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Elliott Gilbert a.k.a Starchild. 20. Living in Lima, Ohio. Performer. Music major. Barista at the Lima Bean. That's about everything you need to know.

[dark-starchild]

After a long week of finals

[misfitmarleyrose-archived]

Have you heard about Sam? That’s probably the only thing, I guess.

[dark-starchild]

Sam? No, I haven't. What happened to him? Is he okay?

[danitheairbender-deactivated201]

The Lima Bean is going to be my savior today. Hopefully 2 cups will be enough to keep me awake…

[dark-starchild]

We're always glad to keep students awake. It's somewhere in our slogan. I'm guessing you didn't get much sleep, right? 

[dark-starchild]

After a long week of finals

And being pestered by my mentor. I'm a free man, I'll worry about grades later, for now, I'm just gonna enjoy my weekend. What did I miss?

[dark-starchild]

[Private]

[brightblueeyes-kurt]

I agree. And I’ve taken piano lessons half my life, so I’m okay at that, but not amazing. I’ve always wanted to pick up a guitar or something, but I don’t think the instrument would really suit me.

Well, I am, I kinda thought I was making it really obvious that I liked you. And what do you mean? Like… People like you for Starchild and stuff like that? Because so far, I’ve gotten to know the real Elliot a lot more than I know Starchild, and I think Elliot is a pretty cool guy. Don’t worry, I haven’t been on a date in a while either (and my last one ended pretty horribly with me realizing my date was still deeply in love with someone else) so we can be each others firsts for now.

[dark-starchild]

Piano? That's pretty cool, I'd like to hear that someday. And that's so not true, trust me, having the right instrument makes the whole difference, something that suits your style and personality. I just recently started taking guitar lessons and it's not very hard. 

Um, not exactly. And I'm not that famous yet, but that's a very nice thing to say. I-- I'm glad you like the real Elliott, because he likes Kurt too--and I should stop talking in third person because it's kinda weird... but what I meant that you're just not trying to-- pick me up. It's a nice change, for once. Well, that did have to suck, but I have a feeling this one won't end badly, at least, I hope. I'm not hang up on anyone, if that helps. 

[wolf-charlie]

Well what makes you angry?

[dark-starchild]

I don't have anger issues, I just got angry at them because they were meddling where they shouldn't even after I tell them to stop. 

And why do you say you have anger issues?

[dark-starchild]

[Private]

[brightblueeyes-kurt]

It’s just not to me, but I’m not going to tell someone not to believe in it. Did you really? That’s kind of adorable.

Yeah, I can… Definitely relate with the ‘hectic’ but we really do. I - um, oh, thank you. I know I’m being a bit too enthusiastic, but… It’s been a while since I’ve been on a nice date with someone who actually wanted to be there with me.

[dark-starchild]

Yeah, that's the right thing to do, in my opinion. Well-- I was, i think. So do you play any instruments?

It's-- well, being completely honest, it's kinda nice knowing you're interested in me and not just in-- you know. And I find that hard to believe, but, well, some people doesn't know good when they see it, but I'm not the kind of guy who misses good chances, you know? Though, I feel like I should warn you I haven't had a proper date in a while...

[misfitmarleyrose-archived]

Why? What happened? I haven’t seen you get mad before… It must be really serious.

[dark-starchild]

Just people getting up my business. I guess customers are not nosy and I could never get mad at you, so, those are probably the reasons. 

[icequinnblr]

Fu- ...dge.

[icequinnblr]

Oh wow, hadn’t thought of that one, Einstein.

However, seeing as I’m the only child currently living at home at the moment, my options for a scapegoat are few and far between.

[dark-starchild]

You can't say I didn't try. 

Well-- shit happens, that's why. Say your room's too humid, or too cold, and temperature changes breaks stuff, which is actually true. Why did you break them anyway? If you feel like sharing that. 

[dark-starchild]

[Private]

[brightblueeyes-kurt]

Oh, not even remotely. God is kind of like…. The toothfairy for adults in my opinion. Or Santa Claus. People know he’s not real but it’s nice to believe in something I suppose. 

Yeah, we really haven’t had a chance to get to know one another well, but I can already tell you’re the kind of person I would get along with really well. And you’re really too sweet, okay, now I’m definitely excited for your finales to end. 

[dark-starchild]

Yeah, I can see your point. I've never been too keen on believing either, but everyone has to have something to believe in, I guess, if it gives them peace of mind, well, whatever floats your boat, as long as they don't try to push their beliefs on others, things should be alright. I used to believe in Santa, though, one Christmas I asked him for a guitar because I wanted to be like Led Zeppelin. Ha. 

