Courage

 | Poet-ish | 25 |"Oh, that I had the heart of a lion..."

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Courtney

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O King

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Pour me

I write so I can spill the liquid leaking all throughout my mind

shattered vessel of thoughts can’t hold the weight of anxiety

or depression

or lack of faith

substance is evidently wasted

my tears are drainage systems gone awry

even when i’m not overthinking I cry

I like to pour it all out

then take a step back and admire the murky pond i’ve released

it’s evidence 

of the smallest traces of Holy water in the streams

its enough hope for me

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Something in him is divine

this man in the shell of a boy

is defying gravity

the way he lifts me off my feet

with introspection, which I did not beckon, or beg for him to read.

How do you have the footnotes to this powerpoint of my mind

laid bare you can see right to the core of me

despite this you don’t flinch, cower, or flee,

and honestly

it makes me want to hide.

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Jonah

I could paint the walls in my room with the hues of fear.

black and blue i often bruise my self until I steer so very far from my calling

Jonah chancing the water

silly fool

Abba’s watching

whales will soon swallow you

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I think your a fool, and your eyes are liars. You love this mess of me, and I shudder to think of how I’m bound to hurt you.

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Your garden

it could rain a thousand times, but i can’t wash my roots free of debris

the soil loosens as my grip softens til it has ceased

what am i holding on to?

Do I have faith that my fruit will ripen and fall to the dirt of your garden?

if i make you my pleasant paradise to sink my taproot and twist to the sky,

 My petals will they collect dew?

Or will I stretch beneath the limbs of roses far taller than me, with grace, poise, and ease their elegance casts shadows over my leaves

I can’t breathe in the heat of covet’s spring.

Shall I nip it in the bud?

Is it better for your garden to flourish without me?

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Like a dog to vomit often I ruminate

sloppy second handed mistakes- ears

ringing as a numbing ache steals my

breath away- will I forgive them I hate… will I-

continue to victimize myself each day- will I- spew accusations to the face In the mirror

creating false realities and chanting “guilty” will I cringe

continue to shrink beneath uncertainties that strangers bring

I catch my eyes often casting down my back curls inward as my heart pushes against my trachea

found in the cob webbed corners no one thinks to trace

shivering

cowering

will I ever wholly make it out of this place?

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Tonight’s love

Tonight’s love is solemn souled, swollen with recollections. It is a lost lover’s laugh phasing then fading as my sleep slips and gasps

it is tingles of his fingers once warm on my back now cold with lack thereof

It is sweat soaking my senses now dissipating with Charleston’s rains. it is reverbs of pain recalling how I’ve been replaced. It is severing intrusive thoughts of histories lost with a violent shake of the head. it is finding solace in fruits and seeds, soil sinking beneath my nails, it is admiration of the first womb. it is abstaining from meat. It is bruises on my heart from false shepard’s speech. It is shalom when I hear a stranger say His name. It is freedom ringing with chains clinking, falling to ankles. It is prophectic, it is 400 years past, it’s a hidden gem bestowed to bredren void of all but hope

it is a blessing in the breast of starving bellies and early slumbers ferried away to forego what cometh

blessed indeed

tonight’s love is contentment

it is losing myself in screams of distant souls systemically made victim, it is kingdom come and no time for self

tonight strangers elate and kindle embers within me, inflating this brittle heart with stars. it is sweet layil testifying of our Creator as she cradles the lesser light. amongst the host of Heaven His covenant doth reside.

tonight’s love is thankful for inspiration flooding my veins with purpose trodding upon self defeating thoughts. Tonight is HalleluYAH loud cause I know to whom I speak. Tonight’s love is peace.

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An help meet

hands dripping with myyrh to ease all tension

in addition, to yield fruit supple & sweet

lay neath my navel rest ye assured

my heart’s warmth seepeth and overflows into my lap

feel as I emit my intent, radiating truth, & mirth

casting the chills of your fear asunder

I know you more each night

thus I know how to ease the pain

rather than add to, again and again

let my hymns quell the inflamed echoes inside your mind, my king

I’m not the one to remove pieces of you

nay I will not tear you down, my strength

this world does that enough

my only sounds be swoons when your around, my muse

moonlight drips down the walls of our abode

lighting our nights, as I lionize thine soul

my temple is easy to keep up, my saint

occasional sacrifice in the form of your time, my rain

know me deeper than the eye can see

anticipate my needs, seek to see me beneath

see, this realm praiseth me without

while my soul be disquieted within

my language is silence and vibrates

I feel your pain I’ll strip it away,

come take it from me as I do the same

empty each other then refill with supple

honey ye doubled,

be what cultivates from holy consummation

I’m your consolation

you’re my constellation I’ll trace the stars of your face

as my breath culminates

your words are hues and fantasia based

you induce my synesthesia, my good

I need you ... I breathe you... you’ve yet to make your debut... yet still I feel you

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                                                        -ashira

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Be about it...

Don’t talk about who you are and what you represent

Rather let your actions exemplify every facet you claim exists.

-ashira

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Personal Legend

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Music by: Takeo Izumi “Compassion of Kannon (saji)”

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