indie RP sideblog for vampire!Jay of ENHYPEN, based in the band's fictional Dark Moon universe Penned by L. Mun/Muse 25+ Follow back from @derschwarzeengel Est. 09 Aug. 2025
DARKMOONJAY || Indie RP sideblog for vampire!Jay from ENHYPEN, based in the group's fictional DARK MOON universe. Penned by L-mun (25+). NSFW material present. OC, AU, Crossover friendly. Follow back from @derschwarzeengel MINORS DNI. OT7s DNI.
JUNGWON, JAY AND JAKE DURING THE COMIC CON YESTERDAY
🐈: we’ve been really busy. we’re on tour right now, and our album is coming out next month, too. we’ve been so busy that, like always, i think we’ve been focusing on the final result the things we’re creating. that’s still the case now.
🐈: these days, while we’re on tour, the six of us have been spending our time really happily together 🤍
🐈⬛: first of all, i think our upcoming 8th mini album is going to be out really soon… as all the members said, we’re really confident about it. i wanted this to be the highest point of our career at this moment, and i believe this album is going to do that for us.
🐈⬛: and after that i think we will just keep going on with the world tour. we only just started. this is our second or third stop here in the us and latin america, and we still have a long way to go and a lot of things to do.
🐈⬛: the only thing i can say is that everything’s going to be AMAZING
🦮: i feel like a lot of people are worried about us. a lot of the fans are worried about how we are doing. but i just want to say WE ARE BETTER THAN EVER
🦮: its like this mutual kind of thing because we’re worried about the fans and how they are bcs they might be going through their own thing or they might be stressed about us. It’s just this mutual kind of love. Because you need to love someone to worry about them
🦮: we are worried about the fans, the fans are worried about us. but I just want to put this out there that we are doing very well. We are the most confident about this next album
In Leopard Hide by darkmoonjay [Wereleopard!Jaywon AU, Part 6]
Rating: Explicit | Pairing: Jaywon
Summary: Late at night, high on leftover energy from his transformation and the effects of his first heat cycle, Jungwon impulsively starts an audio-only live with his Jay-hyung—without permission.
It goes much further than anyone intended.
{ Chapter 1 } { Chapter 2 }
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Chapter 3
“Jongseong-ssi, Jungwon-ssi.” It was Yuki who called their names from the doorway after breakfast, and the manager did not look pleased. “I need to speak with you both, as does the company. Now.”
The others exchanged glances before turning their gazes on their leader and second-eldest. Sunghoon and Heeseung smirked.
Last night, Jungwon had been too high on leftover energy from his first transformation plus the effects of his first heat—and jealous from ENGENEs' comments—to think or care much about the consequences of their going live without permission. But now... His insides twisted.
How much had the others heard? Had they tried to join in the live on Weverse? How many of the comments had they seen? Had they read his post?
...Shit.
Jungwon deliberately didn't look over at Jay (however much he wanted to) as they joined their manager.
Yuki stepped into another room, closed the door behind all three of them. Then he turned on Jungwon and Jay, folded his arms. “So. That was an... interesting Weverse live last night. Not to mention the fact you went on without permission.”
Jay's arm wrapped protectively around Jungwon's shoulders, and the leader resisted the urge to lean into it, against Jay. He steadily met Yuki's eyes. “I had my first transformation yesterday,” he said calmly. “My leopard... she's in heat right now.”
Their manager sighed deeply through his nose. As exasperated as it sounded, understanding briefly flashed in his eyes. “Jungwon-ssi, especially now, you cannot let your leopard control you. You have to restrain her, keep her in check. Those of us who let their leopards run free, who don't bother to control them and give in to their darker instincts, are the ones who turn rogue and must be hunted down. You've seen what happens to rogues with a taste for humans.”
“I know.” Jungwon jerked his chin up slightly. “I was there.”
“We both were.” Jay moved even closer to Jungwon, let his fingers slip down to graze the bare skin of his upper arm. His touch burned—a brand.
Jungwon flicked a glance sideways to his mate before focusing again on their manager. He forced himself to push down the effects of his heat—the simmering arousal, the urge to flirt by rubbing up against Jay and spread his scent, the need to have Jongseong inside of him at all times—and draw upon the self-discipline he'd honed by years of being an athlete, an idol, ENHYPEN's leader. “How long did your wife know she was a wereleopard before you married her?” he asked.
“Her whole life,” Yuki answered.
“I didn't have that,” Jungwon said. “The three of you grew up with this, knowing you're leopard, but I'm new. I've only known since Jongseong-hyung claimed me in April.”
That was less than a month ago. Four days from now, it would be exactly one month ago.
He kept his voice calm, matter-of-fact, as he continued: “In the past three weeks, I've just discovered that I'm not human, that my leopard is female, that Jongseong is my mate. We helped catch a rogue leopard that killed humans; saw justice for his victims almost immediately after Jay-hyung claimed me. And now? I can shift into my leopard, but my first transformation is when she's in heat. All this is on top of our regular schedules and my duties as leader.”
There was silence for a few heartbeats, and then Yuki nodded. “You're completely right. Which is why you need to learn control. Our species is neither fully human nor fully leopard, but a mixture of the two—and there must be balance.” He paused, choosing his next words carefully. “What do you plan on telling the company? That the two of you are together?”
Jay's hand on Jungwon's bicep slid down to his waist. “The members know that we're a couple,” Jongseong said. “That we are leopard. They would have found out eventually, and Ni-ki figured it out on his own. But... we're not ready to go public, officially. To the company or the media.”
“I wasn't in my right mind last night,” Jungwon added. Even now, it was taking all the self-control he had not to give in to what his body demanded: dragging Jay somewhere he could have him all to himself, complete privacy, where they wouldn't be overheard and they could ride out his heat together.
Yuki's mouth twitched faintly. “Clearly.” Then the faint smile was gone. “The two of you are a mated pair. True mates, no less. While that is binding in our world, it is not good enough or legally binding for humans.” Or the company, was left unsaid. “When exactly were you planning to go public as a couple?”
Jay's grip involuntarily tightened on Jungwon's waist, and ENHYPEN's leader looked over at his mate. Jongseong returned the mildly panicked glance.
Their manager sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose. “Please tell me you weren't going to wait until after you're expecting cubs.”
“Um.” Jay's expression went total deer-caught-in-headlights.
Jungwon giggled nervously—even though the situation wasn't remotely funny, and part of him couldn't believe they were having this talk with their manager.
Yuki muttered something rapidly that Jungwon didn't quite catch, but the exasperation was evident. Then, clearer: “Look, even if you were to tell them that you're married, you don't have the documentation for it and it wouldn't be legally recognized by the company or the government.”
Right, Jungwon realized, his heart sinking. As it was now, South Korea didn't legally recognize same-sex marriages or civil unions.
“Wait.” Jay smiled slightly as a thought occurred to him. “I'm still American. Technically. If we were to get married in the United States... wouldn't that have to be recognized? By both countries?”
“And my sense of gender right now is... complicated,” Jungwon said wryly. He shrugged. “You know. Female leopard, and all.” Hope sparked in his chest.
Maybe... further down the line, possibly... he and Jay could—
To his relief, Yuki was looking thoughtful, as if he were actually considering it. “I'll look into it; see what strings I can pull with the wereleopard community. But for now, is it enough to tell the company that you're dating? Play it off as the two of you being drunk last night. Or doing a massage. Something.”
Jay raised one eyebrow. “Like that's somehow better?”
“You want us to... what, start a dating rumor featuring ourselves?” Jungwon asked, mildly confused as to where their manager-nim was going with this. It was only two years ago that he'd had to dispel dating rumors himself involving a female idol. After receiving tons of hate, no less. All for rumors that had been entirely faked.
“Oh, you've already done that without my help,” Yuki informed them, deadpan. “Not to mention it's been an open secret among other HYBE groups for years that you two are together. No, this would be confirming any suspicions that you're a couple. Damage control. You can downplay the extent that you're together, obviously. But do not reveal that you're leopards.” His gaze swiveled, freeze-frame, to ENHYPEN's leader. “Jungwon-ssi, I'm looking at you.”
“Why me?” Indignation warred with the sudden instinct to submit to the much older, more dominant wereleopard. Plus the feeling he knew full well why Yuki was singling him out.
“If last night and the past six years are any indication, you're extremely possessive over Jay-ssi, and your leopard has only heightened that tendency now that she's emerged. I would say for you not to do anything stupid, but clearly we're well past that.”
