a slight laugh. of course he was stoned right now. “not sure,” she said, laughing, “but i don’t think it would be as high as you, sawyer.” he almost looked adorable in his state, and caroline was a little jealous — being stoned beat being hungover, and if it wasn’t for her hatred of the smell, she’d ask him for his stash. “don’t tell me you were just watching spongebob, though. i thought you had better taste.”

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gdialex‌:

logan could taste tears and bitteroot in his mouth as she attempted to comfort him. he broke her heart. by accident, of course, but it still came apart in his hands like it was made of ash and broken promises regardless––and no amount of apologies was going to wash them clean again. “c’mon, car, don’t,” he shook his head slightly and licked at his bottom lip, “don’t do that. don’t fuckin’ make me feel better about this.” scrubbing his hands down his face, logan shook his head slightly and clenched his jaw, “the point is, i fucked up, and i regret it every fucking day of my life. i just wanted you to know that…and i wanted you to know that i…loved you––too much, i think––because i didn’t know how to handle it, and i’m sorry. you deserved a million times better than that.”   

caroline pulled back a little, wringing her hands as she dropped his gaze once more. she was at a loss of what to do. it would be so easy to just wrap logan in her arms, and tell him that everything was okay — but they weren’t like that anymore. she’d given him the barest hint of a compliment and even felt like that was too much. caroline didn’t think that trying to give comfort to another person could be so difficult. “i’m not, i’m just… letting you off the hook.” she shrugged, “i don’t want you to hold onto this and feel bad about it every single day. you don’t deserve that.” there was something twisted about this situation, and he was right — it was weird that they were doing this. “i loved you too, logan. and i hate that we ended up here. but i don’t regret being with you, not anymore.”

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saccred‌:

“ oh, you said you didn’t hear me ? and to be louder ? okay. i said the washers and dryers are broken, ” shiloh said, dragging out the words in an unnecessarily loud tone just to piss her off. he pushed his phone into the pocket of his sweatpants, scoffing at her question. “ i’d only do it if i was paid to. it’d be simple enough, probably – just check on the water valves and shock absorbers if it’s not the lid switch or the thermal fuses that’s being shitty, but. fuck the greater good. ”

caroline groaned, giving him a light shove before slumping against one of the (broken) machines. “you’re a dick, shi.” she whined, but still managed to give a slight laugh. rolling her eyes, caroline folded her arms across her chest — though she couldn’t deny she was a little impressed. sometimes she forget that shiloh had about 100 IQ points on most of the engineering students. “fuck the greater good? way to be a team player.” she chastised, her tone light. “anyway, where were you last night?”

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saccred‌:

shiloh sighed, on his fifth go around of refreshing his social media pages. he had been in the laundry room for a ridiculous amount of time at this point, leaning against one of the washers with his basket by his foot. he hadn’t gone to eden’s party last night, but the things he’d heard and seen through twitter thus far were shocking, to say the least. shiloh duly noted someone else walking into the room as he was scrolling through instagram, and without looking up from his phone he said, “ all the washers and dryers are broken. repairman said he’d be here an hour ago. ”

despite being indoors, caroline had a pair of sunglasses on, moving at half-speed as she brought her basket into the laundry room. seemingly indisposed, she stirred a little at the sound of shiloh’s voice. “oh my god — will you stop yelling?” she groaned, dropping her basket at her feet and letting out another whimper at the noise it made. letting out a sigh of frustration, caroline shuffled over to shiloh, pushing the sunglasses up onto her head. “can’t you fix it? you’re meant to be an engineering genius, right?”

