dæz

thirties male mdni

[99alterego]

[mournfulroses]

Albert Camus, from a letter to María Casares featured in Correspondance, 1944-1959

[redsel]

[daezspentchasingthehigh]

i can’t change your mind, but can i keep you a lil longer than a two week dream? forever doesn’t have to be infinite. i just wish to savor the things we did.

Hell doesn’t even compare to the loss of your fingertips in my palms. i still remember what it’s like to taste your stares, or how you’d smell after being dressed in your favorite lyrics. kissing every note like a letter you’d never send. what’s it mean to mend? when all i can conquer is a smile i try so hard to pretend.

what’s it like living without my skin filling your pockets of sin? is your treasure chest worth the price it took to make believe it’s better where the grass isn’t greener?

i found the feathers haunting the scriptures i been sifting, knowing you can’t sleep without my wings.

dæz

[letsmakepoppunkgreatagain]

Hot Mulligan - Monica Lewinskibidi

[guyfailurespecialist]

[daezspentchasingthehigh]

i try talking like we never stopped. and i understand that’s not fair, but I don’t know you outside addiction. i can’t hold the face i kissed the same way you held the blade a few centimeters off my wrists. you were catching demons, while i was begging not to fall in love.

i’m sorry i never chased after you after you saw me at work. I should’ve called you immediately out of recovery. i could have given more than false hopes, and a misconception of what being together meant, but i’m not a comedian or a cowboy in rusted armor. i doubt you’d find the god who serves your reel.

this time, times nothing but a memory we can’t feel. i’m sorry, but you gave me too much to go and find what it means to heal. shaking off your love, so i could fight my demons in silence.

i pray for your wrists.

dæz

[man-deville]

You said it wouldn’t make a difference Whether we can be together or not Stay home, Stay home I wanted to keep you but feel it’s likely You don’t share my resolve (Hey) I guess it doesn’t make a difference whether we can stand each other or not Stay home, Stay home You could call it courtesy that I tried to keep you here for this long (Hey) I guess it doesn’t fucking matter if we ever see each other or not Stay home, Stay home Stay home, Stay home

“I hope you live a long and happy life” - H

[holdingontolulu]

midwest emo bands will write some gut wrenching song about the pain of nostalgia and reliving who you were at your worst and then title it 'no shoes in the coffee shop (or socks)'

[letsmakepoppunkgreatagain]

Hot Mulligan - Fly Move (The Whole Time)

[smashedpumpkinprincess]

Featuring Mark Hoppus // Hot Mulligan

[staticxlace]

fly move (the whole time) // hot mulligan

[daezspentchasingthehigh]