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vent post account. if you know me no you dont.

[nemosopenletters-blog]

It finally clicked in my brain, that the reason you don't treat me like you treat others in your life, is because you love the others in your life. You love having them in your life. I've simply become the obligation you can't untangle yourself from.

[pallmallsandashtrays]

[bpdbobbidiboo]

"It's ok to mourn the child you never got to be."

-Author Unknown

[phieee]

yUP #bpd

[locriian]

A little treat for the cluster Bs

[its-unwell-girl]

[danqerousblues]

At the end of every day,

There'll be nothing left to say.

[anezkadragon]

Splitting is so obnoxious:

I love you. We are perfect. We’re gonna get married. We’re gonna have kids.

You don’t love me. You wanna leave me. One day you will find someone and realize you never loved me. You’re gonna leave me.

I need more. Your love isn’t enough for me. I want movie-love. I need passion. You can’t give me what I need.

I wanna be alone. Leave me. Fuck you. I hate you.

It’s exhausting. Fucking exhausting.

[traumacure]

Perhaps a child failed by their parents has their own failure ordained.

original writing by @traumacure | do not repost

[vvamp-pyres]

there must be something rotten inside

[lnsectica]

i destroy everything i touch i destroy everything i touch i destroy everything i touch i̴ ̴d̶e̵s̵t̵r̸o̴y̸ ̷e̴v̸e̸r̵y̷t̶h̸i̴n̷g̵ ̸i̸ ̸t̴o̵u̵c̶h̴ i̴ ̴d̶e̵s̵t̵r̸o̴y̸ ̷e̴v̸e̸r̵y̷t̶h̸i̴n̷g̵ ̸i̸ ̸t̴o̵u̵c̶h̴ i̴͔̅ ̶͔̈d̷̛͉e̵͇̕ś̷ͅt̴͙̄r̷̗̈o̵̗͐ÿ̷͎ ̴͖͐ě̴̱v̷̖͂è̵̲r̷̲̃y̷̫͑t̷͕̔h̵̥͠i̴̗͗n̷̙̈́g̷̮̕ ̵͙̽i̴̛͖ ̴͓̄t̵̙͐ỏ̴̭u̶̗͝c̵̗͛ȟ̷̫ i̴͔̅ ̶͔̈d̷̛͉e̵͇̕ś̷ͅt̴͙̄r̷̗̈o̵̗͐ÿ̷͎ ̴͖͐ě̴̱v̷̖͂è̵̲r̷̲̃y̷̫͑t̷͕̔h̵̥͠i̴̗͗n̷̙̈́g̷̮̕ ̵͙̽i̴̛͖ ̴͓̄t̵̙͐ỏ̴̭u̶̗͝c̵̗͛ȟ̷̫ i̵͕͠ ̵̳̋̓d̴̫͒e̶̢͍̅s̸̨̉ẗ̶͓́̃r̴̲̂̀o̶̯̍y̶̨̽ ̸̻̊ė̴̻̈́v̶͈͎̍ẹ̴͍̿ȑ̶̖̼͋y̵̛̜ṱ̴̛͝h̸͇̅́i̵̛̝͠n̷̡͘g̶͍̎̂ ̶̢̮̆̉i̶̤̓ ̷̺̲̈ẗ̴̨̙ơ̵̖̏ủ̷̱͓c̷̟̞̒͝h̴͔̩̿ i̵͙̪̇̉̚ͅ ̴̨̹͘ď̷̯͊͝ë̶̯̇ͅs̸̜͌̕͜͝t̶͍̞̠̒͘ȑ̷̠̙̦̄ȯ̴̳̻ỹ̴̟̒͝ ̵͎̈́͆e̵̖̜̓̉v̶̟̜̠͂̔̕ę̸̬̈̄ͅŕ̷̢̠͚̇ỳ̷̮̚͠ţ̶́̌h̵̺̑͋ĩ̷̥̉͋n̵̬͓̱̋̀ğ̷̩̫̈͝ ̷̣͈̫̔͛i̵̱̼͒͊ ̷͙̉t̵̪̞͕̐̀̍o̵̧̿͊u̸͈͙̾͒̚c̸̻͎͝h̸̺̐́̚i̵͙̪̇̉̚ͅ ̴̨̹͘ď̷̯͊͝ë̶̯̇ͅs̸̜͌̕͜͝t̶͍̞̠̒͘ȑ̷̠̙̦̄ȯ̴̳̻ỹ̴̟̒͝ ̵͎̈́͆e̵̖̜̓̉v̶̟̜̠͂̔̕ę̸̬̈̄ͅŕ̷̢̠͚̇ỳ̷̮̚͠ţ̶́̌h̵̺̑͋ĩ̷̥̉͋n̵̬͓̱̋̀ğ̷̩̫̈͝ ̷̣͈̫̔͛i̵̱̼͒͊ ̷͙̉t̵̪̞͕̐̀̍o̵̧̿͊u̸͈͙̾͒̚c̸̻͎͝h̸̺̐́̚ ȉ̶͚͙͙ ̵̳͑d̷̡̀e̷̮̖͔͇̭͌s̶̹̮͕̔͒̌̑t̷͕͗͗r̵̖̆o̶̻͛̎͊̚y̶͍̓͒̒ ̷̻̃ẹ̸̡͈͈͉̓̎̂̓̎v̶̛̺̼̬̌̿ę̶̤̫̝͍͆̿͋͐̚r̶̟̃̑̄y̷͇͍̜̳̑̉̂͋ͅt̷̤̥̣̍̀̿͘ͅh̵̝̖̔̐̽̓i̶̯̘̇̈́̕͠n̷̦̥͙͔̰̐̒g̵͓̜̰͆̒̑͑͜ ̸͍͋͆̃ì̸̹̫̪͓̐ͅ ̵̨͕̹̗̽͑̈́́͘t̸̹̒ö̸̯̻̠͍́̄̎ͅȗ̴̝͋̈́̍ͅc̵̖̿͆h̷̪̐̇́͝ į̴̤͇̈́̍͝ ̷̌̆̈́͐ͅd̷̗̯͈̰̘̦̆͊̚è̷͍̯̭̯̏̑͑̉͜s̶̛͔̙̭͎̝͛̔̂̒̕t̴̢̖̞͍̃͗ŕ̵̦̃̏o̶̦̅ý̷̼͉̗̌͋̃̉̏̌ ̵̟̫̪̣̝̽̃́͊̌̉e̷̬̟̥̱̥͕̽̉̿v̴̧̱̺͈̓́̀̆ȩ̸̢̻̙̖̹͋̔r̸͈͆̾͐̈́̐͘ȳ̷̰͉͙̄͂͝t̵̖͑͑̓̉̀͝h̸̟̃̔̍i̴̤͚̺̣̲͐͆̐́̎̃n̵̻̎͛͂͂͗̑͝g̵̨͕͚͆̿̃̇͠ͅ ̵͙̗̀̀̑̋͊͛̚ī̵͎ ̷̧͇̬̪̥͕͘t̶̨̉̃́̐́̓͝o̴̖͈̱̐̒͠ú̷̖̟͕c̷̥̝̝̬̻̿͆͝ḩ̵̤͎̠͆̔͜ į̴̤͇̈́̍͝ ̷̌̆̈́͐ͅd̷̗̯͈̰̘̦̆͊̚è̷͍̯̭̯̏̑͑̉͜s̶̛͔̙̭͎̝͛̔̂̒̕t̴̢̖̞͍̃͗ŕ̵̦̃̏o̶̦̅ý̷̼͉̗̌͋̃̉̏̌ ̵̟̫̪̣̝̽̃́͊̌̉e̷̬̟̥̱̥͕̽̉̿v̴̧̱̺͈̓́̀̆ȩ̸̢̻̙̖̹͋̔r̸͈͆̾͐̈́̐͘ȳ̷̰͉͙̄͂͝t̵̖͑͑̓̉̀͝h̸̟̃̔̍i̴̤͚̺̣̲͐͆̐́̎̃n̵̻̎͛͂͂͗̑͝g̵̨͕͚͆̿̃̇͠ͅ ̵͙̗̀̀̑̋͊͛̚ī̵͎ ̷̧͇̬̪̥͕͘t̶̨̉̃́̐́̓͝o̴̖͈̱̐̒͠ú̷̖̟͕c̷̥̝̝̬̻̿͆͝ḩ̵̤͎̠͆̔͜ i̴̘̯̦̹̪̯̝̋͗̾͊̀͝͝ ̴͍̥͕́͆̊̈̕̚͝͝d̷̢̻͇̳̾͜ę̴̨̡̜̻̫̙͐͌́͋͛͋̍͜s̶̝̱͚̔t̸̡̛̺̖̙͒̓̐̀͑r̸̻͓͐̽̀͝͝o̶̧͇̜͂̏́̌͊͒y̷̰͍̦̰̯̭͙͆̄͂͐͋͋̕͝ ̸̝̣̺̫͈̑́̉e̶̥͇̙̹̼͛̆̀v̶̡̡̛̮̤͔̯̟̽̄͘e̷̙̭̥̞̜̝͕̤̋̎́̇͆̒̃̕r̸͙͙͓̗̾̿̋͗͜y̶̥̔͝ͅt̶̙̤̺̮̽̾͐̍́͠͝ĥ̴̨̭͖̙̰̯̗̒͂͝ǐ̴̱̹͇̘̫̣̟̦̉͛n̸̨͔̍̚͝ğ̵̖͕͚͔̋̐̏̆̋͠ ̸̲̰͇̼̞͗͌̑į̶̨͕̪̜̱̍̌̔̿́̆̕ͅͅ ̴̳̹͉̦͍̻͒̈́̈́̆̓̈́͛̉t̷̖̰̜̥̖̯̅̃̑͌͊̄̈́̃o̵̜͇͖̣̲͛̎͋̃̔͗͛u̶̺̼͌͛͒̽̄͋́c̴̳̼̠̞̤̐̃̀̐̆͐h̵̖̘̫̲̬́͗̈́̚̚͝ i̴̘̯̦̹̪̯̝̋͗̾͊̀͝͝ ̴͍̥͕́͆̊̈̕̚͝͝d̷̢̻͇̳̾͜ę̴̨̡̜̻̫̙͐͌́͋͛͋̍͜s̶̝̱͚̔t̸̡̛̺̖̙͒̓̐̀͑r̸̻͓͐̽̀͝͝o̶̧͇̜͂̏́̌͊͒y̷̰͍̦̰̯̭͙͆̄͂͐͋͋̕͝ ̸̝̣̺̫͈̑́̉e̶̥͇̙̹̼͛̆̀v̶̡̡̛̮̤͔̯̟̽̄͘e̷̙̭̥̞̜̝͕̤̋̎́̇͆̒̃̕r̸͙͙͓̗̾̿̋͗͜y̶̥̔͝ͅt̶̙̤̺̮̽̾͐̍́͠͝ĥ̴̨̭͖̙̰̯̗̒͂͝ǐ̴̱̹͇̘̫̣̟̦̉͛n̸̨͔̍̚͝ğ̵̖͕͚͔̋̐̏̆̋͠ ̸̲̰͇̼̞͗͌̑į̶̨͕̪̜̱̍̌̔̿́̆̕ͅͅ ̴̳̹͉̦͍̻͒̈́̈́̆̓̈́͛̉t̷̖̰̜̥̖̯̅̃̑͌͊̄̈́̃o̵̜͇͖̣̲͛̎͋̃̔͗͛u̶̺̼͌͛͒̽̄͋́c̴̳̼̠̞̤̐̃̀̐̆͐h̵̖̘̫̲̬́͗̈́̚̚͝ì̶͇͈̭̱̪͔͖̕͜͜ͅ ̴̫̞̺̰͍̀͗̍̒́͌͝d̶̡̹̪͙̞̮͕͔͒̈́̋̚ȩ̶̨̦̣͙͕̟̊̿͑̍̿̇̈̊͠͝ş̸͖̱̱͚̜̳̥̑̄̓͊͂͋̒͝ͅt̶̛̫̙͇̥̦̃͂̈́̂̏͂̊r̶͔͐͋̏̑̑́͋̿͑ǒ̵̜͇̒̿͗̓̿̓y̷̗̞͎͆̚ ̶̬̑͛̏̀͊̔̇͊͐̌ę̷̨̮̥̰̪̩̝̪̍͝ͅv̸̯̞̺͇͚̬̰̖̩̂͋̆̄͘͝ͅȩ̴̨̹̥̥̙̪͈̌̈͛̋͂͛̀̔r̵̛̖̠͈̊̈͆̐̏̍̈́̈́͊y̴̡̧̢̨͕̼̖̰̿̐́̚̚t̸̨͍͉͍͍̫̫͊̈́͝h̸̢̲͎̐̈̋̐̀͌̉̄͝͝i̴̠̝͓͋͜͝ņ̵̧̼̞͍̼͚͓͚̌́́̆̅̆̾͐̌̊g̸̮͙͓͔͍̲̦͑͐́͌̀͘ ̴̡͖̑̈́̓̊i̴̯͓̼̼̳̹͇̘͔̾̑͆ ̴̱̓̽̄̀̋͠͝͝ṯ̵̢͕̙̜̤̉̋͗̎̑͑̓̃͘ò̸̘̺̤͍̟͎̎ṳ̶̧̢̨̒c̶͕͋͂̑́̋̀h̴̨̜̞̻̫͕͌̊̊̔̔͂̀͋̚͘ì̶͇͈̭̱̪͔͖̕͜͜ͅ ̴̫̞̺̰͍̀͗̍̒́͌͝d̶̡̹̪͙̞̮͕͔͒̈́̋̚ȩ̶̨̦̣͙͕̟̊̿͑̍̿̇̈̊͠͝ş̸͖̱̱͚̜̳̥̑̄̓͊͂͋̒͝ͅt̶̛̫̙͇̥̦̃͂̈́̂̏͂̊r̶͔͐͋̏̑̑́͋̿͑ǒ̵̜͇̒̿͗̓̿̓y̷̗̞͎͆̚ ̶̬̑͛̏̀͊̔̇͊͐̌ę̷̨̮̥̰̪̩̝̪̍͝ͅv̸̯̞̺͇͚̬̰̖̩̂͋̆̄͘͝ͅȩ̴̨̹̥̥̙̪͈̌̈͛̋͂͛̀̔r̵̛̖̠͈̊̈͆̐̏̍̈́̈́͊y̴̡̧̢̨͕̼̖̰̿̐́̚̚t̸̨͍͉͍͍̫̫͊̈́͝h̸̢̲͎̐̈̋̐̀͌̉̄͝͝i̴̠̝͓͋͜͝ņ̵̧̼̞͍̼͚͓͚̌́́̆̅̆̾͐̌̊g̸̮͙͓͔͍̲̦͑͐́͌̀͘ ̴̡͖̑̈́̓̊i̴̯͓̼̼̳̹͇̘͔̾̑͆ ̴̱̓̽̄̀̋͠͝͝ṯ̵̢͕̙̜̤̉̋͗̎̑͑̓̃͘ò̸̘̺̤͍̟͎̎ṳ̶̧̢̨̒c̶͕͋͂̑́̋̀h̴̨̜̞̻̫͕͌̊̊̔̔͂̀͋̚͘ì̶͇͈̭̱̪͔͖̕͜͜ͅ ̴̫̞̺̰͍̀͗̍̒́͌͝d̶̡̹̪͙̞̮͕͔͒̈́̋̚ȩ̶̨̦̣͙͕̟̊̿͑̍̿̇̈̊͠͝ş̸͖̱̱͚̜̳̥̑̄̓͊͂͋̒͝ͅt̶̛̫̙͇̥̦̃͂̈́̂̏͂̊r̶͔͐͋̏̑̑́͋̿͑ǒ̵̜͇̒̿͗̓̿̓y̷̗̞͎͆̚ ̶̬̑͛̏̀͊̔̇͊͐̌ę̷̨̮̥̰̪̩̝̪̍͝ͅv̸̯̞̺͇͚̬̰̖̩̂͋̆̄͘͝ͅȩ̴̨̹̥̥̙̪͈̌̈͛̋͂͛̀̔r̵̛̖̠͈̊̈͆̐̏̍̈́̈́͊y̴̡̧̢̨͕̼̖̰̿̐́̚̚t̸̨͍͉͍͍̫̫͊̈́͝h̸̢̲͎̐̈̋̐̀͌̉̄͝͝i̴̠̝͓͋͜͝ņ̵̧̼̞͍̼͚͓͚̌́́̆̅̆̾͐̌̊g̸̮͙͓͔͍̲̦͑͐́͌̀͘ ̴̡͖̑̈́̓̊i̴̯͓̼̼̳̹͇̘͔̾̑͆ ̴̱̓̽̄̀̋͠͝͝ṯ̵̢͕̙̜̤̉̋͗̎̑͑̓̃͘ò̸̘̺̤͍̟͎̎ṳ̶̧̢̨̒c̶͕͋͂̑́̋̀h̴̨̜̞̻̫͕͌̊̊̔̔͂̀͋̚͘ ì̷̞̳̜͎̀͂̎̄̀̑͊̔́͝͝ ̷̨͕͉̖̼͇̯̖͉̗̔̈́́d̴̨̳̮̦͖͔͙̟̙̒͌̒̓͂e̶̞̠̹̗̺̙̩͙̲̭̻͌s̶̡̞̼̾̓͒͐̓̀̍͌́̈́͘͝t̸̳̖̠̣̭̗̺̦̉̀r̵͍͉̤͇̭̬̘̖̐̀̀ǫ̸̨͔͓̣͇̦̯̔ͅy̸̨̧̪̮̰̠̠̦̐̋̇̄̈̈́̕͜͝ ̴̢͕̣̮̲̲̼̖͉̟͓͍͗̽̅͆͝è̶̟̙͍͆̎̕̕͝ṿ̵̧̥̺̈́̂̀̂͝e̵̢̧̳̦̭̣̥͍͌̋̋͑́̔͑͜ͅŕ̶̡̨̫̪̝͈̙̰̩̜̣̽̀̈̉́̎̈́́̚̕ŷ̸̮̱̮͇͕͙̙̇̇̀͋͒̈̌ţ̷͉̲͉̱͚̳̩̯͋̊̌̿̕ͅẖ̶̦̜̣̤͍̗̱͉͋͒̈́̒̈́̑i̷͕͚͔̦͆͒̐̌͊̄n̷̨͔̞̗̹͉̯͋̋̽̾͊g̴̛̠̬̳̺̭̱͆͋͋̉͠ ̸̧̞̺̞̞̰̮̳͇̟̾̈́̂̋̄͜i̴̡̥̯̺̮͈͎̝̦͔̰̎̇͐̂̽̎ ̵̛̼̠̪̱̌́͂t̷̡̢̞͎̫̦͓̘͔̉͒̋̾̅̍̎̄ö̷̱̠̱̹̤͉͉́̌̀̄͛͒̃̐̚̕u̵͇͈̝̙̳̬̼͚̖͈̠̟̅̀̄͌͂̆͌͋̊͝c̶̺̅̉͠h̸̢̛̯͒̀̑́̔̓̀̋̉̐ ì̷̞̳̜͎̀͂̎̄̀̑͊̔́͝͝ ̷̨͕͉̖̼͇̯̖͉̗̔̈́́d̴̨̳̮̦͖͔͙̟̙̒͌̒̓͂e̶̞̠̹̗̺̙̩͙̲̭̻͌s̶̡̞̼̾̓͒͐̓̀̍͌́̈́͘͝t̸̳̖̠̣̭̗̺̦̉̀r̵͍͉̤͇̭̬̘̖̐̀̀ǫ̸̨͔͓̣͇̦̯̔ͅy̸̨̧̪̮̰̠̠̦̐̋̇̄̈̈́̕͜͝ ̴̢͕̣̮̲̲̼̖͉̟͓͍͗̽̅͆͝è̶̟̙͍͆̎̕̕͝ṿ̵̧̥̺̈́̂̀̂͝e̵̢̧̳̦̭̣̥͍͌̋̋͑́̔͑͜ͅŕ̶̡̨̫̪̝͈̙̰̩̜̣̽̀̈̉́̎̈́́̚̕ŷ̸̮̱̮͇͕͙̙̇̇̀͋͒̈̌ţ̷͉̲͉̱͚̳̩̯͋̊̌̿̕ͅẖ̶̦̜̣̤͍̗̱͉͋͒̈́̒̈́̑i̷͕͚͔̦͆͒̐̌͊̄n̷̨͔̞̗̹͉̯͋̋̽̾͊g̴̛̠̬̳̺̭̱͆͋͋̉͠ ̸̧̞̺̞̞̰̮̳͇̟̾̈́̂̋̄͜i̴̡̥̯̺̮͈͎̝̦͔̰̎̇͐̂̽̎ ̵̛̼̠̪̱̌́͂t̷̡̢̞͎̫̦͓̘͔̉͒̋̾̅̍̎̄ö̷̱̠̱̹̤͉͉́̌̀̄͛͒̃̐̚̕u̵͇͈̝̙̳̬̼͚̖͈̠̟̅̀̄͌͂̆͌͋̊͝c̶̺̅̉͠h̸̢̛̯͒̀̑́̔̓̀̋̉̐

[danqerousblues]

i’m so selfish. i’m sorry.

[danqerousblues]

i see you lying next to me,

with words i thought i’d never speak.

awake

and unafraid,

asleep

or

dead.

[danqerousblues]

you’re not real. i made you up in my mind to cope. and now that it’s gone, i am too.

[danqerousblues]

looking back on it know, i knew our love died a long time ago. i just wish you told me sooner. you didn’t have to tell me that you loved me. past tense. i already knew.

[danqerousblues]

i’ll be pathetic and undesirable so you can tell me you love me more.

[danqerousblues]

only pay me compliments when i’m under you. make me unlovable anywhere else.