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reminder that i dont post here much/at all here anymore! also if i do post it will b recovery based! if you arent at that stage in recovery yet and/or arent here for that content please feel free to unfollow! but currently im at the point in my life where im identifying less with my sadness

#again no ill will to those who arent here for that!#i understand and i used to be in that place too #please know that it will get better #and that my inbox is always open!#my meds are working way better now tho so that was a big help #luv u guys!! <3

thewarriorwithacrown

Love isn’t supposed to hurt …. right?

lesfarfadettes

google how do i get comfort without being vulnerable

#txt #my brain is so loud all the time bitch shut up #i keep getting trauma crushes on ppl its so tiring #plus its harder for me to talk to my therapist and feel comfortable since everythings digital #i want someone to reach out to me to see if im ok but i know that if i want the comfort i have to ask for it but also AAAAAAAAAAAAA #also t came over i didnt see them but i heard them i wanted to die #also hypersxuality is SO TIRING GOD i want a vacation from my own brain

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#loses my mind trying to not sh #or drink again djfbdmfn #thinking abt.... blood! thanks brain

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#txt #so basically *splits*#i literally get upset abt the smallest things lol #and also thot the bpd label didnt fit me anymore but aha

theladyjanedoe-deactivated20221

vajeentambourine

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

Shout out to people like me who have parents who are loving but are black holes of emotional labor… It took me a long time to realize that it’s okay to have mixed feelings about your parents, about your relationship with them.

Sometimes parents can love you but be somewhat toxic to you and your growth, and that’s a very hard realization to come to if you, like me, grew up extremely close to them.

Sometimes parents can love you genuinely but lack emotional maturity, forcing you to perform disproportionate amounts of emotional labor. Some parents manifest symptoms of their mental illness in ways that are toxic to your mental illness.

Some parents, like mine, try so hard to be good parents but fall back on habits of emotional manipulation because they haven’t processed their own traumas and are modeling behavior they grew up with. That doesn’t make their behavior acceptable, and it’s okay to feel exhausted and hurt when they betray you. You don’t have to forgive every mistake.

I want you to know that it’s okay to protect yourself, to need some space apart from them. The love you have for your parents is still valid, and you are making the right decision.

Placing a safe emotional distance between myself and my parents has been one of the most difficult, heartbreaking processes I’ve ever gone through… it hurts to try to curb the strength of your own natural empathy around people you love. It feels disingenuous to your heart’s natural state.

But I promise you, you are not hard-hearted or ungrateful, and you are not abandoning them. You are making a decision about your own emotional, mental, and spiritual health.

I know what it’s like in that confusing grey area of love mixed with guilt and anxiety, of exhaustion and quasi-manipulation and unreciprocated emotional labor, and I promise you, you are not alone.

Your mixed feelings about your parents are valid.

holographography

idk who needs to hear this but “depressing quotes” blogs and stuff like this may express how you’re feeling but seeing a constant stream of negativity and romanticised sadness is only going to make you feel worse. Even if you only unfollow one blog and follow a puppy blog instead, you’ll feel a little better