Anger Unleashed

A being made of rage. A woman created by scorn. My name is Gwendylin, and I will tear you to pieces.

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Red Flags: Sterling

I’m writing this for you so you can go back to it when May Hemm is too loud.

You: I’m a medical Domme Him: -hears “mental Domme”- -decides that since you are a Domme and he is a sub that you will obviously want to own him- -breaks up with his current Owner- 

You: I’m married and polyamorous Him: -loses all hope of having you only to suddenly decide he now “must have you”- like a possession, not a person

You: This is my friend, Ashen, that I used to have a romantic lifestyle with and has taken care of me the few years I’ve been here. Him: -gets insanely jealous and avoids you when you are with your friend- -clings onto the first woman that shows interest while you are with your friend- - relations woman because he needs further comfort to ignore your polyamory-

His ex: -sleeps with his friend- Him: She’s a fucking whore. She sleeps around with everyone. She’s super ugly. -continues bashing her sex life- His ex: (before their relationship) I will only sleep with you if we are in a relationship, I’m not going to be used and thrown away. Him: -dick hard and brain turned off- lol kay

More to come

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“It’s embarrassing that you mentioned I didn’t graduate High School”

How about it’s embarrassing that you guilt trip her on how she hasn’t wanted to have sex since she left him?

We get it, you’re horny and monogamous. Its time you get that she is healing from being heartbroken and therefore is uninterested in having sex. Just because she doesn’t mention the sick-to-her-stomach feeling every day anymore doesn’t mean her body is no longer rejecting the idea of intercourse. This is another thing you’ll have to get used to with her polyamory. If you can’t, then you know where the door is. None of us have the strength to fight of any of you to stay.

Also, in regards to you dropping out, you and she have been together over 2 years and she has progressed while you have stayed put. She’s going to get tired of how lack of inhibition to grow. How many times do you think she’s going to believe you have picked up a driver handbook with the intention of learning before she thinks you are lying?

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Words that destroy her

“and I’ll just be at home...waiting for my girlfriend to finish spreading her legs to some sleeze at a bar.” - Sat, June 17, 2017

“I don’t see how she doesn’t see it....that maybe she’s the one causing the problems. That maybe her selfish attitude is not what is going to be best for either relationship.” Sun, June 18, 2017

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She won’t tell you because she doesn’t think he will do it...

but every other time she and he are together, he offers to leave you for her happiness. He had your name open and ready to call the Sunday he mentioned leaving her. He said he’d call you and break up with you that very second. He is monogamous, you are expendable.

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She calls you her soulmate because you called her yours first.

She will never have a soulmate. Or rather, her soulmate is Luna, the being she was pulled out of. Remember that she is a heart doomed to reciprocate. While I know she does love you, those words are a reciprocation and nothing more except for her hope that something like that could be true for her. 

but I know better.

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Her: “I’m very selective when it comes to sleeping with people.”

You: “Yeah, I’m sure you were very selective with all thirty of them.”

Slut shaming.

Her: “I’ve been raped by three people.”

You: “Do you ever think you may be - “

Her: “Asking for it because of my promiscuous nature?”

You: “Yeah.”

Victim blaming and slut shaming.

I know so many people that would have kicked you to the curb for those comments and wouldn’t have had a second thought about it. Instead, she feels she needs to explain herself to you. You slut shame her because she is poly. Do you even hear yourself?

She is who she is. She will sleep with others when she feels it is time to share that level of intimacy. She did it with you, she does it with others. You ask her not to, you say it hurts you. Vanity is monogamous, more monogamous than you are because you love another and are intimate with another. He does not shame her for sleeping with others. He never said she was “asking for” the times people took advantage of her body against her will. If she had said he wouldn’t have allowed her to sleep with you, I’m sure you would have called him selfish.

We know one day you both are going to make her choose. Know that she will turn to us and ask for our opinions. Know that I am not going to vote for you.

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Its not fair

This post is messy and not in a very good order...

I let it all out to you. I told you I wanted to do things with him again. He isn’t against your ‘no exes’ rule. I asked, I explained, I reasoned. I told you that you are my forever partner. You are the one that I will marry and make child. You are the only one I want that with. You say you want to talk about what I told you and I had hopes that you understood. I should have expected that you didn’t.

I understand your reasoning. Your panic attacks and triggers are why I gave you space. You’ve heard of how I have been hurt by him, but also how he awakens parts of me I keep asleep. You see his manipulation, but no matter how much I reason you don’t believe I’d never let him hurt what we have. You say he has no respect for your boundaries. He has no respect for you and your feelings. How you read his posts about you and see him looking down on you for being monogamous and he and I being polyamorous. 

I find myself wondering if the same situation would have happened if I had written the same posts about his other girl.. Would she react the same? He fought for me against her when it was time for her to grow comfortable with what he is. What I am...

It still isn’t fair....but I agreed nonetheless because of what I said the night I tried to reason with you. I see you by my side in my future in a way I haven’t felt before. I security I am afraid to let go of for my carnal pleasures.