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gdialex‌:

“i know i shouldn’t,” he mumbled quietly as he brushed a strand of her hair behind her ear. “i know i don’t deserve a chance to explain myself, but i just…every time i look at you i feel like i’m about to throw up all the reasons you were too good for me.” one: violets bloomed in her smile, and he was pretty damn sure that even old man winter wanted to feel her warmth. two: venice had nothing on the eaves of her bones; she was more resplendent than any building he’d ever seen on his mother’s ‘culture trips’. three: she would never destroy something she loved out of fear of losing it. for once, he kept his mouth shut and didn’t say what was on his mind. ironically, now was probably the only time he should tell her exactly what he was thinking. “did you do something wrong?” logan echoed hollowly. “car, you were everything…and i guess i realized that if you were everything, then without you, i’d be left with nothing.”  

caroline leaned into his touch a little, before pulling away. she couldn’t help it, he was just so familiar and they’d been so painfully civil with each other since the break-up, that letting go of that a little felt better. a sad smile took over her steely expression, and despite wanting to yell about everything they’d been through, she didn’t want to punish logan any more than it seemed like he was punishing himself. “you’re not left with nothing, don’t say that.” caroline said quietly, “you’re wonderful, logan — i have good taste in people, trust me.” she joked, before continuing, “and yeah, you hurt me, and i’m still kind of mad. i mean, you did a bad thing… but you’re not a bad guy, logan.” caroline’s eyes met with his, reaching forward to gently squeeze his hand. being mad was exhausting, and as frustrating as it all was, it still seemed as though she cared for him.

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gdialex‌:

logan leaned his forearms against the porch railing and grinned slightly at the ground. “not flattery if it’s true,” he teased, looking up at her with a warm smile curved across his lips. he always felt better when she was around, like he was better because someone like her could love someone like him. “‘cause no one in there is as special as caroline kinsey,” he hummed, nudging her with his shoulder slightly. his cheeky grin smoothed out into a fond smile (( though it was tinged with sadness and regret )), “really, you are…extraordinary.” he held his head in his hands for a moment and massaged his temples, “god i fucked up. i really fucking fucked up, didn’t i?”    

it took a second for caroline to realise what logan was saying, her brain just a couple of seconds behind everything that was going on. “seriously, logan — we’re not talking about this right now, are we?” there was tiredness in her voice, and a little frustration. she was drunk, and the lack of inhibitions meant she wasn’t putting in as much effort in keeping things civil and shallow anymore. “but… yeah. you fucked up, and it was shit.” caroline shrugged, gaze dropping as she tried to avoid eye contact with logan. “this is, uh… can i just — can i just ask why you did that to me? were you mad, i mean... did i do something wrong?” she asked, voice quivering a little as she tried to keep her face emotionless.

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gdialex‌:

logan was sufficiently buzzed and sufficiently stupid enough to go looking for caroline. he stumbled through a couple different rooms before finding her on the porch. he should’ve known. she was always at the edges of the crowd, even when they were together. “if it isn’t caroline kinsey,” he drawled, leaning against the railing next to her, “my absolute favorite future president genius cheerleader. i gotta say, you made that uniform look real good, toots.” 

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the house was a little much for caroline, in her drunken state. everything was hot and loud, and she wanted a second of air before she went back inside to do shots and scream the lyrics to eden’s party playlist. jumping a little when she heard a voice, she turned around. “you flatter me, logan.” caroline deadpanned, giving him the barest hint of a smile. “how come you’re not down there with everyone else, shotgunning a beer or something?”

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edenroxe·:

eden squealed as she saw caroline giving her a nice big embrace, “scorpio motherfuckin gin” she giggled as she recalled their texts previous to the party. caroline was a fast friend, but eden felt completely enamored with how she carried herself. she was extremely enigmatic and eden always felt compelled to come to her with everything. “you always make these suggestions and then try to sell it as if i already wasn’t planning on making you my wife anyway”

“that’s my porn name, don’t wear it out.” she beamed, unable to keep herself from laughing. caroline couldn’t have been more ecstatic to be there, eden seemed to bring life to every single party — and this was clearly no exception. “in that case, tick tock, eden — i’d like a june wedding which means less than a year to prep for it.” caroline teased, although eden would be high up on the list of people she wouldn’t mind spending forever with.

