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a defeated hi

hi.

i never would have thought i am ever coming back here again. not particularly proud of my decision. but yeah, i am here again.

for almost six years, ive been fighting with my eating disorder. ive been underweight. ive been normal. ive been obese. ive had the doctors snickering and refused to diagnose me because i was heavier atm. ive had the family and friends i trust, constantly and consistently make me feel bad for eating - and then rolled their eyes at me when i said ive been trying to work out again.

im just tired. tired of everything.

i dont know why am i even trying anymore. i guess if i have to say the reason im here, is that i dont wanna be too heavy for people to bury me when i finally die later.

#proana

deercal

6/9/2020

101.4 lbs

pastelparrotlet

Shoutout to my girls with confusing bodies.

Visible ribs but a little bit of a tummy, thin wrists but thick thighs, violin hips and veins that always stick out. It can be strange to live in our bodies, but we make them feel like home.

444kcal-deactivated20200819

!!!!!

my-fucking-skinny-self

starviingdior

this is wtf happened and I gotta get my shit together

dainty-and-spacey

repost if u break the stereotype of Eds

you eat once a day/ u don’t always fast 24/7

you’re not bones

you don’t openly talk about it lile it’s a big problem

you don’t want treatment

you don’t think you’re sick enough for treatment

you can’t purge

EATING DISORDERS AREN’T WHAT THE MEDIA TELLS YOU

feel free to add!♡➹★

hurricaneclouds

i support girls anger. i support girls who yell. i support girls who get called bitches and cunts at parties because they’ll swear at guys who won’t leave them alone. i support girls who don’t believe in second chances and cut off people who hurt them. i support girls who say no the first time and flip you off if you ask them again. i support girls who will never allow themselves to be pushovers and constantly get shit for it. you’re fucking incredible.

aiillawh

hey i wanna follow new people !! ☺️🌿🌻

my feed is a little dead and i wanna be able to see a lot more posts so if you post or fit in to at least one of these things, please reblog this post and i’ll follow you :))

- post thinspo

- student

- struggle with an ed

- like or post dem quality memes

- ed memes

- like art

- post low cal meals/recipes

- post about your progress or

experiences

i bet people are laughing behind my back when i tell them i have an eating disorder

my self confidence is chipping bit by bit with every passing moment.

leafsea

outskirts // 4.2.2019

skinnicoffeehater

i literally don’t feel like a real ana. i don’t necessarily need control but the feeling of losing weight is so addicting. i restrict pretty heavily, but not enough, and i don’t punish myself (other than mentally screaming at myself) if i go a tiny bit over. i don’t look like an ana for sure, i am way too fat. i don’t enjoy feeling hungry and usually try to combat it with extremely small low calorie snacks. i wish i could enjoy the feeling of starving. i think i should just force myself to be hungry and try to convince myself it is better than being full. i just want someone to notice i’m losing weight because that would be so much more rewarding than eating. i guess i just have to restrict more so people notice quicker. i feel like shit. thanks for coming to my constant struggle of if i even have an ed or not, this is my never ending ted talk.