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aspec lesbian 30+ seoul traumas and beautiful things

[danbalmeoli]

[danbalmeoli]

이번주 주말에 우리집에서 너의연애 같이 보기로 했는데 그새 헤어졌네 우리..

너도 이거 보고있을까?

[danbalmeoli]

2025.4.11 금요일 새벽

우린 서로 갈 길을 가기로 했다. 말은 내가 먼저 꺼냈지만 이 전부터 그녀의 차가워진 말투, 표정, 태도를 알아차릴 수 있었다. 우린 그걸 견뎌내어 다시 불타오르게 하고싶지 않았나보다. 서로를 그만큼 사랑하지 않은거지.

[danbalmeoli]

[danbalmeoli]

블로그가 9살이 됐어요 🥳

[danbalmeoli]

i dont think i know the meaning of everything anything. i dont know why i exist what they meant in the movies what they referring to what is going on in this situation why they said like that of me why am i like this what is gonna have to cost me for better understanding of everything why dont i feel like a human being why dont i feel like everyone else why dont i feel like nobody understands me includes myself why do i feel like i am an alien why do i have to be like this i dont know what i meant for "this" even why i am suppressing myself is it because thats what i want or thats how i reacted about my traumas maybe i am not done with them yet or is it because i think ive died already i am sure i dont want this any of these feelings so is that why i am suppressed is it i think i died inside do i need more time and start seeing therapist so i can see myself with someone i thought i m done talking about them and traumas.

[danbalmeoli]

트라우마없는 나는 누구일까. 트라우마 없었으면 나는 누가됐을까. 내가 만들어가야 할 삶인 건 알지만 뒤집기부터 시작해야 한다는 게 그것이 오래 걸릴 수도 있다는 게 걱정이고 어렵기만 하다.

지난 번 방문에서 감정서를 받았을 때 내가 감정을 억누르고 있다고 했다. 내가 왜 그 상태였어야만 했는지는 알지만 어떻게 풀어내야 할지는 아주 까마득하게 보이지도 않는다.

[danbalmeoli]

I have pcos, anxiety, depression and adhd

I just wanna get

better

but

i have all of above

living a life is too hard enough when its my life

i don't wanna do this anymore

i can't handle this no more

it's just same hopelessness over and over

same days after same day

i can't feel anything about living

i'm a living dead

why don't i feel like experiencing and know what is going on like anybody else doing

like everyone seems know that something even tiny

but not me i don't have a clue

almost feels like i'm just a thoughtlessness thing but i do overthink everything

aghhhh fuuuuuuuuuck

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A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN 1.08 | Perfect Game

[dykedivorce]

A LEAGUE OF THEIR OWN | 1x08 "Perfect Game"

[lovecaitlined]

Margot Robbie in Vivienne Westwood at the European premiere of the Barbie movie. 💓💖

[danbalmeoli]

I’m sorry to my friends whom I trauma dumping. I didn’t have safe space to share it with anyone else. Thank you for taking me while I wasn’t in good maintained. Thanks to you I felt better than earlier. Now I’m trying to be me the way I would have been without traumas. I will be better at the end. Thank you so I was able to endure the time. If we meet whenever I will be someone who I wanted to have as a friend to you.

[danbalmeoli]

You have been always said how much your daughter is so great but the truth is you do not like me nor even love me. You have never have been loved me. And that shows how much you do not even like your self. That is why you said that I was a tough child to raise and you agreed that you never like me. You are a fucking narcissist.

[c-nan]

Sydney and Dina in I Am Not Okay With This (2020)

[corinna-brown]

PRIDE MONTH: 11/30—SYDNEY NOVAK

[thebananadiplomat]

Coming in at number 10 we have Syd and Dina from I Am Not Okay With This

[danbalmeoli]

She said I wasn’t a human being since I had difficulty with speaking when i was young. So I said “then you are being ableist”. She responded saying how this convo goes there.

Woman! Just piss off of my face. Make it make sense.