That remark, somehow, stung more than anything else Yuki had said so far. Acutely ashamed, Jungwon lowered his gaze and bowed his head. “Yes, sir.”
“Good.” Yuki stepped aside, gestured for them to leave and head for the car waiting to take them to the company. “After you.”
If being chewed out by their manager-nim had been uncomfortable (to say the least), then sitting across from three of the higher level members of management within the company was downright unnerving. Jungwon resisted the urge to squirm in his seat while waiting for them to speak and instead without really thinking about it reached for Jay's hand.
His mate's fingers grasped his beneath the table, squeezed reassuringly before lacing together.
At even that simple touch, Jungwon felt his leopardess settle—going from high alert to wary caution.
But the stares he was receiving now reminded him way too much of being scrutinized, every flaw under a microscope. He gulped nervously when the executive in the middle looked between him and Jay with a steely glare.
“What exactly were the two of you thinking? Going live without permission last night? And with that?”
“It was audio-only,” Jungwon forced himself to point out, swallowing past the lump in his throat.
“I shut it down whenever things would get too, uh... sensitive,” Jay added.
The withering look they received in response had Jungwon's hackles rising instinctively: Threat. Protect yourself and your mate.
“That doesn't explain Jungwon's comment after both audios,” the same executive said.
“We're together,” Jungwon blurted out, meeting the executives' eyes head-on. “Dating. A couple. Jay-ssi was giving me a massage last night. Long day and everything. It was my idea to go live, but no visual.”
Jay's thumb stroked over the side of his hand, and Jungwon only barely held in the comforting purr rising in his throat. Resisted the urge to stand and move so he was sitting in Jay's lap—with how often they'd done so over the years on-camera, it was muscle memory by now.
“It was a really intense massage,” Jay said with a perfectly straight face. “Sir.”
Jungwon didn't dare glance over at him. Not now. If he did, he would either crack up with a fit of the giggles or give in to the demands of his heat—every cell in his body was crying out for Jongseong to touch him, hold him, claim him. His body right now did not care who saw them together.
So he said nothing, pressing his mouth into a firm line, and nodded in affirmation.
The three suits exchanged glances. Then: “How long have you been... together?” the one on Jungwon's left asked.
“Officially? Since April,” Jay answered. Unofficially, Jungwon knew, they'd had feelings for each other long before then. But there was no need to go into that at the moment.
“We didn't want to tell anyone in the company,” Jungwon added. “Not yet. Our members knew, and our manager. But we weren't ready to tell ENGENE or the media. We... ah, want to keep our relationship secret as long as possible.”
Until they couldn't possibly hide it anymore. If—when—he ended up carrying Jay's cubs and began showing...
Jungwon pushed away the thoughts of a major scandal, sasaengs, paparazzi, how it would affect ENHYPEN—especially with their contract renewals coming up next year. Assuming he wouldn't be able to—
“...Okay,” the left-seated exec across from Jungwon said slowly, as if he were still turning this revelation over in his head. “We're past that now. Your audio lives and Jungwon's comment following them have already gone viral. There is much speculation that the two of you are”—he paused—“together.” The word weighed heavily in the air. “So you'll get ahead of it. Confirm the dating rumors, but nothing more. Tell ENGENE what you told us—that it was a massage. Nothing else.”
The way he said it, Jungwon had a sneaking suspicion he and Jay hadn't fooled anyone with their story about last night's activities being a massage between members after a long, grueling day. But he wasn't going to press their luck. Not now.
All he wanted right then was to end this meeting as quickly as possible so he and Jay could get away and have some semblance of privacy. So he nodded, made noises of agreement, stood and bowed politely before he took his leave.
Jungwon didn't run out of the room, exactly, but it was a close thing. Jay was close behind him, as always—he didn't have to look over his shoulder to know his hyung was on his tail.
Without thinking, his feet headed toward their practice room. The other members all had their various schedules for today—but no group dance practices were scheduled, so they would have some privacy. As soon as they were both inside, Jungwon locked the door behind them.
If things did get out of hand with his heat, his leopardess, he didn't want anyone walking in on them in such an intimate position. Having their members and manager know the full extent of their secret was enough. Confirming that at the very least they were dating to management was more public than he wanted to be right now, but Jungwon didn't see any choice in the matter—or what they had to do now with going live on Weverse.
“I can't believe this,” he muttered.
Jay shrugged. “At least we're not fired, like I was saying would happen.”
...Okay, he had a point there. “But having to confirm we're dating to ENGENE? It's been less than a month.”
This time, Jay gave a rather pointed, droll stare. “And whose fault is that for going live last night while we were in bed?”
Jungwon snorted. “Says the guy who claimed me in the first place.”
“...Fair enough. Though now you'll give them another reason to go crazy with your 'Jay, marry me' agenda.”
Despite himself, Jungwon smiled and barked out a laugh. “Again, this from the guy who first brought up getting me pregnant.” His smile, his laugh dropped a second later. “So. Let our staff know we're going live so they can monitor from their phones, and then... how should we play this?”
“Same way we usually do whenever we have a live in here, I guess. But Won-ah... if your heat becomes stronger, too much... tell me and we'll stop immediately, okay?”
Okay, all right, he could do that. Definitely. They were already in enough trouble as it was; they didn't need to add actually filming a sex tape to their list of transgressions.
At least, Jungwon was pretty sure he could control himself enough to let Jay know. This was as new to him as it was to Jongseong—he'd felt horny and aroused before over the years, naturally, but not like this.
Having Jay last night and then immediately this morning hadn't been enough—not nearly enough. His clothes itched against his oversensitive skin; lava flowed through his veins; every step was torture with the gentle friction against his core. His instincts were screaming to roll, spread his pheromones, rub all over Jongseong and present himself. Make himself simply irresistible to his mate.
“Let's get it,” he heard himself say instead.
There were chairs, a small table folded up against one wall. The next few minutes were a blur to Jungwon as he and Jay set up for the live, decided to use Jay's phone to film it. At last, they were on Weverse and ready to go.
The standard greetings were barely out of their mouths before the view counter ticked up and the comments section started being flooded. Jungwon ignored it, ignored them, especially the comments in English. Let Jay handle those later. Maybe.
They spent a few minutes more with greetings, responding to positive comments and questions. Then there was one that he couldn't ignore—and tied in with the reason they'd gone live in the first place.
Jungwon looked sideways at Jay, decided to take the lead in answering. “That's the reason why we went live right now, actually. About yesterday...”
Nope. Nuh-uh. Admitting to ENGENE that they were a couple right now? Not happening. The words would not leave. It was one thing to admit it to their members and manager, another to admit it to the company's executives when they'd had no choice, but their fans? Absolutely not.
Jay slung an arm over Jungwon's shoulders. “Jungwon-ah just gets... jealous where I'm concerned, is all. Possessive.” He shrugged. “Yesterday was a long day, a hard one for both of us. So he decided to give me a massage before we went to sleep for the night, and I returned the favor.” It wasn't exactly a lie—truth was mixed in there—but it still rolled way too easily off of Jongseong's tongue.
“You could say that.” Jungwon instinctively relaxed a little into Jay's touch, curled a bit into his side. “It was a very intense massage.” A corner of his mouth tilted up, just a little, in a barely-there smirk. “I really couldn't move after. Or walk. It was that good.”
“Glad to be of service,” Jay said, somehow still keeping that perfectly straight face.
Fuck, if Jungwon glanced over at Jay now, he was absolutely going to lose it. Either give the game away completely by cracking up laughing or... his leopardess's mind would surface within his own, take control over his body, and—
No.
That could not happen. Not while they were on cam. He had to get control over his cat. Now.
Because the past week, being entirely unable to control himself around Jay, this desperate need for his hyung, the bone-deep instinctive obsession to be bred and carry Jay's cubs to the point it was all his mind could think about even when they weren't having sex? It wasn't him. It had to be his heat, his leopardess, the stress of everything he'd had to deal with the past month on top of his first transformation, his first heat.
Without realizing it, his hand dropped to Jay's thigh, fingers curling and digging into the fabric of his pants. He'd turned his upper body slightly, leaning more into Jay's shoulder, drawing in his scent—and it wasn't helping.
A tremor shuddered through his whole body. Jungwon forced himself to jerk back, focus on the screen so he could read some of the comments. “'Are you guys dating?'” he read.
Silence fell, thick with tension. It crackled between them.
