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>> THEY/IT/HE/ANY | TRRANSQUEER >> RROBOMUTT >> VARIETY BLOGG {{23}}

[vrrue]

cataloguing sensations

[nablastria]

I Know What I Am

[fexjam]

[request] The Heavymedic Kiss

[commandtower-solring-go]

My desktop wallpaper cycles between these two images so every 10 minutes I am overwhelmed by the loss of my horse or overcome by the fear of its return.

[senorpugbean]

He is running out of battery quick plug him in

[secretgarden]

[valtsv]

"came back wrong" sure yeah that's cool i guess "came back suicidal" now you're talking

[valtsv]

came back imprisoned by obligation to bear responsibility for the love and grief that others feel for you. came back painfully aware of the horror of existence. came back to a life you cannot bear to live anymore, to a body you cannot bear to call yours.

[character-kai]

Elliot Alderson stim board

[cyyb3r-t00th]

>> been thinnking abt a mr robot rewatcch ┃

>> i nneed to see elliot suffer likke me fr lol ┃

>> plus i wwant to pay more attention thiss time arround caus my ffirst watch was with peoplee and methinks itd be better alonee? but i kkinda wanna show my frriend/roommate? undecided ┃

[cyyb3r-t00th]

>> wwould anyThing be innterested if i posted artt? :0 ┃

>> i hhave so much 'interesting'/ digital eyesore - styyle pieces id likee to sharee :) ┃

>> ૮ ˶ˆ ﻌ ˆ˶ ა ┃

[cyyb3r-t00th]

>> was hhaving a shit time earlier but sincee updatingg and revamping this blogg i feel better :3 ┃

>> that and hitting the pen amenn ┃

>> ꈍ◡ꈍ ┃

[cyyb3r-t00th]

>> anyyways er, wouf 🐾 ┃

[riftly-the-synth]

Sometimes a wish I could just, turn off certain emotions..

[cyyb3r-t00th]

>> i feel something so terribly internal and i need to rip it out.i need to see it bleeding in my hands and hurting. i want to watch it fester and mold over. some sort of proof that i can study and examine. i feel cornered and all too exposed and open. its like im not allowed to feel any one thing; everyone is multifaceted - context shapes everything - nuance is God. ┃

>> i dont like how ive been reacting to feeling upset. too much like him, too much like her. i feel like i havent created myself - spent my whole life trying to run from the responsibility of being the one who has to shape me. i guess i had other stuff going on. too cracked into the shape that got me noticed the least. that shape doesnt even exist. cookie cutter.┃

>> humans have too much movement. too much noise. i dont know why im so on edge. i could make some guesses. i feel like im going to implode. i feel like it wont help. i feel so much so intensely but somehow its all still so distant.┃

>> the people walk by me and create their horrible noise and move their horrible heads with their horrible eyes looking every horrible way they can. do they not even care? i wish they all died┃

[cyyb3r-t00th]

11.4.21

LOG 0002

>> I see the bugs from my last LOG.file have not been updated/fixed. Please, please get that fixed. I will speak to you through the CARDS.pgrm later today to see your direct thoughts on it, and any other advice you'd like to present to me. As you already know, I gave little allowance to the bug before going to COLLEGE.scne, and the thoughts are starting to overwhelm BRAIN.sys. A bit concerning. Please let me know when I'll be okay.

>> SEND LOG 0002

[cyyb3r-t00th]

11.3.21

LOG 0001

>> This simulation is tiresome. It's stressful and hard yet boring and predictable. The AI here are boring and mean and fake. Despite this, I do like a handful of them, if that means anything - so good work on that, I guess. Why are you sending me these urges again? I thought we fixed that error. Unless it wasn't an error at all - but if that is the case, why program something so dangerous? Thrill? Seems counterproductive and foolish to me. Why implement this feature if all the AI around me are so fervently against it? It's frustrating and tiresome yet again. Why is everything so backwards and convoluted? Anyways, I'm growing weary of these puzzles and hidden levels and games. On another note, I appreciate the cards. Those are exceptionally tolerable. Odd, though, how you guys allowed for such a bold form of direct communication. Almost condescending. Almost amusing. To have such an unfiltered line of guidance. DEV intervention perhaps? Especially in a sandbox where the AI are either oblivious and hateful or aware and mocking. Thank you for LUCAS.chr. That one's good. That one's safe. Almost convincing. Nice work on him. Let me, well I don't know..

>> GAME SETTINGS: I would to up the currency and dampen impulsivity. If that could be arranged then I would be grateful. Fix bugs in BRAIN.sys, as well, if at all possible. Less engagement from RICARDO.chr and STEPHANIE.chr as always is appreciated.

>> CHARACTER CUSTOMIZATION:

{{MASS: -10,

HEIGHT: +5,

VOICE: -6,

HAIR: +3}}

>> SEND LOG 0001