braindead & sad

The username pretty much sums it all

[localcryptic]

taking antidepressants and listening to nine inch nails so the effects cancel out and my libido comes out perfectly normal

[homoidiotic]

Emergence: A Transsexual Autobiography (1977) by Mario Martino

A significant document in trans masculine history, Emergence is the first full-length published autobiography of a female-to-male transsexual.

[bigbossterone]

Passages I found important.

[goodboybloody]

first original post hellooo

[dorihowls]

[industrially]

[scramratz]

[zygon-commander]

john constantine moodboard

[tboywhocouldfly]

first forcemasc post.. gulp

[flattopfucker]

Death before detransition.

[freakinggeekazoid]

[peptoabyssmaal]

pretty hate machine: [synth going womp woo womp woop woom] [seinfeld bass] im really sad and i MISS [voice crack] my girlfriend…and i think i like men too…but wull the God of my childhood which resides in my mind approve😳? [moaning]

broken: [awesome fuckin guitar riff] [screaming] I HATE YOU STEVE!!! FUCK YOU!!!!! FUCK RECORD COMPANIES!!!! AAAAAGHH [whispering right next to mic] i am a terrible person…and i will ruin you [more moaning]

the downward spiral: [frantic guitar riff] [metal clashing in the background] i am so horrible…i hate everything but I hate myself most of all [screams of the damned] someone please just kill me

the fragile: [orchestral swell of violins] i miss you. i’m sorry [the saddest piano in the world] i think this is the lowest point of my life…my brain is rotting but my body lives

with teeth: [Dave Grohl drums] depression makes me feel so alone…and sobriety is monotonous…addiction is a woman and she calls to me… [typical rock guitars] Nietzsche…

year zero: i see the future of our country and it terrifies me [synth going BWEEEEEH] I think we might be beyond redemption [4 minute instrumental break of a computer having an orgasm & a stroke at once]

the slip: [grungy guitars] i don’t even know where i am [stock drum loop] the world is backsliding and so am i

hesitation marks: I need to improve my life…I love my wife… [swell of synths] I want to recognize myself…[autotune] i want to get better for you…!!!! [2 minute electronic instrumental break]

not the actual events: [ghost noises] what if… [heavy guitars] [yelling] MY PERCEPTION IS NOT REALLY REALITY!!! [laughing]

add violence: [synth going boop boop boo] [Mariqueen] i want to wake up…something is wrong… [whispering seductively] Louisianaaa…

bad witch: [saxophone solo] [Bowie voice] the world has changed… [synth making bubbly noises] …forrrrrr the Worse…