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i would probably have a better sleep schedule if i could put my phone down and stop having insanely long phone time before bed

damnshii

Ughh

homoquartz

my dumb? founded. my flabbers? gasted. my gob??? smacked

roseworth

i could get so much done in a day if i didnt decide my day was over at 4 pm. too bad theres no solution oh well

#me irl rn

thoughtkick

“Just be fucking honest about how you feel about people while you’re alive.”

— John Mayer

starchaserdreams

Seems unfair that I don't have 18 hours a day to read and write fanfiction. Sleep? Work? What are these nonsense tasks?

xoxoladyaz

Deep down, Steve knows that it's only a matter of time until he gets caught.

It feels like he's gone through the five stages of grief, like, twenty times. He can't count how many hours he's spent rationalizing it: what Eddie doesn't know won't hurt him, this is normal, people do it all the time, and besides, Eddie would feel completely betrayed if he knew and their relationship is so new that it's just not worth the risk. The absolute last thing he wants is to upset Eddie and this will just make him upset so really, Steve is doing the honorable thing by just not telling him, by pretending that he's not hiding anything, that everything is fine.

But it's not Eddie that catches him; hell, it isn't even someone in the Party; it's Jeff, Eddie's friend/Hellfire Club member/Corroded Coffin bandmate who shows up too early for D&D at Steve's one day and sees something he shouldn't have.

"This isn't what it looks like."

Jeff walks into the kitchen and frowns, like he's confused by what he's seeing and why Steve is so anxious, why he's sweating like he's just run a marathon. "It looks like you're blending a bunch of veggies together in a blender."

Shit. "Okay, it's exactly what it looks like."

Jeff still looks confused. "And this is a big deal because - "

"Because I haven't told Eddie that the 'special pasta sauce' that I've been using the last three months whenever we have spaghetti and meatballs is actually entirely made of, like, ten different kinds of vegetables," Steve rushes out, and Jeff's face smoothes in understanding.

"Oh, yeah, that makes sense. The dude has a weird vendetta against veggies."

Steve groans, slumping in relief. "Tell me about it. Do you know how hard it is to hide veggies in every single meal that I make for him? Because if I don't, then he's never going to eat them, and I'm worried about his health enough as it is."

Jeff nods. "It's the smoking, right?"

"The smoking, and the drinking, and I know he's sneaking out to smoke with Jon and Argyle, but he doesn't exercise and he only eats highly processed cereal with loads of sugar and I just don't want him to have a heart attack before the age of forty!"

"Hey, hey, Steve, man, your secret's safe with me." Jeff holds his hands up in supplication. "And for the record, I'm on your side. The dude is like a feral raccoon."

"I know," Steve sighs. "But he's my feral raccoon."

That makes Jeff start laughing. "If it makes you feel any better, my mom and I have been doing the same thing for years now. If you want, we could exchange recipes sometime."

"Really?" Steve perks up and now, now he's excited. "That would be great!"

"Sick. Need some help with the meatballs?"

"Please!"

And that is how Eddie and Gareth and Phil and Dustin and Mike and Lucas and Erica and Will find them later, chatting and laughing while Steve tosses his homemade noodles into his now-simmering pasta sauce, Jeff sitting on the kitchen island and drinking a beer.

This time, it's Jeff who looks like he's seen a ghost. "This isn't what it looks like."

"Oh?" Eddie asks, and his voice is totally controlled, which means that Jeff is screwed. "So you're not hanging out with my boyfriend and making him do that cute little blushy giggle that is my cute blushy giggle?"

"Eddie!" Steve scolds, but it's too late, Jeff knows his fate is sealed.

"Okay, it's exactly what it looks like."