He is my carnal pleasure. Fawn once made “In loving memories.” Creatures that were perfect love for those she loved. I sometimes feel that he is my ILM for the monster inside of me. The sick sadistic creature that has his same humor, that is in awe of how he has lived and how he does live. The carnal beast that finds satisfaction only with him. He never caged her. He never caged me. Now, like what Fawn did to her ILMs, I have to kill the emotion because you are making me choose. I have to lock up my monster again.He never caged us.

I will always resent you for this night. I waited for you to grow comfortable and to understand and I feel like you are throwing it back in my face. Oh, you’ll let me see him as a friend, but you and I and he know it won’t work. The love we have is a spiritual lust, a physical chaos that can’t be made platonic. We are hedonistic arsonists that set fires ablaze within cities and laugh in unison over the ended lives we’ve made. You and I are a camp fire where we made smores and stare at the stars. I once wished for you, I don’t regret it, but I now wish I had had him as well before you became my primary. Then it would be my decision for all of this happening.

But here I am now...sitting here and sniffling because I have to let him go again. I’ve spent months trying to convince you and nothing works. Parts of me want to ask for a trade. Everyone else for him. The storm and the calm. I know you’d never agree. I once said the only way you could hurt me is if you left me. I was wrong, you making me choose hurts me. You are making me choose and I’ve chosen you. Don’t make me regret this decision.

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Giving up in stages/"I have no best friends pt 2

I’m a reciprocator - meaning over time I start to feel what others feel toward me. I can refuse it or ignore it like I have with a few people. Then with you I accepted it because I thought you cared enough for me after all these years. The day I was completely open to you, you were blind by false words from him. I tried a few more times to show my affection that you had said you had for me and had apparently hoped for, but it was to no avail. I gave up trying to show you my grown romantic feelings. I gave up somewhere after there that you would be my business partner. Your dreams were not anywhere close to mine and I knew I had to find someone with goals and dreams closer to my own. I gave up on our restaurant. Then I just tried to spend time with you as the friend I was before feelings. But you were always with him. You’d invite me out and then if I wasn’t immediate with my answer, the plans were with him and I could “join both of you.” I realized joining both of you was always a thing when you had a male partner. I was the dream threesome girl for you and your partner at the time. I felt like just another sex toy you could grab from a sex shop. I confronted you both that it hurt me. He apologized and you refused to accept it. I then gave up trying to confide in you. You stopped talking to me, but I knew you had been keeping contact with him. I felt forgotten. You stopped telling me when you were visiting. You had been down here for months and barely a word came from you until the last few days where you sent me a message saying you were “sorry for not spending time with me.” I couldn’t respond, I was so mixed with emotions of hurt, anger, jealousy, and something like betrayal. I gave up on the idea that I’d be a choice to hang out with. I then had a small revelation. You have a lot of family and they will most likely want all your time. You are more connected to your family than I am mine. I forgave you for not trying to see me as much then. Then he left you. He chose another woman over you. Yet you still tried to see him more than your friends. You apparently still tried to see him any second you got. You had posted that you had all this time and tried to see him but he ignored you. I had already by then given up on trying to see you without your invite because I had assumed you were constantly busy with family like I had thought before. You had shown me I was wrong. You had a vehicle to visit me. You could have bused to visit me. You could have picked up your phone and called me instead of him on one of those free times and I would have run to see you. I was forgotten. I no longer forgave you. I gave up on thinking you were my best friend. Today I completely give up. I completely give up and I should have a long time ago. I forgave you once because I thought you needed to focus on your family. Somehow then I had forgotten that you had once considered me a sister. Maybe it’s because you stopped treating me like one. I don’t want you to apologize. I don’t want you to message me and try to pretend you are still my best friend. I just want you to know you hurt me and have lost me. Posting this is my closure. Posting this will help me move on.

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“I have no best friends” pt 1

Your response? “That’s your decision.”

Yes, it is my decision. I have decided I don’t deserve toxic friends like you. “Friends” that are there for you then expect sexual payment. “Friends” that are passive aggressive and break your things when they don’t have their way. “Friends” that say “I’d never do anything to make you lose your job,” then try to pick a fight in the office at work and then announce to the world that I can’t drive.

Who would anyone want a friend like you?

I ask for a ride to save up on bus money and you whip your dick out while driving and start to pleasure yourself. You are fucking disgusting. Your other friend is in need because her partner is threatening her and her baby and you try to get laid while being there. Fucking disgusting. You care about no one but yourself.

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Physical attraction

The “crushing” sensation is something most people feel. Its caused by brain chemicals. These brain chemicals make us act a bit differently than how we normally are. It can be caused by multiple things: for her it is sexual stimulation and physical attraction.

There is no need to attack us because of this. It happens to you as well. You walked into our relationship knowing she was polyamorous and was in it for the pleasure. A hedonist at heart through and through. So, you attack her when she says or does something based off her choices with others? “You only talk to him because he has long blonde hair,” “you only take what he has to heart because he’s thin framed, blonde, and looks like a vampire.”

