IF NIGHTMARES CAN COME TRUE, WHY NOT DREAMS?

Let me tell you about a place. It's somewhere over the horizon, far beyond all the pain and tears, where the sun is rising over a beautiful meadow. Light cascades through a sea of wildflowers, while birdsong can be heard all around, and you're there, and so am I. The grasses are shimmering as they sway in the breeze, and life, it finally doesn't feel so heavy anymore. It is not a weight I begrudgingly carry on my back, even as it threatens to break me in half. It is gentle, and light, and filled with love, like the whole world is softly breathing out. And it doesn't matter anymore how or where this story began, all those years spent suffering through such unsightly places, because it ends up in that meadow all the same. Just you, me, the flowers and the birds, with all our eyes trained on the horizon, watching the sun slowly rise.

[traumacure]

FINAL(?) UPDATE: The text below and the contents of this blog have been preserved here for sentimentality and archival purposes. I no longer actively use this page for any purpose. It is delisted from searches and supposedly "password protected," though I have my doubts about how well those functions of this site work. If you found your way here in spite of that, I wish you peace and recovery. As for myself, I am well on my way. Thank you for your kindness in the darkest times and your continuing thoughts in lighter ones, I promise to keep doing my best and I wish nothing but the best for you, too <3

hi i'm murk i'm 24 & this used to be my trauma/vent blog. to be more specific, this was a personal vent account as well as a place for me to post and archive various forms of art, writing, and imagery that resonated with me on some emotional level. i still occasionally use it for that, but i also post a lot of positivity centered around neurodivergence, mental health, and recovery because i'm trying to get better <3 if you only want to see my reblogs and original art, but not my text posts, blacklist #💙.txt

i don't have a dni, but i do block users that i feel are bigoted (e.g., racist, transphobic, misogynistic, homophobic, ableist, etc) or make me uncomfortable for any reason. if you feel the need to correct me on anything, do so with accuracy, kindness, and patience, coming from a place of good faith, or you will be immediately blocked. assume no ill intentions of me, and i will do the same for you. i do not argue for the sake of argument, and will quietly block anyone that i feel is espousing harmful or offensive views in the notes of my posts. i do not send or condone online harrassment for any reason.

asks are on, but i don't answer all of them. if you privately direct message me and i don't know you, i may or may not reply. no hard feelings, i just don't always feel up to talking to strangers these days <3 feel free to try to talk to me though, i always appreciate kind words and i don't bite. sometimes, i even reply :)

DO NOT REPOST (DOWNLOAD AND REUPLOAD TO ANOTHER ACCOUNT OR WEBSITE) ANY CONTENT TAGGED #MINE OR #FRIEND EDIT. IT IS ORIGINAL CONTENT NOT PERMITTED FOR REUPLOADING ELSEWHERE (REBLOGS ARE FINE).

[traumacure]

i know you are so rarely on here (& i hope you are healing well <3) but i wanted to ask this: you do not want your prior works reposted (a very valid request) but would it be okay if i quoted you in a fanwork (with credit, ofc)? it is all okay if not, & i obviously will not use the quote without express permission, so if you do happen to see this, no worries about me having crossed that line.

again, i do hope you are doing well ! <3

answering a few months late because i do rarely log into this account anymore, but yes, that's alright. i used to care about reposting more when i actively ran this blog, but content i've posted here is still frequently posted without credit elsewhere on the internet and i've accepted there's little to be done about it now. still, i do appreciate when people take the time to credit me. at this point, the only use of original content posted here i would take strong issue with is if someone plagiarized it by explicitly claiming authorship or incorporated it into any kind of for-profit project. so, as long as you're not lying that it's your work or selling something with it, reproductions and/or transformative uses are generally fine.

[traumacure]

hi, i found this text on ig and just wonder if it’s yours, my searches lead to you but i can’t find it on here

“I feel like neither a child nor an adult. I am a botched, failed creature, combining the worst qualities of each. All the helplessness and dependency of a child, with the cynicism and despair of an adult. My mind is stunted, malformed. My body outgrew me and now I wield it clumsily, hitting others with my overgrown arms as I stumble over my own fect. ‘I am sorry,’ I say, ‘But I was treated as something less than human and that is what I've become’.”

hello, yes, that is my writing. i wrote it several years ago while going through a difficult time. searches probably didn't lead you to it because i privated/delisted this blog a couple years ago for personal reasons. this is the original upload for proof the words are mine, if nothing else:

Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your

this link predates all other reproductions. this text in particular has been repeatedly reposted to many accounts by now, almost always without credit, as have other things i posted over the years. i do not mind, really. it is more an amusement to me than anything to see what i wrote in such a dark time be appropriated by others for engagement. perhaps it is cynical, but i find the absurdity of seeing how these words i spewed so haphazardly continue to find a home in appropriated anonymity comical, even nostalgic. nonetheless, it is touching to see some people care to track down who originally wrote them, as few social media users bother to think of the author behind words that suit their experiences or aesthetic. thank you for thinking of me and for reaching out--i am doing better these days, & i hope you will find your own way forward too <3

[samsketchbook]

where does puppy go at night.    print

[iliketurtles55]

(Sequel to ‘This memory is being forgotten’)

[sera-moving-time-deactivated202]

based on something I saw a bit back

[minicy]

[ID. Digitally painted comic. A snake bites an angel in tall grass over a flat plain.

"A snake bites you

and you chase after the snake

rather than waiting to recover

or getting a cure from another

you chase after the snake.

To find the reason it bit you

to prove you didn't deserve to be hurt."

The snake and the angel are both streaked with pale pink and gold light, contrasted with pale blue shadows. The angel has wings and a sun for a head. End ID.]

[kyahcomic]

[molabuddy]

i had a dream the other day that i found a plastic box and inside it was every childhood toy i ever lost and wished to hold again. but anyway its all normal i think.

[molabuddy]

an incredible feeling of contentedness washed over me when i looked in the box. i didn't even touch anything in the box, but the feeling that everything that was lost and missed and wondered about was finally found and tangible washed over me in a wave of tranquility . and i don't think it was just the box? i think in that moment, on the floor of my bedroom, with the midday sun coming in through the window, every loose end was tied and every lost toy could be held and every lost memory could be revisited in perfect detail. that nothing would ever be truly lost again.

so maybe i met an angel actually

[dumini]

alleycat gives unsolicited advice

[traumacure]

there are so many things i wish i could have done differently looking back. hindsight is truly so much clearer, when i think back, it's like watching myself stumble around blindly in the dark, tripping over my own feet. i have so many regrets i want to set down, but at least for now, i can only carry them forward, trying to amass fewer as i trudge ahead. the past is the past, and i have to try to move forward from where i am, even if it's somewhere i never wanted to be. i have to believe there's still a better place waiting for me. i won't give up again, even if it's hard, even if i can never depend on anyone like i yearned to for so many years. i have to make myself into someone strong enough to solve my own problems. i won't wait for anyone to save me again. i'll become the change i need to see.

[alittlecartoonie]

to emerge: an ode to cicadas and embracing change

[archbudzar]

the memory changes

[heavensghost]

In the name of Love, Katie Maria

( @heavensghost )

[asoftwrongness]

instagram | prints

[angelnumber130]

[artbylittlebug]

[titsay]