Jungwon took a breath, exhaled forcefully. “Technically, no.” It was so much more than that, but he was not at all ready to go into it with ENGENE. Not now. Even though they'd been ordered to get ahead of and confirm the dating rumors.
And still, they weren't dating exactly, so it wasn't really a lie.
Jay's arm on his shoulder retreated slightly, palm resting at the nape of Jungwon's neck. “No, we're not dating,” he added. “It's... complicated.” Fingertips moved in small circles, easing the tension at the top of Jungwon's spine. “Please respect that we're going to leave it at that.”
There was a flood of comments at that, took quick for Jungwon to read all at once. Leaning forward, he caught some.
Quite a few of the fans were not going to leave it at that—he could tell already. As much as Jungwon loved ENGENE... there were times their fandom scared him.
This looked like it would be one of them.
Nervous now, brimming with energy, he raked a hand through his hair and abruptly stood. “Let's do a dance jam, hyung.”
Jay sat back, looked at him for a moment—turned away from the camera so that only Jungwon could see his expression—and then hummed agreement. “Sounds good to me. Your phone for the music?”
“Yeah.” Jungwon pulled it out of his pocket, unlocked it, called up the Spotify app. He set his whole library to Shuffle and then placed the phone on the table, making sure the volume was turned up.
The first song started—“Replay” by SHINee—and although it took a moment for the choreography to come back—he'd performed this song during his trainee days—Jungwon felt himself settle into the music, the dance with Jay beside him.
Four songs later, he heard the robotic Latin chant—a modified “Dies irae” that served as the opening to “Your Idol” from the K-pop Demon Hunters soundtrack. He'd seen the movie more than once—they all had, especially after it first released on Netflix—and Jay had officially done a dance challenge for it. Jungwon glanced sideways. “Hyung?”
“Hmm?” Jay returned the side glance.
“Teach me?”
As the first verse played, Jay smiled and playfully shook his head but took him through the highlights of the choreography he'd worked out months ago, using what both of them remembered from the film's scene as a guide. By the first chorus, they were more or less in sync.
And some of the lyrics definitely hit harder now than they had months previously. The fact neither one of them could help singing along... well, it was probably the closest they'd ever get to fully covering the song.
“Your Idol” ended; another song came on, an instrumental with strings. And then...
Oh, Jungwon immediately recognized those vocals. Of course he did.
Taemin-sunbaenim.
Poison apple. Hollin chae. You wanna take a bite...
Ni-ki had done a special stage with Taemin a couple years before, but even without that, Jungwon had seen enough performances online and watched the music video so many times he'd lost count. He knew the moves for this song and felt himself falling into it, into the dark music and story told by the lyrics.
Out of his peripheral vision, he was dimly aware of Jay following his lead, performing the choreography as well. This was only a dance jam, nowhere near their amount of usual energy for stages or practice was needed, but...
It felt good having an outlet for the electricity thrumming beneath his skin. And with this particular dance, leaning into certain moves and owning it without shame, Jungwon felt—
Powerful. Sensual.
Sexy.
But sexy in a way that was different from some of their own choreo and past concepts. He didn't really know how to describe it, even to himself.
...Ne maeumgwa dareun mal eolmadeun hae. Ok for tonight. I sungando nareul deo barago itjana. Soljikae ije geuman. Pogihae neon nae ane gachin geol. ...
Well, those lyrics certainly hit harder now. Jungwon glanced over at Jay, briefly wondered if his mate thought the same thing. Because... yeah, he wanted his hyung even now. So badly that Jungwon could no longer tell if this was his heat, his leopardess influencing him or because he wanted Jay—and that? The inability to separate his human side from his animal instincts?
It terrified him.
. Wanting, needing the distraction, he threw himself back into the song for the next minute and 77 seconds.
...I can walk like this, talk like this, play like this, uh uh uh uh.
The second “Guilty” ended, Jungwon lunged for his phone, double-tapped and swiped out of the Spotify app, clicked the screen off. “That was fun, everyone. Glad you enjoyed it,” he said for their Weverse audience, “but we need to go. Sorry.” He wasn't sorry. “Good-bye.”
Jay came up behind him, reached over, ended the live. “Your heat's getting worse, isn't it?” he asked once they were completely alone.
Jungwon took a brief mental inventory, shuddered. “Yes.” He turned, grasped Jay's shirt, pulled him in close and buried his face in Jay's neck. “I'm so fucking scared, hyung. This... this isn't me.”
On some level, he was aware that every inch of his body was pressing against Jay's, hips slowly grinding and seeking contact—and he couldn't stop himself. “I'm trying, hyung, but I can't—” His voice broke, eyes squeezing shut, as another tremor wracked him. “I can't tell anymore what's me and what's her, and I'm— I'm losing my mind.” Noises he hadn't realized he could make left his throat—small, needy.
Jay's arms wrapped around him, hands settling on the small of his back. “Jungwon. Jungwonnie.” There was no judgment in his voice—and what little was left of Jungwon's sanity clung to it. “What do you need from me? From my cat?”
“Fuck me, Jay. However you want. Just... fuck me.”
Thinking of writing up a PSA / fandom etiquette post for ENGENEs that came over to Tumblr from TikTok, especially if they're underage and deliberately hanging out in the "Enha hard thoughts" / "Enha smut" tags.
Main points i've worked out thus far:
The Three Rules of Fandom (DL; DR, SALS, Kink-tomato)
the reason for the "Minors DNI" on a lot of fics/blog headers and why adult ENGENEs get pissed when we learn you lied about your age yet were directly interacting with our NSFW fics (likes, comments, reblogs) & the authors themselves
DD:DNE and triggers vs squick
lurk before immediately engaging & learn the fannish culture of a site
reblogs vs likes
this isn't TikTok; you don't have to censor words here
This is primarily coming from my decades of experience in online (and offline) fan spaces + being in fandom myself as a teenager vs an adult (and how the Internet has drastically changed from when I was a kid).
Anybody else have any thoughts on what to include?
This isn’t TikTok. I promise you, you can say “sex”, “sexual assault”, “rape”, “incest”.
We don’t censor shit here (mostly, unless it's for shipping war/fandom wank purposes and you don't want the antis to find your post)
If you’re not mature enough to spell difficult or adult topics without censoring them, then you’re not mature/old enough to be online unsupervised
If you like something (gifsets, photosets, moodboards, fanfic, meta, etc.) and want to save it so you can find it again, reblog and tag it.
Enhablr, time to do what we did sitewide with the Twitter refugees 6 years ago and start posting all the fandom cringe and filthy, filthy lemons as warning shots. (Yes, I remember when smut was referred to as lemons and the citrus scale was widely used; I am old.)
Squidward voice: “This is Tumblr. We serve trash here, sir.”
You can see the lightbulb go off over Pocketz' heads the moment they realize they only sealed one Dark Vampire and the documents said there were three.
Cue Jungwon immediately pitching a whole series and the others being down for it, lmao.
AO3 Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha Park Jongseong | Jay, Omega Yang Jungwon (ENHYPEN), Boypussy Yang Jungwon (ENHYPEN), Kinktober 2025, Possessive Sex, Mating Bites, Mildly Dubious Consent, Aged-Up Character(s), Uke Yang Jungwon (ENHYPEN), Seme Park Jongseong | Jay, Cowgirl Position, Maknae Omega Leader on Top
Summary: After a fansign, Jungwon is finally driven to the breaking point by his omega's jealousy (and his own possessive nature). He will claim Jay as his alpha, the resulting consequences and scandal be damned.
Author's Notes: Title from “Brought the Heat Back” by ENHYPEN. Obviously.
Alternate Universe: Omegaverse + vaguely set in 2030 where the guys are all aged-up (Jay’s around 28, which makes Jungwon 26). Heeseung still has his solo career, and at this point has just returned from his mandatory 2 years in the South Korean military. Still not with ENHYPEN, but they hang out together on occasion whenever their schedules permit it. (Originally, I had this as canon divergent, but I've revised it to better reflect reality.)
Subgenders:
Alpha: Heeseung, Jay, Ni-ki
Beta: Sunghoon, Sunoo
Omega: Jake, Jungwon
… Yes, the "Maknae Omega Leader on Top" tag is a pun. Jungwon is technically on top, but he's not topping if you know what I mean.
Anyway. Power Bottom Omega Yang Jungwon + Service/Passive Top Alpha Park Jongseong/Jay is one of my favorite dynamics. (It's so much fun writing Jungwon as the cat he is, ok.) Los geht's!