You’d love to make me sound like a shallow bitch, wouldn’t you? You ignore everything else in the situation except how they look. Perhaps it is because you think she does not find you attractive? I can tell you why she stopped complimenting your looks and being attracted to you.

You are a pig. You are a spoiled brat. Any woman can fall for your looks. You are a very attractive man if they never walked into your bedroom or made you upset. You have decent hygiene besides your teeth when it comes to your body. You have beautiful hair and a decent figure. Your personality is witty and rather charming. That goes away when you look in the sink or next to your computer and you see all the moldy dishes. That all goes away when you throw your temper tantrums. It vanishes when you show your mature age is that of a 6 year old that wasn’t given two scoops of ice cream. You are an ungrateful, spoiled brat.

Women will fall for you, but they’ll leave just like she did after they see your true colors. Hopefully, they’ll convince you to move in with them before they see the real you. That way you are gone from my life and my home.

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We have so much to say...

there is so much rage that needs to be let out. Deciding where to start might be the hardest part. Writing here is our sanctuary, a place to hide it all and not let the fire burn us alive. Let’s begin...

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She spoils you too much

That is the only explanation for why you are such an ungrateful person. That must by why all you do is ask for more instead of appreciate what she is willing/able to give.

You want to get a new car. That'll be $2500. Money you sure don't have. Oh, you expect her to buy it? Of course you do. She's the breadwinner in the house. she buys the luxuries. Why do you even want that new car? Oh, that's right, because you've gotten into two accidents in her first one and it'll cost about the same as that new car you want.

You want more sexually. You know what? She wants a fucking clean house and for you to get off your lazy ass and show you are worth something. That's right, I think you are worthless. Your apologies are worthless. You have no action to try to make her happy unless she is already upset. Sexual drive goes down in depression and you sure aren't helping her get out of that by pout sleeping in the bedroom while she is getting ready for work. She tries to reawaken her sexual desires and all you do is ask for more. We tell you to just APPRECIATE what we give you, and you keep asking for more. You think we treat you like you are worthless? Go look in a fucking mirror and see what you make her feel like.

You want her monogamous. You say otherwise, but why then do you always attack her when she sees her other partners? Why do you always try to cause a fight when they come over? You know, I don't think her lack of desire in her other partners has anything to do with the fact that they and she barely visit, I think she pushes them away because she doesn't want to have to have another fight with YOU.

You are such an ungrateful piece of shit and you make her feel like shit because she doesn't give you all that you ask for. If you are so unhappy here then just fucking leave. No one is forcing you to stay here.

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You fucked her up more than we even realized

You killed her self esteem. We knew that already. That piece of what you destroyed in her was visual. Everyone saw the light in her die while she was with you. They see the sadness and pain in her eyes when they used to see a smile and confidence in her smile. Then you actually almost killed her. Your words that made her hate the monster inside her. Your words that echoed didn't only kill your Patience made for you, but most of what was of Fawn. She wanted to forget you. She wanted to forget the pain you put her through, but when she was at the drink she stayed and let it take her. You took her will to live and she found comfort in the idea of dying. Now she is back and learning to feel again. Now we have found that the damage was more than we believed... She worked so hard to please you. All she wanted was to make you happy. She changed so much about herself, took so much abuse from you. She had never tried as hard as she had tried with you. I'm surprised it took her so long to give up on the mess you both had called a relationship. She felt so much for you. Now feelings are a barrier. What used to be a wide range of emotions that would over flow and engulf her, now she can only wade in hip deep. She used to love to swim in it and get caught in the tide, and now there is something there that keeps her from it - an outside force that almost seems afraid that this Siren will drown. It doesn't only affect her, the new girl tries as well to feel as much as she can but cannot seem to get past this invisible wall that keeps her from being able to dive in head first. Where is this damage? Is it in her head, her mind, her heart? Can this wall be broken down and the comfort of feeling come back like the confidence she has slowly been teaching herself to have once again? We don't want your presence to linger in us any longer. We don't want you to hinder us anymore. You have no power over us anymore, now if only your words would disappear.

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"The things I do for love..."

You could always leave. You're causing more trouble than good lately and we wouldn't mind the extra bed space. Take the idiot with you.

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We knew this would happen

is it worth losing a relationship over a game? No But it is worth losing the relationship because they refuse to grow up.

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Why the fuck would you talk to him?

You technically don't even know him. Fawn didn't know him either. She realized that before she left. The past once haunted you in  your dreams, specifically things involving him. Do you want to go back to those dreams? Stay away from him. Don't talk to him. Don't trust him.

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(tw: rape) Men like him are disgusting

They have no respect for women. You saw he had no respect for you. No respect for your relationship. No respect for when you said "no". Or when you said "stop." Do you warn her of him or do you let her go through with him because she proved to be a terrible friend? Time to learn to be human. All of them fall to their desires. He takes you then moves to another. He thinks he can have you again and pretends he has no interest in her. Who do you want to hurt? Is it even worth it?

I wonder what he says about you behind your back.

Stay away from those boys.