Been a while.
I figure if I remembered your blog name, if I got curious and returned here, maybe you might one day find your way here too.
So this is for you, if that happens.
I hope youāre okay. Truly. After everything and all this time, I hope youāre alright. Iām sorry I let you down. Iām sorry the things went the way they did.
Sometimes I miss you.
Sometimes I donāt.
Sometimes I miss what we had.
Sometimes I want to pick up the pieces.
Sometimes I wish we could start over.
Sometimes I wish weād never met.
Sometimes Iām still mad.
Sometimes I want your forgiveness.
I wonder if you think about me from time to time like I do you.
I wonder if you reminisce about the good bits and relive the bad like I do.
I wonder if youāve hated me sometimes as much as I have sometimes hated you.
I wonder if Iām in your dreams sometimes like you are in mine.
I wonder if you miss me or if youāve moved on.
I donāt know if things could have been better or even different.
What I do know is I had the best time of my life with you. You were my world. You were the best thing to happen to me.
For better or worse, we needed one another then. But Iād do it all over again without hesitation.
I hope things improved for you. They havenāt for me.
I hope youāre still around.
I donāt know what I want from you, still.
But if you find this some day, let me know.
M x
