you tell me your friend says he did not want to walk on eggshells anymore, you tell me it left you in silence.
you tell me this as your heart beats faster beneath my head and you pretend not to notice. i ask you why you're afraid and you pretend not to notice. i pretend not to notice.
you tell me humans are masochists by nature and I tell you that pain is inevitable. you tell me we go after what hurts and I tell you there is something beautiful about it.
you tell me we want what we cant have and I don't know how to tell you that there is only one thing I want and it is in my bed but it is so far out of reach. it holds me in the dark and leaves at the crack of dawn. it was right there until it wasn't. i might have made it up. nobody is a witness, only us. we could be liars.
i tell you i caught a cold and you cover my shoulders. we both knew and that is what makes it pitch black terrifying. i sleep in the dark, you don't.