Read it on the AO3
Jungwon was going crazy.
Or, rather, his omega.
Fansigns were usually something he and the other members loved, being able to spend time with ENGENE face-to-face.
But not tonight.
Tonight, if he saw one more fan—male or female; alpha, beta, or omega—crowding around his Jay-hyung, his alpha...
His inner omega snapped its fangs, growled with the need to get everyone away from Jay and claim his alpha. He'd always had a jealous streak, a possessive one, and it was even worse where Park Jongseong was concerned.
One fan reached out—an omega—her fingers stretching toward Jay, and Jungwon moved. He was there before the bodyguards could even react, uncaring what ENGENE or the other ENHYPEN members thought, fingers not quite closing around the woman's wrist and his eyes glaring a warning. Such a dark brown they were nearly black, narrowed to slits. Without even thinking, driven by his omega's need to protect and possess his alpha (and his own jealousy), Jungwon threw out his own scent and closed his free hand around Jay's.
Mine. For tonight, both he and his omega were in agreement on this: nobody touched Jay-hyung.
The female omega—young twenties, maybe, around Jungwon's own age—clearly got the message. She stepped back, eyes wide, and hastily stammered out an apology.
Jungwon accepted it with a sharp smile that didn't reach his eyes. Once she was gone—and the line had thinned out, due to the calling out of the final few minutes before the fansign wrapped up—he finally allowed himself to look back at Jay, who was staring at him calmly with both eyebrows raised.
“What was that about, Jungwon-ah?” he asked mildly.
Jungwon exhaled, puffing out his cheeks and blowing his hair out of his eyes in annoyance. “You know what,” he muttered. “You're mine, Jay-hyung.”
Well, there was the technicality that they hadn't officially claimed and bonded with each other. Hadn't marked each other as mates, bitten deep into the other's glands. Part of that was due to the strict contractual purity they were under as idols—always having to seem available and open to dating for their fans—and Jungwon himself several years earlier had to dispel false dating rumors that he was dating an idol from a girl group.
The other part was the scandal that would result if it became known that ENHYPEN's omega leader had gotten himself mated to one of his older alpha members. True, Jay was the oldest, but there was only a two-year age difference between him and Jungwon. Out of the others, Sunoo and Sunghoon were betas, Ni-ki and former member Heeseung were alphas, and Jake was an omega.
But Jungwon's omega had long since decided on Jay as its alpha and would not accept anyone else. Not even during his heat, which he usually rode out alone.
Right now? Jungwon could not care less about his idol image or the resulting scandal. Driven by his own possessive nature and his omega's intolerance tonight for anyone outside of their group or staff around their alpha...
Well. He could wait five minutes until the fansign was over and they could all go back home, anyway.
Again, Jay raised his eyebrows skeptically—in that way he did only where Jungwon was concerned—but his voice was carefully neutral: “Am I?”
“Yes.” Jungwon settled himself in Jay's lap, not caring that he was giving their staff mini heart attacks, and nuzzled in close, deliberately brushing his lips over the shell of Jay's ear as he whispered fiercely: “Alpha.”
Jungwon felt more than saw the tremor that raced through Jay's body; heard the older man's breath catch. “Jungwon-ah...” His voice had gone deep, huskier than normal. “We can't.”
“Not here, you mean.” Jungwon smirked; kept his voice low and soft—for Jay's ears alone. The crowd, the other members, their bodyguards... it all faded away. “But I will have you tonight, hyung.”
Then, as if nothing had happened, he slid off Jay's lap and returned to his former seat—knowing full well that Jay's eyes were on him. Lingering. For the next few minutes, Jungwon focused on the final few fans who wanted to meet with him and his members.
All the while, his omega preened and purred its satisfaction.
Later tonight, they would finally claim their alpha for their own.
The fansign had been in Seoul, luckily, but even so the ride back in the van was torture—if not for Jungwon, then for the other members.
Their leader had managed to grab a seat next to Jay, by the window. Ni-ki, Jake, Sunghoon, and Sunoo all tried very hard to ignore the way Jungwon was deliberately releasing his scent—agitated, needy, possessive omega—and up against Jay as close as the seats and seatbelts would allow: rubbing his hand along Jay's inner thigh, nuzzling into the crook of Jay's neck, turning his body toward the alpha.
The unspoken message was clear: Stay away. He's mine.
Which wouldn't have been anything new for those two—they were constantly seeking each other out and being clingy in some form or another, even when they were all together as a group, on-camera or not—except for one thing. A few things, actually.
One: They'd all seen Jungwon's earlier behavior at the fansign with the female omega, the way he'd moved to intercept her interacting with Jay and stared her down. Not to mention how he'd been all over Jay the second she backed away.
Two: Jay and Jungwon weren't a bonded pair—none of them were—yet it was clear since their days during the survival show where they'd been formed, back before Jungwon had even presented, that there was a deep connection between them. One different from the bond they each shared with the other members.
Three: It was clear that tonight, Jungwon's omega was driving him to finally claim Jongseong as his alpha and mate—hang the consequences for their image if management or the media found out. Or what would happen if—after a shared heat and/or rut—they could no longer hide their relationship.
Four: For whatever reason, so many people tonight around Jay that weren't ENHYPEN or staff had triggered both Jungwon's innate jealousy and his omega's instincts.
The other four members exchanged glances, came to a silent agreement: Once back at the dorms, they would leave Jungwon and Jay to their own devices. Preferably in a soundproofed room—Jay's, maybe, since he practiced guitar in there. They could all drown out the noise by camping out in the living room with a horror movie or something with Heeseung, whom they'd arranged to meet up with now that he was back from his mandatory military service (and has his own soloist activities).
Until then? Shared suffering.
Finally, they arrived back at their dorm. Jungwon was dimly aware of the others greeting Heeseung and settling themselves in the living room, selecting Gonjiam: Haunted Asylum to watch.
Perfect. They all knew Jay hated horror movies.
And he had a feeling it was the other members' way of giving him and Jay much-needed privacy.
Jungwon stuck close to Jay, followed his hyung into his room, closed and locked the door behind them.
Jay turned at the sound of the latch clicking into place but didn't move from where he stood by his bed. “Jungwon-ah?”
“It's cute when you act all innocent, Jay-hyung.” He stalked forward on silent feet, footsteps muffled by his socks. Jungwon wrapped his arms around Jay's neck and subtly released his pheromones, hoping to entice Jay's alpha to make an appearance. He nuzzled the join where neck met shoulder opposite from Jay's scent gland. “Seeing all those fans around you tonight... it made me crazy. Drove my omega mad. Nobody else should be that close to you—only us, Jjong-hyung.”
Jungwon rose up on his toes, tugged lightly on Jay's earlobe with his teeth. “We need to claim you, alpha. Bite you, mark you, mate you so that everyone who looks at you knows who you belong to. That you're taken.”
Jay shuddered, stilled, breath hitching. “Jungwon-ah. Wonnie...”
Jungwon drew back, smirked, walked Jay backwards until he was forced to sit down on the bed. The omega settled himself between Jay's legs, ran his finger down Jay's chest and abs over his shirt, finally stopping at the waistline of Jay's pants. Feline eyes darkened, looked up as he leaned forward, hovering over the already impressive bulge there. “You know you want this, Jay-hyung. For what it's worth... your alpha is the only one my omega will accept. It's always been you. Only you.” He'd known it even before he presented as an omega at age eighteen.
Dipping his head, Jungwon mouthed at the front of Jay's trousers, traced the growing bulge with his tongue. A low gasp, a deep groan escaped from Jay's throat; his fingers flew to Jungwon's hair, tightened.
Jungwon purred and drew back, fingers undoing the zipper and clasp before reaching in and freeing his alpha. He licked his lips, met Jay's gaze. “I need to taste you, Jongseong-hyung. Please.”
To taste him... and so much more. He needed to drown Jay in his scent, sink his canines into Jay's gland, have Jay's cock fill him up and his knot lock his alpha in place.
His tongue flicked out, little kitten licks along the broad head. He smirked as Jay's hips involuntarily inched forward, as his cock twitched and swelled further.
The smirk vanished, became a frown at Jay's voice: “Jungwon... wait. What's brought this on? Your heat?”
No, it wasn't his heat. He wasn't due for another two weeks. This was Jungwon snapping, unable to take any more, needing to claim what was his. His obsession with his Jay-hyung fully making itself known.