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survivng‌:

parker giggled when she called him cute. he was dummy drunk, but could at least recognize that it was a good thing. “ because i thought, that you would think, that i would think you’re just an object. ” he laughed. “ but i don’t. i think you’re the best person i know. ” he found himself just a centimeter away from her nose. parker accidentally moved a little forward, nudging his nose against hers. but why stop at that? he pressed his lips quickly against hers, pulling away after a second or two. “ is that okay? ”

“parker, that’s silly — i know you’re not like that.” caroline cupped his face with her hand, slight concern on her face. the idea that she’d ever think poorly of parker was ridiculous to her. it was the opposite, if anything. caroline thought the world of him. “you’re my favourite, don’t you know that?” she said, as though it were completely obvious. her breath hitched as parker drew closer to her, and caroline leaned into the kiss. “of course that’s okay, dummy.” she smiled, leaning in for more.

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survivng‌:

he had always thought she was beautiful. the fact that she was surprised – that was the shocking part. she had to have had plenty of guys chasing after her, right? parker didn’t like to pay attention to that kind of stuff because it just put him in a shitty mood, and he didn’t want to interfere with her love life. but free of inhibitions, there was no time like the present to do so. “ yeah. you’re like, the prettiest person on this planet. ” he mumbled as he pulled slightly away from their hug, their faces merely inches away from each other. “ i’ve always thought so. ”

despite the fact that he’d pulled away from the hug, caroline still had her hands on his arms, as if subconsciously keeping him close to her. she’d never looked at him up close like this before, and it might have just been the alcohol, but she felt so warm inside. “well, i think you’re pretty cute, too, parker.” it sounded so childish, but buzzed as she was, caroline couldn’t be anything but honest. her eyes widened for a moment. “you have? why didn’t you tell me sooner, parker?” she asked, head canted to the side. they were so close, she could almost feel his breath.

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@carebear: did everyone try the sushi bar? i thought the sushi bar was lovely

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survivng‌:

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parker found himself stumbling around the party after his fourth round of shots, clutching a beer a little over-protectively near his chest like it was more of a child than a drink. he wanted to find caroline, because he just remembered something really funny, and she was the only person he really wanted to tell. “ caro ! ” he shouted upon seeing her, his face unusually lighting up with a smile. he couldn’t remember exactly what he wanted to say, because she was so goddamn pretty, looking like a goddess among mere mortals. “ you’re so beautiful. ”

caroline was lucky in that she could hold her liquor pretty well, but unlucky in that eden had supplied enough alcohol to sustain an entire country of drunks. so she was incredibly buzzed, sipping on her drink as she revelled in her surroundings. hearing a familiar voice call her name, caroline’s head whipped around, face instantly breaking out into a smile. “parker!” she exclaimed, enveloping him in a hug. pausing for a moment as he spoke, her cheeks turned pink. “wait, you think i’m beautiful?”

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edenroxe·:

a small smirk played on eden’s lips as she saw from her bedroom window many faces coming to fill her vacant house. the estate had been in their family for generations almost dating back one hundred years. music filled the once empty halls as eden made her way down them. her heels clicked down the steps as she entered the foyer. opening the door already prepared with a drink in hand, “welcome to casa rose. if you can’t hold your liquor please feel free to leave now”

as soon as caroline saw eden, she wrapped her arms around her (taking care not to knock the drink out of her hand). “do you have any gin for my elderly self?” she asked, eyes scanning the place. it was enormous. caroline thought her childhood home was big, but it was nothing compared to the rose estate. “eden, can we get married so i can live here with you? i’ll be an amazing housewife, i swear.”

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survivng‌:

“ okay, fine. maybe you’re the only good thing about homecoming. i can’t believe i would elbow my way into the stands among a bunch of drunk dumbasses just for you. ”

“aw, you’re such a sap. you mean you’re not there for the tailgates and riveting soccer games? at least you have eden’s party to look forward to at the end of all this. you’re going, right?”