(Jeff's rogue is caught in the blast zone when Dustin's ranger kills a large acid toad. Still, he can't feel too mad when he sees Eddie smirk and then lick the veggie sauce out of his pasta bowl.)

damnshii

My cute blushy giggle!

damazcuz

Sometimes you're gonna see a really stupid post and you're gonna have to keep your mouth shut online but you can always say "Shut the fuck up dumb fuck" out loud, they can't hear you when you do that.

keepcalmandcarriefischer

As J.R. Tolkien once said "Not all who wander are lost" but like, not me tho, I'm lost as shit

#yeah no same

keepcalmandcarriefischer

I was reading a book called "On Bullshit" and it describes "shit" as "...mater from which everything nutritive has been removed. Excrement may be regarded as the corpse of nourishment..."

And that phrase "the corpse of nourishment" just stuck in my head as a the most biting insult I could give a shithead who would not understand what I was saying

damnshii

the corpse of nourishment is the thing now

9710144

im-perfectly-unique

What a beautiful way to be remembered!

pedroassmanpascal

stray-but-okay

Who in Stray Kids...

Caught your attention first:

Took you the longest to remember the name of:

Was your first bias:

Is your current bias:

Had the biggest climb up your bias list since the beginning:

You need to protect at all costs:

You need to stay away from at all costs:

damnshii

Felix caught my attention first. He was super cute and complex and just arghgg in the "wakey wakey" interview.

It took me the longest time to remember Jeongin's name? Until I settled that I.N is the last two letters in Jeongin, and hence we are here.

Chan was my first bias. He was just..... I dunno I liked his laugh. And his smile. And just. Him.

Hyunjin was my bias wrecker. I don't know how he just crept up on me like that, but it is what it is and here we are.

The biggest climb up my bias list? Minho. I don't think this one needs an explanation. It's Minho. The name is enough.

Personally, i think we need to protect Seungmin at all costs. I repeat, AT ALL COSTS. But only because Felix has Hyunjin to protect him. Okay no maybe both. No scratch that CHAN NEEDS PROTECTION. Does he ever just... rest?

And bro do I need to stay away from Han Jisung. This dude is bias wrecking my bias wrecker. This shouldn't be a thing. But it is?? Cause it's Han. Just. It should not be legal to be a Han.

#stray kids #skz

bode-rook

me: what about kudos??

ao3: you’ve already left kudos

me: i’ve left one, yes. but what about Second Kudos

damnshii

EVERYTIME BROOO. Like, sometimes the book is just too good, so you just need a kudos for every chapter!

steddiealltheway

Steve refuses to tell the kids his middle name. He’s fights them off after El figures out that middle names are a thing and demands everyone to tell her if they have one. And usually when it comes to El, Steve gives in immediately. But he just knows this information will come back to bite him in the ass. So he refuses.

But then they go to Nancy trying to pry the information out of her, but she reveals that she has no idea what it is - ouch but what a relief. Next up is Robin who also reveals she has no idea, and then she joins in on trying to get it out of him.

With the girls on their side, Steve is slightly terrified, but still unwilling to give up the information. He thinks they’ll let it go… but then they’re showing up at his house suspiciously only for Steve to find out that they’re trying to find his birth certificate. That’s when Eddie gets roped into things.

And the thing about Eddie is that he’s curious of course. What could Steve’s middle name possibly be which is so horrendous he won’t even tell Robin? But he respects the man’s privacy. If he wants to keep it to himself then so be it… But Eddie wants to know.

So he starts developing his own plans - without telling the kids or the girls. He thinks getting Steve drunk or high off his ass is probably a bit too manipulative. But maybe he can gain the guy’s trust.

So he starts coming along, pretending like he’s going to help as the kids dig and dig for the information. Steve is always somehow there, even when the kids start looking through the records at the library because some of them needed a ride. But Eddie sticks with Steve, talking to him about anything other than his name - the kids are convinced that Eddie is doing a great job distracting Steve.

And maybe he is, but he slowly forgets any type of ulterior motives when he’s talking to Steve. It’s a blessing and a curse being in the presence of the man.

But then it happens. Steve casually invites Eddie to hang out sometime, and that’s exactly when Eddie will bring up the middle name thing.