Fingers curled in the hem of Jay's shirt, tore it up off his head in one movement, tossed it aside. Jungwon stood, discarded his own clothes in short movements, and settled in Jay's lap. “Don't you want me, hyung?” His hands lay loosely on Jay's shoulders; he leaned in, lips nuzzling beneath Jay's ear. “I've seen it, the way you look at me. How fucking jealous you get when Jake-hyung or Sunghoon-hyung gives me attention. Don't lie and say you don't, because we all know it's not true.”
“Wonnie, I—”
Jungwon sank down, grinding his soaking cunt along Jay's thick erection—but still not letting him slip inside. Dark satisfaction curled through him at the very obvious reaction. “Yeah, you do, Jay-hyung.” He smiled against Jay's skin—predatory. “Deny it all you want, but your alpha wants my omega.”
“No, Jungwon, I... Not—”
Nails dug into Jay's shoulders. Jungwon's teeth grazed, tugged Jay's earlobe and then let go. “'Not like this'? Is that what you were going to say? Then how? When I'm in heat and begging for you to fuck me?”
“No!”
“I'm claiming you tonight, hyung. You know it, deep down: we're already mates.” Jungwon lifted his hips, lined his entrance up with the broad head of Jay's cock, slowly sank down.
Jay's answer was lost on a choked cry as Jungwon's canines sank deep into his scent gland, mating gland. His hips thrust up, sheathing himself to the hilt—and Jungwon's omega purred as their bond flared to life.
Mine. My alpha.
“Jungwon...”
Jungwon rasped his tongue over the bite, licking away the drops of blood, and groaned at both the coppery taste and the sensation of being so full. “Jay-hyung... such a good alpha...” He shoved Jay's upper body back until he was flat on the bed, palms still on his shoulders, and moved his hips. Started to ride his hyung with languid, sinuous movements. “Feel so good, so big...”
Shock flared in Jay's dark brown eyes, mixed with something else. Lust. Desire. Something darker. Red gleamed there as his alpha fought for control. His hands found Jungwon's waist; nails dug into his skin, and Jungwon grinned down at his bandmate. His soulmate. “That's it, Jongseong. Give in. Make me yours.”
“Jungwon...” There was a pleading note in Jay's voice now, and lust jolted through Jungwon's veins like magma. Jay squeezed his eyes shut, groaned wordlessly. “Fuck. I was going to court you, take things slow. I've wanted you for so long...”
“And now you have me. Forever.” Jungwon refused to feel guilty about what he'd done as he grabbed Jay's right hand, guided it to span across his lower abdomen. He shivered at the touch, the mental image his omega helpfully provided. “So be a good alpha and fucking breed me, yeah?”
Jay's eyes snapped open, glowed scarlet. “Wonnie. My omega...”
Yes. Yours. As you are mine. For a split second, Jungwon wasn't sure if he wanted to lean forward—covering his alpha in his scent—or ride him harder.
Jay solved that issue by flexing his muscles and easily sitting up. Jungwon immediately wrapped his legs, locked his ankles around Jay's hips and grabbed the back of Jay's head. Guided his hyung's mouth toward his own gland.
“Jay-hyung... alpha... please...” It wasn't a request so much as a demand.
And Jungwon knew that Jay was never able to deny him anything.
This was no different.
Jay’s fangs sank deep, returning and solidifying the mating bond. Jungwon gasped, tilted his head back.
It still wasn’t enough. Jungwon was insatiable, greedy for more.
For everything.
He wanted Jay to fuck him. To brand him. Wanted Jay's knot. His seed. To spend their heats and ruts together.
Wanted Jay's hands and mouth all over him. Claiming him, just as Jungwon wanted everyone to know that Jay was undeniably his.
Screw the consequences.
Jongseong had always belonged to him.
The low sound that left Jungwon's throat now was somewhere between a growl and groan of pure need. “Jjong-hyung—”
Jay's tongue eased over the fresh bite mark, licking it free of Jungwon's blood. Jungwon gripped his fingers tighter in Jay's hair, slowly slid his other hand down his hyung's neck and along his spine. Bent his head forward, pressed nibbling greedy kisses along Jay's sharp jawline.
“Gonna make you mine.” Jungwon snarled it, breath coming faster. Jagged. He rocked his hips, eager to fuck himself on Jay's cock. “Show everyone that you belong to me, hyung.” Nails raked Jay's lower back hard enough—sharp enough—to draw blood and scar. This close, he couldn't resist releasing his pheromones and drowning Jay in his scent. “They can't have you.”
“Jungwon...”
He loved the way Jay said his name like this: heady, desperate. But Jungwon wasn't finished. “Gonna take your knot. Your seed. Spend my heats, your ruts with you.”
Jay shuddered, buried his face in Jungwon’s shoulder. The omega smirked, rolled his hips—and then stilled with Jay buried deep inside him.
“You want it, don’t you?” There was a taunting edge to Jungwon’s voice now. He didn’t let up. “Want to knock me up, Jongseong-hyung?”
“Y-yes.” Jay’s voice caught, but already Jungwon’s omega was preening in satisfaction. He purred, nuzzled his alpha.
“Good. Because I want it, too, hyung.” Eventually. During his next heat was a definite possibility—but that was probably the jealousy and his omega talking.
Still… right now, Jungwon did not care about the scandal that would result after the others (the company, ENGENEs) found out they were mates, if he successfully got with Jay’s cubs. Didn’t care about his idol image. They were off-camera (for the moment), and the other members were taking care to leave them alone.
And that was definitely his omega instincts taking control over his mind, his reasoning.
Jay groaned wordlessly from deep in his chest. “You’re killing me, Won-ah. So greedy. Possessive. Fuck, you’re perfect.” He was trembling in Jungwon’s arms, the words ghosting against the omega’s skin. “Need to…. Need to…”
And then it was if something snapped inside Jongseong. His grip on Jungwon tightened; his scent spiked. When he spoke now, with a growling undertone that always set fire to Jungwon’s blood, the subvocalization was all alpha: “Need to knot you. Mate you. Breed you.” He shifted, rolled his hips—and thrust up hard. Set a brutal pace that had Jungwon jolting from the suddenness of it—and had Jungwon’s inner omega practically swooning and howling its pleasure.
He loved it, the fact that he could make Jay lose control like this. Didn’t care that with his choice of contraception, there was a high chance this wouldn’t take. That he would have to wait until his heat to fully have everything his alpha could give him.
Jungwon keened, whined, giving himself fully over to his omega’s instincts. “Hyung … Jongseong… alpha…” He shuddered, heat pooling low in his belly, and felt slick gather on his thighs with each thrust. His own scent permeated the room: possessive, newly mated, fully aroused omega—one on the verge of entering into heat. Jungwon inhaled Jay’s scent deep into his lungs. “Please. Please.”
Knot me. Fill me. Put your cubs in me. Only yours.
Jungwon wasn’t even aware that he was babbling aloud until Jay growled low in his ear, rocked up once more, and—
Thick, hot. It flooded him, emptied into him, even as the knot at the base of Jay’s cock swelled and locked him into place.
Even though he wasn’t a werewolf, wasn’t a true shapeshifter—indeed, those with the ability to shift into animal shape had all but died out long ago—Jungwon still felt an absurd urge to howl in a mixture of triumph and sheer pleasure as his own release rocked him. He screamed wordlessly instead as a second orgasm followed immediately after the first.
Drowsy, drifting in the haze that resulted from being so thoroughly claimed, Jungwon wasn't even aware for several minutes that Jay had fallen back on the bed—and he was still straddling the alpha, still had Jay's knot locking them together until he lifted his head. Shifted his weight—and felt it catch.
“Jay?” he asked, and took a moment to wet his lips with his tongue, caught off guard at how raspy his voice sounded.
“Hmm?”
“How long is it going to take for your knot to... uh... you know.”
Jongseong winced, a faint blush stealing over his face. “I, uh, don't know. This is my first time.”
“Oh. Great.” Acutely embarrassed for no real reason, Jungwon buried his face in Jay's shoulder—right over where his teeth had sunk in and claimed the alpha as his mate.
Two floors down, Jake waited until the ending credits were playing to pause the movie and glance at the others. “We all agree to never bring this up, right?”
“You mean the fact we could hear Jungwon-ah screaming all the way down here?” Sunoo asked dryly. “Why would we want to bring that up?”
“Or the fact he was was all over Jay-hyung at the end of our fansign and in the van?” Ni-ki deadpanned.
“Exactly,” Sunghoon nodded firmly. Decisively.
Four heads turned toward Heeseung, who slowly lifted his face from where it had been buried in his palms. “You mean the fact they're now probably a mated pair? No, why would we ever mention that?”
In Leopard Hide by darkmoonjay [Wereleopard!Jaywon AU, Part 6]
Rating: Explicit | Pairing: Jaywon
Summary: Late at night, high on leftover energy from his transformation and the effects of his first heat cycle, Jungwon impulsively starts an audio-only live with his Jay-hyung—without permission.
It goes much further than anyone intended.
CW: Somnophilia / Sexsomnia, under-negotiated kink. Jay's leopard is very much aware of what's going on with Jungwon the instant it happens, but Jay's human half is still mostly asleep. (At first.) Jungwon may or may not have a hyung kink where Jay is concerned (shhh). And a praise kink.
{ Chapter 1 }
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Chapter 2
Jungwon dragged himself out of bed at six AM due to the urgent needs of his bladder. Still half-asleep, he didn't even bother to pull on any clothes and padded on silent feet to the bathroom. It was only when he was finished and heading back that he realized a) he was much more comfortable with his own nudity now than he had been previously; and b) even since before his first transformation, he moved differently now.
Quieter. Stealthy. With the inherent, predatory grace that belonged to his leopardess.
Jay tended to move the same way. Jungwon had subconsciously picked up on it all those years ago, and something in him had been drawn to his hyung ever since their first meeting, back when Jay had given him money for a taxi fare.
Had they always been destined to be together like this?
Whisking his hair out of his eyes, hoping to clear his thoughts, Jungwon slipped back into his room—only now thankful none of the other members were awake—and crawled back under the covers with Jongseong.
Tired as he was, early as it was, he couldn't fall back asleep. Turning to face his hyung, snuggling in under Jay's arm didn't help. Nor did basking in the warmth from Jay's body, breathing in his scent.
Jungwon's leopardess unfurled within him, stretching luxuriously. Arousal burned, a sucker punch to the gut, his skin suddenly sensitive and slick gathering between his thighs.
Oh gods. After last night (earlier that morning?) Jungwon didn't think he'd be up for anything else, but apparently his body had other ideas. His instincts were screaming at him to flirt, to rub his pheromones all over his mate, to be filled.
Anything to ease the fire suddenly blazing through his body.
But Jongseong was still asleep, everyone knew how hard it was to wake him up, and they'd never talked about—
As if his leopardess were in control of his body, Jungwon found himself nuzzling Jay's throat, his chest. His hand drifted down Jay's toned abdomen, into the loose shorts he'd slept in, eased his cock free.
“Hyung,” Jungwon whispered, mouth dry as cotton. Jongseong didn't stir, didn't even try to open his eyes. Jungwon's hand wrapped around the base, stroked. He tried to keep his touch as light as possible, not wanting to wake Jay, but his mate's erection hardening and growing to full mast just from this had Jungwon's leopardess going insane.
She needed her mate inside her.
Jungwon needed Jay inside him. Now. He was so oversensitive, so aroused that he physically ached.
Trying not to think too much about what was happening—how he didn't feel at all in control of his own body—Jungwon shoved the covers down and swung his legs over Jay's lap, straddling him, one hand on Jongseong's cock as he carefully lined himself up and slowly pushed the broad tip past his folds. An inch, no more.
Even though his instincts were screaming at him to push down, to have his mate sheathed within him all in one thrust, what was left of Jungwon that clung to sanity didn't dare. Oh so carefully, he sank down inch by inch, pausing to make sure that Jay didn't wake up (though how even Jongseong could sleep through this, Jungwon had no idea—surely his leopard would have sensed Jungwon's distress by now?) and that his own body adjusted. He hadn't done any preparation, was still sore from the night before, and as wet as he was there was still a bite of pain. Jay was bigger than he was, after all, and—
A hiss of air rattled out from Jungwon's lungs as finally Jongseong bottomed out, fully sheathed in his cunt. His palms rested on Jay's chest, thighs quivering. He'd never ridden Jay before, never had him like this, and as much as he loved Jongseong taking him from behind...
Jungwon didn't think he'd ever felt so full before.
His gaze shifted from where it had been locked on where their bodies joined together to where his hands laid on Jay's chest... and then higher still to Jay's face. The way his brow furrowed in sleep, his sharp jawline like that of the gods, black hair messier than usual.
A tremor shivered down Jungwon's spine. Gods, like this... “Can you feel it, hyung?” he whispered, the words slipping out of him. “How hot I am for you? How perfectly you fill me?” He lifted himself up, eased back down—and a jagged breath escaped him. “You've ruined me, hyung. I was born to take your cock. To be your mate.”
Again he rose up, oh so slowly started to ride his mate, wanting to feel every inch of Jongseong deep within him. “Feel so fucking good, hyung,” Jungwon breathed, “so deep inside me. So thick, so big. I can feel you against my womb, and I—”
His eyes closed for a second; when they opened again he looked down, brushed a hand against his stomach. “I know how badly you want it, Jjong-hyung. I want to have your cubs, too, but... we can't.” As possessive as Jungwon was, as much as he wanted everyone to know that he was Jay's and Jongseong belonged to him (the impromptu live at one o'clock in the morning was proof enough of that), the haze brought on by his heat cycle and leopardess's needs taking him over aside, he had no idea how they would navigate the scandal that would result if Jongseong did eventually get him pregnant. Jungwon still didn't know how long wereleopard pregnancies usually lasted, and add in the fact his leopard was female—which was incredibly rare—he had no idea when he would start showing. How they would be able to hide it. Human pregnancies lasted about nine months, but true female Amur leopard pregnancies only lasted for two.
Maybe it mattered which form he was in? Hopefully not. There wouldn't be any way to explain him being gone from ENHYPEN's schedule for months, in leopard form or not, and there were his duties as leader to consider. Or how he and Jongseong would suddenly explain being parents.
Besides, if there was one thing he'd learned over the past several weeks, it was that wereleopards in general had to keep their existence a secret from humans. Thankfully, their manager-nim was leopard as well with his own mate (something Jungwon and Jay had learned shortly after returning from Seattle and dealing with the serial killings), but surely even Yuki wouldn't be able to run interference with the company for that long.
“What would everyone say, hyung?” Jungwon hadn't even been aware that he'd partially shifted until his tail curled over his thigh. “Seeing me round with your cubs, knowing that you fucked your precious little dongsaeng? Got your lifeline pregnant? That ENHYPEN's leader-nim is nothing more than a greedy, selfish slut for your cock?” Thighs burning, he quickened his pace just a little. Groaned softly. “Look, Jay-hyung. Look what you've turned me into. I'm taking you so well. Being such a good mate.” His tail-tip twitched as his hand on his stomach again moved to its previous position on Jay's chest. “Aren't I, hyung?”
Jay's breath hitched; he shifted a little in sleep, but his eyes still didn't open. Jungwon didn't know if he should feel relieved about that or not. He wanted Jay to wake up, to be the center of his hyung's attention, to have Jay be an active participant, but... just how far could he take this?
The scent of his own arousal was so strong that Jungwon didn't know how Jay (or his mate's leopard) couldn't smell it, sense it. Even in sleep, Jay had to be aware of this on some level, right?
“Jay-hyung?” he whispered, voice questioning. “Please... tell me it's good for you. That I'm being so good. Pleasuring you. How much you need to fill me up...”
Anything, any small sign that Jay was listening, he would take it right now—even if Jungwon couldn't stop himself from using his mate for his own desires.
“You're fucking me so good, hyung.” Jungwon's fingertips curled in, nails lightly digging into Jay's tan skin. “So perfect. I'm all yours, only yours. Made for you, Jay-hyung, your precious mate... Oh, gods...”
Was it his imagination, or did Jay's hips move beneath him, thrusting up into Jungwon? No, there it was again.
Eyes snapping to Jongseong's face, Jungwon noticed with a distant mixture of relief and horror that Jay's eyes were open—and burning gold. The leopard had surfaced first, not the human.
Jungwon barely had time to think oh shit before Jay's hands were on his hips, fingers gripping hard enough to bruise. Red flushing up his neck, the tips of his ears, he tried to lift himself off completely—but the older wereleopard easily held him in place.
“What's the matter, Won-ah?” Jay's voice was deeper than usual, thick with sleep and something else (something dark)—and the sound of it sent another bolt of arousal zinging through Jungwon, his body reacting with a gush of slick around Jay's cock. “Too shy now to finish what you started?”
“N-no, hyung.” But Jungwon slowed his pace, wanting this to last now that Jay was awake (well, in a sense) and an active participant. He swallowed as he met Jongseong's golden eyes, his tail twitching.
Jay lazily reached for it, let Jungwon's tail slide through his fingers. “So greedy you had to fuck yourself on hyung's cock, huh?”
“I... it's not...” Jungwon flushed a deeper red. “Couldn't sleep. And then my heat... my cat... Couldn't stop myself.” Anything to ease the fire. “Forgive me, Jongseong.”
Jay actually smirked, a hint of sharp canines peeking through. “Poor, needy kitty. So desperate.” A pleased growl rumbled in his chest. “You're sure I'm not dreaming, Wonnie?”
Lost as he was to his heat, his leopardess, the feeling of Jay hard and fat and throbbing within him, Jungwon still felt his brain short circuit. “What?”
Jay's smirk widened, lazily so. “Must be. Cos I've definitely had this dream before.”
Jongseong had actually dreamed about Jungwon waking him up like this? More than once? Okay, his heat-addled brain really couldn't comprehend that right now.
Suddenly desperate to prove that this was real, that Jay wasn't dreaming—sleeping, whatever—Jungwon frantically shook his head and slammed down hard, his stammered protests trailing off into a moan at the feeling of his mate fully sheathing himself to the hilt in one go. He leaned forward, nuzzling Jay's chest, alternating between tiny licks with his tongue and open-mouthed kisses up to his collarbone and throat. “You're not dreaming, hyung.” He groaned at the sudden change in angle, shuddered as a new wave of desire crashed over him. “Need to come with you. Please. Tell me... tell me...”
“Tell you what, Jungwon-ah?”
“That I'm being so good for you.” Jungwon's words slurred as Jay thrust up into him again, his mate's hips easily complimenting his own rhythm. He wasn't even aware anymore of what he was saying, drunk as he was on his heat and the drag of his mate's monster cock (or, that's what it seemed to him, anyway, not that he really wanted to compare Jay to anyone else) so very deep within him. “That this is so good for hyung.” He trembled, buried his face in Jay's shoulder. “Please...”
“Jungwon-ah.” Jay's fingers were in his hair then, stroking gently—and then grasping tightly, lifting his head so Jungwon was looking right at him. Golden eyes had softened, darkened to brown—Jongseong's eyes, not those of his leopard. “You're perfect, love. My precious, beautiful mate. My lifeline. My leader-nim.” The grip on the back of his head loosened, fingers carding through soft black hair. “You're taking me so well, so perfect, the way only you can, Wonnie.”
Jungwon melted into his touch, his praise. The orgasm rippled through him—not in firestorm, but a surprisingly gentle wave. “Hyung.”
What he felt now... it couldn't just be due to his heat, his leopardess's need to be bred. The way Jay was touching him, talking to him, holding him... he wanted to bask in it, didn't want hard and rough. Didn't want this to be a wild, primal mating.
Jay smiled—no sharp canines in sight—and said something in a language Jungwon didn't recognize. It wasn't Korean, wasn't English or Japanese. It wasn't Thai either—Jungwon had picked up a bit from watching dramas and the few times they'd had schedules in Thailand.
“What was that?”
“A ghrá,” Jay repeated. “'My love.' It's Irish.”
Okay, so he wasn't surprised that Jay knew a term of endearment in another language—Jongseong liked learning other languages, after all. He'd tried learning French for approximately two days before giving up (something the members loved teasing him about whenever it was brought up), but he'd taught himself Japanese solely by watching anime, and they all tried to learn a few basic words whenever they traveled to other countries.
So it was not a major surprise if Jay had picked up a little bit of Irish for “just in case” when they were in London, England, on tour last year. Because Irish-speaking ENGENEs (possibly) who had traveled to England in order to see them. Not that Jungwon knew the statistics on native Irish speakers, and that wasn't really the point here anyway.
Because right now? He really, really needed to kiss Jay, no matter how awkward it might be with their current position.
So he did, pouring all the love and gratitude he felt for his mate into the touch of mouth on mouth. “I love you,” he whispered against Jay's skin when he finally broke the kiss and slowly pushed himself back up into a sitting position. “I love you, I love you, I love you. So much. So very much, Jongseong.”
It was that which seemed to be Jay's undoing. He groaned, fingers again digging into Jungwon's hipbones, pulled Jungwon flush against him, and spilled deep.
Feeling Jay's release—warm and thick, filling him up—was all it took to send Jungwon over the edge. Again.
Gasping, panting, coming down from his high, he collapsed over his hyung. Nuzzled into the crook of Jongseong's neck. “Maybe we should take today off,” he said, half-hopefully, knowing it wouldn't really happen. “Just stay in bed. You can have me however you want. I'm in heat. Manager-nim will understand.”
Jay hummed. “I think you're cock-drunk, Won-ah.”
“Absolutely.”
“Mmm. What time is it?”
Jungwon reached for his phone on the nightstand, checked the time. “Quarter to seven.”
“I'm going back to sleep.”
Jungwon scoffed. “Or you could help make sure everyone else is awake.”
Jay's eyes narrowed. “Your tail is still out, by the way. Now get off.”
Jungwon pretended to think about it for two seconds. “No.”
Jay snarled, but there wasn't any real aggression behind it. “Have you checked Weverse yet?”
“Huh?” It took a moment for the question, the implication behind it, to register. Then Jungwon blushed. “Um. No. Pretty much the first thing I did this morning was, uh... you.”
“You might want to check some of the comments, figure out how much trouble we're in. Tell me about it later.”
Jungwon took his advice and opened Weverse, scrolled through the comments to both his post and beneath the two audio-only lives they'd somehow posted the night before. He didn't bother demorphing his tail, not yet—he liked the way it curled, the soft fur, how he could use it as another way to express his emotions.
My thoughts on the "About EVAN" documentary, fandom double standards/hypocrisy, & why I don't hang out in EVER online spaces
I'm just making this all into one post to better organize my thoughts and do some blog housekeeping a bit. Everything is under the read more, so feel free to scroll. Or read this, I don't care.
On the "About EVAN" documentary
Was I expecting EVAN to mention ENHYPEN at all during his solo debut documentary? No. Legally speaking, he cannot mention them right now anyway.
Does it still rub me the wrong way when he talks about how hard it was for him the past few months? Yes.
Overall, my feelings toward the debut documentary are very mixed.
Am I happy for him being able to pursue his dream of making his own music? Yes, and I wish him well.
However…
Evan, @ the 16:10 mark: “There was a lot of naysaying, right? There were misunderstandings, people saying things, and I got disillusioned by all of that. A lot of really sad things happened in that stretch. So wouldn’t this ]"Ride or Die”] be a good song to fold all of that into?
“Some people criticize me, some people call me out, and some people still hold me with love. But I’m simply so grateful for all of this process. That’s honestly all I felt. Even just being looked at like that, even that is something I’m so grateful for. Every single moment of it. Forever.”
I’m not denying he had his share of criticism and hate from Korean ENGENEs and the more extreme stuff (alleged gore photos, AI deepfakes) is obviously despicable and not in any way being condoned. Legally, I get that he cannot mention his former group right now. And a documentary focusing on his solo debut probably isn’t the best place to address this, but.
My heart honestly goes out far more to ENHYPEN than it does Evan. I’m sure leaving the group that helped launch his career in order to strike out on his own was terrifying, but he still has a great team within Be:Lift to work with (as shown in the documentary), this made it clear that it was his decision, and now he has to prove why it was a good decision for his music career to leave the group. Meanwhile, the six members he left behind have had to deal with a chaotic fandom, nonstop harassment/hate/death threats, boycotts, and hours of overtime in reworking all the line distributions for their discography and relearning the choreo for six-member formations.
(Friendly reminder that they had to do all this in less than a week of his departure, because almost immediately after they had schedules in Australia. )
Heeseung’s been working on preparing for his solo album and debut over the past four months, okay, cool, fine. ENHA have had, in comparison:
Australia showcase
shooting Eat, Sleep, En Dive in Australia
The Blood Diary podcast
Vampire vs Human (En O'Clock spin-off)
brand renewal discussions, showcase, etc.
ENCHIN design and launch
blood donations for charity (though only Jaywon were able to donate)
their work as Prada ambassadors
The Sin: Bliss comeback preparations (including recording the album)
Blood Saga world tour
filming for Knight of Blood Moon (En O’ Clock spin-off)
All that while dealing with nonstop harassment from OT7s/akgaes to the point Jaywon both repeatedly had to speak up about it and it’s only gotten worse for them since then.
Evan is on Weverse often interacting with his fans. If Jungwon and Jay can speak up and address the harassment they’re receiving from OT7s in his name because OT7s constantly make it about the one guy who left, then surely Evan can say something about it, too, because those are his fans harassing his former members and giving non-akgae EVERs a bad name.
So far? He hasn’t.
And that is what bothers me: that Evan for the most part can enjoy reinventing himself as a soloist while ENHYPEN has to clean up the mess he left behind, and he’s acting like it’s not his problem.
Granted, some OT7 Entubers (the OT7 thing mostly seems to have died down here on Tumblr, but it's still going strong over on YouTube) have fully watched the documentary and said they owe ENHYPEN an apology, since this was what it took for them to finally realize a) it was Heeseung's decision to go solo; b) he was not forced out like OT7s were claiming; and c) EVAN all but admitted during the documentary with his comment that he hasn't felt this happy and excited about performing music since his trainee days that he wasn't happy in ENHYPEN.
Yeah, damn straight they owe ENHA a major apology after the bullshit OT7s have put them through for the past almost 5 months.
Which leads me to my next point
Fandom Double Standards & Hypocrisy
Ich verliere den Verstand, weil was man meint, dass Evan/Heeseung so brav und demütig für lauter sprechen ist, doch diese gleiche Personen hassen Jaywon über das genaue Ding tun?
Yeah, obviously Evan is having fun playing around with the “rookie soloist” thing and legally he cannot mention ENHYPEN right now (just as they cannot outright mention him).
But the double standards and fandom hypocrisy here is driving me up a wall.
Cos what do you mean Evan/Heeseung gets to downplay (if not outright erase) his 5 ½ years in ENHYPEN so he can start over as a soloist, and his fandom praises and defends him for it… but those exact same people are crucifying ENHYPEN for “erasing” Evan and moving forward as a 6-member group to the point of sending Jay and Jungwon death threats for bluntly addressing this on Weverse live and on tour?
Make it make sense.
Like… yeah, I agree with all the screenshots pointing out the hypocrisy and double standards in play here, sorry not sorry.
Heeseung was one of the older trainees on I-LAND and had the longest training period of the ENHYPEN members. That combined with the media training he received while in ENHYPEN? He knows exactly what he's doing presenting himself solely as a rookie soloist while not addressing the utter turmoil that his former group has been forced to deal with in his wake.
Why the fuck does Evan get a pass, but ENHYPEN are being crucified and Jaywon sent death threats?
What do y’all mean the people defending Evan from criticism like their lives depends on it (“the guy just can’t catch a break”, “poor Bambi, he doesn’t deserve all the hate”, “he literally just debuted as a soloist, let him breathe”) aren’t extending that same courtesy to ENHYPEN for all the bullshit they’ve had to deal with for a decision that wasn’t theirs to make + daring to make it clear they’re moving forward as six? Especially since ENHYPEN had to immediately rearrange all their choreography, line distributions, adjust the group dynamic, and keep up with their scheduled activities and Blood Saga tour.
Why I don't hang out in EVER online spaces
The main reason I’m not hanging out in EVER online fandom spaces aside from the fact Heeseung/Evan was never my ENHYPEN bias?
The instant overhyping and automatic defending are incredibly annoying to me & an automatic turn-off.
Yes, Heeseung has insanely talented vocals and he was the main center, nobody is denying that.
But claiming “Ride or Die” is one of the best debut stages and he was the best dancer in ENHYPEN? Come on.
As a Shawol, I’ve seen way better solo debut stages and “Ride or Die” is… eh, meh. I’m not a fan of the excessive autotune and the lyrics didn’t really grab me. The choreography also doesn’t do Evan any favors.
Objectively speaking, Heeseung was not the best dancer in ENHYPEN. He easily ranked fourth or fifth (depending on who you ask). Ni-ki is easily the best and main dancer in ENHYPEN, closely followed by Jungwon (2nd) and Jay (3rd). Fourth is arguably Sunghoon, given his background in professional figure skating (but that depends on one’s ranking scale).
He’s still a good dancer, obviously, but he wasn’t The Best Dancer among his former group, and he’s not considered the best dancer among the entire K-pop 4th generation either nor within the overall K-pop industry.
The Best Dancer within the whole of the K-pop industry? I’m (not) sorry, but that title has to go to SHINee’s Lee Taemin, with Ni-ki being the 4th-gen Dance Prodigy.
Furthermore:
I know there’s contracts and NDAs and all that, and Heeseung has confirmed more than once it was his choice to leave so he could have a solo career, but.
It really, really rubs me the wrong way that Heeseung—by and large—gets more fan support and basically gets to enjoy relaunching himself as a soloist while ENHYPEN have had to deal with OT7s’ wrath, nonstop hate and death threats and spam/misinformation, disruptions to their performances, and boycotts over the past four months and basically picking up the pieces when they shouldn’t have to do so. While continuing with their Blood Saga tour and preparing for their comeback, no less.
Again, I don’t really hang out in EVER spaces online and I’m not on Instagram, TikTok, Twitter/X, Weverse, Bluesky, Chinese ENGENE spaces etc. If Heeseung has been getting hate and spam to the same extent as ENHYPEN over the past several months, I’m not aware of it. I’m mostly on Tumblr and YouTube, very occasionally Reddit.
I get that EVAN has addressed it was his decision more than once to leave, but that’s not enough at this point since certain OT7s still won’t listen and ENHYPEN are still being harassed despite Jungwon and Jay repeatedly setting clear and firm boundaries.
Meiner Meinung nach, it should be on Evan to speak up further and outright address this. Not Jungwon, not Jay, not ENHYPEN, him—it is his name that is repeatedly being attached to these OT7s’ words and actions & he was the one that left in the first place.
At the very least, say something instead of leaving it all to his former group like he isn’t the excuse for these entitled as fuck brats cyberbullying ENHYPEN right now.
How he would do that when he legally cannot mention ENHYPEN at the moment, IDK, but he should be able to address the fandom’s behavior the same way Jungwon and Jay have. Evan is just as active on Weverse with his fandom as the ENHYPEN members are with ENGENE.
Jaywon had the balls to directly address the toxic behavior from OT7s/Heeseung's akgaes (more than once, mind you) and make it clear in the process that they are speaking for the whole of ENHYPEN + nobody in the company was forcing them to do so.
The fact that thus far, Evan/Heeseung has remained silent about the whole situation in comparison bothers me. A lot.
Anyway. Me watching Jay's CENTURIES real estate ad for The Sin: Bliss promos: I just know Jungwon was going crazy over the "hair down + bangs + suit" look Jay had going here.
Okay, admittedly, if you step back from it far enough now that ENHYPEN have successfully had the OT6 fanchant through the Mexican and (so far) USA leg of Blood Saga?
Brazillian and Peruvian "ENGENE" doing their OT7 fanchant protest accomplished the exact opposite of what they wanted.
It only succeeded in pissing ENHYPEN off to the point Jungwon had to bluntly state "ENHYPEN is six" on live, make it clear he was speaking as ENHYPEN's leader on behalf of all six members, and that anyone who continues to start fights by saying "ENHYPEN is 7" are not considered ENGENE.
He also stated that the OT7 fanchant disrupts their performances (so basically, don't do it)
Absolutely nothing changed regarding the fact Heeseung was not physically onstage with the members.
EVAN's solo debut documentary dropped, revealing a) yes, it was his choice to leave; and b) Evan outright saying he hasn't felt this excited and happy since his trainee days all but confirms he wasn't happy in ENHYPEN
Jay made it crystal clear that he and the others stand with Jungwon when they say they are six members.
It's obvious that the members have made a conscious effort to become even closer as a team.
It is lowkey ironically hilarious. In a "taking joy in others' misfortune" kind of way.
I mean, not so funny is the fact these OT7s who still cannot handle the reality check are actively hating Jaywon for speaking the truth and organizing to sabotage both ENHYPEN's comeback and Evan's debut. At which point... leave. Touch grass. Get help.
