Duh-lee-ne

Photo blog and Compilation of my thoughts // 🎨

[you--broke--all--your--promises]

Someone asked me what my dream job is.

Then I realised I have no idea because I never expected to be still alive at 20.

[myonlywayoutofhere]

“I need to decide if what I want is more important than what is best for me.”

— Day 31

[4am-reflections]

you should have loved her when you had the chance, it’s as simple as that. she is like the sunrise, something pure and good with only the best intentions, the promise of a new beginning. people like that don’t come around often and yet you had the audacity to use her for your own gain. to you she was a good time, a person you’d go to when there was nothing else to do, a convenience nothing more. so don’t you walk around spilling words of how terrible she was to leave you, when you’re the only one to blame.

4am

[safe-to-say-fuck-off]

It’s such a shame, we’ll never find out what we could have been.

[tanya-nicole]

I won’t glorify or romanticize heartbreak. For me, it was a kind of death and I was forced to keep living.

~ Warsan Shire

[teenagecrush]

[tanya-nicole]

“Sometimes giving someone a second chance, Is like giving them an extra bullet for their gun.. cause they missed you the first time.”

— Unknown

[creatingnikki]

Before I fall in love again

1. I want us to be friends. Which means, I want to be able to eat my favourite cheese crust pizza with you, while having cheese all over my face and even in my hair, without feeling embarrassed or concerned about it.

I want to be comfortable with you, I want to be okay about being messy, irritating, embarrassing, disgusting, petty while with you. Because I will be petty when I see my ex best friend post a happy picture and I will be messy during my finals and I will be embarrassing when I meet your parents for I suck at meeting parents. I want to be okay with being the way I am and the only way to be okay is to know that you’re okay with me being things other than beautiful, graceful and composed at all times.

2. I want to be able to have long and passionate conversations with you about not just about existential beliefs but also about what went wrong in the ending of that book and how kids are affected by media and how tomato-basil combination always works. I want to have conversations where we may not always have the same views but our fundamental values always fall in place. I want to talk to you about the beauty of the stars but I also want to talk to you about the disgusting mentality behind certain societal norms.

3. I want to see how consistent your actions are with your words. I don’t want to fall for love letters or poems, for sweet Instagram captions or long birthday texts. I want to fall in love with you showing up on time and keeping your promises.

4. I want to take it slow. I want our story to work out in years, not months. I want to respect time and space this time.

5. I want to make sure I am not seeking love from you for the lack of love I have for myself. I want to make sure you aren’t a void I am filling in, you are not an alternative to the things I can’t give myself. I want to make sure you are not doing the same.

6. I want to work out with my insecurities and fears from the past. I don’t want to project them on you, I don’t want to subject you to the doubts, suspicion and anger I carry from the people I have known in the past.

7. Before I fall in love again, I want to make a mattress with you. Of understanding and respect and trust. So when we fall, it doesn’t hurt.

[lachill0na]

[haleyincarnate]

Quote by unknown

[multa--paucis]

“The real goodbye is the one that happens slowly, over time, wordlessly. There is no ‘see you again.’ There are no future plans. You stop checking up on each other, and eventually you go back to being strangers.”

— we can’t just “be friends”

[tnbtheories]

Never be afraid to try again.

[deeplifequotes]

“My therapist taught me to interrupt my anxious thinking with thoughts like: “What if things work out” and “What if all my hard work pays off?” So, I’m passing that onto you wherever you are, whatever you’re leaving, or whomever you’re becoming.”

— Sinclair P. Ceasar III

[darguari]

I can do it, I can make it! It will pay off

[remanence-of-love]

[favorite-aesthetic]

"Perfect one doesn't exist because simply we are HUMANS.. So, love yourself because you're ART anyway"

📷 Photography by Peter DeVito

[polyglotswede]

3 things that have changed my life.

1. Fake smiling

i started to fake smile two years ago , as an attempt to trick my brain into being haooy. Not only did it kinda work , but everyone in general started to see me as a happy and cheerish person. I kept hearing it from everyone. ‘’You’re always so happy’’ , i later kinda started to associate myself with that phrase and today i can with a BIG SMILE say that , yes , iam happy. Iam blessed.

2,Learning foregin languages.

I studied italian because i was bored. was it easy?no. but i did it , i studied it because ‘’why not? people have told me it’s easy’’… i later ended up going to italy by myself and little did i know that this language would CHANGE MY LIFE and OPEN NEW DOORS. I can’t imagen how my life would be like without learning this amazing language , that i , two years ago , actually DID NOT LIKE.

3.Failing

As i once was told ; failure does not exist. Failure is just criqtues , it’s telling you that you CAN do it better. I have so called ‘ failed’’ many times. I could make a long list for you. all from missing 3 years of school to choosing the wrong word on duolingo…However ‘’failure’’ has been one fo the biggest lessons in my life. never be affraid do fail. never

[thepowerwithin]

“Don’t allow for fear to take over your life. Don’t allow for its intimidating glare to sway you. Don’t allow for its icy cold grip to stop you from achieving your wildest dreams.”

— Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin