Kill everyone now! Condone first degree murder! Advocate cannibalism! Eat shit! Filth is my politics! Filth is my life!
private roleplay blog for dc's joker. he did nothing wrong actually. pulling from john waters and divine's work, dr frank n furter from rocky horror, nyc ballroom culture
paying my respects to : @trickiz, @kuhlgirl / @allgirling, @prodiga1, @6lakes, @hymnsick
i only write with mutuals & those 21+ years old
i use light formatting, double spacing, and sometimes icons. i prioritize accessibility please tell me if i can make my writing more accessible for you.
i have bad memory neurological disorder style. im fucking clueless. it can also affect my writing and grammar. ask if you need anything re-worded or if i forgot anything. im hard to bother + will either say something or hard block if im bothered
idc about any canon except lego batman
im dimitri, 27, they/them butch dyke. quote at the top is from divine in pink flamingos
treats for getting here: joker's pronouns are he/they. joker has face + body spasms. great at diy + sewing. dtf. just wont fucking die which is unfortunate for everyone but at least he's having a great time.
they found some mast cell disorders in me + just some basic allergy meds got me able to sweat/shiver again, feel temperatures in my feet, mentally picture things. hasnt solved all the neuro issues but just been on the heavier dity ones for a few days. the morning after the first night i took that i shivered from the cold for the first time in over a year!!!!!
apparently mast cell disorders can also explain the weird movements (eg the chorea that comes and goes, unclear about the dystonia, jerks, and increased tics). still wondering if a lumbar puncture is a good idea. hoping i wont need a bone marrow biopsy. but this is so wild. i dont want to get too excited i feel like ive gotten carried away before in the past but there are significant and noticeable results not to mention the gene mutation my immunologist found
it will be a lifelong thing, and apparently my hormones + pcos fuck with the inflammation AND long covid can affect mast cells, but im finding pieces of myself and my abilities ive lost over this past year and a half or so.
if you made it this far lol. i started up a wanda blog, it’s easier to think of stories the same way it’s easier to mentally picture things. maybe i can paint easier now too. anyways the url is hexmother
honestly w my thoughts w jokes… i dont know enough canon to NOT go “actually maybe they have a point” and by they i mean my joker i made in my head. disabled people dhould actually blow things up. so so so sad that jokes is culturally viewed as incel anger, disabled anger can be so powerful but i mean the best movie examples we have of that is freaks (1932) which got banned just for having actually disabled and different bodies on screen, and maybe house md. disabled people have to constantly console others about existing. “im actually happy” and “oh look here is me being funny please laugh” because a little show of struggle (ie inability or possibility for inability to work) quickly leads to institutionalization and/or death.
sneaking in here to consider how the specific grin dystonia/spasm some joker depictions have are CAUSED by antipsychotic meds and this side effect is often permanent. do with that what you will
ok not a surprising message but really havent been feeling either of my blogs. may do a bucky blog. maybe will take a break from tumblr rp but open to discord. just trying to keep going with the health + pain + memory issues and the rest of the life bagel.