Yeah, everything's been a little-- hectic, but we get along online, I guess it can only get better outside. And you're too cute. Me too, honestly. 

[wolf-charlie]

I have anger issues. It’s fun having anger issues.

[dark-starchild]

Not so fun when you snap at others, to be honest. 

[bright-lightsblaine-blog]

Still no Scotch.

[bright-lightsblaine-blog]

You know what, normally I wouldn’t indulge in going out with anyone I work with. But why not, I could really do with that scotch.

[dark-starchild]

It's just a drink, you know? I'm not asking you to move in with me or anything like that. Anything's better with Scotch, even company, I guess. First round is on me.

[dark-starchild]

[Private]

[brightblueeyes-kurt]

Exactly! See, this is why we get along. And which: Heaven or coffee? Because while I do argue that the cost of coffee could be cheeper, it’s still less than heaven, since apparently the only way to get there is pretend you really care about it.

Really? I - great! That’s great, okay, just let me know when you finish finales and we’re on. And good, since I don’t really care what other people say either, this is going to be amazing, I’m so excited - wow, okay, now you have me rambling, I’m just going to stop now while I’m a head, but wow, I’m really happy you said yes.

[dark-starchild]

It was just a way of speaking. And I'll have to go with coffee since I'm not that religious, like, I respect beliefs and all, but it's been a while since I stopped believing in heaven, and even if it does exist I...--- I'm just not religious. From the way you're speaking, I guess you aren't either? 

Sure, finals are next week so, i'm free after that. Like I say, keep doing it, I'm not gonna complain, and I agree, I wouldn't miss the opportunity of knowing you better, besides, who would say no to a date with you? I mean, if they're into boys, you know... Okay, shutting up now. 

[dark-starchild]

[Private]

[brightblueeyes-kurt]

Well, thank you then. I am pretty fantastic if I do say so myself. And it really should be: "coffee is affordable priced heaven, ya don't need to sell you soul to get a piece of this".

Yeah, no, I mean, I know, I meant since I last asked since I wanted to make sure you weren't since I was wondering if you maybe would want to turn our coffee date into... A real date? I know this isn't New York, it's just Lima and people might not like it... but please say yes anyway.

[dark-starchild]

And whoever disagrees is just wrong. And yeah, you're right, I think you're right, it shouldn't cost as much as it does, 

Oh. You're-- I thought, I mean, it crossed my mind but I didn't actually think you were asking because of that,  and now I'm rambling -- what I'm trying to say is, yes. I'd like that, very much. And honestly, I don't care about what people might like or not because I like you, so screw them. 

[bright-lightsblaine-blog]

Still no Scotch.

or muffin basket.

[dark-starchild]

I could use some Scotch too. Wanna go grab a drink?

[icequinnblr]

Fu- ...dge.

How am I supposed to explain two broken mirrors in two months?

[dark-starchild]

Say you didn't do it? 

[dark-starchild]

[Private]

[brightblueeyes-kurt]

We really should, I could give this entire school a fantastic face lift. You think I’m awesome? Well, that’s always nice to hear, and yes, coffee is literally heaven. Anyone who disagrees is wrong. Great! Just let me know when you finish, and the first cup is definitely on me, Elliot.

Can I ask you something slightly personal? Do you… Have a boyfriend? I’m just curious because, you know, you’re in college and all that and everyone always talks about how it gets better once you get out of high school and I can’t imagine people not flocking around you because of how amazing you are —- I mean… Assuming you’re gay… If you’re not, please excuse my awkward rambling and I’m so sorry.

[dark-starchild]

'Course I think you're awesome, I thought I've made that pretty clear. That's gonna be Lima Bean's next slogan and, sure, I could never say to no to free coffee. 

Oh-- it's okay, I guess, you've already asked so... and no, I don't have one. You're probably asking the wrong guy here, I don't do relationships very well, so there's that... but it does get better, college's very different from high school, you can be whoever you want without much flag about it, and I have a couple of friends in relationships. Just remember this is still Lima, I'm sure NY will be a lot different. And that's-- I wouldn't say flocking, but thanks. S'okay, I guess I'm not very-- heck, I go around tossing glitter, I can see why people would assume. Let's go with 'I like boys but hate labels' kind of thing here, and don't worry, you're cute when you ramble... uh-- yeah. So... can I ask the same thing? Do you have a boyfriend or something like that?

[sweetnovember19]